That's okay, because it's a short biography of the life of Xin Ming, one of the two characters I'll be playing in this semester's experimental play, "I'm Waiting for You in Paradise.
We have never lived through the war and the fireworks
But those who have revolutionized their lives for the motherland and the people will always be stored
This is the main idea of the blog
I hope it will strike a chord in your heart
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Childhood.
My last name is Xin, I am 22 years old, my ancestry is in Hangzhou, the water town of Jiangnan, which is known as the paradise on earth, but due to my mother's and father's work, our family moved to Beijing, and I was born here as the youngest son of the family．
It is probably because of this that I have the handsome and graceful appearance of a boy from the south of the Yangtze River and a gentle character, but also filled with the boldness and warmth of the Beijing people.
When I was born, everyone thought I was a girl, and my mother told me that it was because I was so white, and my two round eyes were like big ripe grapes.
When I was a child, I was pampered and cared for as a girl by my friends and siblings, but I knew from my childhood that although I was a boy now, I would be a handsome man in the future, and that I would be the pride of my family!
The germ of a dream.
I have an older brother and an older sister, but they are in accordance with the father and mother's intention to plan and work hard to have been arranged in the future, I for my parents to my older brother and sister's abetment and planning has long been commonplace and do not feel surprised, although I do not understand, but I understand that my life, you need to choose their own and planning.
Later, my brother succeeded my father and became an honored university teacher, and my father was proud of him.
Sister also followed in her mother's footsteps, became a female outstanding outstanding geologist, her mother was pleased and happy.
Perhaps the older siblings were also willing to do it, because they have good jobs, do not have to worry about the future, and are in the capital, the whole family and serve the motherland, in the eyes of many people, our family is the envy of the full of the standard family.
This is the first time that I have seen the family of the family, and I am very proud of them.
Gradually, I have grown up and graduated from the university, specializing in medicine.
This was also the hope of my father and mother, but I did not study medicine only for my father and mother, because I know that my grandfather died in the war era, he may not have to die, it may be the lack of good medical technology and doctors, he fell on the battlefield.
This is the first time that I have ever studied medicine.
Choosing is parting.
When I was a child, I used to point to the only picture of my grandfather in the frame on the wall and ask my mother, "Mom, what was my grandfather like?"
Mother replied: "Your grandfather, is an excellent **** production party members, but also a glorious old Red Army, his life is all dedicated to the motherland and the people, and finally, he finally fell on the battlefield, at that time, mother is still unaware, only 4 years old, your grandmother is a person pulling me and your aunts and uncles grew up. "
Every time I say this, my mother is always teary-eyed, but at the same time, I can always y feel the greatness of my grandfather with whom I have never met, but also from that time on, my grandfather has become my life forever idol.
I was determined to be like my grandfather, my youth, my light and heat, dedication to my great motherland and dear people, so I went along with my parents' intention to learn medicine, but I volunteered to do a save lives, never let every soldier easily sacrifice the military doctor, not the parents thought of the surgeon attending.
Finally, at the age of 19, I graduated from the Peking University School of Medicine, and at the same time that my parents took me one by one to meet the leaders of the major hospitals, I quietly enrolled in the military doctor's recruitment. When Tiantan Hospital's letter of appointment arrived at my home at the same time, my father also received a phone call from the army, I was recruited by the Chengdu Military Region as a military doctor with the army.
That night I returned home, my father and mother, my brother and sister-in-law, my sister and brother-in-law were all there, my father was sitting down and looked at me, his face was ugly.
Afterwards everything, as you think, father said nothing to agree to me to go to the army thing, brother and sister, too, because they do not want me to go to that kind of place, they think, to go, may be back to like grandpa will be very difficult to come back. I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to do, but I'm sure I'm going to be able to do it," he said.
I always insisted on my own opinion, my father and I argued and yelled, but to no avail, my determination to go to the army was as solid as a rock.
The night before I was to leave, I was packing up my things, and my mother approached me with a bowl of dumplings: "My son, send off dumplings to catch the wind noodle, you eat the dumplings, to protect the safety of...
The night before I was to leave, I was packing up my things, and my mother approached me with a bowl of dumplings.
I ate my mother's dumplings, and it was very hard for me, because I knew that everything was uncertain.
Mother caressed my forehead: "son ah, your father's character you know, he really is for your own good, he is afraid of you like your grandfather..."
Mother said, "I'm not sure if I can do it, but I'm afraid that I'll be able to...".
