I.
When you are hurt by life, will you still shake hands with life at some point in the future?
I have always felt that the literary youth now say really does not seem to be a word of praise, I have heard about the literary youth of the majority of the response is: "you Ya only literary youth it, your whole family are literary youth!"
Literary youth seems to represent a kind of perseverance, a kind of not to worry about the reality, still on the dream of perseverance.
And don't think that dream is a word that has been said badly, it is about a person's deep insistence on oneself, in fact, every person's heart, there is a self that can't be compromised.
Only later, in order to live, many people have chosen to hide their inability to compromise.
Perhaps, the compromise will let him live a little better.
Many people will unconsciously feel a kind of pity for the older literary young women after watching "Spring". In most people's eyes, the realization of a woman's life maximization, all the efforts made by a woman, are all prepared for marriage.
If you can't get married, then all the efforts you've made are likely to be taken by others as an after-dinner joke.
Wang Cailin could not get married, so her mother said that there were often rumors that reached her ears.
But for a long time, Wang Cailing never felt sorry for herself, she only felt sorry for the people around her, and she didn't feel like a joke, because she always had a feeling that she didn't belong to this place in Baotou, sooner or later, she will go out sooner or later.
But only hopefully, she can not go out, and is not willing to compromise.
Wang Cailin feels that spring is her hope, she often say this to spring: "Every year when spring comes, my heart is always stupid, feel that there will be something to happen; but the spring has passed, nothing happened, feel as if I missed something."
Spring is a representation of hope in her eyes, and she hopes that something can change, that there can be hope, but every time, it is missed again.
Secondly,
Baotou is a small city in northern China, an industrial city, not rich, a small county in the 80's, the beginning of the reform and opening up, people are struggling on the breadline, an industrial city of iron and steel, but the emergence of want to engage in the arts.
If a place is really not enough to carry your dream, then leave, in order to leave and continue to accumulate strength, just, do not give up in the process.
Why dream about art at all? If you don't have one, you might not have to struggle with the dream and the reality.
Maybe it's talent, and I want to turn my talent into something that makes me look unique.
Before the death of the ideal, always feel that they are not the same, this illusion, become the living of all the bottom.
Wang Cailin is really ugly, big buck teeth, full of sores, talking teeth seem to run out of the mouth, but because of the natural voice of an opera singer, quite noble.
She also may not like her own end of the appearance, and do not want to live in their own repetition of the world of lies, she has been talking about her Beijing, but she also knows that she has never belonged to Beijing.
The money to buy a Beijing account has been all her savings, and she doesn't want to be lied to if she's not desperate.
But she has to go to Beijing, if she stays in Baotou, when can she sing in the dream of the Paris Opera House ah; she can not stay in Baotou, Baotou can not accommodate her, gossip spittle is enough to drown her.
A small place is not like a big city, and if you are too out of place, you have to have the courage to bear the price of being a maverick.
Wang Xiaobo wrote about a pig: "I'm forty years old, and I haven't seen anyone who dares to disregard the setup of life so much, except for this pig. On the contrary, I have seen a lot of people who want to set up other people's lives, as well as people who are comfortable with the life they have set up. For that reason, I've always missed this maverick pig."
The maverick pig was cool, but lonely, and don't always say that loneliness makes you strong, loneliness can also make a person afraid of life before they're really strong.
Her innocence is nothing more than a desperate effort, for the maintenance of their own self-esteem.
Third,
Baotou that place, there must be a lot of people pity Wang Cailing, no friends, no lover, long also dead ugly, there is no one around to know cold and warm people.
Just like her next-door neighbor, before her husband abandoned her, she did live a life that many women envied.
She has no dreams, and does not understand literature, there is a man around to take care of spoil her, live peacefully, and honestly run a marriage.
This is the life suitable for Baotou, but why, she must be happier than Wang Cailin?
When her husband transferred all the property of the two of them and quietly disappeared, she had nothing.
I like a paraphrase of freedom: "Freedom is not just about doing what you want to do, it's also about not doing what you don't want to do."
Wang Cailin's life is her own choice.
She may not be unable to have a love affair in this city, Wang Cailing said, "I don't want to have a love affair in this city." Once love happens, then it also means stability, meaning the rest of her life may be spent in this place.
When one hasn't taken care of the understanding, then don't think about taking care of another person, taking care of a home first.
Zhou Yu of the iron and steel factory is one of Wang Cailin's suitors, the pursuit of the way is also quite original, worship, casting, willing to use their own is not good at something to make the pursuit.
But it is not suitable for ah, pretentious young woman and honest steel factory workers, that does not match ah, the spirit of the spirit is not available to talk about **** Ming.
Or the impetuous Huang Sibao more take advantage of her heart.
