After the summer vacation, I saw Guo Caiwei again. He didn't seem any different, just strutting past me with his arm around his new girlfriend. And I didn't have the heartbreaking feeling that I had imagined. That girl is a foreign language department, is a local of Spring River, I heard that the family is not bad, to buy clothes for Guo Ai Ai to buy good food, backed up a lot of money. They are together is a few miles wala said spring river language, the girl does not look like how, the voice is very good, like a lark, staccato. I can understand some of them, but some do not understand. Not only because of the Spring River slang, but also because of the love? Sweet words, probably not difficult for outsiders like me to understand.
My original place has changed owners, that is Lin Kebin. He doesn't come often, only about twice a week, and there are days when I don't know his whereabouts. He won't let me call him on his cell phone, and I do as I'm told. I sometimes feel like Lin Kebin is like the emperor and I'm just his consort. That's why I could only be assigned twice a week, and I didn't dare to easily disobey his orders, argue with him or anything. In the end, I realized that I was the one who was less willing to go and say anything more to him. With Lin Kebin, I was just used to listening to him and doing what he wanted. For example, he saw the Pacific Department Store on Huaihai Road, "Lady's House" brand of a skirt is very good, he gave me money to let me go buy the next day, I went to buy back to their own did not feel how, but he shook his head and felt really like a fairy down to earth, but also took me to the hotel to dine that night, to participate in the hotel organized by his friend's party. In fact, I do not like that kind of messy atmosphere, psychedelic lights have no attraction to me, and even I feel that the body of the beautiful dress is not mine, just a kind of decoration. I told him not to take me there anymore, I just wanted to go to bed early. And guess what he said? He said, I bought you clothes to show to the outside, do not let you sleep in this bed?
I didn't say anything, but I felt a humble humiliation. I feel that I and him, there will always be a huge uncrossable gulf. He is from Spring River, and I am a foreigner, his family is rich and powerful, and I am penniless. Even the place where I live is given by him, where do I have the right to resist? But the strange thing is that he said I was the only woman. His friends also told me that he does have only one girlfriend like me. There are still a few days when he's not at my place, he's just talking to his buddies. Men, when they play, they drink and smoke and stay in hotels. His buddy also told me, don't look at Lin Kebin's age, his heart can be bigger than anyone else. His ideal is to become China's Bill Gates. He wants to be a man of wealth and talent who is the envy and respect of the world. That's why he started to work on accumulating money now. He's going to try to earn his first bucket of gold. "He's speculating in stocks you know?" One night at the bar in Xintiandi, his good friend Hao Peng told me very seriously. And on that night, we went back to our **** same rented room together, Lin Kebin also took the initiative to tell me, he has been speculating in the stock market recently, while making a large sum of money. He said, "Chun Chun, why don't you try it too? You just need to invest, I'll package you to earn, will allow you to buy your own house in this inch of land in Spring River. Haven't you always wanted a real home? In that house, you'll be my queen." ?
It still sounds very tempting. Unfortunately, I think it's just a dream, "How can I afford to invest in stocks?"
"Your sister-in-law will not send you living expenses? You ask her to send you four years of college expenses in advance, that should be not a small amount."
I didn't realize that he really had a heart, even counting on my sister-in-law's living expenses. This simple doll face, in the end, how many complex I can not see through the heart?
"Don't look at me like that, okay. I am kindly trying to help you. I know that your sister-in-law gives you a lot of living expenses, and also know that your sister-in-law may stop giving you at any time. For someone as vicious as your sister-in-law, you should have gotten back at her a long time ago! I think the best way for a person to get back at another is to live ten times, a hundred times better than her!"
I think he has a point.
"So what do you think I should do?"
"You give me two hundred thousand dollars, I will help you invest in stocks. Guarantee you'll make a million dollars back in a year, or even more."
"Two hundred thousand dollars? One million?" I was confused by what I heard. "I don't have that much money right now anyway."
"Didn't ask your sister-in-law for it. Sometimes people are forced out. Your sister-in-law is bad, but now it is you who have the right. She still occupies your parents' house, there's no reason not to give it to you."
"Can you guarantee to make a million dollars?"
"Investment is always risky, no one can say it's not 100%. But there is a lot of hope. I tell you, the last few months I made tens of thousands of dollars every month, it's the last month that I lost some." Lin Kebin looked at me, "You don't believe in my ability? I'm from the Fudan Finance Department, you know that."
