What's it like to want to paint even though you can't?

I experienced one this year! There are really only two kinds of experience: the first one, can't draw but want to draw and then draw. That's what I did, and I felt beautiful, and my drawing was so-so, but the feeling that I could do whatever I wanted was so beautiful that no one could control it! The second kind, can't draw but want to draw and eventually don't do it but only think about it all day or occasionally, I guess the experience is always thinking "I wish I could draw" but selectively ignoring the fact that most of the people who know how to draw have grown up from not knowing how to draw to knowing how to draw. I don't know how to draw at all, but sometimes I want to draw something or someone on a whim. What should I do? I can't be lazy! Just pick up a brush and draw! Just draw until you are happy, you don't have to be too hard on yourself. Compulsive pursuit of beauty and even perfect friends, then you can prepare to learn from professionals!