When my cousin was diagnosed with liver cancer, he sent a personal signature: advanced liver cancer, listen to God.
Cousin is the most outstanding of our juniors, the judicial examination once passed, the establishment of personnel.
After a while, my mom took me to the hospital to visit my cousin, chemotherapy makes his face become pale, people are thinner, but still so gentle, smiling and chatting with me.
My aunt and uncle took turns taking care of my cousin. They were still optimistic and hoped that the treatment would work, but at this time, there was nothing else to do but be optimistic.
My mom would cry into tears every time my very aunt got off the phone, saying that my cousin was so poor and how my aunt could stand it.
After 3 months, my cousin left.
At the funeral, my aunt said it was good to be gone, that he was in too much pain, too much suffering, and that he wouldn't be in pain in heaven.
When the staff pushed the cousin's body to the hearth, the aunt almost step by step on her knees to go over, while walking and crying: my child came out, my child came out ......
We all cried a lot, holding the aunt who could hardly stand up.
After the farewell ceremony, we waited for the cremation in another room, and when the bones were pushed out, my uncle told us to hold my aunt back and not to let her look at them for fear that she would not be able to bear it.
The staff crushed the cousin's bones a little bit and put them in the urn.
Auntie kept her head down on the stool and didn't say a word.
After the burial, we sent the effigy of our cousin back home.
My aunt's father looked at his cousin's effigy without moving a muscle, not saying a word. I looked at my aunt, the old man's back was already hunched.
The two old men have worked hard all their lives, and finally trained their sons to be outstanding, and their lives have just gone uphill, but this has happened, so how can the two old men bear it?
Now, my cousin has been gone for 9 years, I have become a mother, and I know more about the pain of my aunt and uncle.
To this day, they seem to have come out of the haze, will participate in a variety of square dances and other activities, to see Duo will also talk about the cousin when he was a child, etc., but late at night, when the midnight dream, and what kind of mood is it?
Maybe now, they can only try to live well every day, at least not let the cousin in the sky worry.
Perhaps, they have no more expectations in their lives, and can only live one day at a time, waiting for the day when they will be reunited with their cousin.
No matter what, this kind of hurt, maybe it will heal, maybe it will scab, but it will never go away.
It's the ones left behind who suffer the most when the yin and yang are separated.
97 years, my cousin is still studying in college, one day my aunt and uncle received a call from the Public Security Bureau, let them go to a hill to recognize the body, from then on opened the nightmare of their two old man.
Cousin do not know what reason, chose to jump off the cliff to commit suicide, until now everyone does not understand why, good end of a person why suicide? The family conditions are not bad, the aunt is the director of commerce and industry, on his a child, from childhood, not worry about food and drink, the body does not have any problems, relatives secretly guessed that may be in the university to talk about the object of frustration it, otherwise can not find other reasons.
I remember when I went home and saw my aunt lying on the bed with her eyes full of tears, mumbling why, people are in a semi-comatose state, so that people look really good
Not to mention that as parents, such as our cousins can not accept, not to mention that they?
After that, every year we are responsible for going to the cousin's grave, aunt and uncle is not to go, every time that time they are heartbroken.
By now, more than 20 years have passed, aunt and uncle two people's health is deteriorating, and no one around to take care of, often hospitalized, are relatives to help each other, if there is no relatives, I really do not know how they do? Poor ah
The white hair people send black hair people, how can this life forget it? This is their heart and soul ah!!! Too painful!
