Has there ever been a moment in time that suddenly made you realize that the world is fake?

Many years ago I had a sudden emergency and was admitted to the hospital when I was already dying. I was pushed to the emergency room in the hospital aisle on a temporary bed.

My family helped me with procedures. I was next to a couple of doctors and nurses who were giving me an emergency exam.

For a while I couldn't hear what they were saying, it was as if the world had gone quiet, a feeling I've seen in some movies.

They scratched and pinched me, and the stethoscope came over, and the eyelids were flipped and photographed, and I could see it, but I couldn't feel the touch. I wanted to talk, but could not say anything. Gradually, the brain went blank.

In the end, the only trace of consciousness I have left is that all the life only relies on the only trace of air left in the chest to lift.

I know in my heart that if I can't get my breath back, I'll be dead.

I knew in my heart that if I didn't get my breath back, I'd be dead.

After the rescue, I was lying in the hospital room. Already better, although at that time also can not say words, but the heart is clear. When I saw the people and things in the ward and the light outside the window, I suddenly, feel that the world is so false, is so magical.

I think I used to work so hard, stay up late every day to pursue my dreams, always feeling that I have to do something for my family for the expectation and affirmation of others. How childish and scary is this idea of making a name for yourself .

I don't know if I was close to death with this illness, but at that moment I knew that if I died, it would only be an extremely small, small enough that there would be no ripples of chance, and that I would be no big deal to the world and to other people.

All human life is like this, a rush towards death. Barely come and go without a care in the world.

But what is it that makes my heart once also burdened with all sorts of miscellaneous things?

For a long time, I was alone in the hospital room quietly thinking about these things.

One morning, I recovered enough to come down and walk around, so I stepped out of the corridor, and the scene in front of me was unforgettable.

Because I was hospitalized in a ward for cardiovascular diseases.

Because I was hospitalized in a ward for cardiovascular diseases, there were very few young people there, and the whole corridor was full of elderly people who couldn't walk and limped, who were weak and had dull eyes.

They were walking in twos and threes in the long, dark aisles. Because of the disease walk very slowly, some limp, that scene is really like hell. It was as if I saw the end of the world, the end of everyone.

At that moment I felt that people are completely equal in front of the disease and old age, there is no difference. The first time I saw this, I felt like I was in the end of the world, and I could see the end of the world.

The next ward also came from time to time a variety of painful groans and wails. I went over to see is an old man, has been to the dying moment, because he is too painful, he has been completely unable to take care of themselves, can only look at the ceiling on the hospital bed, open mouth, wailing, his eyes are not even desperate, only left numbness.

He kept on wailing miserably, and the loved ones around him could not do anything to call the doctor to come and there was no way to alleviate his pain.

This shouting accompanied me every day. During this month-long stay in this hospital. I reflected on the values of my entire life.

Sometimes the world you think is real is precisely the world you are addicted to.

We are habitually addicted to certain moments, like going to and from work every day and working like crazy. For example, every day is in the heart of the fight, and I'm not sure if I can do it, but I'm not sure if I can do it. Some people are calculating every day, how to earn more money, how to fool others, how to be able to climb up to the top.

That's how we get so caught up in all of this that we think it's the real life.

What we don't realize is that all of this is just an illusion that we have created in our minds.

I often ask a wise friend. I have always asked a wise friend, "Is this life that you can touch and see and enjoy a fake one? These can bring people countless happy indulgence happy difficult are false?

He said: When you put it down, it is false. When you get lost in it, you take it for real.

I asked again: how can I let go of them?

He replied: this letting go is for you to see them clearly, to feel through them, to face them truly, not to be blindly addicted.

When you really feel through them, you know there is nothing you need to put down, because you really understand them you will not be addicted to them. You have to know that desire or not, wealth, fame, beauty . They are not at fault, they are just you.

It is you who are building your own world with your delusional mind. So what your mind is like is what your world is like. From this perspective. There is no reality in the world, it is just a manifestation of the delusion in everyone's heart.