I said, "Mom, you do not say, I know, I will not be angry with Dad, you take care of Dad, when I go you tell him, I will not let him down."
The next day, my mother and brother and sister to see off the train, on the moment the train started, I saw my father standing in the distance, I waved to him forcefully, and shouted to my father, "Dad! Wait for me to come back!"
Dad hesitated for a moment, then raised his hand, old tears, dad is old．
I never would have imagined that this would be my goodbye to my parents and my brother and sister...
This is the first time I've seen my parents and my brother and sister.
It's me and Tibet.
The train seemed to drive a long, long time to Sichuan, when I stepped off the train, the weather has begun to heat up, I found myself really vulnerable, because the light of this kind of weather I have not experienced has made me a little bit unable to withstand.
At first, I was out of place in the army, every day to get up before dawn, and only cold water can bathe, in Sichuan eat very spicy, the weather and the heat can not stand, I admit, once I even regret their own choices, and one day, I found the old head of the hope that I can transfer me closer to home in the Shenyang Military Region or the Beijing Military Region, the old head said: "I'm not sure if I can do it, but I'm not sure if I can do it, I'm not sure if I can do it. The old chief said: "At first I looked at you, I think you such a handsome boy, it is impossible to do a soldier, see, I was right in the end, compared to your grandfather, you are far worse, you want to go, tomorrow can be rolled out!
I was surprised to learn that the old chief knew about my grandfather, but it turned out that the old chief was once a soldier under my grandfather's hand, and my parents knew that I was in the Chengdu military region, so they asked for help, hoping that I could be taken care of, and they found the old chief.
The old chief continued: "Your grandfather, a real soldier, a real man! He was the one who lived honorably and died great! He, it was to protect me! Only then did he die on the battlefield! In order to continue your grandfather's will to protect the country and protect the people, I have always told myself that I can never give up on any warrior, and I can never abandon any piece of the country's land!"
In retrospect, these words gave me more than just motivation and strength; what they gave me, was a determination as sincere to my country as gold, and as strong as a rock to my enemies!
Since then, I have come to understand more about what it takes to be a man, and that is to be persistent, strong and tough. I silently bear all the pain all the tired, only hope to really do not let my father disappointed, do not let himself against the original dream, but also for the people in the hot water, may be so put myself a little great, but I do hope that their own can be for the motherland's prosperity and strength to do their part.
The third year of the Spring Festival, when the soldiers of the whole army ate New Year's Eve dinner together, the old chief called me to go to his office to answer the phone, the end of the phone, is a long time mother, mother's voice is almost so old that I can not recognize, she choked with intermittent, almost a year and a half to finish those words: "son ah, your brother in the field in a car accident, no, your father! When he heard the news, he immediately collapsed and was devastated, if you have the chance, can you come back to see your dad, he misses you."
In this way, I was left with my only son at home. However, in those days, there was no way for the only son to come back to see his father, who had lost his son and was bedridden.
After the year, the whole regiment had an emergency assembly, the head of the regiment issued a mobilization order from the bottom of his heart, mobilizing a group of warriors to form a Tibetan army to march to Lhasa.
The soldiers raised their hands enthusiastically, and soon, almost all of them came forward, of course, I was the first, and logically became an honorable doctor in the Tibetan army.
Before departing, the leaders put a big red flower, a symbol of honor, on the chest of each soldier, and the old head of the regiment corrected my hat: "You are good! Don't let your grandpa down!"
In this way, we marched all the way from Sichuan to Tibet.
Tibet, turned out to be such a beautiful and fresh but barren place. Here there are full of smiles, simple Tibetan compatriots, I have never experienced a spotless air, there are a team of honest and simple yaks, as if within reach, the hazy beauty of the clouds, there are pure and holy dust-free snow lotus.
We all thought at first that this was an untouched fairy realm, but slowly, as we got closer and closer, the air got thinner and thinner, and we all felt uncomfortable, and so did I. Many of the warriors collapsed because of the lack of acclimatization.
The whole troop persisted in moving forward in a sickly condition.
Xuemei.
One day, the whole troop was suddenly enlivened by a long-forgotten but lark-like song.
At first, I didn't follow the sound of the song to find the originator, then Captain Su asked me to go to the physical examination for some new soldiers, so I met her for the first time --- Xuemei.