Do not dare to think, do not dare to think back, April 9, 2019, the nightmare of my life began, the morning to send my son to kindergarten, the child is not right, walking to one side, drooling, dull eyes, a demented phase, at that time, I have been scared to cry, hurriedly shouted on the father of the child to bring the child on the county hospital to check the need to do the nuclear magnetic *** vibration examination of the brain, the child is not a little bit. not cooperate, suddenly feel a little bit I can not write, forget it, immediately we rushed to the nearest hospital of Southwest Medical University, to give the child intravenous sedation, played a brain ct. found that the child's brain stem on the growth of tumors, the doctor gave me a little bit of hope, he said, maybe it is a cyst it, we also rushed to the Children's Hospital of Chongqing, where the doctor directly to us, the heavenly master are Can not, I instantly slept on the floor, the whole body is weak, heart like a knife, I hurt ah! April 11, we are not dead and took the child to Beijing's Tiantan Hospital, where, directly pronounced the death sentence of my child, the operation can not be done, do a good result is also a vegetable, and 100% recurrence, I do not want my child to suffer, can only take the child to go home, after returning home, the child brought back to my parents, has been my parents to help me, accompanied by my child, my life. Accompanying my child, the darkest moment of my life has been my parents with me, my father to the child to ask for traditional Chinese medicine, to the child to find fortune-telling to play the whole, can think of all to the child to do, alas! I don't want to write again! The heart is sad! Do not dare to be too sad, the child left me in the hospital on May 29, the child's afterlife is also my father and friends to get, even the child's small cemetery is also my father to choose their own mountain, then asked the child's father, the child is already more than five years old, can not afford to be sent back to their hometown, the child's father did not agree, forget it, the child itself does not like to go back to their hometowns, the child is sick, but also with us, do not! The child is sick and has told us that he doesn't want his father to pick him up and won't go back to his hometown with his father! It's good to have my son's wish! Before I have never known where my son is buried, but also a few months ago my friend took me to see, my family did not tell me where my son is buried! I know after also quietly alone to see him, behind the back of my parents, the child is gone, I sued the child's father in August to divorce, asking for the second child to return to me, the eldest son is sick when the second child is only four months, I am also still in the period of maternity leave! Almost depressed, fortunately my parents have been with me!
But I was not depressed, but I had a myocardial infarction, and the doctor said that the grief was excessive! I don't want to! Now I do not dare to die, after the death of my children, my parents how to do? The day I complete my mission, I will go to accompany my big baby, to him owed! I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life! I miss you, my son!
When my cousin got his acceptance letter from Sun Yat-sen University, our whole family was overjoyed, and my uncle was more than happy. But a few days later the hospital physical examination of a piece of paper lab report, but the family pushed into the dark abyss.
"Leukemia, no way! How can a cousin get leukemia? I don't believe it!" When I heard the news, I yelled at my mom. But it was clearly written in black and white: this bone marrow consideration of acute leukemia is more likely, the diagnosis, please consider in conjunction with clinical considerations.
I watched my cousin grow up, he is a smart, well-behaved and obedient child, the only shortcoming is that the body is relatively weak, often cold. My aunt spent a lot of effort on him. Either give him supplemental nutrients, or stewed soup for him to drink.
Looking at the cousin lively growth, everyone is very pleased, he is the only son of the family.
The good thing is that there was such a big change before the beginning, and the aunt and uncle were worried about their hair overnight. From then on, the uncle and aunt took a leave of absence from the organization to accompany the child to Guangzhou for treatment, and the couple took turns to take care of the cousin.
After several rounds of chemotherapy, my cousin's hair fell out, and sometimes he whimpered in pain in the middle of the night, and my aunt was in tears.
The doctor said that the best way to control the disease is to go to the Beijing hospital to change the bone marrow, if you want to do it properly.
Auntie and uncle didn't think about it, borrowed money and took cousin to Beijing.
The onslaught of SARS made medical resources very scarce. Many medical staff were busy fighting SARS. The cousin's condition was then repeatedly delayed. By July 03, SARS was under control.
But his condition deteriorated again and again, and in May of that year, he finally couldn't wait for a bone marrow match and passed away.
These are the first time I've ever seen a woman in the world who has been in the same situation as me, and I've never seen her in the same situation.
Once they met, they both cried a lot, back home, the aunt could not accept the reality of the cousin's departure, sitting at home all day long with tears, some of the spirit of the trance, a few times crying, and even fainted, a few times the aunt wanted to go with the cousin to leave, it is the uncle hard to stop down.
Uncle forced to bear the pain to comfort the aunt, but the two said and hugged each other and cried.
Two months later, the uncle finally felt that he could not go on with the pain, so they rented a house in the city. Every weekend they came back to take a look, and every time the pain was so bad that they couldn't speak. Every year, they preferred to spend the New Year out on their own, rather than return home.
Uncle said: the child is gone, our year is gone, now waiting for the end of life, can meet with him to the nine springs.
Now that his cousin has been gone for 17 years, if he is alive, he should get married and have children, and his aunt and uncle can hold grandchildren. But now the aunt and uncle are dependent on each other, and the days are lonely and cold.
