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1, Beijing thank you for five years of tolerance, in the tolerance of my gradual growth.
Sometimes I think I am not starting to do the next five-year plan, five years ago, more is to consider themselves, how they can earn a lot of money, no other trivial things. Five years of home ownership, a family, and now his wife is pregnant, over and over again began to be ordinary, there is always a sense of crisis, especially after his wife is pregnant, inexplicable anxiety, perhaps this is a mid-life crisis - a 90-year-old mid-life crisis.
My wife and I are from a small place. Six years ago, I always felt that my hometown is a poor backwater, always thinking about the carp jump Dragon Gate dream. University did not get to Beijing, graduated from the Beijing, then there is always a heart with others not the same self-confidence, where there is no hometown of the blue water and blue sky, it seems that you do not have to live by the book, lack of thinking. Especially at home at nine o'clock in the evening outside a dark, DJ-like square dance outside the window vibrant shouting, obviously and my inner world is not compatible.
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The first time I came to Beijing is 12 years, out of the Beijing station, everything is so strange, the capital is very yearning, thinking that I also came to the capital of the people, people come and go in a hurry. I feel that this city is so busy and cold, how did not expect to drift to Beijing, now understand the cold ~ only camouflage.
After graduating from college, I found a job in my field, 8 hours a day on shift system, food and housing, 4000 yuan per month, half a year on the class began to doubt life, a lifetime of this? The have a muddled life to work, after the New Year's home said nothing want to go back to work, the resignation report submitted after staying at home. The Internet to find a job to cast a resume, think about what they can do.
Suddenly one day out of the blue, I want to go to Beijing, and now I remember that at 4:00 pm thinking about going to Beijing, on the Internet to cast the Beijing resume, 7:00 pm and the family said that the family did not think that their own Internet browsing the web page, nine o'clock and said not to go until ten o'clock when they began to pack their bags, my mother asked me what I do, I said tomorrow to Beijing until the next day, I went out to go after my mother only believed that the words I said. I'm not sure what I mean by that, but I think it's a good thing that I've been doing this for a long time.
To Beijing interviews with flight attendants, examined the family's civil servants, interviewed the professional, and finally even their own did not expect to find a sales job. 13 March into the overall market at that time is not particularly good, for me this white, can only learn to imitate others, slowly 15 years 16 years Beijing overall market fire a mess, sales Well income naturally straight up, I feel that I want to take off! I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that, but I'm going to be able to do it!
At that time, parents always urged to go back home to buy a house, the old generation of concepts to buy a house on the good to find objects, after that is to get married and have children, now think of belonging to the change of direction of marriage, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha! I remember the day friends went out to play together, when I went home, I passed a sales office, a sea of people, quite a novelty, and went in to see!
The house looked good, my friend asked me to buy or not, I said you buy me to buy, so he bought a set I bought a set, upstairs and downstairs! I'm not sure if you're going to be able to get a good deal on this, but I'm sure you're going to be able to get a good deal on this, and I'm sure you're going to be able to get a good deal on this.
Very natural and supernatural, after returning home, but also think about how to buy a house today, and his girlfriend also quarreled, that birds do not shit place who go to live ~ However, now up if not the project policy has long risen to fly.
Now the daughter-in-law and son live quite comfortable, the surrounding facilities are slowly up, often nothing to ask the daughter-in-law this bird does not shit place to live how? After a beating ~ ~ ~ ~
I always feel that those who look at the house every day, which contrasts with that contrast, how do you think, before buying a house with the law of exclusion to find a house ah, this look at that look, how to waste time.
2. After coming to Beijing, is Beijing the way you imagined it to be?
Six Mile Bridge bus station is a lot bigger than the old one, the crowd panicked into the subway station, I tried to pretend that I had been here, trying not to let others see that I was from out of town, harboring an indescribable feeling of excitement and anticipation, as well as panic, uncertainty and inferiority. But I knew that from now on, my feet were on the ground in Beijing. I had to change myself. To make myself feel like I belong.
I've been in contact with too many people who are better than me. Excellent birth, first-class education, and even a beautiful face - the city's elite. Everyone in the city is a stranger, everyone is in a hurry, brushing shoulders in a hurry, everyone is busy with their own goals.