Zhou Yu wanted to borrow the matter of Huang Sibao and Wang Cailin further, but not into the door to beg her, a person in the playground and a poster glued into the paper cups of Huang Sibao, but all of a sudden into the eyes of Wang Cailin.
Looking out through the glass, Sibao has a smile on her face that she probably doesn't even realize.
Huang Sibao said in the painting of Wang Cailing: "can escape one is one, I see someone carrying a bag to leave the city, do not care where he goes, I am very envious."
Escape, escape to a place where you can place your dreams.
Fourth,
Wang Cailing once again stepped on the car to Beijing, no matter what happened in Beijing, back to the small county, is to brag.
Went to Beijing, to the theater, the person in charge said, "We absolutely can not enter the people, you do not even have to think about it."
Too eager to be accepted by Beijing, so she stood there and sang to herself, but not all of the one-voiced courage can be rewarded, they all think they are very good, but in fact, in the eyes of others, it's just the same thing.
Wang Cailin cried and knelt on the stairs of the theater, and did not know why she was so cruel and merciless.
She said she loves art, in fact, she loves not so pure, entangled in the good voice given by God, so hope that the opera can bring her everything, art outside the fame and world, help her escape the springboard of the small county.
The ability to match the dream, but also unwilling to fall into the world, so it is very painful.
At night, Huang Sibao came back drunk once again, and they slept.
After waking up, Huang Sibao but annoyed, he felt that he was tainted by Wang Cailing, really, Huang Sibao may not really be a person who walks the art, can not accept Wang Cailing, but also probably because of her ugly.
Only not in the time and again failed to enroll in the examination, the Wang Cailing as a kind of failure to comfort.
When people are particularly miserable, they always try to find someone who has had a worse time than they have.
Huang Sibao left to join the flood of reform and opening up, went to sea.
Another blow to Wang Cailing, wearing a gorgeous singing opera dress, to jump, with an almost solemn heart, want to die. But did not expect, broke his arms and legs, and then continue to live.
She went back, back to Baotou.
One side of the bubble instant noodles Wang Cailing said to Zhou Yu, who came to confess, "I would rather eat a bite of fresh peach than a basket of rotten apricots."
She has always lived in her own weakness, but it is only this unreal weakness that can give her hope to keep going.
V.
Ballets and operas are supposed to exist on the stage and in the theater, what's the point of being on the street.
Hu Jinquan confidently danced his own ballet, but the crowd of onlookers left one after another, the shame on their faces has not completely disappeared. Art in the eyes of the people, that is not a joke?
Wang Cailin has finally found a kindred spirit, a kindred spirit who can understand each other.
Hu Jinquan is too painful, this is the three young people in the county, the love of art is the most pure one, the ballet as the life of the kind.
He couldn't hold out, he was fed up with being ridiculed as a siren, and even when he tried to take his mother for a walk, she would cover her face with her hat in shame.
He prayed that Wang Cailin could fake marriage with him, was rejected: "that when the cannon fodder is me not you, you and the world of life is incompatible, I am not willing to mediocrity, one day I really can not adhere to the teeth of a random person to find a marriage, and even so."
Hu Jinquan walked in the snow, the tears fell unconsciously, but also unstoppable.
He did a rogue in order to prove that he is a man.
Even in prison, wearing reformatory shoes, he still tiptoe ballet toes, this toe dance, I do not know how many people cried.
He used an almost self-destructive way to fulfill his insistence on art.
The real artist is mostly lonely.
Wang Cailin went home for New Year's Eve, and it turned out that she was from a poor family even in the countryside, so it's no wonder that she became a laughing stock.
Mom said, "This is a small place, not like the big city, you have to follow the customs." That's why it's time to leave ah, she can't compromise yet.
The female neighbor said to her, "I think you'd better find someone to marry, you can't be celibate all your life."
"Being single has its advantages."
"I don't believe there is a willingness to be single under the sky, that are forced to do, you are not in love with each other, and when you meet, you will not be celibate, the old life alone will be out of the question."
The female neighbor is well-intentioned, but this is not what Wang Cailin wants.
Gao Beibei's arrival, completely tore Wang Cailin's dream, but also let her out of their own lies, she finally, and the world, shake hands and make peace.
She did not do their own Beijing account, take back twelve thousand dollars to the girl, the girl's dream is round, but she was desperate: "famous, too difficult. "
Finally, she adopted a little girl, got hare lip was abandoned by her parents, took her daughter to do the operation, but also a beautiful little girl, mother and daughter in front of Tiananmen Square, no longer sing opera, sang the popular coaxing children children's songs, she finally, there is a new trust, willing to change the way of happiness.
In the end, she still did not love in the city ......