Phoenix said so, but unfortunately it didn't happen.
One.
Phoenix's real name is not Phoenix. This title was given to her when I first met her. I met her when I went to a restaurant as a temporary worker in my freshman year. Among all the waiters, Phoenix is like a "Phoenix". She always stands up straight with a proud face, as if she had a phoenix feather in her head and was born a nobleman.
It's a pity that this noble didn't like reading since he was a child.
I said, "Do you know the Phoenix? You are like a phoenix. "
She froze for a while, and then ha ha ha for a long time. "Ha, ha, ha, are all the girls in your university as boring as you? Ha ha ha, but-"she cocked her head and lost in thought. "What is a phoenix?"
I can't explain clearly. Write it down on paper for her. Her eyes lit up and she patted her thigh. "Hello, Phoenix."
I wonder if it is a blind worship of intellectuals. She especially likes the word "Phoenix" and insists on using it as her new name.
But her voice is "crazy".
"The emperor ..." My weak correction.
She looked "I see". "I know, I know, isn't it the one that was always used to describe the queen in ancient times?"
I thought about it, but there was nothing wrong ... I nodded.
She went on to say, "Look, the meaning is good and the homophonic is good. It's crazy! How suitable for me. Ha ha ha ... "
"Yellow ..." I don't want to continue to correct.
She ignored me. "Hey, college student, what's your major?"
"foreign languages." I answered absently. Her pronunciation is still struggling.
Her eyes lit up again. "awesome."
Then she looked serious and pondered for a while, as if making an extremely difficult decision. "Well, sister, you will teach me a foreign language as a reward in the future, and I will protect you here."
Phoenix said, a face of sincere patted me on the shoulder. Yo, it hurts.
I didn't expect a girl to be so strong. Nodded, and then vowed in my heart never to mention her pronunciation again. No matter whether she is right or wrong, what a beautiful person does is right.
Two.
Speaking of long beauty, Phoenix definitely deserves it. The devil's figure, long legs and big breasts, slaps his face, and his eyes keep shining, as if there were stars in his eyes. Little tiger tooth wants to laugh with her every time she smiles. There are many boys chasing the phoenix, one after another. They can line up for two blocks, but unfortunately they all died in the battlefield. Phoenix doesn't like any of them. I asked Phoenix, what do you like? She thought for a moment, you have to have eight abdominal muscles and one hand can lift me, otherwise what can you do to protect me? I looked at the way she rolled her eyes and imagined, and I couldn't help thinking of Xia Zixian waiting for the hero of the world. I asked, it's that simple? Like a fitness instructor? She was silent for a while and said, hehe, get out.
Phoenix went out to work before graduating from junior high school. In recent years, she has traveled all over the country, and she is full of experience in "mixing rivers and lakes". She is naturally warm, cheerful and beautiful, so she is very lovable, but what remains unchanged is her straightforward temper, and she can't bear any injustice.
Phoenix said, "Of course, it is a blessing to suffer. You can bear it. But why? I thought about it, too. Everyone in this world has a different way of life. Some people submit to humiliation, others can't. No one is good or bad, and you don't have to force yourself to learn from anyone. What kind of life you want and what kind of price you pay! I'd be happy to. "
So, seven days a week, she quarreled with people five days a week. Never lose. "Hey, uncle, is it definitely not enough for you to be my three-year-old child?"
"Aunt, every time you break the bowl, I'm to blame. So many people look at this kitchen. Is it interesting to bully me? "
"Who his mama scold you bitch? Look what's wrong with you. I'm glad you're sick. I'm not interested in others! What's wrong with mental illness? Refuse to fight? "
The last one is the psycho I met in the supermarket. I have been scolding tomatoes because I took one look at him and then scolded me. Phoenix pulled me behind him and scolded people without hesitation.
I didn't really teach Phoenix English, but she really took my place for a year.
