Self-Growth At 35, I Just Figured Out What I Wanted

? What was I doing before I turned 35?

? I read books, but I read mostly novels, and the magazines I subscribed to at home were "Knowing", "Family", and "Family Doctor", and I subscribed to a copy of "Storytelling", and occasionally went to the temple to read the Buddhist scriptures that advised people to do good deeds and cultivate themselves. I don't read educational books, I find it very boring, tedious and empty, and it doesn't help my work in a substantial way.

? I write articles, but all I write is some sick and windy words. I don't write articles related to my work, and I find the stuff I do with my students boring and uninteresting. Of course, there are some things I don't have the courage to write about, because at that time, I lacked the wisdom of education, I was just teaching by instinct.

? I keep in the classroom every day to teach and educate people, but I can not grasp the opportunity of education, and there is no education concept with the times, I rely on their own hard work, brute force and hard work. At that time, I took the class class style is super good, the subject taught by the examination results outstanding, the official evaluation is very high, but the students and I do not pro.

? Every afternoon after school, I went for a walk with Mr. He in the fields behind the school. Looking at the rising smoke from the village, listening to the chickens and dogs barking in the small yards in the fields, and smelling the fishy grass in the river gully, I felt especially contented, and I never thought of leaving there!

? In my spare time, my favorite crafts are knitting sweaters and tying insoles, which are superbly crafted and often attract crowds of spectators. When knitting sweaters, Mr. He gave me òwooló. When I was making insoles, Mr. He would help me to set the cloth. In the eyes of outsiders, our couple is simply a high-powered version of the immortal couple, in fact, I am also very satisfied with this kind of life, you and I love each other.

? I also often accompany my son all kinds of crazy play, such as hide-and-seek, make bird's nests, catch robins, catch lobsters, touch snails, pick lotus, pick mulberries, digging wild vegetables, play river sand ...... play my son's ideal just want to drive a tractor for life in the Dafosi (where my school is located).

? I thought my life would be so calm and happy, but a chance changed my life. It opened my eyes to a wider world, and made me wake up from my half-asleep state, and made me realize what kind of life I wanted to live, and it became inevitable for me to leave my old place!

? Chance is that I happened to read Wan Wei's The Art of War for Classroom Teachers. I learned about the K12 Education Forum from this book, and then I learned about the Education Online Forum from K12. In "Education Online", I saw the posts of the history teacher (Qin Wang), light ink and gentle shadow (Wang Xiaolin), apricot altar soldier (Yang Bing), cornerstone (Fang Haidong), Qinxinhe (Li Zhixin) and other excellent teachers. I didn't know who they were at the time, but I just read their articles hungrily every day, regretting that I had learned too much too late and delayed too much time. I also saw Mr. Zhu Yongxin's post about success on "Education Online":

One of the most exciting things for me was to write a thousand words every day, and after ten years, I would be among the successful ones, and I thought I could do it! But I don't have the courage to put pen to paper, I'm afraid that the words I write will be ridiculed by others, and may even start a war of words.

? When I read Qin Xin He (Lai Zhi Xin)'s article, I learned that she is the same age as me, but her 35 years old is wonderful! She left her husband at home and took her young daughter alone from Baise, Guangxi to Jiangmen, Guangdong to pursue her dream. And my 35 years old, I can't believe that every day in the smell of cow shit in the field trails wandering. Also a teacher, she has a dream, I don't! Also a woman, she had the courage to pursue her dream, I didn't! Also a mother, she has the ability to create a better environment for her children to grow up in, I don't! I'm not stupid, I'm not stupid, why can't I live a better life? Once these thoughts arise, they grow like crazy. All I think about every day is how I can change myself, and in turn, peel myself away from my old state of living.

? Later, I went to the "Friends of Classroom Teachers Education Forum" and saw a netizen named Chuhuo (Li Di) as a moderator, writing articles, and often replying to various questions from netizens, very diligent and humble attitude. My heart is completely activated, I also want to read - read educational books! I am also going to write - write classroom education narratives! I am also going to pursue my dreams and live to my liking!