I asked him: Is it true that everyone has to go through the process of seeing these scenarios as if I were in the hospital with a major illness, to understand that everything in life is an illusion, and that it is not something that can be forced on us?

He said: If there is a so-called God, this God is very competent.

He said: If there is a so-called God, this God is very competent, because he keeps giving hints to all the people every day.

Every falling leaf you see, every sad story you hear, someone around you leaving you, all kinds of unsatisfactory things are happening. Flowers bloom and fall. Personnel change. This is all God's tips to you, he is always telling you the world is not the same thing is real and eternal.

Last year today in this door, the face of the peach blossom smile reflects red, the next two sentences how to say?

I said: the face of the people do not know where to go, the peach blossom is still laughing at the spring breeze!

He said how well written these 4 sentences are. We always think we have everything. But we can't figure out that it's just something we're using and experiencing for the time being.

Not one thing, not one thing in this world is truly yours.

So when you take both hands and keep grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping and grasping. You still have to let go of your hands all together.

Not only are your hands going to be loose, but your feet are all straight and your eyes are closed. All that you have in the world that you think is yours is going to go away from you.

That is the biggest joke of life. It is also the greatest truth. If you look forward from this point, standing at this point of death. This life this world is untrue. This untruth is because. We do not see everything with a true heart.

If there is a person who keeps his mind on that point of death at all times in his life. Then look at it with his vision. The whole world and his own life. All will be clear and definite as never before.

For to be born is to die. Zhuangzi said, square birth is square death. The meaning is probably the same. When you overlap life and death together. It would be the same as having no life and no death.

When there is no birth and no death. Do you think that all those grudges and feuds, you chasing me, bitter entanglements, joys and sorrows, life and death are still real? All still need you to obsession? All still worthy of your drunkenness?

I said: No wonder the Buddha said in the Diamond Sutra. All the existing law, such as dreams and bubbles, such as dew and electricity.

He said: the world is illusionary, so as to show the true ah!

True and illusion, but we barely used to describe this feeling, in fact, a person why cling to what true and illusion, true and how, illusion and how?

There are also some people who use the illusion to repair the real, there are also some people who use the real line of the illusion, come and go is not so, a such as to come, such as not come, such as the real one such as the non-real, not real not illusion, that is, the real that is the illusion, only is the scripture.

So the Taoists say real people: the ancient real people, do not know to say life, do not know the evil death, its out of not happy, its into not distance; hastiness, hastiness, hastiness, just carry on."

I asked: how then can I become a real person.

He said, "It is natural to be a real person. When the delusion is extinguished, the original unfolds. So to be able to realize that the world is not as real and as unbreakable as we think it is, that's a good start.

You have to know that in this world, there is no relationship between people that is long and unbreakable, there is no banquet that is not going to be broken, there is no face that is not going to be old, there is no body that is not going to be decayed, there is no ocean that is not going to be replaced, there is no cloud that is going to be fixed in the sky, there is no laughter that is not going to be terminated, and there is no pair that is not going to be finished. ......

We say that it is illusion, but not obsessive pessimism in this illusion, to know that this illusion, but also a relative illusion, not absolute illusion, we are in such an illusion, honest plowing, Taoist law of nature, simple and plain living, which is the illusion of the real, as if the fire in the refining of gold, the real is really good, the illusion is also illusion of the wonderful!

That happened in 2016, I was repairing the old house, the eaves of the tiled house in disrepair suddenly broke, I fell from the roof to the ground, bleeding from the mouth and nose on the spot, dying.