During the summer vacation, Phoenix quit her job and went to my house to play with me. I live in a small city. Three days ago, I took her to all the places to play. On the fourth night, I took her for a walk in a primary school near the community. I talk a lot when I meet my old classmates. In the blink of an eye, the phoenix disappeared. When it was found again, it was already at the scene of the accident. There are usually many people on a small playground, including an aunt who dances in square dance, an old man who plays Tai Chi, and a pupil who plays football. At the first sign, everyone gathered around. I struggled to push through the crowd and saw Phoenix standing in the innermost part, clutching his head with one hand and the little boy's collar with the other, and said emotionally, "If you don't apologize, you don't apologize ..."
My head was deprived of oxygen and I almost passed out. The "battle" lasted for half an hour and almost alarmed the police. But there was no doubt about the result, and Phoenix won.
But Phoenix is unhappy, because his forehead is swollen like a pig's head, and because he feels that the education of that child is not enough. I advised her while giving her medicine: "Your head is swollen like this, and you still have the heart to educate others?"
"I'm swollen like this, swollen like this blame who ah, isn't it strange rabbit, you see, kick the ball to people, and turned to run? Do not admit it? Is this a child? This is a hooligan, damn it? Do you see it? Default! Don't admit it! Who are they? What kind of good children can such a mother educate? After that, she will kill and set fire, and then leave. I did it for their own good, and I wanted him to remember it for a long time. How important education is. I grew up at the age of three, and you are still a college student. You got it? ! "
The more Phoenix talks, the angrier it gets. "Besides, if you were just smashed, you would just wave your hand and forget it." Phoenix learn to look like me, "believe it or not? Xiao Qiao, do you believe it? "
"Do you believe it or not?" This is the mantra of Phoenix.
"The man who chased me met more than you grew up. Do you believe it? "
"I have had such a big fight, and there are many people chasing me. Do you believe it? "
"If you just got smashed, you will only give a hand, and then leave with a pig head, believe it or not? Do you believe it or not? "
I believe me, Phoenix. I believe everything you say. Just because I didn't teach you English, you covered for me for more than a year. I believe everything you say.
"But if you quarrel with her like that, what will happen?"
Phoenix was silent this time. Half a day, she finally sighed, "I just want to remind her that education, education, education is really fucking important." If someone had taken care of me when I was a child, I wouldn't be like this now. No quality. "
Phoenix often says this about herself, but I didn't know until that day that Phoenix's parents divorced when she was very young, and later they all formed a new family. Phoenix has been growing up with her grandparents, and nobody cares about her. She is like a weed, growing wildly and living like I don't know if it's right. In her favorite adjective, it is crazy.
Live a crazy life.
I thought Phoenix would go on like this.
Until she was hit by a ball again, only this time the ball that hit her was called love.
Three.
The man who hit her is called Gao Ming. Department of Literature and History, height1.85m, clean, handsome and white. Phoenix still came to my school to find me that day. She got lost as soon as she entered the school gate. When she arrived at the basketball court, she was stunned by the clever basketball player. When Phoenix called me, her voice was calm. "Hey, Joe, I was hit by a ball in the infirmary. Come here. " It's like saying, "I eat steamed buns at the snack bar at the door."
When I heard the words "hit by a ball", I almost fainted again. I was afraid that she would fight with someone, so I ran panting. As soon as I entered the door, I saw a big bag on my forehead. Phoenix was chatting with people on the bed in the infirmary! And a little shy. Shy! God, I think my phoenix was really smashed.
After that day, Phoenix began to freak out. She began to giggle, began to be in a daze, and began to read a book with a thick book of mountains and seas. I began to come to my school often. At first, I was asked to give advice on her makeup. I stopped wearing thick false eyelashes and started buying light-colored clothes ... After a month, she said, "Xiao Qiao, do you remember the boy who hit me with the ball last time?"
"Remember."
"His name is Gaoming."
I nodded, "I know. Very smart. "
"He is very clever."
"Oh."
"I will definitely take him down, do you believe it?"
"I believe, but-"
"Huh?"
"Don't you like the strong one that can lift you with one hand?"
Phoenix thought for a moment and tried to organize the language. "I don't know, Joe. There are many things in this world that you can't say for sure, just like you used to say that you don't like swearing friends, but you and I are still very good. "
That makes sense. Phoenix's dirty words always make me feel good. I nodded. "You go to Phoenix, I support you."