? "I know ah. It's just that two hundred thousand dollars is not a small amount, in case of loss who is responsible?"
"If you think of failure at the beginning, then you don't have to do it."
Our conversation reached an impasse. We stopped talking about it that night. There was no interest in even having sex. Early the next morning, we went to a nearby breakfast place to eat soybean milk doughnuts together, and then Lin Kebin put me in a cab, gave me another two hundred dollars, and said, "What I said last night, think about it again. I'll love you for the rest of my life."
The car started. Lin Kebin's figure became blurred in my sight. My nose is sour, tears like a naughty child, and I played hide and seek. This was the first time he said he loved me. For a girl like me, a promise like that trumps everything. My dream since childhood is to have a family, a man who loves me and adores me. To have another cute child to grow up healthy in the care of his parents. I want to give him what I didn't even have in my childhood. Let him understand the happiness of having a home and love in this world. Now I have come to Spring River, to the place where my father used to grow up. I want to have a home, and this dream is so unattainable. The price of housing in Spring River is as high as the sky, and I don't know how long it will take me to afford it. Although I am emotionally dependent, economically I am an independent and strong girl, so I estimate that if I buy my own house with an investment of 200,000 yuan, even if it is a small one, I am also considered to be settled in this city. Lin Kebin's suggestion is not a beautiful thing. Although I also know that this matter consists of risk, but I think of his talent and his magical dad, I added inexplicable courage. I decided to take the gamble, for his love and for my family.
So on the way I sent a text message to my sister-in-law. It was written: "Auntie, I recently wanted to take away my four years of college living expenses, I do not want too much, as long as two hundred thousand will do. I don't want too much, just 200,000 dollars. From now on, we don't care about each other, we'll never see each other again. I don't have any attachment to my old home, the house has already been transferred to your name, I won't ask for more. I will arrange myself, work hard, and live hard. Thank you sister-in-law!"
A few minutes the sister-in-law came back, "You want so much money to do what? Not said, you study, I will be responsible for the end."
"Are you giving or not? If give, we draw the line, if not, then we see you in court!"
I knew this was a killer move, and it knocked the snobbish sister-in-law off her feet in one fell swoop.
After about twenty minutes, she got back with one line, "OK, I'll wire the money to your account. Your text message will be my evidence and you will understand what to do. But you remember, from now on we are severed, do not owe each other."
I did not reply again. Just hurriedly sent a text message to Lin Kebin, "Binbin, I've thought about what you said last night. I will do what you want. I love you too."
He texted back, "Awesome! My Angel!"
It was almost time for school. The spring river in late fall seemed to have a stern look on its face. The sycamore tree leaves sprinkled down in droves. The sky is as gloomy as a tearful woman. Open the car window, the wind rolled and blew my hair, and sporadic rain drifted across my eyes.
The car stopped in front of the school. I did not go to the school directly, but went to a barber shop in front of the school. There were many handsome men with dyed yellow hair going about their business, and the barbershop was playing a fast song by Jolin Tsai called Dancing Lady. There was a tall, skinny, white-faced boy who came up to me and he said, "Can I help you, beautiful?" I said, "I want a new haircut." He said, "What kind?" I said, "Just Audrey Hepburn's haircut from Roman Holiday. Hepburn's classic short haircut from Roman Holiday!" The white-faced boy's eyes widened exaggeratedly, "Holy shit, you're challenging me to do that!" I said, "You can't? Then I'll switch or change places?" The white-faced boy said, "There's nothing you can't do! I'll make you prettier than Hepburn!" I giggled and trailed off after him.
The long hair was like a myriad of ghosts, fluttering, flying apart, and coalescing in front of my eyes. I lowered my head and saw Lin Kebin's text message, "Baby, what are you busy with." I replied back, "I haven't gone to class yet. I'm at the barber store. I'm getting a makeover from now on and starting everything from scratch."
My sister-in-law told me the story of my parents again the night before I started college.
I don't know what her intentions were. However, one way or another, there came a day when I had to actually face it.
She was in the living room, talking and talking. The tea in my cup had a dense fog? Halfway through, I stopped her. I said you don't have to say anymore. I know all about it. After saying that I got up and left.
