Square dance is one in this life.

Never know whether you are lying next to a person or a ghost until you experience life and death.

These days, I brushed Lin Shengbin too many times and unearthed a lot of evidence. I'm not sure whether Lin Shengbin really murdered his wife and children for money, but the obvious fact is that Zhu Xiaozhen's marriage is not as beautiful as Lin Shengbin showed at first.

What a painful life experience it is when a woman is immersed in a happy marriage and a man tries to get rid of you!

I thought of my ex-husband, the hardships of these years, the hatred of these years, and many, many, many, and suddenly felt a little ironic. At that time, my love and marriage were calculated one by one from beginning to end. Love, flash marriage, having children, divorce, every step, according to his plan.

I think at the beginning, he even had a plan to kill me. In that car accident, my son and I died almost instantly. If I hadn't been strong and escaped, everything I had at that time would have been his. So, I am luckier than Zhu Xiaozhen. At least I saved my life and brought my son back. At least I have some money left, so I can catch my breath and live with my son.

Do you know how many rural girls born in the 1970s and 1980s dropped out of junior high school or even primary school to work? My primary school is in our village. There are twenty or thirty people in the class, with more boys than girls. It's not that girls didn't have a chance to go to school, but at that time there were more men than women, and every family evaded family planning in order to have a boy. Remember Huang Hong of Song Dandan and Turpan of Hainan Island on the Spring Festival Evening stage? My parents, too, threw them to my grandmother before the full moon and went to the northeast to give birth to a son.

Ten years later, my parents came back penniless but cocky because they had two sons.

My parents are almost strangers to me, and my two younger brothers know nothing, but I have to live with them. The house has long been dilapidated, and the whole family is crowded in grandma's house. I was forced to give my room to my two younger brothers and share a bed with my grandmother.

Not only the room, but also toys, not Altman Barbie dolls, nor "baby" and some marbles folded out of exercise books. This was really my only pleasure at that time.

Not only toys, but also food.

Not only eat, but also grandma.

I don't understand why my grandmother, who has raised me for ten years and usually takes care of me, is ecstatic at the sight of her two grandchildren and completely ignores me.

My indifference angered my mother, who frowned at me. "Why are you so ignorant, dead girl?" This is your brother, your own brother! " "

What the hell is my brother! I clenched my fists and pushed them to the ground when no one was around. My brothers cried and complained. I was beaten by my father, and I cried and said, "I hit someone!" "

The neighbors came to watch the fun, and my father stopped awkwardly.

Since then, my family has staged a martial arts parade at two ends in three days. I hit people, my brothers complained, I was beaten, and my neighbors came to watch the fun.

The only advantage is rough skin and resistance to beating.

After graduating from junior high school, my father said, "The house at home has finally been built, and there is no money for you to go to high school. Besides, you haven't been admitted to the university. Go out to work with the girls in the village. "

I can't help it without money. I have long wanted to leave this home that is not home for me. It's time to pack my bags and go to work.

Work is simple and complicated. Simply put, it is just selling labor in exchange for labor remuneration. It's complicated Which city are you going to? Which factory to go to? Which workshop to go to? Which assembly line is in charge? Which colleagues did you meet? What workshop director did you meet? Meet what boss? Will the factory close down? Can the boss run? How much is the salary deducted? How many people are there in a dormitory or dozens of people? Are workers in a dormitory easy to get along with? Will someone give you a nest of wages that you have saved for several months? ......

I cried, quarreled, quarreled and fought.

At the age of nineteen, a workman was going to work in Korea. I was cruel and left with him.

At that time, working abroad was very popular. Girls, in particular, work in China for only a few hundred dollars a month, and they can save almost 10 thousand dollars a year, which is simply astronomical.

I stayed in Korea for eleven years, and I was thirty when I came back.

My return caused a great sensation at home. The first time my mother called me "Da Ya", I stopped calling, and my father stopped looking angry when he saw me. The most amazing thing is that my two younger brothers, my elder brother, have married and given birth to a son. I saw him holding his son in front of me like a baby, and I couldn't wait to fall in love with the baby monkey. The second brother took his fiancee's hand, politely called me elder sister, and shyly introduced me to my new brother-in-law.

I smiled and thought that the treatment of rich people is just different. The passbook in my arms really made them forget my face when I was kicked out to work.

I didn't give them a penny. Eleven years, my youth, my enthusiasm, and so much loneliness have all disappeared in the sudden sound of a foreign sewing machine. No one has asked me whether the water there can be imported, whether the food there is delicious or not, whether the people there get along well or not, and how my life there can be endured. No one even urged me to go home early.