She was, in my mind, an outgoing and cheerful, very opinionated but lovely girl. Her thin and weak body made me pity her, her handsome and spirited face made me want to look at her more, her yellow warbler-like singing voice mesmerized all the soldiers, and her graceful dancing made the snow lotus flower seem to be shy. Of course, I never mentioned these words to anyone, including Comrade Bai Xuemei herself.
The first time I saw her, she was singing and dancing with a few women warriors on a hill not far from me, a sight I will never forget until the moment I leave this world.
Afterward, I checked whether the girls, fresh from the military university, were physically fit to enter Tibet. One by one, all qualified, but only Bai Xuemei, I look at a clear, her weight at least 5 kg 8 kg difference. The girls all covered her shelter, I am not sure what I was thinking at that time, is it want to know this girl, or want to pity this girl, turn a blind eye to let her pass the physical examination, when she bowed and thanked, my face, as if and her face together red.
Comrade Bai Xuemei, from now on, will be on the road with all our soldiers in Tibet, because of each other's presence, we seem to feel that this team of troops who risked their lives, full of hope and motivation.
Comrade Bai and I often coincidentally bump into each other, whether it is after a meal, during a break, or in the gap before going to bed.
I was 22 years old, at an age when others thought I could have a family, and Comrade Bai Xuemei was 18.
Because of the system of the army and people's words, I have been hiding a secret, that is, my love for Xuemei, I am fond of Xuemei, I believe that she knows, at the same time, she harbors the same fondness for me, I decided silently in my heart, and so on, until Lhasa, the liberation of Tibet, I will stay in Xuemei together back to Beijing.
Suddenly, the advance detachment transferred me to other troops, before I left, I was worried with apprehension mixed with the mood of the account to see Xuemei. The first time I saw her was when she was washing clothes, and she didn't know anything about it, but she was still na?ve enough to sing to me, and I said to her that I had been transferred, and that I would wait for her in Lhasa, and that I had decided in my heart to wait until the day of the victory to set up a life with her.
The road into Tibet is getting more and more difficult, whether it is snowstorms or natural climate reasons, many of our soldiers have sacrificed one after another. Through a variety of ways to know, including in order to protect the Tibet supplies and fell into the mountains of Liu Yurong, and in order to protect Xuemei and buried in the sea of snow Feng, and so on and so forth ... I am very worried about Xuemei, very afraid of such a skinny girl in the end will not be able to resist the harsh environment and life.
With the worry for her, with the expectation of seeing her in detail, I tried hard to hold on to my daily life, to see the warriors, to save every precarious life.
Later, a chance encounter with Xuemei and Chief of Staff Ou, I was alone for almost a night, thinking back to everything with Xuemei, and over and over again muttering to myself the words I had once said to Xuemei.
I know, in the army, this thing is basically settled, not that I give up, but I hope Xuemei will not have more trouble because of me, if Xuemei can be happier, why not fulfill it? If you like Xuemei, let Xuemei be happy. I am like this, over and over again to comfort themselves, but in the end what kind of feeling in the heart, I myself know very well.
Finally, one day, I saw Xuemei again, she seems to have matured, as if she did not see me as before, she could not close the box, until I endured the pain in the heart and said that: "Blessings to you and Ou chief of staff."
And Xuemei is the same as through the introduction of the organization, I met my wife, a woman who is also very kind and beautiful. And, in the end, we had children of our own.
End.
With regrets for Xuemei, regrets for not having seen my son, regrets for my father, regrets for my mother, regrets for the liberation of Tibet, and regrets for wishing to watch the motherland grow strong.
Leaving.
Till here, there are still a lot of things that have not been told. There are those from my childhood, those from my family, those from Xuemei, and those from my wife. But I feel that many things, in fact, do not need to be mentioned, because it has long been y imprinted in my heart, everlastingly lingering.
Father and mother, I am sorry for you, I even told you to wait for me to come back, turned out to be a lie, which is not what I would like, but it is not what I wanted, but I know that you will not because of this and do not want to me as a son, because I really became your pride.
Xuemei, I am also sorry for you, we have not been able to be together to the end, it is my responsibility, I did not earlier than the Chief of Staff Ou to fight for you, knowing that you are happy now is just fine, I am very relieved.
I, like my grandfather, forever buried in that blood-stained land, but I believe that what makes me as proud as my grandfather is that we dedicate to our motherland is not enough to rich and strong life and body, but the motherland will be because of us, and proud and proud and more colorful and beautiful.
This life has no regrets, this life has no shame.