That night, I had a lot of nightmares. Ever since I was born, nightmares have been my friend, following me around. I dreamed about all of that. In fact, she didn't have to tell me, and my mother was already there to tell it. With the speed and gentleness of her words, the firmness and determination. And with a love like the vault of heaven that I can never touch.
Mother and father's acquaintance is due to that ordinary encounter on the airplane. At that time, my mother was already a very successful businesswoman, coupled with her beautiful youthful appearance, she was a leader among her peers. She once traveled to Beijing and came back on a flight to Chunjiang. She was going to Spring River to stock up on goods and to have some fun in this city of sea romance. She had been to Chunjiang a few times before that with her family, but she had only seen the city from a cursory glance. She wanted to go this time to take a good look, they say that Spring River is the capital of fashion, she will go to those big shopping malls to take a good lesson, design some new styles to be processed. Mother has been in the clothing business for a long time, she has the idea of creating her own fashion brand. The design of their own clothes to buy their own ready-made clothes, this is her ultimate dream.
And the unexpected violent bumps on the plane made her notice the man beside her. This man who seemed to make her heart pound, but she could not find the exact reason to explain the subtle ripples inside. Her mind, as if drenched in a kind of smoke-like confusion, then took out her notebook from her bag and wrote and wrote, and these behaviors, once again, attracted the attention of the man beside her.
This man, is my father later, Ge Zhicheng.
Ge Zhicheng looked at his mother and said, "Little girl, your painting is really good."
Mother looked up again, his eyes were curved like peach blossom eyes, but the line of his jaw was hardened. He looked young, but he called himself "little girl" like an elder, and the mother felt a little more intimate.
"This is my design." Mother said with a little bit of pride.
"You can design clothes too? It's really not simple." Ge Zhicheng said heartily, "You look like, you're still a child."
"I'm not young, twenty-eight." The mother still speaks a little bit about her age. If she had been married, she might not have been so unsure.
"Oh, really can't tell." Ge Zhicheng said, "I'm only two years older than you, and my daughter is already two years old."
"You seem to like your daughter a lot." The mother said, "If I have a child in the future, I really hope it's a beautiful daughter too. I could dress her, in beautiful clothes of my own design."
"Little girl," Ge Zhicheng seemed to like calling his mother that, "you're not from Spring River?"
"How do you know? Do Spring River people have labels on their faces?"
Ge Zhicheng cracked a smile, "You are not quite the same as the little Spring River girl."
"Spring River little girl is beautiful?"
"They are pretty, always with a bit of vulgarity. And your pretty, with a few special noble temperament, like a fairy in a fairy tale, landed in the mortal world."
Ge Zhicheng's ability to praise women is first-class. However, his greatest skill also lies in the fact that when he expresses it, his expression is sincere, as if there is no hypocrisy mixed in.
The plane soon arrived in Chunjiang.
When getting off the plane, Ge Zhicheng took the initiative to say, "Little girl, let me help you carry your luggage. Where are you going?"
The mother said, "I don't know. I just came alone to have some fun."
Ge Zhicheng said, "You are quite bold, a girl, how many bad people out there, you are not afraid? In this way, I give up my life to accompany the gentleman, this time, I will give you as a guide."
Ge Zhicheng lifted her suitcase and walked in front. Mother was behind him, looking at his tall back, but stood there, completely in deep thought.
Next, the mother of this trip to the Spring River, more than one Ge Zhicheng such a man as a free tour guide. Ge Zhicheng's guide proved to be doing his best as well. He took her on a tour of the Bund, People's Square, and Nanjing Road. Along the way, he took her to see the first department store, Hualian Mall, and other kinds of Spring River stores, but also took her to Xinglong Temple to eat a variety of snacks. Not a few days of work, mother and Ge Zhicheng very familiar. Ge Zhicheng turned out to be really as he said, just an electrical equipment factory running supply and marketing, and the mother's work is irrelevant, but he is for the clothing design, but from childhood favor, has been keen to today. Just because he likes, he usually also read a lot of books, always say a unique way, and from his words and behavior, you can see that he has a very outstanding business mind. So once, when his mother and he were eating ice cream in front of a store on Nanjing Road, his mother asked him, "Brother Zhicheng, do you want to do business on your own and make a lot of money?"
