I am subjected to the deep poison of role models, can be said to have a long history. When I was a child, my mother said, "Look at your big sister how clever, do the flower insoles really beautiful." I also threw his favorite books and took the newspaper to learn to cut clothes, the results of the book how to cut the collar of the clothes, ashamed of themselves; father said: "three masters close to the ground scythe cut grass, the stubble is really flush." My hand gripped the sickle, arm practice acid, a production team, young and old to make the sickle technology I counted first, that year I was 13 years old; repair of farmland water conservancy, I take the Iron Maiden as a benchmark, trouser legs rolled up, pulling up a rack of carts of soil flying hairy legs wildly, sunburned face black skin curling; work, the leadership to let us learn about the national excellent teacher's advanced deeds, I took a look at it, touched by the tears, the psychological secretly vowed that I must be like Like him, I will dedicate my youth to the party's educational cause; when I got married, I took the good daughter-in-law in the mouth of the neighbors as a model, and decided to filial piety and respect for the in-laws, husband and mothering skills, so that people praise us as a five-good family.
Really, I'm not going to lie to you, that's what I think, and even more so, so at home I'm a good child and a good daughter-in-law, at school I'm a good student, and at work I'm an advanced individual. Except for not being able to dress up, I get compliments from almost every aspect. A girl who grows up under the example of a girl who later realizes that it is not naivety but innocence that defeats her.
After becoming a family member, my in-laws, who have dealt with the yellow earth all their lives, said: "Your mother's family has an orchard, and the pruning of our apple trees will be handed over to you later." When I heard this, I waved my hands, "I don't know how to do it, my father cut the trees." My father-in-law smiled and said, "Your mother's home is your home, and your mother-in-law's home is even more your home, and this is for us to live." I was confused, first of all, I really do not know, and secondly, my profession is a teacher, not a fruit farmer, I was speechless.
Once, the students made some mistakes, the leadership to find me a heart-to-heart talk: "Mr. Zhao, you have been our excellent classroom teacher, how can your class have such a problem today? You are not supporting your old brother's work. You can raise your opinions, but you can't jeopardize your work." I still don't know how I got out of the leader's office, as an old party member with more than ten years of party experience, how can I have mistakes in my work? I failed the party and the people of my training, too ashamed.
More let me doubly hit is to go to buy clothes, looked at a white dress, the store girl politely said to me: "Auntie, wear this navy blue it. We Zhuangjia people, wear this stain-resistant." I mumbled for a while, did not buy the dress, fled. The first time I saw this, it was a very good thing that I was so proud of myself!
I began to look at myself comprehensively, and I realized that I am a monster. Rural sister-in-law big chili dress, excellent teacher Hu Xiu Zhen's thin face, virtuous women's three from the four virtues of virtue, the only living is not themselves. Looking at the mirror . I am a stranger to myself. I gritted my teeth, stomped the ground with my heels, and said fiercely, "Get lost, role model. You've screwed me over." Since then, I have been living a life of "de-role modeling".
I hate it when someone's story is reported in the newspaper, and I don't even look at it. The first time I was forced to study, I thought: "It's not true, it's a god, it's not a human being," he said. When the TV is playing the moving figures of China, I don't watch it, almost none of the role models have a good ending, too bad, too hard to live, I can't bear to watch. I've cut myself off from role models, and I'm happy to live the ordinary life of an ordinary person. Mom, no role models of the day, it is the legendary paradise.
When I was nearly 40 years old, I suddenly felt that I live quite confused and boring, I stretched my neck to look forward to see the 70-year-old himself with the square dance army shaking dance, see snot old long his hand into the sleeve looking forward to his son and daughter-in-law grandchildren come back, because there is no their own all right chanting. Thinking of this, I suddenly dropped a few not yet muddy teardrops. I miss my role models a little. My role models, who is it? I've lived such a nasty, nasty life without you. Looking back, I realize that it is not the role model harmed me, but I blame those who have been the role model, who let themselves swallowed in one lump without discerning not combined with their own actual situation of the rigid application of it, their own living dust, but also put the blame to the role model it. The first time I saw this, I was able to get a good look at it, and I was able to get a good look at it, and I was able to get a good look at it.
So I firmly embarked on a long journey to find a role model.
I was able to see that the first time I saw the movie, I was able to see the movie.
I saw a young role model, 2008, Li Juan saved enough 5000 yuan, quit his job. So went to the south to work, fall in love and live. Memories of her life in Altay, written in three books, "Spring Ranch", "Front Mountain Summer Ranch", "Deep Mountain Summer Ranch", co-edited into "Sheep Road". Oh! How courageous a person, traveling, reading, writing, life, can do everything, can do everything colorful.
I also set an example in my mind. In Jiangshan, a literary friend called 'plain is true', after getting sick and having a kidney puncture, she still writes even after taking medication for a long period of time and sometimes not being able to remember whether or not she is taking it. Looked at her articles a series of fine marks, saw her won the honor of Jiangshan ten star editors, saw her photo on the bright smile. Sigh: a woman who can live so brightly under the torture of illness. Really, she is the goddess of my heart, my role model. Doesn't it deserve our admiration to live for ourselves and walk the path of life that suits us? I sincerely leave a message: "How many difficulties you are going through, I dare not think about it; how strong you are, I feel it between the lines. Thank you Jiangshan, let me know you, life bitter can still be so wonderful. Sincerely wish you health, happiness every day."
I take the initiative to look for role models, not to learn from the East, I draw strength from them, like them to choose to be true to themselves, to do what is right for them, and to learn from their attitudes in the face of life's suffering and frustration. I am not destined to become the second them, because I am myself, is to live a Phoenix Rising fire reborn themselves.
In this life, I am destined to be associated with role models.