In this world, looking at 35-year-old people talking about the pressure of mortgage, fear of unemployment; looking at the four major tragedies of the Internet, sister rich, mom passes the food, short of 100,000, the sun and moon lake; looking at their own 996, day after day of work, very low efficiency, the future is very confused.
In fact, I know, I'm still very lucky, at least I still have the spare capacity to think about life; not in order to live, and do their best.
Immediately eleven, a few days ago, Mom and Dad asked me when to go back, I have not been home for a long time, after the work, only three times a year to go back, every time I go back, always do a table of good food, in front of Mom and Dad, I will always be a long time child.
Mom and Dad used to work at home in agriculture, in recent years out of the work, wandering around, they never say how tired, only that two people can earn how much money, I want to pay attention to rest, do not have any burden, I hope to alleviate my burden, every time I see the calluses on the hands of the father, the mother's head of gray hairs, the heart is very difficult.
They always say that I am their pride, jumping out of their limitations, more capable than them, and hope that I can live in the big city.
I don't know, I don't want to let my parents down, but I don't want my parents to work so hard, in the big city, and my parents the same age, dancing every day, and my parents are still in the factory, earning hard-earned money for their son.
People think a lot, it will be depressing; thinking so much, looking at the world's happy joy, but unfortunately none of them belong to me.
From childhood to adulthood, I am an ordinary person with no sense of existence, no sense of existence to finish elementary school, middle school, high school. University, perhaps the previous life is too boring, suddenly like a girl, in the roommate's encouragement, to pursue her, then after I was too childish and too goatish, and there is no economic source, embarrassed to ask mom and dad to ask for money, the pursuit of failure; and then obsessed with the game, through the university life.
After work, hard work, busy every day, no time to think, that time is very happy.
Now re-talked a girlfriend, unfortunately, we insisted on two months, or broke up; before I did not know, it turned out that I am still too naive, too straight, I have no way to give her a commitment to promise to get married next year, I can't get down this decision, maybe I'm a scum.
Life has to go on, not for themselves, but also for their loved ones, continue to insist on it.