When Meat came to me, her entire features were wrinkled together, massed on her bulbous face, tangled and frustrated. We have known each other for more than ten years, we are accustomed to seeing her cheeky and indifferent to play cheap and cute, so downcast is really the first time.
I teased her: what's wrong with this, in love, can't get it? The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots.
It's a good thing that you're not in a hurry to get to the next stage of your life.
Meat smiled bitterly, slowly stirring the warm dense coffee in front of him, whispered: You do not say, I really think my life is quite hopeless. I just want to open my mouth to interrupt, she lifted up her eyelids to signal me to listen carefully:
I grew up very able to eat, a variety of meals, snacks are all come to refuse, when I was a child, my family so that I do not waste, and then I can eat all the rice, and they also boasted that I have a blessed look, has always been I am a fat person, in school and units can not be said to have been bullied, but the girls, behind the back of the people before the mouth of the heart jokes about me, but I also counted a lot. There are a lot of people, but I also count to treat people mildly, do not think about it and lazy to compare, who told me not to compete with it, know that fat people have no future can always be ruthless to change.
I do not look pretty, sparse hair, small eyes, swollen eyes, single eyelid, nose collapsed, fortunately, the mouth is not too big. The original skin is not white, but always smooth, but the age is growing actually began to grow acne, all kinds of allergies, and a small freckles.
I have not been outstanding, school learning medium, elementary school as a small team leader, leading a few people to line up after school, duty; middle school as a team leader, help class representatives to collect homework; it is difficult to take a general high school with all the effort finally on a specialist, muddled on the graduation. The first thing I'd like to say is that I don't think I'm going to be able to do that, but I think I'm going to be able to do that, and I think I'm going to be able to do that, and I think I'm going to be able to do that.
Also, I have never been in love, almost no boys like me, chasing me. By the way, do you remember how we met? Our class president, Tang Jun, had a crush on you, and then he found out that I went to school with you on the same road, so he asked me to give you a message, bring snacks, and send love letters. In fact, you are the big star of the school, I have long known you, but before even if I met every day I dare not talk to you, you walk straight waist, not slanting, around a lot of girls sat on your arm to surround you in the middle of the side-by-side walk, before and after you have the boys cheerfully chatting with you, laughing, joking, you have excellent grades, hobbies, good relationship, I every time grey lowered his head from the side of you hurriedly walked past or deliberately slowed down the pace of your feet. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty.
Don't you laugh at me, Tang Jun was my nymphomaniac male god at that time, he looked for me to talk for the first time for you, and you were his dream goddess, I looked for you to talk for the first time for him. You returned all the things to me at that time, and seeing that I was embarrassed, you smiled at me like a little adult and said: let's do it this way, I'll keep the letter, and you can return the rest to him. Then you said, "I've seen you many times before, we're on the same path, right? The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new one, and you'll be able to do that.
I was flattered, you know? Until today I am very grateful and you become friends, my side there are countless and my same humble small people, and you and we are not the same. Whenever I see you now and those boys and girls party photos will still recognize, you are more beautiful and outstanding, and even my friends simply do not believe that we are friends, because we have not been a class of people.
I have crushed on other boys since Tang Jun, of course, I also like a lot of male celebrities, but the real love, I have not talked about a. I am also 26 years old, before my own. I'm also 26 years old, before I have been silly over, now look back and then look forward, I'm a girl, poor and ugly and fat, what hope for my life? What should I do?
Two
She was calm and steady, but her brow was furrowed, and I wanted to intervene several times, and finally closed my mouth.
Meat had finished, what was I supposed to say? The coffee had gotten cold, and I picked it up and put it down.
I don't want to comfort Meat, but what kind of life is hopeful? I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on the way to the next level, but I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on the way to the next level, and I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on the way to the next level, and I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on the way to the next level. I think we have all fantasized about it, and now it should not be a luxury.
And "hope", I do not know when I began to fear such a word, and what "dream", "ideal" and so on. Those chicken soup text, inspirational books as if without these unattainable goals and guidelines, do not go to fight hard can not live like. And I see most people are because of inertia in the living, even if the living into the salted fish, but who dare say they have an easy time.
The pursuit of people and people would have been different, we can since the pursuit of exquisite and high-end, there is no need to despise ordinary and lazy.
Now, including my own often in the line of writing to clamor: girls to be beautiful, to be independent, to have money, to be exquisite. Even if more girls pursue such a life, but there are always people will be left behind, then those in the eyes of the world or even their own eyes and poor and ugly and fat girls, is not really no good life to look forward to?
All of the girls, some of them had all of this without any effort, some of them can do it with all their strength and teeth, some of them still may not be able to achieve all of their energy, and some of them may not have even if they do not have it at all, they do not care to fight for it, or they know that it is impossible to do it with their own resources and those around them, so they are also satisfied with the current life and state.
They are the first to be able to do so.
Who is at fault? Who's in authority? Are we preaching about being yourself while advocating a single value? It's just like when we face our own home, some people pursue a spotless, clean window, while others want to be comfortable and relaxed.