I don't know how much, I can't run my mind, as if I heard my wife and sister's howls ringing from my ears and then slowly drifted into the distance ...... and then surprisingly quiet, quiet enough to a needle falling to the ground can hear the sound of the sound, a little scary. In front of my eyes suddenly appeared a strong light, with the beam of light slowly enlarged, and then quickly gushed out, turned into a round tunnel, the end of the tunnel exudes a powerful force, to make me light, as if the body left the physical body to fly up, floating in mid-air. That mysterious power was guiding me, and I could suddenly see, and I could clearly see everything that was happening around me in mid-air! I was lying in the ICU ward, my body was full of tubes and instruments, and I couldn't feel any pain in my body, the doctors and nurses were resuscitating me! I stayed floating in the air and I don't know how much time passed before I slowly heard a cacophony of noises and then suddenly had a splitting headache! I fell heavily into the flesh! Shortly thereafter, there was immense pain all over my body. I saw a group of men attacking me with clubs, I pleaded for help and fought back in horror, I could no longer fight back, I was injured all over my body and fought back desperately but was firmly grabbed by a couple of men and tied up. Then the brain like a broken piece of film into a blank again ......

After three full days in a coma, I finally opened my eyes eyes. But it was strange, every day the ward was only my son and a female classmate, and I could not recall her name. I couldn't move my legs, but fortunately my internal organs were unharmed. The area on my head where I fell was severely waterlogged, and the doctor explained that I should observe for another day or two, and if the water did not show signs of subsiding, I would have to undergo a craniotomy. Every day, I had a splitting headache, and the pain was so severe that I was shaking like crazy and lost my mind, and I could not control my behavior and howled at the top of my lungs! My son and the doctor had to tie me to the hospital bed!

Then the doctor said I was lucky, a body of muscles to protect me, so that when I fell down to play a cushioning effect, the human body like a rugby ball has elasticity, internal organs did not hurt. And after a week of active treatment by the doctor, the water in my head was slowly pumped out, without having to do open heart surgery. I was finally completely out of danger.

After staying in the hospital for more than a month, I was discharged. The injury to my head gave me temporary amnesia, with some things remembered and some things completely forgotten. Until I was discharged from the hospital, I only recovered part of the memory, some sober, only to understand the article at the beginning of the scene of a strange experience is another false world, and even I have been unable to remember who the "female classmates" turned out to be my wife! I lived in the false world for a whole month, I finally returned to the real world.

After this life and death catastrophe, I have a lot of life, put down a lot of life is more positive, and efforts to do rehabilitation training, spent two years, the legs to recover to normal walking, although the memory is not fully recovered, such as meeting acquaintances, especially familiar but can not call the name of it; sometimes remember something, bring a pen and paper, but I forgot how to write the word; look at the plate often eat the food, but also forgot the name of the dish, etc., but it is not the case that I can not remember the name of the food. I have forgotten the name of the dish, but these do not affect my serious life.

Life is very fragile, please cherish the people around you, cherish the time, live well.

I have a lot of cousins, only a pro aunt, aunt at the age of 49 years old that year a rainy night in the beginning of spring, a sudden illness only ten minutes on the death. When I saw my aunt, do not believe that she is gone, I shook her vigorously, called her to wake up, she also talked to me yesterday, she must be tired, fell asleep, she will not leave us. I cried my heart out with my cousins, calling out to my aunt, thinking that she would wake up. But my aunt never opened her eyes again, quietly, forever asleep ....... When I was helped out of the room, see the sky that moment, think the sky color is not the same as usual, covered with a layer of light gray and yellow. I also mechanically move, feel that I am not me, this world scenery are lifeless, mechanical hollow existence, the world as if false. A moment of aimlessness, lost the meaning of life.

For a long time, my mind was filled with my aunt's voice and laughter, and my ears heard her voice and my cousins' wailing and crying. The first thing I want to do is to get the money to pay for the work I'm doing, and then I'm going to have to pay for the work I'm doing, and then I'm going to have to pay for the work I'm doing, and then I'm going to have to pay for the work I'm doing, and then I'm going to have to pay for the work I'm doing. The world is changing, the movement of the sea can be changed, the river rerouted to do the plains. People are just a part of the world flow, where to go, do not know. But also feel that there is an unshakeable and mysterious force manipulating the world, manipulating our destiny. Where do they come from? And to do what? Need human again explore, with the deep development of science and technology, the study of human potential, deep excavation, understand the perception of understanding the universe, understand the perception of human past future.

