That's what the Phoenix said, but unfortunately the Phoenix didn't do it.
I.
Phoenix's real name is not Phoenix. That name was given to her when I first met her. I was in the first year of college when I went to the restaurant to do temporary work to recognize her, in all the waiters, the presence of the phoenix is like a "phoenix", she is always standing straight, a face of pride, as if the head inserted a phoenix feathers, born to be an aristocrat.
It is a pity that this aristocrat does not like to read.
I said, "Do you know the phoenix? You look like a phoenix."
She froze for a moment, and then hahahaha half a day, "hahahahaha your college chicks are like you so nerdy it hahahaha, but -" she tilted her head in contemplation, "what is the phoenix? "
I couldn't explain it and wrote it on paper for her. Her eyes lit up and she slapped her thighs, "Hey, Phoenix."
I don't know whether it is the blind worship of intellectuals, she especially liked the word "phoenix" and insisted on taking it as her new name.
But the sound she makes is "crazy".
"Royal ......," I corrected weakly.
She had an "I know" look on her face, "I know, I know, isn't it the one always used to describe the queen in ancient times?"
I thought about it, but there is no problem ...... nodding.
She went on to say, "Look, the meaning is also, harmonic or crazy! How suitable for me hahaha ......"
"Yellow ......" I reluctantly continued to correct.
She ignored me, "Ugh, college students, what is your major?"
"Foreign language." I replied absentmindedly. Still obsessing about her pronunciation.
Her eyes lit up again, "Awesome."
Then she pondered for a while with a serious face, as if she was making an incredibly difficult decision, "Let's do it sister, in the future, you teach me foreign languages, as a reward, in this piece, sister cover you."
Phoenix said, a sincere pat on my shoulder. I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to get out of this one.
I did not expect a girl actually have such a big hand strength. Nodded and immediately swore in my heart to never mention the matter of her pronunciation. Who cares if she is right or wrong, the long beautiful people do everything right.
II.
Speaking of long beauty, Phoenix absolutely deserved, devil body, long legs and big breasts, palm face, eyes always glow, as if there are stars in the eyes. A small tiger teeth, every time you look at her smile, you also want to follow her smile. Chasing the Phoenix boys a lot, the three religions and nine streams, the front and back, queuing up to line up two streets, but in the end, all the "death of the battlefield", Phoenix a do not like. I asked the Phoenix, you actually like what kind of ah? She thought about it, there must be eight-pack abs, a hand can lift me up that kind, or what to protect me? I watched her roll her eyes and imagined, and couldn't help but think of Zixia Fairy waiting for a gaijin. I asked, is it that simple? Like fitness trainer kind? She was silent for a moment and said, Oh, roll.Phoenix did not graduate from junior high school to work out, these years traveled extensively, "mixed jianghu" experience loaded with a stomach, she was born enthusiastic and cheerful, and beautiful, so very pleasing, but the only thing that can not be changed is the straight temper, can not be half a point of aggravation.
Phoenix said, "I certainly know that suffering is blessed, can tolerate the reasoning, but why? I have thought about it, everyone in this world is destined to live differently, there are tolerant, naturally, there can not endure, no one who is good and who is not good, and do not have to force themselves to learn from anyone. What kind of life you want to pay what kind of price! I am happy."
So, seven days a week, she has five days will fight with someone. And never lose. "Ugh uncle you this catty scale is certainly not enough you think I am three years old?"
"Okay, Auntie, every time you break a bowl on me, this back kitchen so many people watching it, bullying me interesting?"
"Who the hell are you calling a bitch? Look at you what's wrong, Xing you have a disease is not Xing others to see ah! What's wrong with mental illness? The first time I saw you, I was so happy to see you, I was so happy to see you.
The last one is a psychopath encountered in the supermarket, to the tomatoes, the mouth has been cursing, because I looked at him more than a glance changed to curse at me, Phoenix a pull me behind me, did not hesitate to curse with someone.
I didn't really get to teach Phoenix English, but she really covered me for a year.
During the summer vacation, Phoenix quit her job and went to my house to find me to play, I live in a small city, the first three days, I took her to play the place all over again, the fourth evening, I took her to the neighborhood near the elementary school for a walk. I met my old classmates I chatted a little more, a blink of an eye, the Phoenix people are gone. And then found when, has been in the "scene of the accident". Small playground usually a lot of people, there are square dancing aunts, playing Tai Chi grandparents, and soccer students, a little bit of movement, we all surrounded the past, I struggled to peel away from the crowd, and saw standing in the most inside of the phoenix, a hand over his head, a hand clutched the boy's collar, the mouth of the vibration of the words, "you do not apologize, do not apologize! ......"
