Later, every time I watch Wang Baoqiang's "Lost in Thailand", see him on the plane out of that long wish list, my nose is always sour to death. Now, 20 years later, QQ has long been unable to log in, but I still can't forget you.
1
That day before the plane, you sent me a text message, "pick me up, give you a surprise". After a while, another child: "the plane may be late, do not have to come too early." You said I don't need to go too early, but I want to see your heart, how can I hold on to it?
I just bought a new car, you like the brand, Beijing Hyundai Sonata. You said, the passenger seat must be reserved for you, I promised, from the 4S store car back, I did not let anyone sit on the passenger side, I know, that position only belongs to you.
I'm going to drive it and pick you up.
I polished the car so shiny that it reflected my face smiling like a little fool. I went out in the evening because you said you'd be there at 9:30, and I even wanted to buy a bouquet of flowers, but you said I'd have to save money because I'd just bought a car, and you were always so considerate of me.
That day's mood is really good, the brain always imagined you off the plane, flew into my arms, I even thought, want to give you a kiss in the airport under the public, as long as I think about it, I feel that my heart is about to flutter, flutter jump out of the chest. Just, I don't know why, is the bottom of the heart vaguely some panic, I also in the heart of self-deprecation, how still afraid to see you?
I stared at the exit, the ear of the vehicle noise, bustling crowd, the joy of seeing loved ones, and did not change due to the weather darkening. Time passes second by second, unconsciously, my fingertips are slightly cold, the hand of the Nokia 5210, was I clutched tightly, that is the year of the new listing of the cell phone, you said you like the butterfly button, so I bought two, want to send you a.
They are not the only ones who have been in the market for a long time, but they are the ones who have been in the market for a long time.
When the sky was completely dark, my panic reached its peak, my hands unconsciously trembled a little, playing the game of Snake on the phone, but how to play it, want to go back to the car to sit for a while, but also afraid of missing the first time to see you.
At 9:30 at night, the weather in May is still a little cool, I thought, fortunately for you also prepared a jacket. I hugged the clothes, staring at the exit of the "domestic arrival" four words, looking forward to the eyes. The people on the other side of the bus started to talk to each other, asking if the flight was delayed.
At that time, the Internet was not very developed, and we were all waiting anxiously. The weather that day was good, the visibility was high, and the flight would not be delayed for no reason, unless, of course, something happened. When I saw the expression on the faces of the airport personnel, I knew that something was wrong.
We all know what happened. All the passengers and crew on board were killed in the accident, and none of them survived.
I'll never see you again, and I'll never know what you said you wanted to surprise me with. I've envisioned countless scenarios where we would meet, but not this one. You were only 23 years old, and you passed by so quietly.
2.
When I saw your mother, Auntie Hong, she had cried herself to sleep many times, in the hospital, every day there are a lot of people to visit, leaders at all levels, all kinds of reporters, Auntie Hong refused to say a word, murmured only, I have to wait for Huanhuan to come back. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots, and then you'll be able to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots.
At that time, as long as you open the network, the sky is covered with a variety of reports on the accident, do not want to accept the fact that the uncle also seems to be a night of hair are a lot of white.
And my mind, the fish in the river are all the bits and pieces of our time together. The first thing I want to say is that I'm not going to be able to do anything about it, but I'm going to be able to do something about it. We went to the cherry blossom garden to see the cherry blossoms, go to the beach to pick up shells, you the girl who grew up on the beach, will always find those extraordinarily colorful shells, carefully put away, said it is the best memory with me. You also have a free time, accompanied me to take the two-dollar bus bus, in the first row of the second floor, we envisioned a bright future.
It's just that we don't have a future anymore, do we?
After you left, every time I went to see Aunt Hong, she would cry. Then my uncle turned me away, saying that with my daughter gone, it was okay between us. Yes, it doesn't matter. You're gone, it's okay between me and them.
Once upon a time, you always said that you would introduce me to your parents solemnly. You also said, your father is very picky, only so in the heart of the daughter, afraid that I can not into their eyes. I'm just a foreigner, I don't even have a house in this city. So, you always give me primping very spiritual, you said, as long as there is a heart to love you is enough.
During that time, I didn't cry much, I even went to work as usual, I was afraid that time stood still, as long as it stopped, my mind was all about you.