I was twenty years old when I went to work, every day at noon in the unit cafeteria to eat, so every day at seven o'clock in the morning to go to work, to six o'clock in the afternoon to home. After I got married, I once heard my mother say, she once at noon cooking, accidentally touched off the kitchen knife, coincidentally just fall on the top of the foot, and is the blade, the equivalent of a knife, when the blood flowed a lot of my brother was at home, and he shouted in panic on the neighbors to send my mother to the hospital, disinfection and suturing a series of operations and then go home, at home for several days can not go. When she finished, I was stunned, this thing how I have no impression at all? At that time, I went home every day, there was not a day that I did not stay at home, and it was not even a few years later, so how come I have no memory of it at all? I think I am a very careful person, I have no memory of such a big thing? I am puzzled, I do not have amnesia ah, I am very normal, I asked my brother for confirmation, my brother also confirmed the mother said this thing. Until now every time I think of it, I can not understand, am I not me? Or I have been in a parallel world?

Yes, there has been this feeling?

Everything in front of me seems to be false, a flash, the feeling of entering another space.

At the end of last year, I was admitted to the hospital, stayed 10 days, woke up one day not a moment, suddenly feel around the people are looking at me unsuspectingly, but I turned my head, they moved away from the line of sight, the point is that this scene is déjà vu, as if it had happened.

At the end of last year, I was sent to the hospital in a really serious condition, I did not sleep for 15 consecutive days at night, because as soon as I lay down, it was difficult to breathe, coupled with a variety of symptoms, there are leg soreness, as long as you lie down your legs on the heart of the soreness, nosebleeds, stomach ache, eat food to eat as much as the amount of vomit, itchy all over the body, and I don't know why I can carry on for so long before going to the hospital, I don't know how I can carry on so long before going to the hospital. I only know that every day with a tissue stuffed nose helpless, and every night lying in bed because you can not sleep has been looking at the ceiling in the end to ask why this to me, the night is like the devil in general in a little bit swallowed me.

15 days later, completely unable to top, even standing is a kind of pain, contact the car, took a few hours of driving to a hospital in Guangzhou, into the first day of a large number of doctors and nurses around, immediately give me a blood draw, as well as checking the blood pressure, I'll be half-sitting (there is no way to lie down) to watch them busy, the doctor said that what is basically do not hear very clearly, a period of time after the report of the blood draw out, and then hear what too many toxins, and then the report of the blood.

These are the first time I've ever seen a woman with a heart attack, and I've never seen a woman with a heart attack before.

I saw another world.

Because the surgery needs to be scheduled, the fastest can only be the next day, so that night still have to get through, half lying on my side, I'm very sleepy, really sleepy, confused, suddenly the body can not move at all, but the consciousness is very clear to feel that the balcony that the door seems to be open, there is something to go through the door drilling over the general, as if there is a layer of membrane in the side of the block, and that guy has been drilling! Drill drill drill, even have been able to feel the other side of the hideous face, I was chilled but can not move, trying to get out of this predicament, my heartbeat seems to jump to the throat, "Boo" sound, the membrane broke, it came over, although I can not see it, but clearly sensed that it came over, closer and closer until it tapped my shoulder, and finally saw a shadow. I finally saw a shadow drilled into the bottom of the bed, at that time, I was hard, a cold from head to toe, goosebumps instantly exploded, the kind of body can not move the state of unlocked, that sense of the world also slowly closed, turned his head to look at the same ordinary balcony door, would like to climb down to look at the bottom of the bed, but I was afraid of it, so afraid.

The next day when I woke up, I told my father what happened last night, but he did not think it was nothing, just then, last night that the bad cold appeared again, I unconsciously shivered, and then I felt as if the whole world is different, the surrounding eyes are looking at me, the kind of eyes full of malice, when I turned to look at those who live in the same ward as me when the patients, but found that their heads were all When I turned to look at my fellow patients in the same ward as me, I realized that their heads were turned elsewhere, and it was strange.