My head was short of oxygen and I almost fainted. This "fight" was fierce for half an hour, and almost alarmed the police. But the outcome was not in doubt, the Phoenix won.
But Phoenix was not happy because her head was swollen like a pig's head, and she felt that the child's education was not enough. I advised her as I gave her medicine, "You have a swollen head like this and you still have the heart to educate others?"
"I'm swollen like this, swollen like this who is to blame ah, is not to blame that little brat right, you see it, kicking the ball kicked someone turned around and ran away? You don't recognize it? Is this a child? This is a hooligan. And his mom? See? He's a liar! Don't admit it! What kind of people are they? How can a mom like that raise good kids who'll kill, burn, and just leave? I'm doing it for their own good, I want him to learn a lesson, how important education is ah, three years old to see the big ah, as you are still a college student, do you understand?
Phoenix said more and more angry, "and, just now to be replaced by you were smashed, you must be directly on the wave of the hand, forget about it." Phoenix learned from me, "Do you believe it? Little Joe, do you believe it?"
"Do you believe it?" This is Phoenix's mantra,
"More men have chased me than you've ever met in your entire life, do you believe it?"
"I've pinched more men than I've ever chased in my entire life, do you believe that?"
"If you were smashed just now, you would have just waved your hand and walked away with a pig's head, do you believe it? Do you believe it?"
I believe me, Phoenix, I believe everything you say. Just for the fact that I didn't teach you English and you covered me for over a year, I believe everything you say.
"But what's going to change if you choke her like that?"
This time Phoenix was silent. Half a day before she finally sighed, "I just want to give her a reminder, education, education, education how fucking important ah, if someone had controlled me when I was a child, I would not be the same now. No quality."
Phoenix often say so, but I was the day I realized that Phoenix's parents divorced when she was very young, and then each started a new family, Phoenix has been followed by grandparents grew up, no one to take care of her. She was like a weed, growing unchecked and living like she didn't know if it was the right thing to do. To use that favorite adjective of hers, crazy.
Crazy living.
I thought, Phoenix will always be so crazy.
Until she got hit by another ball, only this time the ball that hit her was called love.
III.
The person who hit her is called Gao Ming. Department of literature and history, 1 meter 85 people, white and clean, handsome. That day, Phoenix still came to my school to find me, a school door is lost, walked to the basketball court when the basketball player Gao Ming to smashed stunned. Phoenix called me when the voice is very calm, "Hey, Xiao Qiao, I'm in the infirmary, was smashed by the ball, you come over." It's like saying, "I'm eating a bun at the snack bar at the entrance."
When I heard the words "smashed by the ball", I almost fainted again, fearing that she would fight with someone, and quickly ran over, panting. As soon as I entered the door, I saw the forehead swollen up a big bag of phoenix is leaning on the bed in the infirmary smiling and chatting with people! There was also a bit of shyness. Shy! Oh my god, I think my Phoenix is really stoned.
After that day, Phoenix began to abnormal, she began to giggle, began to daze, began to hold a thick mountain and sea scripture began to see. The first time I saw this, I was able to find a way to get my hands on some of the most popular products in the world. Began to let me give her makeup advice, began to stop applying thick false eyelashes, began to buy light-colored clothes ...... so the past month, she said, "Xiao Qiao, do you remember the last time you hit me with a ball that boy?"
"Remember."
"His name is Gao Ming."
I nodded, "I know. Pretty smart."
"He's smart."
"Oh."
"I'm sure I'll take him down, believe it or not."
"I believe it, but-"
"Hmm?"
"Don't you like the strong kind who can lift you up with one hand?"
Phoenix thought about it, hard to organize the language, "I do not know, Joe, there are a lot of things in this world, it is impossible to say ah, like you used to say that you do not like to talk dirty friends, but you are still very good with me ah."
Makes sense. Phoenix said dirty words can always hear me inexplicably cool. I nodded. "You go Phoenix, I'm with you."
