Gray plaid skirt
Some years of sunshine in the memory due to the accumulation of dust and blurred. At that time, I would wear a gray skirt and hide in a narrow corner with a blank stare, teasing the cat that didn't sulk or smile. He had gray fur. He was so humble that he didn't even have a name, and his black pupils dripped with the same disorienting color as mine. When I looked up, the color of the sky had long since been lost to memory, and the sky was filled with a dust-like solidity that pressed dully against me.
The cat was like me, no happiness no smile, gray fur.
I lived with my grandfather. Grandpa was a small-eyed man who didn't like to talk.
I had a mom and dad, but they rarely came to see me. I was accumulated like goods in this huge yard, with my hair disheveled like a beggar's child.
I never thought about candy. I wore gray plaid skirts all the time and couldn't even be bothered to change them. I was so misty-eyed that my grandfather frowned.
I was a Cinderella within!
The little boy next door, You Che, always liked to chase me and my cat with a tree branch in triumph. I never cried, and I usually lifted a rock and smashed his head full of blood.
Occasionally, standing in front of the mirror, I would stare blankly at the gray kid in it for half a day. I don't know what to think, just, how can't laugh. The first thing I'd like to say is that I'm not sure what I'm talking about. My cat was asleep one afternoon. That day I ended my childhood, shedding the gray plaid skirt, began to grow up with boundless pain.
Cooling Afternoon Tea
I was 9 years old when all of my grandfather's money was swindled away. Mom and Dad came back and sighed put a parcel of money on the table and left.
I stayed in hiding and refused to go out. I gritted my teeth.
Grandpa's temper got so bad that he would take it out on me at every turn.
I was used to holding back, I never cried. I endured the pain but secretly felt happy for my poor gray cat. It finally did not have to endure such sadness.
I have the habit of drinking afternoon tea, letting my drowsy head indulge in a moment of lucidity.
On top of that, every afternoon Grandpa was always away from home.
During that time, I liked to rummage through the cupboards and find all kinds of tea leaves, mixing them together to savor that very odd taste.
You Che is no longer the bossy little villain who liked to bully others, and he always sits next to me with a meek gaze.
No one speaks.
With a little interest I tilted my head up to look into his eyes, and with him we met the battered cat. I just now named it: Ash.
He smiled apologetically, before, I also treated it badly.
You Che is two years older than me, in his first year of school, and surprisingly well-mannered.
After the afternoon tea is cold, You Che suggested that I put some sugar, I finally refused with a smile.
Green mailbox
The mailbox in the yard seems to have become the exclusive use of Yuchu, every day on time, there is a pile of letters.
I was always responsible for getting the letters for him. I slowly learned that the pink envelopes must be from some PL girl, while the others were from some editorial office.
I was a little jealous of You Che and said, "Why do you have so many letters~"
You Che slightly curved his eyebrows and revealed a very nice smile. I'm very sensitive to pretty things, throw my head and run away.
That night I was severely beaten for accidentally knocking over a glass. I bit my lip firmly. A vicious curse was hurled at Grandpa. He hit the chicken feather duster on me hard and hard. I swooned and whirled. I had gotten used to it. But You Che ran in and stopped my grandfather. He said something hard and dragged me out.
Luckily, I'm not fat, and You Che didn't have to exert much effort to drag me to his house.
I heard my grandfather's cursing voice from afar, hissing throughout the night.
You mom is a very kind woman. She medicated me.
I laughed cruelly.
You Che said Mo Mo, why did he hit you, why did he.
In my last life, I had a grudge against him.
That night, I shed a lot of tears. Looking at the sleeping You Che on the sofa, I suddenly wanted to jump up and call my brother. No one has ever loved me that much. I've never been able to do that before.
When I went to get the letter, I found a pink envelope that clearly said Su Mo received.
I cheerfully opened it and saw that it was written in big red letters: You have to be happy.
Oh, You Che this fool.
You Che is a fool
At the age of 14, Grandpa died.
I kneeled in front of his seat and suddenly thought how nice it would be for him to get up and hit me a few more times.
It's a good thing that he's dead, because if he's dead, I don't want anyone. My mom and dad don't want me. They have their own life their own business. Their indifference, as if it is a burden.
I really don't want to be a burden. I really don't want to be a burden.
When they came to pick me up, I shut the door behind me.
When they came to pick me up, I closed the door behind me.
It was a two-hour standoff, and they finally left with the money.
The house smelled like mold, and I couldn't stop my tears from falling. I don't know anything. What the hell am I going to do. My cat, where are you.
I went out and bought a cat, with gray fur as usual. I called it Ash.
You Che squatted beside me and accompanied me to feed it fish.
You Che was already very, very tall. He has grown up to be more and more handsome. I secretly looked up at his side and couldn't help but like it. So I ate and laughed.
"Mo Mo, what's wrong with you."