This is a kind of pain that only the person concerned can y understand, the person who has passed away has been relieved, and the one left behind is the most painful! If you ask the world's parents who is the most bitter, the heart of the parents of the loss of the most painful!
My cousin and I the same year, my second uncle's son, than my older month, 2011, when he was more than 20 years old, has been working in Shenzhen this side of a daughter about two years old in Shenzhen, my aunt with, and then his wife was pregnant with a second child said to send home to raise the fetus of the daughter to take back to bring, and then that day, they went to the family to eat at my brother-in-law's house, but also called my parents! also go over, eat lunch, his mother-in-law called to urge them to come back quickly, it was summer, very hot, they eat dinner to go, my mother they said, so big sun, rest and then go, they still insisted on going, and then out of the doorway of the road where the turn and a truck collided with a tragic, basically completely disfigured, a family plus the stomach of that four, all dead on the spot, they rode the Motorcycle, that intersection had several accidents, my parents rested in the brother-in-law there will also be ready to go back, out to see an intersection surrounded by a lot of people, my mother was panicked, the more into the more I know they are, very bad, my second aunt they immediately rushed back from Shenzhen, crying dead, a few days and nights do not sleep and do not eat, since they are gone, really not see the smile on their faces for many years, when I was a child to go to their family New Year's visit, I was very happy to see them, and I was very happy to see them. Since they left, really so many years can not see the smile on their faces, when I was a child to go to their home to pay homage to the kind of smile these years have not seen! Now they have been gone for nine years, I feel that time still can not be smoothed out! After many years, my mother said, my cousin never said to call my mom they went to dinner, but that time also called, is it fate is this way!
I have a cousin, 24 years old, married with twin daughters, did not wait until the child will speak, people because of an accident car accident.
Cousin is a college graduate, and my cousin's wife is a classmate, the two belong to the first on the bus after the ticket, there are children to get married, married to the cousin's sister-in-law's family factory work. (Cousin's wife's family is richer, father is open factory) The day of the accident, everything is very ordinary, everything is very ordinary, but the child cried non-stop.
After the accident, I heard my parents say, my cousin's family has been all collapsed, cousin uncle and cousin aunt cried to the fainting, sister-in-law is holding the child to cry to not out of breath, the heart is like death.
Later, the cousin uncle said my cousin came back to dream, let the family are living well, let sister-in-law and then see if there is a favorite object, find a good man to marry. The cousin's sister-in-law then directly took the child to my cousin's grave and cried for three whole days, refused to go, also said that no matter what will bring up the child, will not let them change their surnames.
People's memories are time, but some people's memories are probably really can not forget, cousin left, cousin uncle and cousin aunt family are quiet, every day to take care of the child is busy making money, the two children are now only 4 years old, do not know anything, and the two of them are already more than 50 years old, but also can accompany the child a few years? Just can only make more money to the child to save, so that they have a dependence in the future.
Every time someone accidentally in front of the cousin uncle and aunt talked about cousin, the two people white hair under the boil to the red eyes are tears, do not say a word, but who knows they are still in the heart of the pain, still thinking about their own children.
My dad left, my grandmother a few days do not eat, do not drink and do not sleep, almost have to enter the hospital. In the end, my uncle couldn't stand it anymore and forced the village doctor to help my grandmother with fluids. At that time, we were all very sad, and we were so immersed in grief over the loss of our father that we didn't have time to think about my grandmother. The first time I saw this was when I was a little girl, and it was a little bit of a long time ago.That year, my father, who was not yet 60 years old, was diagnosed with liver cancer. We never thought that the word "cancer" would come to our closest relatives one day. We always thought it was a distant thing, something we had heard about. But it caught us by surprise and made us lose our beloved father.
I remember when I got the test report, we couldn't believe it was true, and I didn't dare to tell my dad. The first time I saw this, I had to accept the cruel fact that I had to go to the hospital to get my own medical care.
At that time, my brother and sister-in-law are at work, and my sister-in-law is pregnant, there is no way to go to the grocery store, so my father came out to help buy food to cook.
My brother also wanted to take this opportunity to show my dad what his oldest son was doing out there.
I also want to take this opportunity to accompany my father, after all, since my brother left home to go to school, father and son have not been properly together.
It was the first time my dad left his hometown, and it was the farthest he had ever traveled. I was thinking that my dad, who had worked hard for most of his life, would finally be able to enjoy his life.