I grabbed my dad's hand and looked at him, "Dad, I had a dream last night, that dream." Not finished, I looked at the time 9:20, when again turned his head over, the nurse trolley over to the IV, can only first sit down and stretch out his hand for her to play, just after playing want to say to Dad again, the consciousness seems to have been withdrawn from the general, I looked at the left hand uncontrolled to the right hand to play the place of the IV, which is going to do what?

My left hand slowly reached the needle and tried to pull it out, but my dad held me back and asked, "What are you doing?"

But I completely ignored him, and kept trying to pull the needle out, the nurse looked at the wrong, and pulled the needle out, and then immediately called the doctor over, that will be the body has been doing some incredible actions, repeat stand up, sit down, turn around and look at my dad, and mouth recited: "Hello, who are you? " "I'm so-and-so." "Heh heh heh"

And the consciousness is another state, those people's eyes have been watching me, still the ward, just no IV, but the mind told me here are some rules, to make the right one, to return to the body, to speak here, all to say the opposite, for example, hello, to say good you, and to say the wrong word. And as long as you say a word wrong, you will start again, I looked at the time 9:20, to the father began to say, but because the first time to say, not accustomed to, immediately said the wrong, and then the eyes of a black, completely unable to see, panicked, I do not know how to do, but at this time, but notify me to do the body to do the three movements, and think back to their own in the end, why did you do it?

This is not very simple, but think more, wake up again, and returned to the previous sitting, those eyes are still watching me, but seems to have forgotten something in general, remember to look at my father, as if there are still three actions, and then began to do the three actions, do do suddenly want to think of something, why do so, a stop, and want to turn around and tell my father, the eyes are black again, and again! When I woke up, I was still back to the way I was before.

Consciousness is trapped, the body goes crazy

So the consciousness has been circulating, while the body is outside the beginning of the wrong, did a long time after the three movements, suddenly stopped, after the nurse played the sedation needle, stopped, lying on the bed with his eyes closed, the crowd thought it was okay, who knows 15 minutes after waking up again, began to speak loudly, and cursed, the nurse cursed, and then cursed at the doctor, and then cursed at the doctor. Nurses scolded, scolded the doctor, and then began to drop things, Dad has been pulling me on the side, that would have been unable to pull, a fist to his face, as if he saw what the devil generally, the mouth recited: "Dad, I want to save you."

Yes, this punch to the dad's eye socket swollen, but he still did not give up on me, dead hold me do not let go, no one else dared to come over, the doctor looked at the situation and said, "This is a very serious situation, or to send to the mental hospital."

Dad stopped refused, said there should be other ways, think of other ways, at this time I do not know where to get the strength, Dad whole person hanging on, can slowly out of the hospital room, began to walk in the corridor, want to go out, and finally in a group of people's help to play a sedative injection again, and finally quiet sleep.

Consciousness thought he was dead

Consciousness in that world, has been cycling, and even feel that this world is the real, has begun to live there, but always feel that something is wrong in general, but can not think of, and always feel that there is something to say to Dad, very suddenly the sight is all black, and then very clearly there is a voice to tell me you have died, now this world is no longer your world, what is the situation? Can not see anything I, do not know what the situation, so after a long, long time, has been invisible to me slowly and really accept that I have died this thing, I do not know how long, the light back again, found himself lying in a hospital bed, the body was tied by some tape, and again to see my father, who was also looking at, I said: "I'm not dead? "

Now that I think about it, I feel that it should be too weak, coupled with the body toxins are too high, resulting in hallucinations, and thought that the consciousness of that world is the real world, and now this world is false, after this experience, I feel that it is best to live in the present.

I remember when I was five or six years old, I was in the wheat field to guard the wheat, at noon, adults are home to cook, I lie in the wheat field next to the tree to cool off, and suddenly saw the sky directly in front of the sky there are two airplanes flying side by side, I can clearly see the five-pointed star on the plane, I can also see the pilot driving the plane, but strangely can not hear a little airplane roar, I rushed to the plane beckoned, and the plane is indeed! I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good look at this.