These people want me to stay abroad until I die. Someone better come back with money outside and let them get married and have children with my money. And I, am I old, should I go back to China, should I get married and have children? What do they care?

Brush a wave of existence at home, and then leave in their complex expressions of disappointment, anger and indignation, but dare not speak out. I rented a house in our small county, and I'm going to fix it for a while, and then I'll find someone to get married and live a normal life.

So I met a robbery in my life, my ex-husband Yu Xiaoqiang. That is a boy who is not handsome but absolutely smart. He is only 23 years old, seven years younger than me.

At that time, I thought, I am not an idiot. I need to find a mature and steady man. It is really inappropriate to be much younger than me. I want to live a normal life.

Later, I thought, I am really a fool. Yu Xiaoqiang never said that he wanted to pursue me. My friend dragged me to dinner and sat with me. He never shows much courtesy. He just spoke to me politely. At that time, in my opinion, it was just an instinctive concern of men for strange girls.

Perhaps because of years of work and life, I am surrounded by women and have little contact with men. I never imagined that a little man seven years younger than me was so deep.

He asked me what Korea was like. He asked me where I was in Korea. He asked me what I had done. He asked me if I lived in the company dormitory. He asked me how often I have a rest. He asked me if I would go out for a walk during my break.

He asked a complicated and natural question and never gave you the feeling of prying into privacy. Instead, he has an incomprehensible sigh, wondering how a girl can persist in a foreign country for so many years.

I was moved by this silent concern and accepted his invitation. He invited me to dinner, which was his kindness.

Perhaps, at that time, I only knew sweetness, but forgot to look at the vicissitudes of my face in the mirror and ask myself, are you a beauty? How good are you? Why did he have a crush on you at a young age?

Soon he took me to meet his parents. To tell the truth, my first impression of his parents was not bad. Unlike those bitter people like my parents, although they also farm in the countryside, their lives are obviously better. It's not that his family has good conditions, but that they are more open-minded and never wronged themselves in eating and drinking.

Soon talked about marriage. I went to see his new house. It's really new. Not even white cement was put on, and there was nothing in the furniture. This is really a family.

My parents strongly disagree. I asked why, and they were silent. I said I was going to get married, and my mother was anxious: "He just wants your money, so the poor family wants to marry a wife without spending money." I snorted: "So what? What's wrong with spending the money you earn in your own home? " Mother scolded: "You baiwenhang, for so many years, you didn't give me a penny and raised you for nothing." . It's hard to come back. Your brother is not married. If you don't give your brother money, you will be an outsider! "

I know where they care about whether I will be happy or not, and whether others are calculating me. They are no different from the so-called others. No, there is still a difference. The difference is that other people's calculations should be covered, they should coax me to hold me, they should ask for money without guilt and scold me. If my father who is squatting now is old, he may hit me with a hammer.

I left without hesitation, "I didn't give a penny." In recent years, have I spent a dollar on my grandmother every month?

Maybe I'm too eager to have a home. Yu Xiaoqiang and I painted the walls together, bought furniture and electrical appliances together, and enriched this small yard bit by bit. This is all my money. Does it hurt? I am distressed, these are all saved from my teeth, but what is the purpose of saving money? Isn't it a good life?

Our wedding was extremely grand. My parents-in-law are very lively people, and her mother-in-law is not afraid of jokes: "Our family is poor, and our daughter-in-law spends money. Look at this color TV, look at this refrigerator, and look at the washing machine. To see Xiao Qiang, you can't earn it in ten years! "

The neighbors looked envious. Indeed, when we got married, these home appliances were sold at high prices. At that time, in the countryside, any family was proud of having only one.

I'm not angry with my mother-in-law for showing off that I work abroad to earn more money. At that time, it was true that girls working abroad earned more money. I am actually very happy, or at least proud. I said to myself that I can finally live with my head held high.

Soon after pregnancy, I ate well and was in a good mood. I am very comfortable when I am pregnant. Once in labor, I gave birth to a big fat boy.

