Clown is an aesthetic expression.
Pursue the perfection of that moment and the beauty of the ideal.
That depressing and difficult staircase has finally become a stage for my gorgeous turn.
I walked gracefully and was reborn.
Let's look at my clown first:
Arthur the Clown is the protagonist of the article.
In the movie Clown 20 19, Arthur's mother said, "Everyone says."
Then Arthur replied:
"Oh, really? Who is everyone? "
Yes! Under the pressure of today, we always keep saying, "Who said that?"
Because:
"Everyone says so and does so."
Then the question is coming, "everyone", who is it? On the contrary, we live in the reflection of our own experience and think that this is the real world.
In fact, there shouldn't be any rules, but we have set "rules" for ourselves and locked ourselves firmly in that cage.
Do you remember Arthur's crucial words to his doctor: You never listened to what I said.
Arthur's dream is to be a comedian. He always carries a diary with him, that is, he writes diaries and jokes with a flash of light. He said:
Capture what really makes people laugh.
Depression should be a hot topic now. Unfortunately, the vast majority of real depression patients have not received the respect and care they deserve. Many other diseases related to depression have repeatedly tortured patients' spirits and recently affected their physical functions.
When I was studying in St. Petersburg, Russia, I suffered from severe depression, which was too serious to live. In that cage-like hut, I recorded the onset and calm process of depression in despair and pain, as well as related stories and memories.
It was a day like a sewer maggot:
I woke up from a dream. How many times did you wake up and sleep? Every time I think I'm awake, I want to get my mobile phone or write down the inspiration for this writing in my diary. Boom, I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.
This feeling is very strange. He didn't even believe himself. This time he really woke up. Struggling to the front of the green sofa, the phone shows a Do Not Disturb call, and there is 99% power.
After sleeping for so long, I thought I just wanted to take a nap, but I clearly remember it was after nine o'clock. Love, love, love feels a little queasy and disgusting, but there is nothing to vomit. I can't remember how long I haven't had breakfast.
I rubbed my sore head and carefully recalled the hints in my dream just now. Maybe there are some clues. He touched the wall of his right hand and found nothing. But in my dream, there was a big white paper with a list written on it: Ma Mei, Liu Fang and Li Shuaixi. . . There seems to be a strange voice saying don't use these names, otherwise it will cause bad things. It's a bit like the word game that the scarlet letter often plays in Hell Apartment. In the execution place of the supernatural scene of a narrow escape, inform the apartment residents of some information with obvious hints to deceive the apartment residents and let them trigger a dead end. Yes . . I'm not executing the word "blood". What are you implying? Is it a character name that can't be used when writing a novel? Thinking and thinking, I can't remember anything. I kicked the dumbbell at my feet angrily, and the dumbbell purred towards the wardrobe, making a deep sound in the friction with the wooden floor. Forget it. Forget it. I closed my notebook and went to the window to open it. At this moment, the sunny day suddenly became overcast, and soon, you could even hear the faint rushing sound. "no! Today is May 3rd! Is it snowing? " But I soon calmed down because I thought it was in Russia.
There is a reason why I am silent about life. At noon in St. Petersburg, I always wake up from nightmares. Every time I open my eyes, I see an empty house. Wow! There was a huge roar, and the voice drifted into nothingness and disappeared along the wall. There are repeated patterns on the brown wallpaper, which makes people dizzy every time. The invasion of depression and other diseases has made me unable to exercise, and even my eyes are dizzy when I think about it. I dare not go out because I have nothing to say to those people and I can't pretend to be happy and optimistic.
The most ironic and sad thing in life is not to give you what you really want at the most important and most needed stage, but to give it to you when you don't need it much later. I got it at that time, and it was already boring. I wonder if one day I will become like many people (I once called them weak) and have to beg others to listen to my story. Whether others can understand it or not, they just need the sadness of an audience. How barren is that life?
Times have changed. The "old heroes" are almost forgotten, and there are "new heroes" everywhere: movie models, stars, businessmen, bankers ... Most young people can still adapt to these things, and the elderly can only die quietly.
Their lives were shut out of the new world and they spent their whole lives until they were forgotten. ......
What do you want me to say about the pain and all this? I don't know ...
Often really heavy things make people cry.
My expression is like a puppet,
Because:
This is an era of excessive demand for "positive energy", and the effectiveness and strength of negative energy are mostly castrated.
Seeing the above words, I don't know how everyone feels. Different people should have different ways of thinking, but every time I see them, I think of whales. When a whale is hunted, in order to survive, it will turn to face ... those dangerous people, as if remembering the source of all disasters.
People with depression really don't want to disappoint others, and they really don't want to live a positive life. It's just that they are too painful to walk out. We just don't want to be so sad all the time.
However, this does not mean that our life will be gloomy forever. I thank myself for my luck, so that I finally escaped from that place and the possibility of continuing to be depressed. Now, I will think that disease is another revelation to life, and the soul can escape from reality in truth and illusion. From beginning to end, I carried the box full of antidepressants, but I never opened it.
