Purity of life, purity of self

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It is inevitable that colleagues and friends attend banquets for red and white events. Usually, we sit with familiar friends and chat while waiting. When a group of familiar friends sat at a table, the pre-dinner drinks also began, simple games, full of laughter, attracted colleagues at the table next to the attention of the watchers. A bunch of old guys get together, basically do not talk about other things, drink a small drink joking and amusing, relaxation has become the main purpose, which is some of the heavy hearted people can not be compared to, but also belongs to only our own understand the open secret.

After-dinner wine is also a must, so that good friends have a good time, so that the wine banquet to reach a small climax. Friends who drink well pass the bank, and those who drink poorly respond to the bank, so that everyone is happy to eat and have a good time. The culmination of our table's wine-fighting often attracts colleagues who are good drinkers at other tables as well, and it's not uncommon for everyone to have a good time.

The last place you want to sit is at a table with a lot of leaders, and it's almost impossible not to drink, and it's even more impossible not to substitute for alcohol. If you drink a little better, the greatest likelihood is that the generation of alcohol will get you drunk. Leaders like to use their subordinates' stomachs to train their own fists, without exception. A banquet, the same table of three or four non-colleagues of our circle of friends, no leadership in the Hou drip wine does not stain, we do not force. When the leadership began to punch, one by one, they drink, are on behalf of the leadership of the wine, drink the red face, one of the hotel door live. These young people are very different from us, which is the brand of different times. We live for ourselves, they have a lot to live for. We don't force each other in our personal hobbies, we don't deliberately embarrass ourselves to take care of anyone's emotions.

That's the difference between drinking and drinking, life is different and so is drinking.

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On a late night in early winter, I happened to stroll around Lake Tianma for half an hour. The night of the Tianma Lake, the lights are still colorful, in addition to the sound of vehicles passing by, is the sound of the water in the lake, without the sound of the song of the square dance, the sound of this mixture can also make people feel the beauty of the sound of nature, although there is no music melodious, but it is also a natural dedication to the beauty of the people. In fact, I still like this kind of night, there are not many tourists in the Tianma Lake more people can feel its beauty.

Even for a short half hour, I enjoyed a moment of quiet beauty and the beauty of nature on the shores of Lake Tianma, and the sound of that human machinery roaring mixed with the natural sound of running water is another style of music, the difference only lies in who is there to listen.

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The weather was clear and sunny, not a breath of wind, a nice breezy day. In winter, the wind is nasty and the sun is always pleasing. Summer is different, the sun is annoying, the wind is expected. The same things, in different contexts, produce very different results. But that's just the weather, the laws of nature, and humans have long been able to adapt to such changes, as well as make proactive changes to make their lives better while familiarizing themselves with the laws.

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Reading Lao Pi's "Pillow Book (101-110)" is very touching, and it is fortunate to be able to read such heartfelt words. In the age of materialism, such monologue of the inner world is already a rare thing. What we read is more flattering, something that lacks calcium in the spirit, something that lacks the spine of the speaker.

Lao Pi said: the most rare, that is, as always, continue to live and travel, frankly face all the changes around, but always maintain the purity of self. Indeed, it is very difficult to maintain the purity of the self, but also because of this difficulty, the purity of the self is very precious. In social life, many people in order to cater to their own self-interest or the so-called emotional intelligence, do some things that are not what they want, speak some words that are not what they want, and even lose themselves, so it is difficult to maintain the purity of the self. The good thing is that I am still myself and I can continue to live as I always have, and face everything that I have experienced with openness.

As Lao Pi said, poems can't solve the problems of life, and they won't give answers. But, poems can inspire certain thoughts. I roam around in my poetry reading imagining, exploring interesting life and thinking about the ultimate questions of life. Such exploration and thinking also make my life much less boring and tedious and much more poetic and interesting. Although I can't solve all the problems in my life, reading poetry brings me a rich spiritual world and the confidence and courage to face reality openly.

"Not imitating other people's lives, and even less need to reach too many compromises with the external world." Such a state is the state of a book of me, and the state of the true me. Although I bumped my head in the system, this is the real and believable me. In life, I can't change my nature, what I like, what I don't like, in my own words and deeds, no need to deliberately hide myself, and no need to reach a compromise with the mainstream or non-mainstream, I live my own life, no need to imitate other people's lives, and can't be imitated.

Some people say that I have too low an emotional quotient, that I can't get along with certain people, and that I can't do anything for my own benefit. This is the truth, I really do not do something to cater to others, not to see the wind rudder. More often than not, I am loyal to my own inner choice, I choose what kind of life concept, I will live according to my own will, of course, I choose is to make myself healthier life.

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The temperature in the morning was a bit low, and the posture of the teachers and students attending the flag-raising ceremony was a bit deformed in the morning wind, but this did not affect the normal holding of the ceremony. In fact, I don't have too many feelings about the ceremony, the ceremony needs to be respected, but need not be burdened by the form, there is a heart of respect is more valuable. Respect does not only lie in the ceremony, but also in the day-to-day words and deeds. If the ceremony was held in a decent manner, and in the daily words and deeds in wantonly trampled, it became a form of tired of the typical.

I am more concerned with respecting and acting with intention in my daily life than I am with the many rituals in my life. For those around me, I care more about paying attention to their daily lives, doing something for them, reducing their pressure and burden, and striving to make them work easily and live comfortably and happily. Perhaps this is also a kind of being yourself, a kind of pure life.

March 02, 2020

A casual life between black and white