Only half a month after arriving in Shenzhen, my mom told my brother: your dad is too thin, you take him to the hospital to check the body to see why he is so thin?
Not to check do not know, a check on us scared: liver cancer in the late stages.
In fact, it is also our son and daughter of too much negligence, the last one or two years, Dad obviously on the thin, but did not cause us attention, always busy as an excuse, and even the New Year's Eve does not go home.
Dad quickly burst thin is a serious signal, just we missed.
This time, and this is the only time, Dad ended up in his brother only half a month after the life he had been longing for and looking forward to. Because the doctor said: Dad is too thin and both livers are hardened, there is no longer a need for chemotherapy.
So, we took dad back home for conservative treatment.
At that time, Dad's words we not only hid from Dad himself also hid from the grandmother, brother said to the grandmother is Dad in Shenzhen water and soil is not suitable to come back.
But the paper always can't hold fire, because my two aunts have come all the way back to visit my dad. This made my grandmother smell a little unusual, or perhaps it is a mother's instinct, she felt that there must be something she did not know.
Grandma secretly stopped my brother and said: children, you give me a word of accuracy, your father in the end how?
My brother then helplessly told my mother the truth, he also hope that my mother a little time buffer, or in the end not even a little thought preparation, that is the biggest blow.
Besides, as a mother, my mother has the right to know about this matter.
After hearing my brother's words, my mother could not return to her senses for a long time, and only mumbled, "How did you get such a strange disease?
That day, my grandmother locked herself in her room and told us not to disturb her, let her be quiet.
Dad's illness was a big blow to us as children, and it was not a big blow to Grandma as a mother.
The next day, the grandmother, who was already in her early 80s, seemed to be even older, and there was not a bit of energy in her face. She announced to us that she wanted to live with us and take care of dad together.
In fact, Grandma has been living with her little uncle. Now, she was thinking of living with us in order to spend the last part of her life with her elder son.
This is also their last time with each other.
Grandma's arrival showed us another side of Dad. He was like a child, and would "pamper" himself in front of Grandma.
The boiling of the Chinese medicine falls on the grandmother, and every time the grandmother has to watch the father drink before counting.
The Chinese herbal medicine is a very popular choice for people who want to drink Chinese medicine, but it's also a good choice for people who want to drink Chinese medicine.
And my dad has to drink three times a day, once a bowl, really drink to the human stomach. In the end, my dad didn't want to drink Chinese medicine anymore. Grandma in order to make my dad drink the Chinese medicine, every time is soft and hard, the final compromise, always my dad.
Maybe my dad can't bear to let my grandma worry about him at this age, or maybe this companion time is too precious, my dad is like he doesn't want to let my grandma feel bad, and then bitter medicine, as long as my grandma lets him drink, he will drink it even if he's not willing.
And my mother, always in my father after drinking the medicine, behind the back of my father secretly wipe tears.
I've seen my own son being tortured by the disease, and I can't do anything about it.
In fact, drinking Chinese medicine may just be our psychological comfort, and it has no effect on my dad's illness. Instead, it caused liver ascites, and my dad was hospitalized twice before and after in order to get the water out of his stomach.
But even this did not keep my dad.
But even that didn't keep my dad. He left more than two months later.
In the last moments, it was my grandmother who accompanied my dad. Grandma took my dad's hand and cried, "You are a good boy, why didn't God take me away and let you stay?
After dad left, grandma instead seemed calm. Just occasionally murmured: I this is what sin, God why take him away? He has suffered all his life, why not let him go?
When Dad was at the funeral, Grandma once again locked herself in her room. Maybe Grandma was like us, and as long as she didn't witness it, she could pretend that my dad was still there, that nothing had changed.
But we all knew it was just our prayers, and it would never come true.
After my dad left, my grandmother's energy was drained away. She went back to her uncle's house, and before she left, she asked for a set of her father's clothes, and said, "This is my son's clothes, and I didn't do anything for him when he was alive, so I'm going to take a piece of his clothes as a reminder of what I've been through.
Also said: how did not think to give your father a photo?
Yes, there is no photo of my father at home.
In fact, in our hometown, the people who died in the family, his clothes, shoes and socks, including bedding, will be thrown away or burned. The bed he slept on would then be thrown into a water pond.