In order to commemorate those days when I suffered from depression, and also to inspire people with depression, I drew a long-term realistic colored lead work:? Clown-Create your own life? And recorded the painting steps:
Painting materials: special colored lead paper for birds, college-level green box Faber-Carlton 120 colored lead.
Realistic clown painting steps, various details and skills:
What should I do if the color of the picture conflicts or is burnt? Of course, I just add complementary colors-colors with high lightness and colors with low lightness, and complementary colors with low lightness. In this way, the dark part can be thicker and the color of the dark part looks natural and stable.
I left the color number of academic Fabregas at the bottom of the picture and recorded several painting processes: early stage, middle stage, late stage and adjustment stage. Of course, this is recorded according to the local painting techniques.
Face: 233 (light gray) is the background color, 172 (light green) is the two-layer color, 12 1 (green suit red)+14 1 (green blue)+1. * * * Six layers of colors >
The shadow part of clown red suit: 142 cold red+12 1 bright red (basic color); 267 dark green+14 1 cobalt blue (green first, then blue); Finally, use 263 deep ochre as a transition. & lt* * * Five colors >
This is done because in order to stabilize the black of the shadow part, it is sometimes necessary to add heavy colors of the same color to transition and eliminate dry spots.
Yellow vest: 105 bright yellow base+108 medium yellow secondary coating with large color+182 khaki painted dark fold+142 cold red deepened dark fold+165 light green transition dark fold+183 light card.
Clown hand: 142 cold red background+130 flesh red over-bright part +263 deep ochre deepened dark part, and the structure of the hand is stuck once +267 dark green deepened dark part twice+environmental color and yellow vest. The reflection in red clothes is 108,120.
Stairs: Supported by long dark gray lines. After paving the base course, Cobo Green 156 full color+140 light gray blue+142 deep red+dark gray.
Land and some walls: 274 dark gray background +280 mature brown background +27 1m yellow gray upper bright color+later environmental color.
Speaking of painting, this kind of three-dimensional sketch is equivalent to the simulation of nature. A good idea is to make sculptures on paper. Of course, the outline is the part where the edge of the shape ends. To some extent, it is the weakest. Don't deliberately draw the outline, which is the misunderstanding of painting. Description is not to strengthen, but to weaken, because the more you draw, the flatter you are. The correct way is to "create" the shape, cut it with lines in the early stage, use the relationship between light and shade in the later stage, and search with positive and negative shapes. Drawing colored lead is the same as sketching. The line can be broken. Colored lead, with many subtle techniques, belongs to the field of personal research and experience. When the picture has two or three layers of background colors, lines can be arranged in the same direction in a large area with the same color to achieve the effect of large area discoloration. If you want to make a subtle contrast between the dark part and the shadow part, then my method is to change the overlapping color order. There is a similar understanding of the principle of color matching, that is, red, yellow, blue and black can bring out ever-changing colors. Just like we usually take a printed master painting to analyze the color. We can find that every color is a question of "how much are these colors". If it is white, put it on a white background.
Back to the analysis of movies.
Arthur's mother has been writing to her father tirelessly, hoping that he can see the suffering of his living environment with his children and help them with compassion. But she forgot that she was the executioner who really castrated Arthur's life. This is why Arthur "collapsed" after reading the letter and learning the truth.
I said, that's called rebirth.
This result is by no means pleasant, because the victim has to reorganize the value of life with scars that are difficult to heal, find the motivation of life again and live. I feel the same way.
Although we try our best to be ourselves, we are actually in a world where others are talking about us.
We need to wear masks to communicate with people, because we are a vulnerable group; We are engaged in art and have a high ideological level, but in the external realistic environment, we are short of money and have no status, and we are still a vulnerable group.
We should consider whether our movements and body movements are appropriate, otherwise we will be discussed, even laughed at and beaten.
Arthur was robbed of the billboard at the beginning of the film. He was knocked down by a group of people in the alley. He gasped on the ground in front of a broken billboard.
Bullying people.
For those who were bullied as children, you must know the true composition of my thoughts. In other words, only we know each other. Because you have all lived a life of humiliation and anger. As a minority, we should be more competitive and use our own strength and achievements to avenge ourselves, instead of giving up on ourselves until we die. This reminds me of a sentence: the more a tree's crown yearns for the high sun, the deeper its roots go into the dark underground.
We live in a dark package of negative energy; We reinterpreted negative energy.
"We are not grandstanding. On the other hand, we show our cultivation. "
Everyone will feel uncomfortable around you and think you are a freak ... I can't have this kind of negative energy around me. ...
Ha ha.
Remember the stairs that Arthur the Clown climbed? At first, he struggled to climb up, and the background was full of loneliness; Now, he is dancing in a gorgeous red suit, revealing a yellow vest!
Because it doesn't matter, in the face of external harm, we are still conceiving jokes and looking for materials.
As clowns, please let us turn around beautifully.
To paraphrase Nietzsche:
? "They are all in an unusual loneliness. At that time, only they lived only for cognition. "
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Clowns put on red suits and danced down the stairs. The background music link has been placed below for everyone to use:
Rock and roll part 2
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