I feel that I may not be suitable for a relationship, so I feel like I'm going to end up alone, so I'll tell you about my own mental process when I'm in a relationship.
The night of March 16th, I finished my elective course alone and silently, and suddenly I was told to go out for a drink, and just at first I was a little depressed inside, because it was with two boys I didn't know, and I thought it would be awkward, but my roommate said, "It's okay, it's not going to be awkward if I'm there," and I said, "Well, okay," he said. Back to see his first look is in the big live, it was raining, he wore a hat as I did, because see the stranger, the first reaction is not want to let others know that I am nervous. But he, think kinda strange, thought: this person how to go out still do not bring an umbrella ah, do not know to hide. After we walked to the gathering of the road are very quiet, because I am used to listening to others. After going to the side door to sit down, I also pleased that he did not sit across from me, because I am used to eating familiar people sitting across from me, although his roommate is also very strange, but at least often listen to the roommate mentioned him, and he talked more, unlike him, cold, did not say a word. After chatting later, I realized that he is the legendary so-and-so.
Once again, the game has become more and more interesting, and I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to get out of this one. （The main thing is that he is more interested in the back of the self-introduction, when he began to speak, I was shocked, wow! This voice is so Su ah, how to do is completely my favorite type ah! I dropped my chopsticks a couple of times because I was nervous, and wow, I realized that he was also yeah, you guys don't know, I was actually secretly looking at him, but they just didn't know it. They said they were going to drink and play fifteen fifteen, and I thought to myself, "Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! I don't even have the courage to play, I don't know where the courage came from, I even chose him to play with me, his roommate asked why he chose him, I even said against my will: because he reacted as slow as me! (Actually not really, because I only have feelings for him ah) Well, later I admit that I was wrong, he is also very good well, every time I lost. But then I won a few times, and I was super happy to see him drinking! Thought it was a real improvement for me, but then I realized that he had been letting me off the hook, and I was super pissed off, so how could I know about it? Okay, okay, I'm not really able to drink and I'm super sleepy. But still super happy. I walked back, and although I still don't talk much, I seem to be getting more and more interested in him. That night in bed, although very sleepy, but the heart is still bang bang deer colliding with the kind of happy, later also went to the big trade group to search for his name, sneak a peek at his page, wow! How so interesting, as if listening to songs and hobbies and so on with my similar yeah. I think that's when I really, really fell in love with him. The next day, to go to class, the roommate suddenly told me: his roommate praise you cute, want to add your QQ to know you, do you want to consider it. If before I usually have no feeling for this kind of thing, wow! But after hearing this sentence my whole heart is happy, how can there be such a person ah.
Behind the surface or very calmly said: Okay. Well take the initiative to add him after waiting for the time super nervous, will intentionally or unintentionally look at the phone, thinking, this person will not think I am not reserved ah. (Well, I admit that I really do not seem to be reserved to add him this matter) behind the original full of expectations that he agreed to take the initiative to find me, I did not expect that he actually did not! I'm not surprised he didn't! I'm a reverse psychology is very heavy Oh, then I'll take the initiative to find him well. After chatting, I realized, wow! This guy is my favorite type of talker! He's as cute as I am! Okay, okay, okay, I admit that those days with him to chat with me heart warming super happy. But then his attitude seemed to change, I thought it was because I scared him, or he had a girlfriend, that time is really super disappointed ~ back to convince myself not to go to you do not go to him, although there are a few times I really did not hold back, to see his attitude is quite cold I know that should be really do not like to chat with me. Then I am a person who is easy to be timid. I'm not sure if I'm a good person or not, but I'm not sure if I'm a good person or not. In order to show the determination I also specially find the roommate to go to a drink to pay tribute to it! My roommate was shocked at the time. But then she still called him before the roommate out, said: drinking how can not have a boy with it, although at that time inside some small resistance, (because see his roommate will not be able to help but think of him) but then think about it even if, looking for on the lookout for it. The latter drinking is really really drunk anyway. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on a new one, but I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on a new one.
This is my mental activity at that time, although the back we really together, but found that although the two people are very interesting, but not necessarily appropriate together, so separated, which has a lot of factors because he thought I was too strange, the back I did not explain anything, the first time to cross out a great deal of courage to talk about the relationship but to fail, so I think I'm destined to be alone in the end of the old man.