? Just what will I do to pursue my dreams? What are my strengths? Where can I go?

? When one wakes up completely, the mind becomes clear and the mind opens up. I immediately took out a pen and a notebook, listed my strengths and weaknesses, and analyzed the possible outcomes of sustained effort.

? What are my strengths?

? 1. Hardworking, able to work hard, and able to stick to what I have decided to do as long as I have decided to do it. This is my original quality, carved in my bones since I was a child, and I don't need to practice it again. With this quality as a foundation, as long as I find the right direction, I will certainly be able to, as Mr. Zhu Yongxin said, among the successful.

? 2. Articulate, articulate, and not stage fright. This advantage should be the eloquent talent plus more than ten years of teaching work to practice. This means that I can work in the field of teaching and educating people like a fish out of water. I have to continue to work deeper in the field of education, and in this way I have found the direction of my efforts.

? 3. Good writing skills and a foundation in writing. As long as I choose a good topic to write about as well as the material, along with my own persistence, I will be able to write a good article. I have the talent to write, just need to invest time to write into my advantage, and I deal with students every day, fresh writing material at hand. Besides, I don't play mahjong, I don't shop, I don't engage in useless socializing, and my husband has taken care of all the housework, so I have all the time in the world to write.

? 4. Good classroom management, like a sense of control, especially like to be a classroom teacher. Then I will choose this field to continue to deepen the plow, the future will be a great success.

? What are my shortcomings?

? 1. I have no interest in this area of administration. I've been a small mid-level for 10 years without promotion, and the likelihood of mixing to the school level leadership is very small. I'd rather take the path of professional development, even if I don't get anywhere in my life, at least I'm doing something I like, and I'm happy!

? 2. do not drink, do not play mahjong, do not gossip, and will not dance square dance, and do not like shopping, it is easy to be female colleagues edge, in fact, I have been in the interpersonal marginal zone. I stay in the society that depends on the acquaintance relationship and what's the point? The only way to get out was to leave and be rejuvenated!

? Since my strengths outweighed my weaknesses, and I wanted to live an educated life like I had never done before, why didn't I act now? I have a great strength and that is that once I have things figured out, I act on them immediately and never procrastinate and be indecisive! On top of that, I have the added advantage of sticking to it once I've acted. My mom has been nurturing these qualities since I was two or three years old. She deserves a lot of credit for what I've accomplished today.

? So how do I act to iterate quickly?

? First immediately go to Dangdang and place an order for educational books to read. I no longer wanted to prove that I had a strong work ethic as well as a superb work ethic by playing hardball. What I wanted was to specialize in teaching and want students to obey me, respect me, and love me! I will have to improve my knowledge of education and must have a deep insight into human nature.

? I immediately started writing in the "Friends of the classroom teacher education forum". I've read, I've done, I don't write, how do others know? I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to do this, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it myself. Without reflection, how can I improve? If I don't improve, how can I go to the end of the world? In martial arts novels, the knight-errant walks the world with a sword, then I also need to have a sword, in order to go to the end of the world of education!

? May 25, 2006 at 11:00 pm, I wrote the first education article, the full text of 597 words, the style is quite young, the content is quite superficial. A netizen called cold maple in my post behind the content of my spit, although full of grooves, but I'm still very happy, after all, there is a response to it, that I'm being concerned about it. Then as a moderator of the first lotus also in my post below the speech, her incentive to make me doubled confidence, the enthusiasm for writing continues to rise. From May 25, 2006, that late night, I have not stopped in the writing of this road.

? Strengths = Talents x Commitment, a formula that holds true after my own testing! To become a super individual, you have to find your talent, and then make long-term investment, the talent will become your advantage, which in turn will help you iterate and upgrade to become the head of a certain industry. My talents are hands-on and writing, and I combined the two and invested in them for a long time, and the rewards came. For one, I've had my articles found and published by editors from posts. Two, I gained a deeper understanding of education and was both happy and productive in my work. Third, many well-known principals online have discovered my talent and made me job offers.

? With a sword, I can fight my way to the end of the world!