Five years in the North is not a long time, and slowly did not feel that his hometown is a poor country, and did not feel that his hometown is out of place with me, and the sense of belonging to Beijing is still as if it is not there, and it is nebulous.
When I was single, I was very frugal, and I didn't go into a large shopping mall for the first three years, because I didn't dare to go in, and I knew I couldn't afford to go in. I remember when I was living in the Sihui East Station Kangjiagou 6 square meters in the rental house, a fried rice after work every day, a plate of cold dishes, happy or unhappy when a bottle of beer. Dumbly looking at the subway from the front of the speeding past, looking at the platform of a family from the house lights, sometimes just sit, stay. The color of the night is like water, just so still, but also beautiful.
I remember when I first came to Beijing, Kangjiagou, my big tiger brother found me the first shelter in Beijing, the Kangjiagou is full of people coming and going, and the people are slowly dreaming of wandering in a foreign land.
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When the first Kangjiagou every night is not lively, the day after the depressing work, in the ditch stalls can always hear the laughter of strangers, but also wine over three rounds of crying, Kangjiagou in the night is to avoid the brutal life of the shelter, three or five friends have no fear of proper daytime unhappiness or to share the happiness of the day! Release all the sadness, sympathize with the impermanence of the world, is a small ditch to teach new strangers wandering ～～～～ all experience it!
Speaking of Kangjiagou can not not mention the small two barbecue, in the small two I cried and laughed and pondered over the confused ~ ~ ~ ~. Dozens of strings, a few bottles of beer, when drinking out of a different flavor, when it was very much like this feeling, no matter what happens in the daytime, nightfall Xiao Er's sense of taste is always excellent, perhaps the store's taste, perhaps the taste of people, perhaps it was when the simple we have a taste of the youth, but this taste will never be there again. <Wait until the memory is only the essence, wait until the smile does not participate in the disguise, we meet in the old place>The song is always beautiful, the disguise of the stranger in a foreign land is not demolished, no matter how!
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The small ditch every day people move in and out, moving into the face is full of tenderness and excitement is very contagious ~ sunshine youth, moving out of the face is also excited about it mixed with less than reluctant to give up. Now move in you may be the next move out of me, in the small ditch in the success of their own style, but also to escape from the small ditch to escape from the calm, the put on the release do not let yourself so tired.
Perhaps recently sentimental, six years of wandering time gave me a lot of church a lot, but also lost a lot of (this is not nonsense, the conservation of energy ~ ~ ~ hahahahaha)
Thank you for those who taught me, taught me how to feed the strangers, taught me how to make money, taught me how to look at the world ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Bei drifted not just to sell the misery, the young generation of 95 after the new media, netizens, and so on. The young generation of new media, online stores, anchor, voice actor and other new careers. Rental is also a home, shared rent also have a high quality of life, before the premise of "northern drift" must mention the basement, but for the 95 years later, "basement" is actually a distant and unfamiliar word.
Now it should be a comfortable and stable timeline, and ordinary people like me now married and have children, love at home with their own children, my work is stable although the market reasons some impact, but the overall is quite good!
3, the root of anxiety
After the birth of the baby, the love of the home alone with the 4-month-old baby, the baby, which does not make a fuss, the love of the bad food and sleep. I can't help but work outside, and this is the first point of anxiety that stabilizes life.
The second point of anxiety, the work is too smooth, always feel the warm water boiled frog, may not be one day on the no, SO is also doing their own second career, although the start has not yet reached the burden of a family's expenses, but enjoy it. However, the biggest fear is that they are enjoying themselves, and at this age, I am no more than when I was single.
The best way is to quit the job and start a business to stay at home with the kids, but whether the business can succeed or not, and whether it's enough to pay for the family's expenses afterward, this is another line of anxiety that merges the two anxiety points!
Still figuring it out ~ ~ ~ ~ where will I be in the next six years? Everyone will choose their own way of life, perhaps after the tired will not want to be so tired, but can not help it. The last line of the lyrics to their own ~ people in the river drift ah which can not not take a knife