Ge Zhicheng said, "I want to, I've wanted to for a long time. No matter what you do, you can do it. Only a pity that I am a poor man, where is the start-up capital ah."
Mother did not hesitate to say, "I can help you."
Ge Zhicheng looked at her, a little excited, "You?"
"Yes, you know I'm in the clothing business, or we can do it together. I found that you are very talented in fashion design. I believe that with your help, my business will go to the next level!"
"Good is good. Only ....... How can I help you and work with you now that everything you have is in Newtown?"
"Quit your job and come with me to New Town! I promise that everything I have in the future is yours!" The mother looked at Ge Zhicheng, her cheeks crimson. She knew what it meant to say that, and she knew that what she had summoned the courage to imply could have a bearing on her future destiny with him. But she did not regret it. It was her true state of mind. She believed in love at first sight, and these days together had convinced her that Ge Zhicheng was one of the rare good men she had ever met. There was a world of difference with the men of New Town. The men of the new city are with machismo, selfish and domineering, the idea of male supremacy is very serious, they do not know how to be considerate of women and humble women, do not understand that women are used to coax used to love. And Ge Zhicheng has the mother's heart for men's fantasies. He is very handsome, good-looking, and has a gentle heart. He will be everywhere for the sake of women, women's cold and warm, women's fatigue he will know, and will try to undertake, without complaint. Although his words are sweet, but the precious thing is that he is consistent with his words and deeds, and do things out of the words than to say out of the heart. Mother remembers that day shopping Nanjing Road, may be walking too much, feet suddenly broken, but also rubbed the skin, he let her sit on a chair in the mall, took a band-aid to her carefully wrapped, but also for her to buy a pair of soft-soled shoes. That shoes style good-looking not to mention, wear up is also particularly comfortable ....... That day to go to the snack bar to eat wontons, Ge Zhicheng is also the first blowing wontons, so that it cooled down and handed to the mother to eat. The mother just ate a good, see the opposite Ge Zhicheng blowing ravioli again, thick eyelashes lowered, that look is very simple and lovely. Mother watched and was dumbfounded. A thought sprang up like a fire, and it took a lot of effort to extinguish it down.
Now, she is no longer a vain flame, but a seed, real in the heart of the roots and germination.
Only, Ge Zhicheng hesitated. Leaving Chunjiang to go to the new city means a big decision. He still has a home, a wife, a child, he can not easily leave behind. Nor is it possible to leave behind just by saying leave behind. He said, "Little girl, I'm afraid this is difficult. You know the situation of my family, and if I leave Spring River, I won't be able to take care of my family."
The mother said, "Why don't we do this, it happens to be almost the New Year, you go with me to the new city, to see if there is a prospect of development of my career. If you think you can, then stay and do business with me."
Ge Zhicheng also feels that this is a two-way street.
So, a few days later, Ge Zhicheng lied to his family and said he had to go on a business trip for a few days, and then set off with his mother to the new city.
Ge Zhicheng's wife did not suspect anything. The first time I saw this, it was a very good thing that I was able to get my hands on it.
Ge Zhicheng and his mother were happy all the way. Ge Zhicheng can see is also really happy, he heartily like this simple and lovely girl in front of him. And to the new city, the size of the mother's fashion store made him still greatly surprised. And the prospect that his mother depicted to him really made him sit up and take notice. True, he is a young man with ideals and aspirations, but also full of confidence in his own talent, how willing to spend his life in that electrical equipment factory? Only he has no background and no family background, all the dreams can only go down the drain. And now, his opportunity has come, how can he watch it leave and do nothing about it?
A few days in a row, Ge Zhicheng into a difficult struggle.
There is always something to give up. However, why at the moment of giving up, he felt the pain of tearing his heart and lungs?
He paced around the room. Helpless as a trapped animal.
But the opportunity is not lost. The time will never come again. He understood this truth.
And all gain comes at a price.
He's leaving his wife and daughter. Leave his home. He sees in this girl's eyes the path he will take.
Ge Zhicheng in that moment, saw another self inside. A self so ambitious. A person who is not willing to be arranged by fate. He was overwhelmed by the emergence of this inner self, overwhelmed by fear, and overwhelmed by novelty. Eventually, he succumbed to the magic of the future. He decided to throw his life away. Because there is only one life.