? At 37, I could finally take my children and go from Sichuan to Hainan to pursue my dreams. What Qin Xin He did at 35, I did at 37! Although it is a little late, but I believe that the late maturity of the people also have the opportunity of great success.

? A born in the countryside, grew up in the countryside, working in rural schools for 17 years of female teachers, at the age of 37 years old, with young children to go to an unfamiliar city to fight. This not only requires courage, but also requires a decisive attitude, and even more need to be decisive power of action, these, I have long had! The reason why I huddled in a small place before, because I did not figure out who I am, and did not see clearly what I need.

? In Hainan for more than a year, I still dive into the practice, I know that my insight and ability is far from good, let alone excellence. I want to go farther, fly higher, I must be calm, tolerate loneliness, tolerate the idle air, keep the empty room, endure the mediocre and boring life.

? I have a sword, but not sharp, and is not a good sword, combat value is too low, in addition to sharpening the sword, there is no other way.

? I was in Hainan, the educational experience was written into the "education voyage", after the publication of the "rule of the class has the way - class teacher wisdom manual". Although the text of this book is a little emotional and tender, but touched the hearts of many peers. Every time I reread it, I have tears in my eyes and I am overwhelmed with emotion.

? 40 years old, I went to Shenzhen. Ten years of grinding a sword, finally among the secular definition of the ranks of the successful, but this so-called success from my definition of success is still very far. What I experienced and what I gained in my ten years in Shenzhen, I have already said very clearly in "Life Review: My Ten Years in Shenzhen", so I won't repeat it here.

? I've entered the age of knowing what I want to do with my life. I'm not sure if I'm just waiting to retire and spend the rest of my life with my grandchildren, but I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that. No, I don't think that's a good idea! This is not the life I want! I'm going to pursue spiritual success.

? I'm not going to retire! Retirement would mean that I am actively conceding defeat to life! I will also not go home to bring up my grandchildren, my value is not in bringing up my grandchildren. Not bringing up my grandchildren does not mean not loving my grandchildren and my daughter-in-law, but not getting involved in my son's family of origin and not depriving my daughter-in-law of her rights as a mother. I am not selfish or cold, and I will make up for my absence in the way my son and daughter-in-law would most enjoy.

? At 50, statistically speaking, an old man in the workplace, or even an invalid, but I think I still have a lot of advantages and can still make it big. So what advantages do I have? May as well bask in the sun:

? 1. Emotional. I love and enjoy what I do, and I treat every student's growth as if it were my national priority.

? 2. Have time. I don't have two babies, I don't have grandchildren, I'm healthy, I have a sunny mind, and I have plenty of time to promote the growth of young people.

? 3. have experience, I am a first-line classroom teacher, and rooted in the first line for 30 years, is the provincial famous classroom teacher studio host, has a wealth of experience with professional team.

? 4. There are results. I have devoted myself to research and writing, so far published more than 200 articles, published 14 educational monographs, participated in the research project won the second prize of the national teaching achievements, I have the courage to guide the young people.

? 5. There are resources. I am from the Guangdong Province famous class teacher training system out of the province famous class teacher, know a lot of provincial famous class teacher and famous class teacher studio host, but also know a lot of moral education in the field of professors and experts, I can invite them to give my trainees to pass on the experience.

? These advantages are enough for me to keep my own classroom at the same time, influence to drive more teachers in the education of this road wider and wider.

? At 50 years old, I've made all the mistakes I should have made and all the mistakes I shouldn't have made. The first time I saw this, I was able to get the ball rolling, and I was able to get the ball rolling, and I was able to get the ball rolling. I'm not sure what I'm talking about, but I'm not sure what I'm talking about, and I'm not sure what I'm talking about. Live understand, see clearly, not entangled, not impulsive, not nostalgic, not afraid of the new, not complaining, not hate ...... just want to live calmly, frankly. Then, do their own work, to the students and parents. Then do something you like, and valuable things to comfort life.

? As long as you want to grow, it's not too late to wake up at 35, and it's not too old to be 50! The road ahead is always there, it's up to you whether you want to go or not!

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