In heaven, a cross locked in love
Preface
I love you as much as you love me.
But the love between us will always be a mistake.
1 Love in the Corner
(One of the Kurapika chapters)
One, two, three, I'm Kurapika. I love Chi-Tooth.
Three, two, one, I'm Kurapika. I want to kill Chi-Tooth.
One, two, three, I'm Kula Pika. I like Chi-Tooth.
Three, two, one, I'm Kula Pika. I want to kill Chi-Tooth.
"She wished in her tears, she traded her pangolin tail for the chance of love, she lost her voice to speak of love, she gave so much to gamble on the right to be loved, and yet in the end she was sentenced to death, and the people she loved couldn't think of her, and she lost the gamble in the end, and turned into a bubble and disappeared into the weeping firmament... ... "The dawn of the early morning rose from the end of the horizon, from the depths of the fog drifted a very sad voice, a hint of a melody that clasped the heart, a flood of memories that were about to engulf him. Cool buried his face deep in his arms, trying to escape. The sunlight fell through the thin fog reflecting on the body, a piece of dappled. As the fog gradually cleared, Cool suddenly realized that it was the child who had been dancing and twirling around the wishing fountain singing this sad song, her long, grounded black hair swaying in the wind, spilling sorrow all over the sky.
"Dear Prince, are you really not aware of her love, or do you know it clearly, but can not love each other ......," suddenly appeared in front of the eyes of a hand holding a large stack of playing cards, cool surprised to look upwards a head of fiery red hair, he smiles looking at Cool, "Draw one if you want to divine the future. Sir."
Hesitating for a moment, Cool casually drew one and handed it to him without looking at it. He never said anything, just looked at Cool through the playing cards.
"There's no remedy, is there? My unclumped reeling off the old gangbusters? The stupid noisy Γ?oxime infinite K murmur wandering Hui bridesmaid calloused fishy cigar? Magpie mujeol? Ze? Choose the color you want to use and choose the color you want to use. Select the color of your choice. Forgive me; "Wrong, sir." He smiled and flipped over the playing cards so that Cool could see them clearly through the morning sun. "You have a 50/50 chance of betting on the one you love. Let's see if you choose to forget, or remember."
The ace of spades.
Half the chance of happiness.
"Bewildered Prince
In the afterlife would you still be willing to miss her
And would she be willing to
Disappear once more into a bubble in the firmament ......"
Long-haired Child stopped spinning and turned her stunningly beautiful little face to look at the figure of Cool darting away. "Cecil, did he ...... go?"
"He's gone, whether he's happy or not depends on him."
Will you choose to remember, or to forget?
Will you, or will you not, bet on this one in two chance? If you are willing, then join me in crushing this blood-stained curse ...... If you give up, then this time it's my turn to turn into a bubble and make you happy ......
Do you want to choose to remember, or to forget?
2 At onetime
(Kurapika Chapter 2)
I don't know your past, so I don't know your hurt.
So fate decreed that I must lose you.
So fate destined you to leave me.
Right?
We've been begging for a whole thousand years for a reunion, and it still ends in parting ......
"Kiara?" Cool panted as he pushed open the door, not expecting to see another person.
"Cool ...... Lolo." Filippo's green pupils contracted together, gradually infusing a bit of scarlet.
"Don't worry. I just had something I wanted to talk to you about." Kuroro smiled and took a shallow sip of coffee, gesturing to the couch across the room.
Hesitantly, Cool bit his lower lip, "You ...... know ......"
"You and your brother's everything." Before the words were out of his mouth, the chains had come to the side of his neck, the cold emanating from the tips pushing right through his meridians.
"You ......"
"I told you I'm here for Chitauri." Kuroro smirked, watching as Cool retrieved the chains.
"I've watched that child grow up since she was a child, and she hasn't seemed to smile since before she was six." Kulolo's face was expressionless as he spoke slowly, like he was talking about an agonizingly painful past event.
"The education she received as a child, the training she went through, is something you don't even think about. I watched her grow up expressionless, to the age of six. That was the year she ran away from home."
Six ...... years old? Cool's aesthetic green eyes widened in surprise. That ...... wasn't ......
"It just so happened that the Punchers got into trouble with a very difficult enemy that year. Ki Teeth happened to run into them again. Between a collision she killed almost 40 people on the other side and made a big deal out of it too. So the Punching Clan married Chiya and me together."
"When Chiya was dragged back she was punished in the most brutal way according to the house rules of the Beater House, you can't imagine the cruelty. I saw her outside the cell, sitting on the cold, damp floor wrapped in her blood-red stained muslin, looking out the only window at the sky and smiling, murmuring softly, Cu......"
Kulolo slowly took another shallow sip of his coffee, narrowing his eyes at Cool's pained green pupils.
"Her exposed skin was almost completely ulcerated and covered with traces of electric shocks, and I heard from the servants that Chitose was hung in saline water day and night, subjected to electrocution and whipping for two whole months before she was released. And in the midst of all that pain, she was able to smile like that, unblemished and unadulterated, with a semblance of hope, all because of you."
