One
"I must ask you
over and over again
Three times and thousands of times
>Without hesitation
Save me from the fire and water in this world"
2
? Remember a sentence in "Pipa Xing": Late at night, suddenly Dreaming about youth, dreaming about crying makeup and tears.
I also remember the sentence in "Rewarding Lotte and My Frequent Dreams": I am now in a state of confusion due to illness, and I only dream of idle people, not of you.
? It’s strange that these two lines of poems are obviously unrelated, but I think they have a special charm when put together - late at night, I suddenly dream about teenage things, but I only dream about idle people, not about you.
Lately I have been dreaming about the past: good, bad, crucial, insignificant. All these things are actually frequent dreams of people who have disappeared from my world for a long time.
? Perhaps it is precisely because the possibility of them appearing in my future life is very slim that I use dreams to express my longing for them.
? I almost forgot, doesn’t this just show my subconscious reluctance to let go of that person or that memory?
三
"I may forget many things, but I will never forget the scene when you cried on my shoulder that day." This sentence is what I transferred to another school back then. At that time, a good friend wrote to me. After several years apart, I can still type it down word for word.
? But if you want to ask me: What happened next? I can only tell you with regret: Later on, we rarely contacted each other, and maybe we couldn’t speak more than a few words for a year.
? But I still believe that the friendship at that time was real, and it is still real until now.
Four
? It rarely snows in the south, but it is really cold when it does. On a snowy day one year, school was over, and I packed my schoolbag and prepared to go home as usual. Looking at the flying snowflakes outside the window, I suddenly became interested in eating ice cream, so I said casually. Unexpectedly, when I left school, I saw a boy in my class waiting for me with ice cream in his hand.
? At that time, I felt that I was really the luckiest person in the world. You see, when I was young, I was once a person who could only satisfy myself with ice cream.
? Many years have passed, I have fallen in love with milk tea, and I have eaten a lot of ice cream that was several times more expensive than it was at that time, but the taste in my memory will probably never come back.
? You may want to ask again: What happened next?
Later, we existed in each other’s circle of friends and became like friends. The time when I was young and ignorant may be gone forever.
Five
The thing we are least willing to admit is: those feelings we thought were indestructible, whether friendship or love; those people we thought would never be separated, no matter what Friends, or lovers. In the end, it was not worth time, distance, or even myself.
Before some people leave, they leave a thunderous, deafening sound in our lives, and then we have to spend a lot of time healing the pain.
And some people left quietly. There were no ups and downs of the plot, no earth-shattering events, or even any quarrels. They just carried the baggage away without saying a word.
Six
Of course, some people ask: Since we are reluctant to let go and miss them, why can't we get them back? Those who have deep hatred and hatred are left alone, but what about the remaining ones? Isn’t it possible to regain the friendship of the past?
The best answer I have ever seen is: the relationship between friends gradually fades away, because the gap in social resources, status and knowledge becomes wider. He cannot understand your depression, and his hesitation is a disguised show off to you. . The two of them had nothing to say, they could only reminisce about old times. Until it was chewed repeatedly in the past, it was bland and tasteless.
Seven
I really miss you, after all, we used to have such a good relationship. But I really won’t try to save you anymore, after all, you will leave eventually.
And those past scenes may be remembered from time to time, which is enough to warm the next period of my life.
Dear friend: If happiness is too difficult, I wish you peace. But I want to be more greedy. May you have wine, meat, and girls for the rest of your life, and be as indulgent and open-minded as you can be.
Eight
Be sure to let me
Three again and again
Three but not endlessly a thousand times
Without hesitation
Save you from the fire and water of this world