At noon, my colleague came back and said that the pharmacy had no more. I'm not sure if you're going to be able to find the right one, but I'm sure you're going to be able to find the right one, and I'm sure you're going to be able to find the right one.
Every day more and more alarmed by the epidemic news constantly refreshing everyone's experience of the world and cognition, colleagues began to use a variety of perspectives to persuade me not to go back to the later I only returned to the sentence "certainly to go back to the ah," and then no longer say anything. I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to do this, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it," he said.
I'm very serious with the leadership to persuade me not to go back, said: "It is because Hubei is the battlefield, I have to go back, I if I am in Hangzhou, my family or I own any one side of the matter, we are not good". The leader's eyes flashed a little light, then no longer persuade me, just let me be careful.
Originally I bought a train ticket from Hangzhou East to Hankou on the night of January 22nd, and from Hankou to Tianmen South at 9:58 am on the morning of the 23rd. Zhang Mandi knew repeatedly advised me to return the ticket, and eventually I could not resist to return the ticket and the hotel to grab a 21 direct Tianmen South but need to make up the ticket station ticket.
Already arrived home, I did not expect, 23rd 10:00 am, Wuhan closed the city, only in the war movie can see the two words appeared in my hometown.
At this moment, no one could have expected that my hometown would be unsealed by March 21st, and I left my hometown on March 23rd in a friend's car. This is the longest time I've spent at home since I graduated 5 years ago, and all the other times I've spent at home haven't been as long as this one.
These two months, I watched the balcony across the new crown isolation hotel from a few to all full light, and then go out. From sending my mom to the isolation hotel to take care of patients, to waiting for her to come back. Every day, I was concerned about food prices, policies, and what Hubei people were experiencing everywhere. Everyone in this world is afraid of Hubei people, and my family and I, who are in the middle of the storm, are really not afraid at all.
My mom wasn't scared at all when she volunteered to go into battle, saying that after a lifetime in the healthcare industry, she couldn't afford not to be there at this time. I trust her, she works carefully, healthy, every day at home to watch the live dance 1 hour square dance thunder. I worry about her, but respect her more. The only thing I worry about is the new crown patient at the hotel she reads about on the phone who is unstable and always dropping things with aggressive tendencies.
Her optimism infected me, and I always told her that as long as our family didn't get infected, our family hadn't lost anything but more precious time with our family.
On a weekend night sometime in December 2019, I was lying in bed in my rented house in Yuhang and realized I had depression.
I hadn't eaten anything from morning to night and I wasn't hungry at all. I lost all desire.
Intermittently, I would crave food again, as if I could only sleep if I filled my stomach.
Every weekday morning, I resisted getting out of bed, and sometimes I was so bored at work that I had to find a place to be alone to regain my composure before I could return to work.
There were times when I felt inexplicably drawn to the window next to my 10th-floor rental house, and thought it would be okay to end it all. So when a couple of close friends talked to me about how they too wanted it to end at times, I would say that's normal.
If the world leaves you no choice, and the path that follows that choice is not the one you want, why shouldn't you say no?
How many times since I was a kid have the thought popped into my head that I've long since gotten used to ****ing around with it.
I believe I can come out of it, because I know deep down that it's not me, it's the world I'm currently in that's wrong. And the future is long, there are many possibilities in life, just get through it.
The epidemic gave me a precious time to adjust, when I took that step, sitting on the passenger side of the cargo pulling, from the desolate and coarse Yuhang Xixi Jingyuan moved into the evening a whole street are lively selling all kinds of snacks Chunbo South Court, I was happy.
When I first decided to move to Yuhang, Dagger advised me that Yuhang is too remote, do not go, at that time I think I can be fearless in order to work. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do that, but I think I'm going to be able to.
After the failure, I rearranged my little rental house a little bit and rebuilt my life.
The new company's partners are very nice, and there is a big kitchen, I began to cook in the company, every time I will do some more to eat together.
In fact, the work is still quite heavy, always a week's time to unite hundreds of merchants to complete an online and offline activities, often to one or two o'clock in the evening, but the good thing is that the partners with the tacit understanding, although hard but also happy.
I found a new sense of control over my life in those two months, and then I joined babycare, a company that makes products from love, and everything worked out even better.
I love the company's outlook on talent: "teenage," "different," and "adult," which I think sums up what I grew up with and have always stood up for. I think these three items summarize very well what I've been defending since I was a kid.
I marveled at Li's sincerity and candor when he said at the Double 11 review meeting, "I don't think things at work will ever defeat me, because I know that work is just a part of life, and there are a lot of good things outside of work. "The fact that I'm not a member of this organization is not a problem, but it's a problem for me.
I was also impressed by the way Chang told us about every choice he made and every time he left during his working years, the changes in his position and salary, the changes in his mindset, and the way he said, "It's okay to do it for the sake of money, but it's definitely not just for the sake of money," and that he "wants to create a company where everyone is happy to go to work every day. I was impressed by his words, "I want to create a company where everyone is happy when they go to work every day." The confusion in my mind, the uncertainty about the future seemed to be dissolved by this paragraph of his, and I was no longer afraid of the future, and I was even full of confidence.
I started to look forward to the future.
On December 6, 2020, a thought occurred to me that I would like to get rid of that dress hanging on the wall.
I had jokingly asked Mei-Ling, "Do you think I came out of it", "Obviously not ah", she looked down and smiled. "Wudi I don't think I smell happiness in you", I blushed.
The mug from that man was broken by my mistake three years ago, and I felt at the time that it would be the end of it.
And three years later, when I moved to Riverside, I hung his clothes on the wall by mistake.
That person used to be the beautiful convergence of everything in the world, and what I lacked and what I wanted were all glowing in that person. The person who appeared after that did not replace the light that once bloomed in the heart.
And on December 6, 2020, I suddenly wanted to get rid of that dress on the wall. I thought it would be easy, but the second I took it off and my hand touched the fabric, heartache and reluctance suddenly hit me.
While I was lost in my emotions, my cat suddenly bit me in response to the stress and then went crazy attacking people.
I saw it as a sign, forcing me to take a break from that emotion.
So I finally got rid of that piece of clothing, and over the next two weeks I got rid of so many more pieces of clothing that I hadn't even bothered to get rid of when I moved.
It was amazing, and after that day it was like all the energy came back into my body. Every day I feel energized and confident.
Yes, so what if you miss out on the good things, nothing can stop you from finding your own happiness.
You deserve better.
2020 passed, I did my best, and I miss it.
(P.S. 2019 year-end summary, last year's timeline wasn't quite ready to be posted, so I'm sending it out together this time)
2019 Year-End Summary - No One Knows Where You're Running To