What does it mean to meet awkwardly?

I miss each other and don't know when I can meet you. I can't bear to be sad at night. When you miss each other, you know when to meet, but you don't know when to meet. At this moment, I can't bear to feel embarrassed on this autumn night. This passage is from Tang Li Bai's "Three Five Seven Words/Autumn Poems". This sentence is sad and moving, with a long and sad mood. Between the lines, you can feel the endless lovesickness, and from the singing, you can feel the pain of lovesickness to helplessness.