Finally, he took the platinum ring off his ring finger. The ring was old, like an old and disheveled face. When the gray light flashed, his eyes swept over his wife's pale, wrinkled face. He was not moved by it. But when his daughter's innocent face smiled at him, his eyes moistened. He clenched his fists and clenched his teeth, trying hard not to cry.
The tears still flowed out. Like crimson blazing blood.
With the blood wiped away, he decided to set off without a second thought.
This time, he stayed in Newtown. He called the unit and said his decision to resign. He also called home and told his wife that he wanted a divorce.
His wife cried out and asked, "Why why why?!"
He hung up the phone ruthlessly. He realized for the first time that he turned out to be hard-hearted too. He clenched his fists again and felt the sweat in his hands, seeping out. He just prayed that his daughter would not remember him when she grew up. But perhaps, everything is impossible. Everything, all the wood has become a boat can be reversed.
He received the warmest hospitality from his mother's family in Newtown. He has been living with his mother in the best hotel in Newtown. I don't know whether he wanted his mother or she took the initiative to give him. Perhaps it was inevitable that a man and a woman in the same room would be on fire. Those nights are soulful, and for the mother, it also opened a new chapter in her life. Her heart for marriage finally belonged to her. The man who held her in his arms night after night would be the love of her life. She thought everything was arranged by God. It was the embodiment of perfect love. She had waited for so many years, and finally it had come.
A few months later, mother and Ge Zhicheng got married. They held a grand wedding in New Town. This time, Ge Zhicheng gave his mother, is a one-carat diamond ring. On the fine steel support was a whimsical design, as if a torch, and as if a secretive, sinuous figure. Mother said, "The diamond is big enough and bright enough, but the design, why is it so special!"
Ge Zhicheng said, "It's the special things that are refreshing and always remembered."
He added, "It means, my love for you, like fire."
Mother said, "You are the one who is sweet-talking. But a fire, too, can burn me till my heart aches."
Ge Zhicheng said, "I will not burn you. Forever. I will only warm you forever."
Ge Zhicheng's sea vow makes his mother smile.
A woman in love is so, so happy that she forgets everything. I think love is the whole of life. I think everything is under control, the future is a beautiful, infinite.
The mother looked at the ring on her finger and clasped her hands together in front of her chest. She was praying for happiness forever. She knew that everything she longed for was truly coming. She believed that this man belonged to him and that he was already her whole world.
Only, as she dwelled on all these moments, she failed to see that behind that bending, there was a terrible gloom slowly approaching, like a nightmare if anything, closing in on every moment she thought was calm.
They followed the original plan and together they founded Xinliu Clothing Design Co. Mother was the chairman of the board and Ge Zhicheng was the general manager. Then Ge Zhicheng in the operation of the company showed extraordinary talent, he traveled far and wide, in the company's operation and professional design, have put forward unique insights, and implemented in the concrete action. In just a few years, he doubled the size of the company several times and accumulated assets of more than a million dollars. They went to the new city together to buy the best villa, but only wrote my mother's name alone. He said that this is his gift to his mother, and if one day he leaves, this gift will always be there, always remember.
My mother said, "How could you leave? We will always be together."
Ge Zhicheng wry smile, his eyebrows have been all the vicissitudes.
And in the spring of this year?
This is the first time I've ever seen a woman in the world who has been in the world for a long time. My mother named me "Liu Ruchun". She always wanted a daughter, and finally got her wish. She was so happy that she wanted to give me a little brother in two years. Ge Zhicheng, on the other hand, was saddened by my birth. He thought of his eldest daughter. He hadn't seen her for too long. It was at that moment that he realized how much the pain of separating flesh and bone hurts.
He became silent. But when he saw me, he managed to smile at times. He very lovingly held me in his arms, like holding a poor kitten. He said he would love me till the end of time.
My mother saw that my father was doting on me, but cold to her. She capered like a child and said, "Do you love me more? Or do you love my children more?"
My father stared at her and leered, "What will you do if one day I don't love you anymore?"
"I would kill you. And then kill myself. Because, I want to be with you forever." Mother said cheekily, as if joking. Father's face, however, turned white. White as a grimy wall, like paper that had been broken. The wind whistled through the cracks of the paper with a blade-like harshness, but like a mournful elegy that lingered on for a long time.