After the adults came back I told the adults to listen to this incident, they agreed that I was blurred, and then every time I think of this thing I am in a trance, I'm not sure is really see the plane or a dream.

My mother-in-law has always been in good health, and she didn't even have a common cold. One night, she suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and collapsed. By the time the ambulance came, she was already dying. She was sent to the hospital emergency room with only one breath left.

The doctor brought a few sheets for the family to sign, and we didn't even look at them. A few doctors scrambled into the rescue room, just two o'clock in the middle of the night, the hospital corridors are very quiet, only to hear their own heartbeat, began to be a little afraid.

The mother-in-law's condition is very bad, and I am afraid that she will not survive. In this short half an hour, I feel that life is very false, a good person how suddenly sick so serious, even a little consciousness. We were still talking and laughing during the evening meal, and I simply didn't believe that my mother-in-law would suddenly fall ill, let alone believe that she would pass away.

Half an hour later, the door to the emergency room opened and the doctor came out with a heavy face. We immediately got up, and before we even opened our mouths, we knew what the doctor was going to say. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing down my face, and the doctor shook his head and said, "I'm sorry for your loss."

Suddenly, my mind went blank. All I could think of was my mother-in-law, she was healthy, talking and laughing, how could she be gone? "This is all too fake, not true, my mother-in-law should be at home, she is still so young, more than fifty years old, her good life has just begun, it is impossible ......"

When I watched my mother-in-law's body being pulled away, I felt that she was still alive in this world It was all an illusion. When I returned home, I looked at my mother-in-law's familiar things, and the house was full of her shadow, but I just couldn't touch it, and I couldn't talk to her.

Until I finished dealing with my mother-in-law's aftermath, I still didn't believe that she would suddenly leave us. Time passed day by day, one less person in life is less, she will never be here, she completely left from our life, she went to another place, no matter how we miss, she will not respond.

Just into the fall weather is a little bit cool, I sat in front of the door under the acacia tree sitting aimlessly. Looking up at the sky, the sky is very blue, the clouds are very white, a large pile together, white like cotton. A gust of autumn wind brushed by, the leaves on the tree is not yellow, but also withered a few pieces, is the leaf also has life? Is the leaf also alive? Is its withering also leaving this world? The next year's new leaves grow, and another life, its life has been terminated.

The same is true of people, like the cycle of seasons, everything is new in the coming year, the only thing that remains the same is this world. It will not pause because of the loss of what, the day is the same day, the night is the same night, every season is the same cycle. Only the loss of life is never returned, life and death.

Everyone who comes to this world does not want to go, because there are too many tempting things. The world itself is also very beautiful, there are mountains, water, flowers and plants, who wants to leave!

Some people have a life for desire, fame, money, busy life, every day shuttle in the crowd, never dare to slow down, their own tired breathless. When you face life, only to realize that those things are too false, they only belong to this world, not belong to us personally, once the life is over, all is empty.

We live, there is always something to pursue in life, house, car, these are the necessities of life. These things are not easy to get, so we began to make money, buy their own favorite things, get what they want, will feel very adequate, as much as the need to be better, more things, including desire, fame and fortune, to give themselves to add gold plated silver, so that they become bright and shiny.

Do you think all those things belong to you? It's not. It is just an illusion, none of which you can take away. Therefore, the pursuit of material should be appropriate, beyond the scope of their own ability to things, do not touch, to get their own head, it is not worth it.

What really belongs to you? A healthy body accompanied by your life, a simple and happy family, will find the beauty of life, live every day, so that their life is not too much desire to be entangled, it will be much easier.

I remember once seven or eight years old in the countryside, and then saw a helicopter flying in our countryside, flying very low, and my brother said, he said I dreamed, the problem is that I have no rural television helicopters what looks like impossible to see ah, should not know is a helicopter. Now I don't know whether I really saw or dreamed.

In fact, everyone will find that the world is false if they think about it quietly, and there are many loopholes that God cannot justify. So human beings are basically living so sparsely that waking up is the day of death.