"That was the first time I ever saw him smile."
"Two years later I saw her win by an amazing margin over all the Beatniks. She ran away from home for the second time while stabbing her mom. Curious, I snuck along to watch. And then found you, Cu......"
"Looks exactly like the Cupirakt next to me then, Curarpikt."
Curoro laughed softly, placing her coffee on the table, got up and walked to the door, opening it.
The fire-colored sunlight outside grew brighter and brighter along the opening of the door, and the backlighting was too cool to see his expression.
"I say, Cu, after all she's given you so much at one time, you can't just demand it. So if when Chiya see you still still can't think of you, you need to ...... give up."
"That way, she will be happy."
The door slammed shut with a bang, and all the light disappeared again, leaving only the smell of dimness.
Darkness that stung.
I remember, all our past.
So once too cowardly to admit it.
So I was once too cowardly to give you up.
So I was foolish enough to think that I would be happy if I just forgot.
So then, so ......
So now turn back when your figure has long been swallowed by the darkness.
I want to get you back ...... Is this ......
too late?
3 Memory
(The end of Kurapika's chapter)
I can pretend to be happy
I can pretend to smile
But lose you
But you forget me
The fact
There is no amount of pretending that can hide
"You are never going to be happy! You are never going to be loved! Kurapika!"
He took the chains back in his hands and watched as she collapsed in a pool of blood with a hideous face.
"Destroying the Brigade is all the happiness I have."
All the happiness.
All ......
Gently twisting the doorknob, he pushed the door open.
A room of silence.
"Kiara?" He called out.
The child sitting on the bed staring into the nooky mirror turned his head in shock, eyes wide, hostility mingling with dark gray.
"Who are you?"
Who are you?
Who are you ......
Coolly, painfully, he closed his eyes and lowered his head.
Kiara, sure forgot everything.
Who are you?
Who are you ......
How was he supposed to answer that question?
I am the person you love y, the person who loves you y, and also the person who ...... made you forget me.
Isn't that ...... ridiculous?
You are never going to be happy! You are never going to get love! Koolapika!
A curse that Spider had spoken many years ago, one that he had taken as a playful remark, had turned true in this instant.
Is it the blood-stained curse that has come true ......
Or is it ......
the consequences of his own abandonment?
After that extravagant pleasure in the playground, after Chiya had forgotten him ......
For that flawless smile Chiya used to have, he knew that that kind of happiness could never return to him.
It never did.
She had done the most for him.
As long as he existed, she suffered.
Turns out giving up was the right thing to do in the first place, and he was foolish enough to try to get it back.
Give up ......
Let her fly ......
Let her forget herself.
Something wet ran down his cheek, and Cool inclined his head, smiling.
"See you later, Kiara."
The door was closed softly.
Memories, all left behind.
Only the desperate heart outside the door remained.
Broken into pieces.
The reason I gave up on you in the first place was because I was too weak.
The reason I let you forget in the first place was because you knew everything.
Then ......
What is the reason I lost you ......?
I love you.
4 Lost of you
If we'll meet in this life, it's because we've brushed shoulders in a hurry in the past.
Then, why does this life still end in parting?
A joke of fate?
Lost of you......
I can't find you in ......
Another sea.
A sea that can't be seen to the end.
And ......
The one who smiled at me and kept, kept shedding tears.
Who is he ......?
Why ......
does ......
my heart suddenly ache when I see his brilliant broken blonde hair ......
I love Does he ......
Do I ...... have that dream again ......
The morning sun streamed in through the dark blue window screen, a blinding light.
I know I'm in love with that person.
I was ignorantly in love with the one whose name I didn't even know.
Isn't that ......
so ridiculous?
10 years can change a lot, I grew my long hair, just like I did before I was six.
Just like I did before the years when I forgot everything.
Silver hair that reached the ground.
Jay was finally with Cecil, and she had knee-length brown hair, for Cecil.
The afterglow of the setting sun poured over me as I looked at my long hair and felt sad.
"Jay, why did you lose your long hair in the first place?"
"For dad."
"Oh."
"And you? Kiara."
"It's easier, I guess."
"Yeah? So why are you growing your hair long again now?"
"Well, I don't know ......"
Time really does take everything away, and I gradually faded away from the person in my dream with the jade green pupils.
Maybe I really forgot.
Maybe I don't want to be reminded of it.
Why couldn't I remember him?
This, I don't know ......
The sky is bright.
I was strolling through the square when a man brushed past me in a hurry.
I turned my head to look at his back as he came to an abrupt stop.
Looking at his warm, crushed blonde hair.
Then bowed my head and left in silence.
Gray pigeons by the wishing fountain in the square lifted their wings and danced gracefully in the sky.
The sky was bright.
I inexplicably ......
wanted to shed tears.
I met you by fate.
I missed you, also is fate.
It is fate that we are destined to pass by each other in a hurry.
I love you as you love me.
But the love between us will always be a mistake.
In heaven, there is no cross for me that belongs to you.