Yu Xiaoqiang was so happy that he held his son in his arms and said, "I was a child before I became a father." Yu Xiaoqiang is very emotional. He touched my hair and said, "It's like a dream these days. I thought my family was poor. I'm afraid I can't afford a wife. Who knows, I not only married a big boss, but also had the best furniture and appliances in the village. No one does not envy me! " Yu Xiaoqiang was very excited and shook my hand and said, "I thought I was a child, but now I have a son. I want to think about it. I can't go on like this. Why don't we do some business? "

At that time, Yu Xiaoqiang was driving a cart in a motorcade in the county seat. He took me to see their motorcade. He said that he also wants to own his own team in the future. I looked at his uneasy face and son in my arms, sighed and took out my passbook.

Yu Xiaoqiang got busy and bought a cart. Six months later, he bought another one. There is only 20 thousand left in my passbook.

On the child's first birthday, he hasn't come home for five or six days. The day before the child's birthday, my father-in-law came home and said to me, "Xiao Qiang wants you to go to his motorcade tomorrow. He didn't come back for several days and almost forgot the child's birthday. He's too busy. Go to the team to celebrate. "

I took my child in my arms and sat in the back seat of my father-in-law's tractor, and hurried to the county seat.

I forgot what I was thinking when I was sitting on the tractor. I may be busy coaxing the children. I only remember the moment when I looked up, a big car tilted over and hit my father-in-law's tractor at once.

I don't know where I got my strength. I lifted my legs with my child in my arms, crossed the fence next to me, rolled off the tractor and fell into the ditch next to me.

That time, I fell and was hurt all over, but I didn't care. I climbed out of the water and looked at my son anxiously. The mother and son are too scared. I was shaking with my son in my arms. I only remember what happened when my father-in-law came to see me. It seems that someone came and helped me to the side of the road.

Later, Yu Xiaoqiang said that the driver was his partner. It turned out that a motorcade driver was distracted before hitting us, saying that he was frightened, so forget it.

I slowed down for many days, and the more I think about it, the more I feel that something is wrong. I clearly remember that the moment I looked up, the car ran straight into the back of the tractor, as if I saw the car stop steadily at the moment I rolled out. Shouldn't he panic? Why do you feel that he hit it, as if he had already calculated it?

The seeds of doubt were planted in my heart, and I gradually realized that my parents-in-law looked at me strangely. I gradually realized that Yu Xiaoqiang was only affectionate when he asked me for money. When he didn't need money, he would be too busy to go home in the motorcade as an excuse.

I'm scared. In this family, it's just me and my children. If there are bad guys, how can I fight back?

I told Yu Xiaoqiang to give me the money when I got it. I can't rest assured without it. Yu Xiaoqiang gave me a look: "What money? All mine are yours, all yours are mine, and we are husband and wife. " I looked up at him and he smiled: "What's wrong with you? I am working hard for you and your children. I am a little busy, but don't worry, I will definitely let you and your children live a good life in the future. "

Regret, regret putting yourself in such a passive position. People are in other people's territory, and money is in their own hands. What room can fight back?

Sure enough, Yu Xiaoqiang changed his face and asked for money again. If I don't give it, he will start work, slap me in the face and point at me: "If you don't listen, I will kill you!"

I ran away with my son in my arms I rented a room and went home to find my father and two younger brothers: "I want a divorce. I bought all the furniture and appliances in that house, so you can take them back if you want! " "

So my father took my two younger brothers there to make a scene and brought back all the furniture and appliances.

I told them that I bought his motorcade and two cars, so which one of you bought it for whom.

Then I left, holding my son with only 20 thousand yuan in my hand, going to court to sue for divorce and living a single mother's life.

890,000, which I saved in those years, was cheated by that little wolf.

The divorce is very pleasant, and I'm afraid he will argue with me for custody of his son. Who knows that he said that as long as he didn't ask my brother to come to his place again, he didn't want his son.

[If! SupportLists] one day, [endif] two days, one year, two years, ten years, twenty years, and now it's almost fifty. My son has gone to college and finally feels like he's out.

It is said that his motorcade is getting bigger and bigger, and a transportation company has been set up. I heard that he remarried and gave birth to two sons and a daughter. I heard that he also went back to his hometown to build roads and bridges. I heard that he is also preparing to run for the village party secretary.

At the beginning of those years, I couldn't sleep at night. Sometimes, I want to stab vampires and eat Jin Roh: The Wolf Brigade. Later, I felt that the most important thing to live was to make money.

In recent years, I am no longer eaten by anger and humiliation every night, especially after my son went to college. I am very relaxed, busy in my snack bar during the day, dancing in the square dance at night, returning to the small house I bought, sleeping quietly and feeling extremely comfortable.

Let bygones be bygones. It's you who feel bad, so let it be.