One morning, she walked into the dance hall.
Although it was early, there were a lot of people. The lights were flashing and the atmosphere was intense. Pairs of dancers were like flowing vortexes, and she felt a little dizzy.
She walked to a seat near the center and sat down. Looking at the men and women here, she thought: they're probably all carefree.
The song ended and the seats filled up at once. They are all acquaintances, sit down and have something to say.
When the song started again, she was asked to dance, and she did so without excusing herself. She stepped on her partner's foot without paying attention, and immediately apologized with a smile. The dance partner said, "That's okay, it's been a while since you danced, hasn't it!" She said, "Yes."
After a few songs, she gradually became familiar with the dance point again and was able to dance freely.
After the dance, she walked out of the ballroom and felt a sense of relief as the breeze blew outside.
"Dancing is not bad, keep dancing." Li Guo thought so after a few trips to the ballroom.
She soon became familiar with the women in the ballroom, and she learned that most of these women didn't have a job, danced happily every day, and went back to their husbands to prepare a meal. She, on the other hand, had a job, housework, and violence from her husband.
She wondered how her fate could be so bad. Now she is falsely accused by a coworker, disciplined and told to rest at home. The good thing is that the salary is paid as usual. This makes her cold heart have a stabilization.
But she has to face her husband Wang Rui every day. He is like a king, a word on the foul language, scolded her bitch. The first time she talked back, she was punched and kicked.
She thought of divorce countless times, but she always choose to give up. Because she has children, she can not let the children have no home.
Once, she was beaten by her husband's ear lost hearing, she did not say the word divorce.
She only blamed herself for being blind and finding such a person to marry.
When she was young, after each time he beat her, Wang Rui always kneeled in front of her and cried bitterly, swearing to her, "I'm so angry, I'll never beat you again."
The next time, she did not even know why, he beat her again, and then kneel and cry and swear.
This scene happened again and again, and she endured it again and again. Until one time, she was in pain and ran to the provincial capital.
Her heart died and she never wanted to see this punk-like person again. If they live together again, she will definitely kill him.
Near the Spring Festival, the streets were crowded with people, and the cars were loaded with big bags of things. Everyone else was happily preparing for the reunion, while she was living alone in a hotel far from her children. She wept and hated her thug-like husband even more.
But, to her surprise, Wang Rui found her in the guesthouse where she was staying.
She immediately realized that her good friend Lian had told Wang Rui about her whereabouts. The first thing that I did was to ask my friends to help me to find a way to get out of the house, and then I was able to get out of the house, and then I was able to get out of the house. She also called Lian after she stayed in the hotel.
The same scene played again, Wang Rui hugged her and cried and swore. Her heart softened. The two went home together.
And then, it was business as usual.
The man's oath and the smoke he exhaled, as quickly disappeared, leaving only a choking smell.
She was used to his gambling and swearing, and also used to his fists and feet. Except for a few girlfriends, no one knows her suffering. In the eyes of others, she has always been a dry optimist.
Now, she doesn't know what will attract Wang Rui's scolding, she thinks she is doing a good job, but he always has outbursts, such as when she bought some bowls with flowers, he will say, "Is this for the dead?"
The son and daughter looked at her together, she didn't say anything, and the daughter couldn't stand it, and said to his dad, "How can you say that, I think this bowl is quite cute."
This is their own lack of dignity, or he has no dignity. She no longer has any intention to say anything to him.
That time they went out together, Wang Rui because the car in front of them affected the speed, swearing. She said, "Be civilized."
Just such a sentence, so that he was furious, she got out of the car, he even chased over, a crazy scolding. People on the street ran over at once, she covered her face and stumbled away.
She went to her best friend's house and startled her best friend.
"What happened to you? What's gotten into you?"
She doesn't know what's wrong with her. BFF took the mirror to show her, she saw that her eyes have been red, and half of her face has become a black purple color. In a trance, she felt Wang Rui's fist hit her heavily again, and she couldn't help but take two steps back.
