At the beginning of the patting, Ms. Nien Nien scanned my body with her hand when she first patted, and her hand was like a scanner, where it was more blocked, and she would perceive it as soon as she put her hand on it. In the beginning, the teacher was tapping the more painful places, I was a little afraid, my body will be very tense, very resistant.
Why my body would be so resistant, and even said that there is a lot of fear it, I do not know where these fears come from, but when I slowly to feel the body itself, found that the body in fact, it is very powerful, just that we have been locked up before.
As the hands of the patting teacher continued to roam over my body, it seemed like my mouth was slowly opening up to talk to her about some of the thoughts that were going through my mind and the images I was seeing in my head.
I remember the 1st time the teacher was pushing my stomach, I all felt really painful, but at that time it was still bearable, and the 1st time I forced myself to be able to accept it, just like in our life, when you encounter something even if you are not particularly happy, you will force yourself to bear it, and then pile it up in your skin. Not in time to discharge the emotions out, there will be left some hidden problems.
But on the 2nd time I pushed my stomach, the teacher didn't know how, her hand didn't stop, and I thought to myself that she'd stop soon, maybe later, so I'd hold back a bit more, but her hand really didn't stop pushing. The last time I was able to hold it in, but the second time I burst into tears. The moment I cried out, it really was especially refreshing. I didn't think particularly far ahead at the time, just the word mom flashed through my mind.
After I cried out, my whole body instantly became much more relaxed. I can also sense that the teacher patted that one moment, she also seems to be a lot more relaxed, because two people in a field, if one person is stiff, another person wants to help you, the other can not help, only two people are willing to give each other's trust and sincerity, the results will become more and more good.
As the time of tapping slowly passed, the second time I cried was due to the teacher tapping my liver, said so, said that although you want to go to help others, have compassion, but the ability is limited, like an organizer box to organize some of the other people's emotions, but can not be discharged, you have to live out of their own, to be able to go to the life of life to influence the life. This hit me, but this time it wasn't as obvious as crying, just silent tears. It turns out that my body was constantly going in like an organizer, but not organizing it or emptying it, and there was a very large amount of negative pressure on my body and mind.
Sometimes I really feel overwhelmed too, but I don't know what to do, so I go and beat myself up. It turns out that I don't know how to drain it, and in the moment I think I've drained the emotion, but it's still there. Well, now I know, I vow from now on, not to let too much personal and other people's emotions stored in the body, to let it flow.
After the previous 1st round of tapping, some of the emotions in the body have been drained a lot, and some of the areas that were very painful before are now slowly becoming painless. So it's more about being receptive and letting Ms. Nian Nian play freely. I have more trust in her, and the other person is also having more trust in me.
Especially when hitting my hands, another very impressive picture, hands like in the discharge, constantly stabbing stabbing, make some noise, I can see some sparks from the fingertips fly out, the electric volt must be more than 220 volts above. The tapping teacher said that if you are in pain then you cry out, but this time although it also hurt quite a bit, but not so much that tears were spewing out like in the stomach, one hand kept trying to go and protect the other but there was nothing that could be done about it, it was just a matter of being able to take it in, and letting him release it. So instead, after the slapping of the hands, they became more relaxed, though particularly numb.
Pat the teacher for a number of body patrols, she one at a time, a small part of the pat, her power dare not go down so big, because I was the first time to experience patting, her strength is said to be only three points, if used to more than 6 points, it is not my life will not be guaranteed, but fortunately the teacher was merciful, so dear you can see this pat feeling text, is not it?
The deepest feelings, and is in the shoot this part of the brain, this time to experience patting, but also mainly to solve my dizziness problem, but I did not realize that dizziness is just a symptom of the body's various parts of the blood circulation is not smooth, the mind blood supply is insufficient and lead to the final performance. So in the process of tapping, I all feel that the whole body does not work, really hit where it hurts.
Ms. Nian Nian, in the process of patting the head, first local patting, patting a round down can feel the cold air from the left side of the head. Waiting for the second round of patting, it will be able to enjoy more, in patting the location of the Hundred Points, I actually once and for all feel a one I ran out of the body, I do not know, but then the picture is like this, Mr. Nien Nien next to the teacher has been saying that it is too good, too good.