I know there is nothing that Phoenix can't do. The next day, she appeared in front of me holding a clever hand and invited me to eat hot pot. Phoenix in love is the stupidest phoenix I have ever seen. They ate a piece of instant-boiled mutton for half an hour.
I burped and looked at two people facing the sky. My brain made up a story about Mary Su's campus.
The fact is that Phoenix is more idiot than the hostess. The place where Phoenix works is far from here, but she can come here every time she has a rest and buy a lot of delicious food for Gaoming. The fruit she bought must be peeled, the chestnuts she bought must be peeled, and the crayfish she bought should also be peeled. What? You asked me where I could buy it. Hehe, the boss is not stupid. Of course, he can't peel it. Phoenix peeled it herself.
Phoenix is really a silly girl.
I asked, Phoenix, what do you like best about Gaoming?
Phoenix giggled and showed her little tiger teeth. She always does. When you laugh, you want to laugh with her.
"Why do you think I should be good friends with you?"
"hmm? What does it have to do with me? "
"Because as soon as I saw you, I felt that you were different from others, and I thought, such an educated girl must be very gentle, and there is no reason to want to be close to you. I feel the same way when I see Gao Ming. I want to swear when I get hit. Uncle, I fainted before you could say anything. I saw a man coming, very nervous, and picked me up while calling me. I felt that this man's arms were so warm ... "
"But it was summer ..." I questioned the memory of Phoenix.
"Yes, yes, I feel so warm. As soon as I opened my eyes and saw him, I felt that he was different from the people I had met before. If I can have a baby with him, I will be like him ... "She closed her eyes and smiled happily. I think it's because I saw a bright face.
Phoenix in love is the stupidest phoenix I have ever seen, but it is also the brightest phoenix I have ever seen.
It's a pity that such a beautiful day didn't last long. In their third month together, Phoenix plunged into my dormitory and looked down and out. "We had a fight."
"Because of what? ! "I was a little surprised, and my mind began to search for the reasons why various couples quarreled.
"There is no reason."
Phoenix arched into my bed and began to sleep. "Ignore his uncle."
I just found out that I haven't heard Phoenix swear for a long time, and I haven't seen her quarrel with others for a long time.
Phoenix stayed in my dormitory for a week, not going to work or going out. On the fourth morning, she suddenly sat up in bed and looked scared. "Joe."
"What's the matter?"
"I dreamed that she was with your department last night, and then I cried all night in my dream."
"Our department has a boyfriend ..."
"shouldn't the point be that I cried all night?"
"……"
"No, I want to find him. Lev tolstoy once said that the person you dream of will go to bed when you wake up. "
Phoenix talks so wonderfully that I almost spit out a mouthful of water. "When did Tolstoy say that?"
"That's what the Internet says."
"I haven't heard of it online."
Phoenix began to freshen up and put on the little white dress that Gao Ming gave her, which she had been reluctant to wear. I haven't reacted yet. "Wait a minute, say it again. What are you going to do? "
"Go, sleep and die, him." Phoenix is very determined.
I paused. I don't know if I should stop her from thinking for a long time. I finally asked weakly, "Have you thought about it?"
At this time, the phoenix has been dressed up and put down the long hair that is always rolled up high on weekdays. This little white dress makes her look noble. She didn't answer me, but smiled at me, revealing her little tiger teeth and sparkling eyes. She put on high heels, walked firmly and had a beautiful back, like a phoenix.
Four.
The person you dream of should sleep with him when you wake up.
Phoenix said so, but unfortunately it didn't happen.
When I arrived at Phoenix's house, she only opened the door for me in her underwear. Suddenly I was a little excited and asked, "What's the situation?"
"He's gone. Fuck. " Phoenix deadpan said.
"That you ..."
"Didn't sleep. Mama of, I think impassability, "phoenix sat on the bed staring blankly. "There are so many people who want to sleep with me. Why did he ... "Phoenix suddenly looked at me mysteriously. "You said, is he ... no?"
I smiled unkindly. Phoenix also smiles, hahaha, hahaha, hahaha, hahaha, hahaha, hahaha. Ho ho.
Wait, the sound is wrong. I looked down and saw the phoenix crying. I saw the phoenix cry for the first time.