She told her best friend that she was beaten by Wang Rui, and her angry best friend was spinning around the house, cursing in a row: "This thug, this son of a bitch, divorce, you should have divorced a long time ago, why don't you divorce? Why are you so tolerant? Hurry up and leave."
She called her daughter, who rushed to her best friend's house, and saw that she was bruised and swollen and her eyes were bloodshot, and she was also angry and gnashing her teeth.
"Mom, get a divorce, you don't have to aggravate yourself anymore. My brother and I are adults, we can support ourselves, don't put up with it anymore."
She said, "I will think about it.
By evening, she still went home with her daughter.
Her heart had long been broken and her tears had dried up. The scene has been piled up into a mountain in her mind, and she is a strong pine on that mountain.
But she was so tired that she really wanted to go away.
But she couldn't go, she had to hold on to the family.
But she can't go, she has to hold on to the family.
Because of the selflessness, a woman can be strong enough to endure all the suffering in the world.
So she chose to forget the pain and create happiness.
She walked into the dance floor.
There was a man who kept asking her to dance and dance well, and he invited her to learn to dance the national standard together. She said, "Yes!"
Learning the national standard was also at this ballroom, only after the ballroom dancing had broken up.
She began to focus on the study of international standard dance. Every day, she practiced lowering her back, pulling out her legs, and practicing with her partner over and over again.
Her partner was younger than her and liked her with a kind of admiration. This makes them dance in perfect harmony.
A year passed as Li Guo danced and twirled. She shaped a new self.
In the original, she had a bucket waist, internal eights, and walked with her head down, as if she had been thinking about something. Now, she is slim, upright and confident.
The coach took them to the field to participate in the competition. Along the way, it was always the dance partner who took care of her, and she knew how he felt about her.
She is not indifferent. She has a great need to be loved, by a man who truly loves her. She wanted to lean into a man's warm embrace and be kissed and caressed. She wants to be a little woman, cherished and cared for by a man.
More than a year of the same song **** dance, more than a year of communication confided in, she closed the window of affection opened.
One day, they went to tea together, the dance partner took out a jade bracelet, said to her: "I see this jade is very good, buy it for you."
The dance partner looked at her hesitant expression and brought the jade bracelet directly to her wrist.
She loved it. When she looked at the jade bracelet on her wrist, a sourness was born in her heart.
But she was clear that she was now very much in love with her dance partner, with the love in his eyes, the warmth in his hand, and his clean smell.
She thought: I'm going to make it up to myself.
The dance partner invited her to his house, and she went with him. His wife is away on business.
He embraced her and kissed her, and she was a little dizzy, as if a wind had gently lifted her up and floated her off into the distance.
She did not dare to open her eyes, she was afraid of falling.
Until he let go of her. It was only when he went to the bathroom that she went to see his home. The home was clean and tidy. She saw a picture on the TV stand of their family of three. His wife was demure, his son was adorable, and his dance partner had a hidden handsomeness about him. The family smiled so consistently, but she felt they were all laughing at her.
Suddenly, she felt panicky and short of breath, and involuntarily turned toward the door. Her partner came out of the bathroom and nervously asked her what was wrong. She said, "I'm leaving."
Her partner pulled her back and said, "Don't go, okay?"
She said, "No, I have to go."
The dance partner took her hand and wouldn't let go. A look of disappointment looked at her.
She couldn't help but forcefully break away from his hand, and then her hand hit the doorframe, and the jade bracelet shattered all over the place.
Both of them looked down at the broken jade, they were both messed up. She looks at his overwhelmed eyes in shame and says, "I'm sorry."
She pushed the door open and left in stride.
From then on, she never went to the ballroom again.
She and Wang Rui said nothing to anyone and slept in separate rooms.
Wang Rui played mahjong at night until the early hours of the morning, often.
In later days, Li Guo often thought of the broken jade bracelet, and silently said in her heart, "I'm sorry, please live happily ever after."