So I put then in the shooting of some of the feelings out, I said: I saw, although there is a one by one I ran out from my lower body, but they seem to get up and back to me, there is a trace of defiance on the face of the face of the expression, which is now Nian Nian teacher aggravated the technique, and I continue to go to the feeling that they slowly from the distance of 1 meter away from me to the distance from me 5 meters away, and then go to a very far away, I can not see her, and then I can not see her. place, I can not see her, so I took the initiative and Nian Nian teacher said, she went far away, Nian Nian teacher only slightly slowed down their hands, that moment there is a warm current flowing through the whole body, lying down and resting for a few minutes.
After hitting the head, after resting, and then carry out the re-patting body, and this time I can obviously feel Nien Nien teacher her infinite trust in me, I am also very accepting, in addition to the position of the abdomen, other parts of the body without a little confrontation, especially in the back of the shoot, the mind suddenly popped up know just fine, know Nien Nien teacher in the fight my body, I stood in the angle of the 3rd person, saw a person dressed in a I stood at the 3rd person's point of view, and saw a teacher Nien Nien in a rose red short-sleeved top, and light blue wide-legged pants, patting my body to make it more relaxed, patting all kinds of burdens and pent-up emotions on my body, well, it's good to know.
The whole process of patting went on for four hours, and I cried off and on for three hours, except for the first hour when I was pretending to be very strong, and then almost letting go. When I finally got up at the end, it was dark and I didn't even know who I was or where I was. When I settled down and went to the bathroom, oh my god, is this me? I don't even recognize myself, I've cried my face off, and I've gone from double eyelids to single eyelids, no, the other eye is still slightly double-lidded, I wiped my eye hard, but it hasn't turned double-lidded yet. Forget it, mono eyelid is mono eyelid, so I went downstairs to drink tea.
Shaking out all the stuff, I was thinking, such a small body, such a small head, how can there be so many things in it? And even we can't see it on a daily basis, it's hidden so deep. But everything is just right, the road to be traveled is still to be traveled by oneself.
2nd Tapping Experience
The 2nd tapping was not as much inner thoughts as the 1st, focusing on the body itself, in tapping the back, the whole state was more relaxed. Although there will be pain, to the kind of pain is happy pain, comfortable pain.
Especially Nian Nian teacher in the shoot to my feet, I really feel my legs, accompanied by me for more than 20 years, I have not been properly to pay attention to it, it accompanied me to walk such a long way, but also because of its support, so that I can go to a lot of places I want to go. Heartbroken for my legs during the tapping process, I realized it was really particularly hard work. Said to him several times of sorry, hard work, and the back is slowly turned into, thank you.
In the process of patting, the teacher played light music on the side, I listened to the music with the rhythm, in the mind of the little girl in the dance posture. Uninhibited dance body, into a person's world. There is no other audience, I am the biggest audience.
If the 1st tap was a little more connected to my parents, the 2nd tap was a little more linked to my partner. Because my liver was bloated and very uncomfortable before I even started tapping. Nien Nien teacher in tapping, just keep thinking of some scenes with your partner, although usually did not say suffer too much aggression, but occasionally some small aggression are hidden in the heart, slowly put it out to dredge up a little, in fact, it is nothing.
For a while, I was in pain until Ms. Nien was able to sense it, and she stopped to take a break. Then as the tapping slowly got a lot more comfortable, and at the back I noticed it was fine again.
People are really strange, as soon as there is any emotion will be in the heart of the accumulation, not good at emptying, will show another form in the body, so we have to look more inward to see it, also disappeared.
Before I was only able to see what I was doing and what others were doing from the perspective of the 3rd person, just a scene picture. When in the 2nd tap, especially in the lower abdomen and stomach, I suddenly for a while was only able to feel my mind, not my body at all, but I was able to see the body, and the experience was really indescribable.
These are the feelings of my two tapping experiences. I am very thankful for this experience and for having met Mr. Fan Bing, Mr. Lan Xin, and Mr. Nian Nian, Mr. Zhi Zhi, and Mr. Liu, and I am also thankful to Uncle Si and my beloved for going to the tapping with me. Thank you, I love you, complete and content.
The first draft was 45 minutes of voice writing, and the final draft was 30 minutes of revision.