"We broke up."
"I broke up a week ago, not quarreling."
"He mentioned. He said that we are not people who want to spend their lives with each other. "
"He said he didn't want to go with me. But knowing the story with no ending, he was afraid that I would pay too much and get hurt in the end. I see. "
"He said he was sorry for me."
"But, Joe, I really don't understand what you smart people are saying. It doesn't matter how much I pay ... I'm really, really happy. "
"Joe, you say, love really can't be replaced by equivalence?"
Of course not. Even if you are a cherry with 20 yuan a catty, he only loves two red apples a catty, and a rectangle will never be saturated with a round vacancy. Love is probably like this.
"Break up, break up, why did he break up ... don't sleep, I'll go ..." Phoenix looked up at me and dressed up.
I felt a little distressed and patted her on the shoulder. "That is more, the person you love, he, is not the same as others. The person you dreamed of, when you wake up, forget him. "
"I finally met such a person, and I can only go here. I will be unwilling in my life ... "
"Don't be silly, at least ... you are together. The world is so big that it is not easy for two people to fall in love. " I suddenly feel sick.
Phoenix cried with a wow again. "I didn't. I don't just want to fall in love, I also want to marry her, have children, have white hair and a full house of children and grandchildren. I want him to put a ring on me personally. I want to cook for him every day. I want to hear him tell me historical stories. How can it be? Right here ... "
It was the first and only time that I saw Phoenix cry, like a child whose sugar was taken away, so wronged.
Watch her cry. I cry, too. I was so tired from crying that I didn't know when I fell asleep.
When I woke up the next day, Phoenix had prepared breakfast for me. She is still radiant as if nothing had happened last night. She didn't mention the word "brilliant" again, as if this person had never appeared in her life.
She hugged me after breakfast. Said she decided to work abroad.
We haven't seen each other for three years since then. Phoenix is getting busy. Seeing her circle of friends, she began to learn more English. I didn't teach her, but she finally learned, and occasionally we contacted each other, but it didn't improve this person. I wonder if Phoenix has put it down. In short, she still lives alone as always.
At the end of the year, I went to the city where Phoenix worked for business reasons. During the work break, I went to the hotel where Phoenix worked to see her. She is already the lobby manager of a five-star hotel and is very busy every day. When I went, she was seeing off a foreigner with blond hair and blue eyes, and she took out her walkie-talkie and kept giving instructions. She is as firm as ever. Wearing only a black uniform, she no longer swears at will. The makeup is also much more refined.
At dinner, I said, "You are more like a phoenix now." She laughed ha ha ha. Just like the first time I said she was like a phoenix.
She said, I learned later that the word "Phoenix" was pronounced, and I always thought it was "crazy".
I am speechless. I've been shouting for so many years, and you haven't noticed. Her eyes shy away. "I thought there was something wrong with your accent."
Me, "okay, okay, you're beautiful. It's up to you."
Phoenix smiled and her eyes became very gentle.
Phoenix said, but I didn't understand the definition of this name again until I knew about it.
Phoenix said, after so many years of rampage, I finally understand that some people won't tell you directly if they don't love. I thought for a long time, not that we are not suitable, but that Gao Ming doesn't love me.
Phoenix said, but he is really a good man. He still maintained my self-esteem. I couldn't sleep with him that night, and he said because I deserved better. I don't know what is better than him. So in the later days, I couldn't help living like him. Want to live like him.
Phoenix says it will be reborn from the fire.
Phoenix said that from the day I knew about it, I seemed to suddenly understand. I thought everything I did was to make me remember him better. But in the process, I slowly became myself.
Phoenix said, I have stopped thinking about Gao Ming, but I don't regret loving him so much. Because I met him, I got who I am today.
From that day on, I felt really reborn.
I nodded.
There are many people in this world every day, who meet and leave. I'm not sure Gao Ming is as good as Phoenix said. But I know, because I met him, Phoenix can become so good. Because of his departure, Phoenix really became a Phoenix.
Love can't be exchanged equally, but when you give up yourself to fall in love with someone, you also get everything that the other person has taught you.
The person you dream of should sleep with him when you wake up. If not, forget about him.