1 "Small feet and suits don't go together"
At the age of sixteen, the only son of the eldest house of the richest man in Kipsi,
is engaged to the thirteen-year-old Zhang Youyi, a woman of distinguished family.
Perhaps it is the young man's ambition to go far away, not willing to four corners of the sky;
Perhaps it is the heart of the feudal traditions of disdain and resistance;
Or it is the young man's temperament.
When he saw the photo of his wife,
Xu Zhimo skimmed his lips and said disdainfully, "Country bumpkin,"
This one sentence seems to imply Zhang Youyi's miserable first half of life,
her humble low-to-the-dust love,
her unfair marriage that has never been taken seriously.
In Zhang Youyi's eyes, her husband's heart, is a brick wall,
Married for four years, but only four months of time together,
He was pregnant, Xu Zhimo like to complete the task,
Immediately went to the ocean to study, and did not remember his wife was pregnant.
At the request of his mother's family, Xu Zhimo finally agreed to go to France to find him
She was very happy, but in the cold heartbeat when she had to go ashore,
Waving his hands in the sea of people,
Xu Zhimo in a black overcoat, a white silk scarf around his neck,
Still erect and handsome, gentle,
But not a trace of warmth. without a trace of warmth.
"I knew it was him,
and I could see his manner at once, and could not mistake it.
For he was the only one in that crowd of boat-pick-ups who wore an expression of not wanting to be there."
The tears of reunion are for others,
and the only thing that awaits you is to turn away without a second thought.
The days of living in a foreign country can only be described by the word "miserable".
"After all, I am in the West, I can read and study, try to become a scholar,
but I can't make Xu Zhimo understand who I am, he doesn't even talk to me."
Even more frightening for Zhang Youyi was the realization that her husband was y in love.
He rushed out every morning on the pretext that his tutor was calling him for help, and then ran to London to meet Lin Huiyin.
It turns out that the husband is not ignorant of love, he just does not want to talk to himself about love.
It turns out that he can also be so good to others,
even at the expense of hurting himself and his children.
Zhang Youyi is pregnant again.
Xu Zhimo, however, immediately said, "Abort the child."
In those days, medical conditions were backward, and abortion could be deadly.
Zhang Youyi was shocked that his love had to be buried with his own life and the life of his child.
Years later, Zhang Youyi made a vivid metaphor for this heavy life:
"I am a fan in the fall, only used to drive away blood-sucking mosquitoes.
When the mosquitoes bit the moon, the owner tore the fan to pieces."
Later, he even left his pregnant wife and disappeared, leaving without even taking his luggage with him.
It was only a few weeks later that Xu Zhimo, who hadn't heard from her for a long time, went to Germany to see Zhang Youyi in person,
with one purpose in mind - divorce.
He refused his wife's request to "divorce through the parents",
He kept saying: "No, no, you know, I don't have time to wait, you must sign ...... now!
Lin Huiyin to return to China, I have to divorce now."
He finally showed a pleading color to her, but the purpose is to recover another woman.
She finally signed the papers and said, "Go find yourself a better wife!"
She's also saying, "I love you, and it's none of your business."
Luckily, Zhang Youyi, who left Xu Zhimo,
is just like Luo Zijun in My First Life
but with the difference that her story doesn't end badly.
After returning to China, she served Xu Zhimo's parents as a foster daughter,
taught German at Soochow University,
took over the Shanghai Women's Commercial and Savings Bank and turned it into a profit in no time,
and became known as China's first female banker;
she opened the Yunshang Clothing Company, which introduced the latest fashions;
and she was also a member of the Shanghai Women's Commercial and Savings Bank.
At the same time, she was also engaged in stock trading operations;
she participated in the planning and compilation of the Taiwan edition of "The Complete Works of Xu Zhimo"
and even harvested love.
She asked her son for his opinion
He replied, "My mother has been a widow for more than 30 years, giving birth to me and nurturing me.......
In my mother's life, I have had very little fun, and I have fulfilled my duties as a mother, so I should be comforted by my mother's heart. The first thing I'd like to do is to get the best out of you.
The first thing I want to do is to ask my father to do something about it."
