I am struggling alone in this cold Shanghai, working hard for my dream, day after day, but I can't see a glimmer of hope. Sometimes when I calm down at night, I will ask myself, I am just an ordinary person among thousands of people in this city. But I am still unwilling to be mediocre and pretentious, and I must work hard for the ideal of weak breathing. If pride is not photographed by the cold reality of the sea, how can we know how to strive to go far away? Time flies, and in a blink of an eye, I am 29 years old, married and married. Only then can I understand that accepting mediocrity is actually an inevitable event, which will happen with the growth of age. When you are young, everyone feels that they are at the top of the crowd, but life will always smooth your edges and let you accept the real life.
In recent years, I have had many tears of sadness and struggle, but those are the past, and now I am mediocre. I hate my job more and more, even this kind of city, but I still don't want to leave, just for that so-called annoying dream. Bite your teeth, shed blood and tears, and then hold back the pain and swallow it hard. I know that if I leave this city, I will never come back, and my life will never beat strongly and get weaker and weaker until I die.
In the end, I can't compete with reality. Last year, I returned to my hometown of Hefei, and the word ideal and I have become parallel lines. When I was a child, everyone thought that their future would shine brilliantly, but when they grew up, they found that their dreams would never come true. How ironic. At this time, I won't do many things by myself. I want to consider a family. Listen, I'm one of those deadpan mediocrities on the street.
I struggled hard, but in the end I failed. When I was a teenager, I would have the ambition to bully poor young people and feel that mediocrity is so far away from me. However, as the days go by, people get old day by day, bear the beating of life, eat enough of the bitterness of life, and can only choose to surrender to life. My current state of mind is, "try to live a mediocre life." It turns out that my ultimate ideal in life is to be an ordinary person and spend the rest of my life in mediocrity. At the moment I said this, there was no wave in my heart. I think I really accepted the real life at this moment.
If you have enough ability and persistence to match your dream, then work hard for it! If not, then accept your mediocrity, enjoy this moment's mediocrity and spend your life happily. Don't struggle between the two, otherwise you will be very tired and lose your sense of direction in life. If there is a goal worth pursuing in life, it is naturally beautiful, but it is impossible to satisfy it.