People like me don't like making new friends very much. You know, introducing your past is very tiring. But the day I met you, I wanted to show you my first half of my life as a movie, so that you could see the snow I saw in Hulunbeier, the deserted streets I walked, and the drunken nights I spent, making up for all the life you failed to participate in.
I want to open a bookstore in the future, which contains books that can be read for free, quiet green plants, loving couples whispering with their heads down, fragrant coffee and refreshing green tea. I sat on a high stool reading and drinking tea. Talk about life and share our stories with young girls at lunch. In the evening, we will recall childhood anecdotes, tease each other, and then go home together at sunset.
That was the first time we met. When we came home from work, we had been sitting in the car for more than an hour, and our heads were dizzy. The car is noisy, and there are voices and TV sounds. Suddenly, a very gentle voice suddenly pulled my heartbeat. It's like a hungry refugee biting soft bread, like a heavy rain in a hot summer afternoon, like love at first sight. "Is this seat taken?" You asked with a smile, and that smile was like a spring breeze, and the fatigue of the day was swept away.
I like the way you smile, the way you complain about lipstick fading when you eat, the way you are happy after killing the enemy general with lol, and the way you don't like me. The time of youth is really so sunny and short. I love you looking up at the clear sky in the spring breeze, running after sunset, carefree and carefree. As long as you are here, everything will be fine. I hope someone will prepare 999 roses for you, I hope someone will accompany you to ride a horse and drink to a distant place, I hope someone will burn all the flowers in the four seasons so that you can keep only one, and I hope you are happy. I hope I won't love you anymore. As the sun sets, the warm afterglow shines in the alley, as if it were elongated. As night falls, every family becomes lively. The warm light projected the window on the ground. The air is filled with the smell of kebabs. From time to time came the laughter of naughty children. In the ktv in the distance, a song "Happy Break-up" came over and over again. I remember the day we broke up, and I sang Happy Break-up all night in ktv alone. There are many intermittent performances in this city every day, and life is far more exciting than movies.
Usually at this time, we will hand in hand in front of Uncle Zhang's barbecue stall in the alley and put on a few beautiful strings; Go to the tea shop and ask for a cup of milk tea, less sugar and more pearls; Go to Zhongshan Square to watch my aunt dance square dance. You said: When we are old, will we still dance? Go to the river and let me take your picture, with a candied fruit in one hand and a dozen tricks a minute. Now my mobile phone is full of your photos, but I can't see you alone. Without you, my life becomes dull. Stay at home as soon as it gets dark, for fear of thinking of you as soon as you go out. Love me, love my dog, listen to your favorite songs and your name quietly, brush your Tik Tok over and over again, I quit the game for you, but I can't stop you. My friend couldn't bear to see me sad and asked me to join that deadly trip. I fell in love with you at first sight. It was a one-man show. I am romantic, but I can't forget it. My heart is occupied by you, and I won't touch it again.
Finally, there is no reason to find you, no reason to play the woman with you, no idea of kisses and hugs every time I get angry, no chance to go out and hold your hand. This deadly trip ruined everything. When I woke up from the hospital and looked at my immobile legs, I knew I had completely lost you and the right to be happy. I can finally put it down, and finally I don't have any expectations for you. You can also pursue your happiness, and all the sufferings will be borne by me!
I thought for too long, I might lose your whole youth or even your whole life, so I chose to let go. Being together is because of love, and letting go is not because you don't love, but because you love too much. I'm relieved. I won't haunt you, as long as you are happy.