"Nothing nothing."
"Ash looks so much like an African refugee."
"Right~ Ash. My Ash."
At that time I basically did not read. I didn't know what my future path should be. I was all alone in a small house, without my own heaven but willingly confined to my own hell.
Report card sent down ah days. I also ruthlessly dumped a boy in the class a mouth. The teacher huffed and puffed and came to the small courtyard where I lived to find my parents.
I said, "Not at home."
"Where did you go?"
"To work."
The teacher then waited very patiently, and very late still no one stepped into my house.
Then Yuchul came.
The teacher waited patiently.
After the teacher left, Yuchu pushed me down hard on my desk. It was the first time he was that rude.
"Why did you fight!"
And for the first time, my stubbornness was bowed.
"He called me names."
"Cursed you for what."
"Scolded me for being ugly and for not having a father or a mother. He didn't believe me when I told him I had one. He said lying! But I really have a mom and dad! Whether they love me or not is another matter! It's a fact that I have a mom and a dad, isn't it, You Che? I still have Ash!"
You Che froze, and I burst out crying.
My whole sky collapsed. I really can't be brave anymore. My You Che he was determined to hurt me. He also thinks I am a troublesome girl right?
You Che rested my head on his shoulder. I stubbornly avoided.
You Che said, "Mo Mo, you still have me! Right no. I'm your brother, I'm your brother ah, remember, no matter what, don't cry in the future. ok?"
I looked up to stop crying, "You Che you will protect me?"
"Yes."
Afterwards, You Che opened my blank workbook and watched me write one question at a time.
Suddenly the clock forgot to go
You Che that idiot, he actually ran to the school, causing those women in our class to start a very excessive comments: "That man is very handsome it, will not be indifferent who it ~ HOHO. really, it must be another have a mental illness of the guy ~"
I swatted the talkative woman and they scattered.
After all this time, they'd gotten used to my fierceness.
You Che tugged me away.
I said brother, you go first. I still have something to do.
Today I have to deal with Li Xiaoxi who was flattened by me the other day. She called someone and stopped me at the door. I can't let You Che see me fighting. His sister, she should be well behaved.
You Che, however, refused to go, and he insisted that I leave in one piece.
"Mo Mo, there are things to take you to see today ~ there are also things to give you."
I couldn't care less and ran away.
I ran wildly down the school entrance to the alley. Here You Che should not be able to find. Those people are already waiting for me.
Li Xiaoxi said, "Su Mo is very trustworthy."
I laughed coldly: "Li Xiaoxie how many people did you call, all on. I Su Mo is not afraid to die."
Li Xiaoxie cursed some unpleasant words, a large group of men came out.
The leader of the boys some difficult to say, why is to beat the girls, not good, spread out our face can not hang.
Li Xiaoxi said, this woman is more difficult to deal with than men, I gave you money, the rules of the road you can not rely on it. The first time I saw this, I was able to see the whole world, and I was able to see the whole world.
In fact, I do not want to fight at all. I don't want to fight at all. Especially today, you Che in, if I was beaten to leave traces of being caught by you Che I will die a horrible death, you Che will certainly punish me to copy the essay.
You Che ran to the dead when I pulled me out. Li Xiaoxi is sneered for a while: "Still called accomplices ah. A piece of beating."
Li Xiaoxi you a coward. I'm not going to be able to do that! Do not touch my brother!
When You Che pulled me out, both of us were swollen and bruised.
You Che suddenly laughed.
Hey hey.
You Che pointed to my nose and said, Su Mo you really have two tricks. I have long guessed your bottom. When I go home, I will go through two moves with you.
You Che brought me to a boutique. The boss was staring at the two of us for a long time before returning to his senses.
You Che showed me a crystal.
On the moon sat a very thin girl, and the boy stood far away watching quietly, so many circling birds.
"Do you like it?"
"Like it."
"I'll buy it for you."
"You Che, this is not good!"
You Che wrapped the crystal and put it in my hand.
While shivering, "It's a good thing I didn't buy it just now. Otherwise it would have been a disaster. Hey ~"
Later, You Che said to me seriously, "Su Mo, don't fight in the future. I worry about you.
You Che ...... I do not want you to worry about you know not? You know what? You Che, I like you ah I like you ...... but I really do not dare to tell you ......
circling birds
You Che took me to run to a very far mountain. You Che said, Su Mo, look, so many birds. Hovering over my head. You Che pointed at them and said Su Mo one day we will fly together like birds, okay?
I looked at You Che eyebrows clear, suddenly laughed out.
Ash then obediently squatted at my feet.
I suddenly wanted time to stay like this, and the world was left with me, Ash and Yuchu, as well as the boundless blue sky and hovering birds, the smell of green grass, and the faint fragrance of strawberries.