There is nothing the Phoenix I know can't do, and the next day, she took Gao Ming's hand and appeared in front of me, treating me to hot pot. The phoenix in love is the most idiotic phoenix I've ever seen, a piece of shabu shabu they both clip around and let go for half an hour.
I burped, looking at the face of the two people in front of the sky, brainstorming a Mary Sue school drama.
And the truth is that Phoenix is more than the heroine of the heroine idiot, Phoenix work place is far from here, but she is a break quasi come over to buy a lot of good food for Gao Ming, buy fruit must be peeled, buy chestnuts must be peeled shells, buy crayfish are peeled good skin. What? You ask me where I can buy? Oh, the boss and not stupid, of course, not to peel, are the Phoenix themselves peeled.
Phoenix this stupid girl.
I have asked, Phoenix, what is your favorite Gao Ming ah?
Phoenix giggle, revealing a side of small tiger teeth, she is always like this, a smile you also want to follow the smile.
"Why do you think I want to be good friends with you?"
"Huh? What's it to me?"
"Because as soon as I saw you, I felt that you were different from others, and I thought, ah, such a cultured girl, must be very gentle, and there is no reason, so I wanted to get close to you. As soon as I saw Gao Ming ah, also this feeling, I was smashed, I want to curse, your grandfather, not yet wait to say it, fainted, hazy to see a person came over, very nervous look, while calling me, while holding me up, I was like, this person's arms are so warm ah ...... "
"But it was summer ......" I questioned Phoenix's memory.
"Yes, yes, I just felt so warm ah, as soon as I opened my eyes and saw him, I felt that he was different from all the people I had met before, and if I could have a child with him, I'm sure it would be just like him ......" She closed her eyes and smiled with a happy face. I think that would be because of seeing Gao Ming's face.
The phoenix in love is the most idiotic phoenix I have ever seen, but it is also the most bright phoenix I have ever seen.
Unfortunately, such beautiful days did not last long, they are together for the third month, Phoenix head into my dormitory, a face down. "We had a fight."
"Over what?!" I was a little surprised, and my head started searching for all sorts of reasons why couples fight.
"There was no reason."
Phoenix arched into my comforter and started to sleep. "Ignore him big time."
I realized I hadn't heard Phoenix curse in a long time, and it had been a long time, too, since I'd seen her fight with someone else again.
Phoenix stayed in my dormitory for a week, did not go to work and did not go out. On the morning of the fourth day, she suddenly sat up from her bed with a panicked look on her face, "Joe."
"What's wrong?"
"I dreamed last night that she was with that departmental girl from your department, and then I cried all night in my dream."
"Our department flower has a boyfriend ......"
"Shouldn't the point be that I cried all night?"
"......"
"No, I'm going to find him. Lev Tolstoy said something about dreaming of someone and waking up to sleep with them."
Phoenix spoke out of turn, I almost spat out a mouthful of water, "When did Tolstoy say that?"
"That's what the internet says."
"I've never heard it online either."
Phoenix began to freshen up, dress up, and put on the little white dress that Gomez had given her that she had never bothered to wear. I still haven't reacted, "Wait, say that again, what are you going to do?"
"To, sleep, with, him." Phoenix was firm.
I froze for a moment. Not sure if I should stop her or not. After thinking for half a day, I finally asked weakly, "Have you thought about it?"
At this time, Phoenix has been dressed up, put down her weekdays always high disk up long hair, white small foreign dress makes her look very grand, she did not answer me, just a smile at me, revealing small tiger teeth, eyes bright crystal. She put on high heels, walking very firmly, the back is very beautiful, as if a phoenix.
IV.
The person you dream about in your dream, you should go to sleep with him when you wake up.
That's what the phoenix said, but unfortunately the phoenix did not do it.
When I got to Phoenix's house, she came to open the door to me in just her underwear, and I suddenly got a little excited and asked, "What's going on?"
"He's gone. Fuck." Phoenix said with an expressionless face.
"So you guys ......"
"Didn't get any sleep. Shit, I can't figure it out," Phoenix sat on the bed and fumed, "There are so many people who want to sleep with me, why did he ......" Phoenix said and suddenly looked at me with a mysterious face, "You said --, is he ...... not able to ah?"
I am not thick to laugh out. Wooooooo.
Wait, that doesn't sound right. I looked down and saw Phoenix crying. First time I've ever seen a phoenix cry.
"We broke up."
"We broke up a week ago, not a fight."