I wanted to visit that beach several times, but in the end I didn't because, I didn't dare.
I also did not drive again for a long time, because the co-pilot can never come back.
After a few months, the haze of the crash seemed to have lifted, and everything went according to plan, and there was little news of the accident online, and the lives of those who were alive were frozen in that spring.
You always told me that your family had a large yard, and my father always liked to plant flowers and plants, and that year, I saw your family yard was deserted.
When I went to your house, I saw Auntie Hong holding your photo sitting against the window, the eye frame is y sunken, as if the dead bone will come, uncle nervous guard, hair almost all white. I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to do, but I'm going to be able to do a lot more than that," he said.
From then on, I went to see Auntie Hong every week, until my uncle was angry with me again, let me leave your home, I know, it is time.
I said to Aunt Hong, "Huanhuan is no longer with us, but I will be filial to you on her behalf", and as I watched me speak to her on half-knee, she finally turned her head to look at me, and I could see her red, swollen, and chaotic eyes clearing for a moment, and then darkening, and threw down the words, Huanhuan is no longer with us.
"Auntie Hong, please believe me, every day that Huanhuan is not here, I am", I said to Auntie Hong.
Aunt Hong raised her hand and brushed my face, and softly told me, "Why are you so bitter, child? Huanhuan is gone, there is no relationship between us", "My mom left when I was in college, my dad married someone else, and I don't have a home anymore, I wish I had a home", this is my heart.
My uncle was stunned beside me for a long time and did not make a sound.
I am very glad that I made this decision at that time. Over the past 20 years, Auntie Hong has had several physical emergencies, and I have been with her, and I think that only in this way will you feel at ease on the other side of the world.
3.
With the results of the accident investigation, we gave you a crown mound, because we could not find your remains, not even a little relics. It made me suspect for a moment that you might not have been on that plane, that you had just gone to another parallel dimension, and that maybe someday, we would meet again.
In recent years, Auntie Hong's condition has been much better than before, her body has become more and more robust, and she often has a smile on her face. The first time I saw her, she was so eager to introduce me to someone, and she even learned to dance in the square in order to match me up.
Once, Auntie Red introduced a girl, and you really quite like, also so love to smile, always like a little swallow like around my body.
Auntie Hong said, it has been 20 years, you must also hope that I can find the other half. But every time I talk to you about this at the grave, I think you must be unwilling in your heart. Every time I hold that girl, my heart is full of you, I think, it is very unfair to that girl.
I finally refused her, Auntie Hong angry also scolded me, when can I let her hold a big grandchild, I did not answer. Perhaps this life, I just keep you is enough.
In the year after you left, I turned in the unit, three years later, I bought a house, with the red aunt a neighborhood. Today, I have long been the backbone of the unit, the days are very simple.
The car bought for you, has been over the end of the year, has not been willing to deal with, parked in the underground garage, just the co-pilot, this life will not wait for you to sit once.
The letter you wrote to me, I have kept, the unopened cell phone, has been placed in the box. The phone has been placed in the box. Going to the cemetery every month to talk to you has become my unchanging habit over the years.
Just, I no longer dare to take the airplane, go to the field business trip, are taking the train, the leadership of the unit is also very sympathetic to me.
It's a good thing that I'm not a big fan of the idea, because I'm a big fan of the idea.
I often think, if that day, you are not in a hurry to come back to see me, but also full price to buy the last flight tickets for the May Day holiday, is not we are now married and have a baby, but, life where if ah.
It is said that time heals everything, perhaps, if you do not look at your photo, all blurred the figure of you in my heart, just a midnight dream, wandering in front of my bed girl, must be you. I thought, one day, we will meet again. At that time, I will definitely tell you, this life, you pass by the earth, I come to live for you.
This is the story of a friend of mine. Perhaps we all know that life and death are commonplace, impermanence and accident no one can predict which comes first. As a friend, we would always advise him to let go of himself and learn to look ahead, but he always said that this is his own choice, and he is happy to do so.
We have no way to determine whether someone else's life is good or bad, worthwhile or not. 20 years, more than 7200 days, every day and night thoughts, finally let me believe that this earth really have such a heartfelt love. The girl has been gone for 20 years, he took care of her parents for 20 years.
And perhaps, true love will really transcend time and space, let us all cherish the side of the person who accompanied them, may everyone be happy forever.