But Yuchu never knew, about I like him, I really really like him. In his mind I'm afraid I'll always be just a sister right, he will protect me as much as he protects Ash. But he will not really like me.
I secretly and Ash said Ash I love you I love you do not know ah?
Ash obediently in my arm, like the cat of my childhood. I suddenly remembered a long time ago Yuchu chased me with a small pitchfork, and I took a stone ah. I didn't think about anything at that time. At that time my life in addition to cats or cats, followed by the gray of the boundless wilderness.
I would often see a beautiful girl running, smiling and handing a pink letter to You Che. After that, Yuchul would blush. Red enough to make me feel sad. You Che never blushed when he saw me. Maybe, he really never thought of me as a girl. Yes, I'm not pretty, I'm not cute, I don't know what is called tenderness, I will only do everything to torture him.
The girl came more I went up to her and asked her name.
"Jingyi."
She answered nicely.
Jingyi. As if the heroine in the story of pure love, beautiful and skillful girl.
I was a little cynical about her beauty. But I also like her beauty, she is so exquisite that I can not bear to hurt. But she was so biased, so inclined to do so much to my Ash.
It seems like she's afraid of cats. She jumped up and down with nervousness.
I told her my Ash was cute. I told her my Ash was cute.
But Jingyi looked like an unearthly fairy, so proud that it was sad.
I screamed when she kicked Ash hard. She was pathetically hiding behind You Che.
You Che will definitely protect her, after all, she is such a beautiful girl. And my Ash, is the same gray Cinderella as me huh. Cinderella doesn't have a prince, she shouldn't be imagining things.
Jing Yi screamed, "Throw the cat out!" Without hesitation she kicks her foot into Ash's little tummy.
Ash.
I screamed in pain.
You Che shook Jing Yi off as hard as he could and said in a very fierce voice, "Don't touch it!"
Jingyi ran away.
I hugged Ash and cried. You Che gently patted my shoulder, "Desert, is it okay? It's okay."
I shook my head.
"Desert, I said I will protect Ash and you. Forever and ever."
Yuchul, is it true, really? Ash shifted a little in the crook of my arm, docile and meek. My Ash, did you hear that, You Che said he would love us ~ huh, Ash. He said forever ......
The Lost Story
Ash was lost for days before he came back. I was so nervous I cried for days.
When Ash came back, I hugged its neck. You Che looked at me.
"Mo Mo, it's been a few days since you've eaten. Good boy."
"I want to eat barbecued pork rice."
"I'll go buy it for you."
You Che got up and went out. The sun after the fall stretched his back long.
You Che went out and didn't come back.
He was hit by a car and hurt badly.
I suddenly got scared. I dumped Ash and ran. When I ran to the hospital, You Che had already bandaged his wounds.
You Che very reluctantly smiled at me. The bright sunlight outside the window swaying swaying, how do I feel that You Che is very far from death.
There was no one else in the hospital room.
I said, "You Che, I have a gift for you. You Che, close your eyes."
You Che closed his eyes.
I asked gently on his forehead. Tears fell in that moment.
You Che, will you help me feed the cat when you get better?
Yes.
I said you must get well, Su Mo is here waiting for you. You Che, you also said you want to protect me.
You Che smiled and nodded, smiling so beautifully. I engraved his smile in my heart, but how can not remember. Perhaps, he is too good. The dark valley is not able to hide the beautiful things.
I cried for a long time that day. I actually want to say: You Che, I like you, I really like you. I really like you!
Bird, falling
Ash screamed low.
"Auntie where are you going?"
I asked curiously as I looked over at the swim mom moving things.
"Moving house. I'm selling the house for Chul's surgery." Mama You has been so meek, I wondered if she knew that You Che got hit by a car because she went out to buy BBQ pork rice for me, a pest, would she slap me?
"Will You Che be okay?"
"......" She was so silent it scared me. Her eyes are so melancholy that it scares me. You mom don't be like this ah, tell me You Che will be fine he will be fine ah.
I started saving up. I even had the audacity to cheekily run to my mom and ask for money.
Then Ash actually got sick too.
I hugged Ash and whispered Yuchu's name.
I hugged Ash and whispered his name. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that. I'm not sure what I'm going to do if Ash and Yuchu die. Finally there is no one in the world who loves me. And anyone I love. You Che said he would protect us for the rest of our lives, Ash, do you remember?
Ash meekly lay at my feet and stopped wailing. My Ash, are you okay. When you and You Che are well we will go to play on that mountain together, where there are many birds of prey, hovering at the top of my life. Ash, okay.
I held the sick and grand Ash with money when I ran to the hospital. It was raining slightly, and the whole hustle and bustle of the city suddenly drowned in silence and died.
The beds are empty.
The heart is also empty.
Ash screamed, and then also died.
The rain fell outside the window, and the layers of sadness covered over. No one knows where the soul drifted to, no one knows.