I because of playful, did not continue to study, early quit school, and now has been working outside for half a year. January 13th back to his hometown, ready to spend the New Year with his parents and younger brother, go back to the family with my own salary to buy clothes, food, but also left some money to help the family money turnover.
When I was a kid, my mom and dad always loved me, but I was a girl after all, and my family always had some patriarchal tendencies. In our hometown, if you don't have a son at home, you will be looked down upon. At the urging of my grandparents, my parents gave birth to my younger brother when I was seven years old. Since then, my life has lost the happiness and joy it used to have. My father's temper was particularly bad, hitting me and scolding me whenever he moved. When I was studying, I ran away from home for fear of being scolded by my dad because I failed a midterm exam.
My mom and dad have been working hard for 20 years, but they still haven't accomplished anything. The factory that they opened closed down, and the business didn't work out, so my parents had to choose to go back to their hometown to develop. After returning to their hometown, Mom and Dad took their years of savings and borrowed money from all over the world and built a three-story building that looks like a villa from the front, which is the most special house in our township. Other people's houses were built as bungalows, and the building was just the simplest addition to the bungalow. Many people thought it was some big boss who came here to build a mansion. My friend joked with me, "You can get married in this villa!" I was so happy to hear that at the time.
On the first floor of the villa, mom and dad opened a game hall and billiard room, on the second floor was our own living place, and on the third floor was an ice skating rink. I paid for the skates, but the name of the rink belonged to my brother. The people who came to my house to play every day were especially numerous, basically students or punks from the neighborhood.
That night on the 17th, I met him - Hiroko. He had an older brother, and the two were twins. He had taken a leave of absence to return home early because his grandfather had passed away. That night we were at the skating rink together, and he asked me for my phone number, but I didn't give it to him, I thought it would be better for a girl to be reserved. Then I said why don't you add me to WeChat, which he didn't download on his cell phone. I told him the wifi password of my home so that he could download it, and that's how we added WeChat to each other.
His skating is particularly handsome, and he's been back home for four days, and he's the best skater of anyone I've ever seen. Whether it's skating backwards, or spinning around, and dancing while skating, as well as walking spacewalks ...... all kinds of play he will. The first time I saw him, there was a different kind of feeling, not only because he skated well, but the kind of feeling that burned from the heart, I think I fell in love with him at first sight.
After that night we started chatting on WeChat and he said he liked me and asked me to be his girlfriend, which I didn't agree to at the time. In the following days, he only chatted with me a few times a day, each sentence would not be more than 10 words. That's when I started to feel that he was being perfunctory.
Haozi often told me that his cell phone was out of battery after talking to me for only a few sentences. At that time, I guessed that he might have a girlfriend, but he just went back to his hometown and wanted to find a random girl to play with.
Then he came to my house to skate again, and didn't even pay. I didn't care about the money, it's just that when he did that, another idea popped into my head: because he knew me, he didn't have to pay to come and play. It was a bad feeling, and my parents even argued with me because of it, because I asked them not to charge him and to count the money for coming to play on me, and my mom just sneered a few times each time.
After four days of arguing with my parents like this, I confessed to my mom, "I like him." Mom didn't object and said, "Discuss it with your dad tonight." But because I couldn't feel his liking for me, I stopped my mom and told her that I would let my dad know in a few days.
That night I cried all night, I told Hao Zi all my inner thoughts, but his message was very slow to reply, just said he liked me, let me not think too much. Maybe it's because I'm too sensitive myself, maybe he's too good and I'm not confident enough in myself. I'm just imagining things every day, and I keep sending him messages, and the reserve I had at the beginning is no longer there.
I just can't control my fondness for him, I didn't have this kind of feeling even in my first love when I was in school. Haozi every day to me light, know to he just play, but I still so naive, prefer to believe that this is a delusion, I hold a ray of hope to ask his friends.
But the news I got was not what I wanted, it turned out that every word I talked to Hiroko, he let his friends read it, and basically all the boys who played with him in his neighborhood knew the content of our text messages, which made me feel like I didn't have any privacy at all, like I was being slapped in the face.
His friends said I was mesmerized, and others said I had fallen off the wagon, none of which was what I wanted to see or hear, and I was really afraid that Hiroko was just playing around. The closest we ever got was holding hands while skating. When he took my hand, my heart was so excited and thrilled, I couldn't wait to keep skating and never let go.
My family's condition is not bad, mom and dad opened the skating rink income is not bad, I myself in addition to the clerk, but also opened a Taobao store, these wages together in addition to the cost of living, but also to save some money. There are a lot of guys after me, and when they confess to me I say "I'm gay." Or say that they already have a boyfriend to perfume them.
Yesterday, I heard from his friend that Hiroko was afraid that my dad would force him to marry me, and he no longer dared to come to my house to play. He misunderstood me, I let my parents know, the first is out of respect for my parents, after all, I am their daughter. The second is also responsible for each other, love can not be behind the back of mom and dad like engaged in clandestine love.
Yesterday night, Haozi came to my house again to skate, I went upstairs to find him, he died not let me skate, he said that yesterday, too many people upstairs, for fear that I fell, but I feel that it is an excuse. He said there were too many people upstairs yesterday, and he was afraid I would fall, but I felt it was an excuse. Because later on, under my nose, Haozi skated with another girl holding hands. I didn't hold any boy's hand at the rink for him, and it was so hard for me at the time.
I came down after watching them play for a while and he followed. My parents went out to play mahjong, and it was just me and my brother at home, and Hiroko and his friend played cards all night at my house, and my mom came back and helped them make their beds so they could sleep at my house at night.
I know that my parents are afraid of my heartbreak, so they have recognized this "boyfriend". I stayed with Hiroko until 5:30 a.m., and when I couldn't hold out any longer, I went back to my room and went to bed. I was so obedient to him that I felt more sorry for him than for myself. I woke up several times during my sleep, and every time I ran to the next door to see if Hao Zi had covered up, for fear that he would catch a cold.
But I've always felt that Hao Zi is cold and hot to me, sometimes in front of me intentionally hiding to send a message to someone else, my intuition tells me that the other side must be a girl. The fact is that the company is not allowed to see the QQ chat records, not that I don't trust him, but his behavior tells me that he must have other women. But I admit it, to blame myself blind, like a person who does not know how to cherish. I want to elope with him, but then I doubt if this is good...