"He's the one who brought it up, he said neither of us were the people who wanted to **** each other for the rest of our lives."
"He said it wasn't like he hadn't thought about going on with me properly. But knowing there was no ending to the story he was afraid I would end up getting hurt if I gave too much. So it ends here."
"He said he was sorry for me."
"But Xiao Qiao, I really don't understand what you smart people say, it doesn't matter if I give too much ...... I'm really, really happy."
"Joe, you say, love really can not be equaled?"
Of course you can not, even if you are twenty dollars a pound of Chelsea, but he only loves two dollars a pound of red apples, rectangles can never be saturated with round vacancies. This is, probably, what love looks like.
"Break up on the break up, he moncler outlet online why ...... not sleep I go again ......" Phoenix looked up at me, the makeup flowers into a piece.
I was a little heartbroken and patted her shoulder. "This is all the more reason that the person you love, he, is different from others ah. The person you dream about, wake up, forget about him."
"It's so hard for me to meet such a person, I can only go so far, I'll be unhappy for the rest of my life ah ......"
"Don't be silly, at least . . you guys have been together ah. The human world is so big, it's already not easy for two people to have loved each other." I suddenly became unable to comfort people.
Phoenix cried again with a wow. "I don't. I do not want to just love each other, but also want to marry her, have children, gray hair, children and grandchildren. I want him to put a ring on my hand, I want to cook for him every day, I also want to listen to him tell me history stories, how can I, end it here ......"
That was the first and only time I saw Phoenix cry, like a child whose sugar had been snatched away, aggravated to no end.
Watching her cry. I also cried. I'm tired of crying, and I don't know when I fell asleep.
The next day when I woke up, Phoenix has done breakfast waiting for me. The first time I saw her, she was still glowing, as if nothing had happened last night. She didn't mention the word "Gao Ming" again, as if this person had never appeared in her life.
After breakfast, she hugged me.
After breakfast, she hugged me and said that she had decided to go out of town to work.
In the three years since then, we have not seen each other again. Phoenix more and more busy, see her circle of friends, began to more a lot of English. I did not teach her, but she eventually went to learn, occasionally we will contact, but are no longer raise the Ming this person. I don't know whether Phoenix has put down or not, in any case, she is still the same as always to live alone.
At the end of the year, I went on a business trip to the city where Phoenix works because of my work, and I went to the hotel where Phoenix works to see her during the work gap. She has been a five-star hotel lobby manager, busy every day. When I went, she was sending away a blonde foreigner, while taking out the walkie-talkie, constantly sending instructions. She was still as thunderous as ever. Only in her black uniform she no longer swears freely. The makeup is also much more refined.
At dinner, I said, "You're more like a phoenix now." She hahahahaha laughed. Like the first time I said she was like a phoenix back then.
She said, later I realized, the original two words read "fenghuang" ah, I fucking thought it was "crazy".
I was speechless, I shouted so many years, you did not realize ah. Her eyes were embarrassed to dodge, "I thought you had a problem with your accent."
I, "well well, you beauty you say."
Phoenix smiled, his eyes became incredibly gentle.
Phoenix said, but, also from the time I knew about it, I re-understood the definition of the name.
Phoenix said, rampage for so many years, to the end I just want to understand, some people say do not love, is not directly tell you. I thought for a long time, not we are not suitable, but Gao Ming does not love me.
Phoenix said, but he is really a very good person. He still maintained my self-esteem. I didn't succeed in sleeping with him that night, he said because I deserve better. I didn't know what was better than him. So later in life, I couldn't help but live like him. Wanting to live like him.
The phoenix says that the phoenix is reborn from the fire.
Phoenix said, hit the day I knew about it, I seem to suddenly figure it out. I thought all I was doing was making me remember him better. But I was in the process, slowly living into myself.
Phoenix said, I no longer think of Gao Ming, but I do not regret so loved him. Because I met him, I am today's me.
From that day on, I felt that I was really reborn in the fire.
I nodded.
There are many people in this world every day, meeting and separating. I can't say whether Gao Ming is as good as Phoenix said. But I know, because I met him, Phoenix can become so good. Because he is gone, the phoenix has really become a phoenix.
Love can not be equivalent exchange, but, when you love a person to surrender yourself, you also exchanged for each other to teach you all the things.
If you dream of someone, you should go to sleep with him when you wake up. If you can't, then, forget him.