Then, if the girls realize or subjectively recognize the so-called exquisite independence theory and are willing to change and struggle, we can discuss actionable methods, if the girls think that the ability to comfortably dress, eat and live is not a kind of happiness and enjoyment, is not it necessary to let them think that the grass is how bad and outrageous, and even life is hopeless?
Three
But these ultimately did not and dear meat to say out, has always been eloquent I maintain the posture just now, began to slowly stir has been cooled coffee: meat, you are because of the outside world of the pressure and stimulation of what is just to vent their dissatisfaction with the life or have the heart to change it?
In fact, I would like to ask you is, we have known each other for so many years, why you have never mentioned to me my . I'm not going to be able to do that, but I'm going to be able to do it.
I was momentarily speechless, gently said, first, you do not now say so exaggerated, second, I do take into account your feelings, third, more than ten years of acquaintance I have not felt that these factors seriously disturbed you, you live even more than we are more happy, this is not the most important?
Well, I really want to change now, I'm no longer like a child, even if it is silly to help like boys handing love letters to his favorite people are also willing, I want to fall in love, want to become thin and beautiful even a little bit, want to save a little bit of money can go out and around, but also want to have a home. If you were me now, what would you do?
- - Come really you want?
----You must come up with this ten years of feelings to do the old bottom to tell me truthfully!
----If I were you...if I were you...
If I were you, I would change from now on, starting with weight loss. No gym memberships, no ambitious programs. Jumping rope, swimming, playing shuttlecock, running, even square dancing, aerobics, the first day maybe 10 minutes, the next day may want to give up, but as long as you want to change at any time to do, get up a little early to go downstairs and turn around can be, get off the bus one stop early to go for a walk can be. Slowly quit snacking, eat some nuts and yogurt, and fresh vegetables and fruits, also good for the skin. When gradually forming habits, then go to systematic planning, in a professional and healthy way.
If I were you, worried about my face and skin, then simply give up the thick foundation, a little lighter to let the skin to breathe, use some natural and cheap guys, honey, cucumber, barley and a lot more, in short, suitable for their own, with healthy and fresh diet and exercise, or you can go to see a Chinese medicine just to regulate the body. If I have free money, maybe I will also consider doing a double eyelid, on time beauty fitness, learn some make-up with, let yourself more confident and more beautiful.
If I were you, the financial management immediately to take action, serious work to find the space for promotion and salary increase. Salary every month to take out a fixed amount of fixed deposit or investment funds, nothing to pay more attention to the economy, financial news. Usually live a little more planning, it is best to get used to bookkeeping. Summarize your spending every month and make positive adjustments. In order to ensure the efficiency of work at the same time, slowly explore the operation of the value-added advantages, send flyers and so on even if it, if I am like you a bit of painting talent also love to do with the flowers and plants, maybe I will consider accepting a few children to teach, painting personalized T-shirts and cell phone shells, your succulent children and then add some decorative details on the sale of it.
If I were you, I might not fantasize about perfect love and lovers, I would be willing to become beautiful and confident, willing to open my heart to accept kind suggestions and even introductions, willing to go to a variety of gatherings, community, and willing to accept the harmless shortcomings and imperfections of others, I'm willing to accept the pursuit of the people I want to guide to pay attention to their own, and not ashamed of the lack of romantic experience and not proud of it. I'm not ashamed of my lack of relationship experience or proud of my so-called purity. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on a new one, but I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on a new one, so I'm sure you'll be able to get a good deal on one.
If I were you, may be all of the above will not insist on doing, in fact, there is nothing, enjoy the current life, until like today can not bear to start again, do not force to chase others in the eyes of the exquisite beauty, but to comply with their own heart to live.
Four
I did not have any logic to finish a pass, meat did not interrupt me, at this time she said, your meaning I understand, to be honest, you're right, before I was very relieved to enjoy their own lives, not as beautiful and not as smart and not as pleasing to the eye, I don't think there is anything. Teachers, leaders think I do not seek advancement, and the world, my mother said I have no interest in no character cheeky, it does not matter, not much self-confidence at least not low self-esteem to humble. But now, I look in the mirror, touch my face, check the balance, I really feel poor, ugly and fat, very pessimistic. I thought you wouldn't understand people like me, even if they've been friends for years. But after talking to you, I feel again that you really kinda get it.
---- Then why do you think I refused Tang Jun back then?
----Because you insist on not falling in love early and love to study ah! And you may not like him ah! And...and...
---- There are more people who say that I'm proud and noble, saving up a bunch of boys to reject one by one, right?
--- You know all that?
And you think the same, Tang Jun is tall, handsome and bully, family good character good to me, I no longer how to give him face, he has never silently help me, I have what reason to insist on refusing ah? But no one thought, perhaps not my proud and noble, but I am fragile and sensitive, then I also dislike myself and he compared to the poor ugly fat, in addition to a little bit of achievement and he spelled, what can be done?
So what I want to say is that many standards are not only framed by others, but also by ourselves. The so-called life never exists what hope and despair, can struggle to insist on going down has not been easy. In that you think I am radiant age, I actually inner bitter, pretending to be strong; and in other people think that I "hours, big may not be good", but I live frankly, peace of mind.
We are very young, the road of life is also very long, the world standard millions, the inner feelings but only know, choose to let yourself at ease with the people and things, enough. What do you think?