Grateful to meet the best self

With a good expectation and a feeling of gratitude, we met again on the green grass to start our last sand tray exploration trip.

This period is still led by Ms. Chen, at the beginning, she guided us to do a warm-up game - throw the ball, first two pairs of throws, and then staggered pairs of throws, and finally surrounded by a circle around the throws, heard the play ball, the partners can be very happy, all hands dance, eager to try. But the real operation, not so easy. A little inattention, can not catch the ball, the degree of tacit understanding is not enough, also can not catch the ball, but the fun of childhood is back, happy happy feeling is also back, a long time, play smoothly, but also to find a sense of achievement, the more you play the more happy, is playing a strong Xing, Mr. Chen shouted to stop, and one person rewarded with a lollipop, so the sweet lollipop while sharing the game just now the epiphany of the moment, the little friends are immersed in the game. At this moment, the little friends were immersed in the beautiful childhood, recalling the carefree life when they were young. The best thing about the game is that it's not just for the kids, it's for the kids!

? Then Mr. Chen explained to us the classification, scope of application and therapeutic function of the sand tray, sand tray game is especially suitable for those young children whose language ability is not fully developed or who have language impairment, through the sand tray game can expand the children's thinking, stimulate the children's creativity and imagination! In fact, sand tray game is suitable for all people. After the first three periods of experience, touching sand, picking sand tools, posing sand tools, constructing small stories, integrating big stories, I y feel its magic charm, those silent sand models, skillfully presenting my unconscious thoughts, nicely digging out my subconscious and awakening my heart. Sand tray game, really is from the heart, with the hand, the shape of the sand, through your hands to present your heart in front of your eyes ......

Today is the last sand tray game in the salon class, I seem to be extraordinarily cautious, walked into the sand tray room, looked at those wonderful realistic sand, my heart is very pleasant and easy, as if the burden on the shoulders of a moment to ease. My heart was very happy and relaxed when I walked into the sandbox room and looked at the beautiful and realistic sand tools, as if the burden on my shoulders had been lightened. When the meditation music played, I gradually entered the beautiful picture: when I was old, holding my grandchildren, the old man leisurely lying in a rocking chair reading a book, the family is happy, enjoying the joy of family! Thinking about it, the picture is back to reality, the eldest son is facing academic pressure, sad face, the youngest son's learning, a little slack, not as hard as before, mom and dad are old, often frail and sick, the body is wasting away....... In short, the troubles, one after another jumped into the eyes, filled with the heart. Although I try to run forward, but the bottom of my heart is always swept over the sorrow, worry disturbed my heart, I silently ask myself in my heart, "When will I be able to cultivate to home?" As the music ended, my sadness was suspended, and I couldn't wait to take the sand tools, picking and choosing, and after careful consideration, I took "lotus flowers, an old man reading a book, and a woman holding a small child", which was really the image I had just meditated on, and it was so beautiful! I savored it myself! I named my work "Attachment". The lotus flower represents beauty, purity, simplicity, purity, introspection, and emits fragrance and light. The old man represents wisdom and strength. The woman holding the child represents myself, and I can't help but tear up when I think of myself nursing my two sons and laboring in the morning and in the evening. I am thankful to have met myself, stumbling along the way, with pain and joy. In the end, there is a lot of guilt in nurturing the eldest son, always feel that I did not do a good job as a parent, and at one time, the child's lack of success was blamed on myself, so my upper limbs and shoulders always feel heavy, with the deepening of the study, and I have done the practice of forgiveness, and I understand the truth of living a good life in order to help others, but there is always a feeling of being unable to do anything, which will rise from the bottom of the heart and slowly spread all over the body, once confused. The feeling of confusion and loss swept over me again. ...... I remember when my eldest son was in high school, and my child's studies were slipping badly, and I was very anxious, but fortunately I would learn to adjust my mindset, and I happened to meet a group of square dancers who loved square dancing, so I went out and joined them, and the sadness disappeared as I danced. When I walked across the bridge that I thought I couldn't cross, I was actually relieved. It turns out I hadn't been doing a good job of being myself, if unhappy thoughts are deep in your brain you will be unhappy, if you want to be happy then think happy thoughts. There is no one else out there, the root of everything is in ourselves, so why do we need to look outward. When I think about it now, what I want to be most thankful for is myself, thankful for so many years of hard work, thankful for my own efforts to improve, when I see my own deep "not good enough", I learned to accompany my inner "little girl" slowly grow up, she needs to listen and love, I allow her to have sorrows, and I allow her to be happy. She needs to be listened to and loved. I allow her to grieve, I allow her to cry, and I have enough patience to wait, as long as I believe in the "Power of Belief"! One day, she will break the cocoon into a butterfly.

? After a short two-hour sandbox game, my deep-seated beliefs were reversed. If you want to meet your best self, you have to learn to grow and be grateful, learn to reflect and practice, and polish yourself despite a rough life. On the occasion of June 1 Children's Day, I would like to give myself a sentence: I wish I had experienced the upheaval, experienced the blossom, and returned to the youth! It is still the same young man who is good at the beginning!