Everything that was personal to him when he was alive will slowly disappear with him.
After this, Grandma became very ill, and it took six months of recuperation before she could slowly recover enough to get out of bed.
Perhaps these six months were a time for Grandma to reminisce about her son, and at the same time to soothe the pain of her loss. It was only after six months that the grandmother recovered from the pain of losing her son.
There are some pains that no amount of comfort from outsiders can help.
And we and Grandma, having lost the **** same relatives, experienced the same pain.
It is said that there are three misfortunes in life, one of which is: losing a son in old age.
My grandmother experienced the most unfortunate thing in her life, and the most unfortunate thing in ours.
After that, we could always see my grandmother secretly touching the old clothes that my father had worn.
Some pain can only be experienced by the parties themselves, some only hidden in the heart, and the most painful and most unforgettable is the white hair to send the black hair.
In the summer of 18 years, just recently married cousin suddenly got into a car accident, on the spot, people did not hear the news of the distant aunt on the spot fainted, was pinched to wake up, stagnant half a day, crying out a "my son", and then fainted, this time pinched in the middle of the person is not useful, had to call the 120 telephone number, and the police were not able to find a way out. The first time I saw the "I'm not sure what I'm talking about," I was able to get a good look at it.
Relatives and friends to help deal with the cousin's aftermath, the days aunt and wife do not eat or drink, stagnant, especially aunt, almost overnight white head, that distant uncle is also a moment much older, we are very worried about the aunt's spirit of the problem, so try to do everything possible to let the aunt cry out, and finally the aunt cried a lot of tears, cried loudly to the voice of the hoarseness.
Well, not long after the daughter-in-law actually found herself pregnant, and decided to give birth to this child, uncle and aunt is considered to be the hope of life again, carefully take care of the daughter-in-law until the birth of the good daughter-in-law successfully gave birth to a boy, is now half a year old. Aunt and uncle are now focused on raising this grandson.
Aoer, where have you been, my son? You're only 2 years and 5 months old, you can't even say your own name, baby mom now teach you: your name is Wu Zi Ao (Lunar Calendar October 29, 2016, 11:21) your father's name is Wu Tao, mom's name is Jia Zhaoxia, son, you have to remember clearly!
Mom didn't protect you, son, mom can't help you! Mom misses you so much The thought of no longer being able to hold you, no longer being able to pull your little hand, no longer being able to take care of you ...... Mom's heart hurts so much!
Baby, you've been gone for 27 days! Mom wants you so many days, every day mom is in pain, your a skimming a smile y stay in the heart of the mother, mom will not forget my Aoer, my favorite baby Mom will always love you!
Son, you're gone, mom thought of countless times if mom in the scene of the incident how to save you But ...... baby, you are still mercilessly taken away, I hate the sky and hate the earth ...... you can not come back after all! Mom's heart aches for my baby, where did you go now? I'm not sure if there's anyone there to take care of you, but I'm sure there's someone there who can. I hope that my baby, no matter where he is, can be free from disaster, healthy and happy ......
If God has mercy, please bless my son Wu Zi Ao from now on no disaster, Buddha blessing, Buddha mercy to leave my son a good place ...... Amitabha Buddha!
This is the first time I've ever seen a child in the world!
Ao child, mom knows everything is so out of control! If you can, mom is willing to use the rest of his life to work hard, I hope my baby we can continue to mother and child love, mom does not force you, as long as you are happy, mom is not reluctant to my son, I just hope that you will always be happy ......
The white hair people to send the black hair people is a lifetime of pain a lifetime of tears, a lifetime of forgetting can not be let go of the child is the mother's heart flesh, this kind of cuts the flesh, this kind of cuts the flesh. Mother's heart meat, this cut flesh of pain and pain only experienced cut flesh of the mother to know the cut flesh of the pain I am a loss of a single bitter mother, I lost my only child last lunar June 26, 10:00 a.m. and a few minutes of my child in a work accident accident, although the hospital all-out efforts to rescue, my child never woke up in the midday and left me forever Today is my child left me 8 months and 1 day This 8 months I think about day and night pain, living is really worse than death, I think about it, but I do not know what to do. I'm sorry for my child, because my family is not very rich, from the child with me did not let him eat well, drink well, wear good, did not let him enjoy the blessings of the day this pain and regret will be with me for life, until the moment I close my eyes