Sister, seeing your affectionate greetings, I was deeply moved by your sincere concern and blessing. My sister, who is wandering in a foreign land, can't express her feelings in words for a while.
Tears that have been deposited, controlled and stitched for a long time can no longer be controlled and shed involuntarily. ......
We have never met before, separated by mountains and seas, but I deeply realize that kindness is the most boundless and love is the most sincere. Your exhortation and care are beating my numb and frozen heart, slowly thawing and starting a new life. ......
I don't want to talk about the past. I can only tell you that Na Yue, a young man, betrayed my parents, left my hometown and drifted for the lover I really chose. When my two children were satisfied, I was abandoned by my beloved lover. He ran to find a girl ten years younger than himself. ......
That year in Na Yue, I stood alone in the dock in a foreign land, ending the marriage I had cared for for for ten years. I am arrogant and confident, with my 8-year-old daughter and a simple suitcase, and I continue to wander without taking any money from each other. ......
In the past two years, I have been wandering outside, and I have never told my white-haired parents about the divorce. I am afraid that my old and sick parents will be hit again and feel miserable. ......
Wandering, I silently bear, taste alone. The consequences of my choices in those years, no matter how bitter and tired, will gnash my teeth in my stomach. ......
In reality, I can't face life with pride and self-confidence, so I work in a foreign trade export company, relying on meager income to maintain my daughter's life and undertake her growth and education. Although my life is poor and stressful, I live a busy and full life.
When I am miserable and lonely, happy and successful, I will turn on the computer and write down my inner sadness and joy. For my classmates or friends, I don't have much thought and language to tell these words, because I went to work before I graduated from junior high school, so my classmates are almost pitiful to me.
As for friends, it is even paler. In the days of working and wandering outside, people are in and out of the material crossflow, between money and power, fame and fortune. Maybe it has something to do with my work. Every time I go to sing, dance and eat with friends and clients, I always look happy. Sometimes I even feel a little scared when I look at myself. When I return to my rented apartment, I can find myself and take off my hypocritical mask.
It was not until one day that I saw tea on msn that I knew that the moon had moved. My sister's shadow and her poems painted my life with a gorgeous color, and the fish and geese came and went, which increased our understanding.
In her poem, we met by chance. Your accomplishments in literature, your seriousness in literature and art, and my same preferences, we exchanged more topics with each other. I am full of joy, and I am glad that I can have this striking and strange fate.
In addition to my sister's comfort and encouragement, I also met so many talented women, young monks selling wooden combs, people who have no chance, savages, grass lanterns and mountain peaks. ......
Although Qian Shan is separated by thousands of waters, it will never be separated from our friendship. For me, no matter where I live, I will never forget the precious friendship we established in the poetry garden.
Sister, I know that you want me to live happily, and you don't want me to live unsound. I understand how you feel, but I can't. Now I don't have too many fantasies and hopes, because too many fantasies will always lose myself and too many hopes will always become empty. I just want to work hard and bring up my eldest daughter, and I won't consider remarriage or remarriage.
The good relationship in the past is gone, and I will never believe in love again. A man can abandon his wife and children for his own selfish desires. How can a good man give me a daughter and sister unconditionally? I don't believe these self-deception words, so I just want to live this life flatly.
Now, I am also very happy, that is, whenever there is a festival, I can't help but think of my white-haired parents who are far away from home, and I can't hide the guilt of an unfilial daughter for her parents. Even if there is a sincere prayer like a river, even if there is a surging cry like a wave, I still can't find what my mother lost for me.
Sister, please don't cry for me. I just hope you can forgive my ingratitude and remember that you are my good sister no matter where I am.
Someone in this world sincerely wishes you-with the most precious friendship.