Jumping out of the city of no love,
she came to her real stage
Zhang Youyi divided her life into "before going to Germany" and "after going to Germany. --Before she went to Germany, she was afraid of everything; after she came to Germany, she became fearless.
She once said, "I would like to thank Xu Zhimo for the divorce,
If it were not for the divorce, I would never have been able to find myself and grow up.
He freed me to become a different person."
The divorce was not a disaster for Chang, but a rebirth.
2 "The everlasting white moonlight in her heart"
Unlike his wife, who was "stiff and boring, dull and uninteresting,"
Lin Huiyin was a rare "beautiful face, interesting soul.
Lin Huiyin is a rare "beautiful face, interesting soul"
A mouthful of fluent English, uncommon knowledge, elegant speech,
The girl in Xu Zhimo's heart took root and sprouted.
So, love sleeps.
Xu Zhimo wrote her poems,
Warm, loving, full of beauty,
The well-known meet, is written to the goddess of the heart Lin Huiyin
I am a cloud in the sky?
I'm a cloud in the sky, occasionally projected in the center of your waves?
You don't have to be surprised?
And you don't need to rejoice?
And in the twinkling of an eye it is gone?
We met on the night sea?
You have your own, I have my own, direction?
Is it better for you to remember
Is it better for you to forget?
The light that shines in this meeting?
But this relationship did not last long,
Lin Huiyin learned that Xu Zhimo is the father of a two-year-old child,
the good girl chose to leave.
In her breakup letter to Xu Zhimo, she wrote: "I can't forget and can't stand those eyes.
The last time you and Youyi went to Germany, I, my father, and brother Ying Xiyi were seeing you off,
the moment the train started, you and Youyi stuck your heads out of the window,
and beside your face,
she opened a pair of sad, desperate, supplicating, and cynical eyes and stared at me steadily. I trembled.
That gaze penetrated right to the bottom of my heart, where the secrets I knew were hidden,
and she saw them all."
And Lin Huiyin chose the like-minded Liang Sicheng,
After marriage, Lin Huiyin and Xu Zhimo remained good friends.
The love at first sight, but sensible to go their own direction, this is the world is difficult to understand a kind of pure love.
Years later, Xu Zhimo took the plane to Peking to listen to Lin Huiyin's speech,
The plane crashed and none of the people on board survived.
Liang Sicheng personally retrieved the wreckage of the plane for Lin Huiyin,
and that piece of wreckage was in Lin Huiyin's bedroom, hanging for many years.
Xu Zhimo once said that love was a religion he was willing to die for.
Perhaps, so determined to die in the best years,
died on the way to Lin Huiyin,
he was heart and soul willing.
3
Beiping's social scene, there is a touch of colorful, Lu Xiaoman.
Like Lin Huiyin, she came from a famous family and was a trendy woman of the new era
But what was different was that she was like a spoiled little child.
When she fell in love with Xu Zhimo, she aborted her child with her husband and divorced.
In the marriage with Xu Zhimo, she is also not a good wife
Squandering, but also smoke cigarettes,
such a poet, had to double three or four jobs,
but the family still can not make ends meet.
She challenged Xu Zhimo's bottom line again and again
As long as Xu Zhimo tolerated her irrationality,
it proves that Xu Zhimo is in love with her.
But when it comes down to it, Xu Zhimo is in love with her,
In his "Love Eyebrows Xiaozha",
a late-night letter, a sound of sweet endearment,
眉儿, 眉眉, 小龙, 龙龙, are all love.
"Ah my dragon, are you asleep at this hour? Is your breath regulated yet? Is your soul at peace for now?
Do you know that your love is talking to you with two hot tears in her eyes, thinking of you, hurting you, comforting you, loving you in the middle of the night"
"Mei Mei, how is this good? I have you do not want anything.
Articles, career, honor, I do not want. Poetry, art, philosophy, I want to lose.
I have everything with you."
And my first contact with Lu Xiaoman was not as Xu Zhimo's wife,
but as an accomplished painter.
After Xu Zhimo's death, she was no longer the rose of the past social scene,
and was no longer protected by Xu Zhimo as a child to the "Mei Mei love wife"
She was no longer that arrogant, lawless little girl
Growth is a moment,
She silently endured the world's accusations and criticisms,
and studied painting, sitting for a day.
For decades, her world consisted only of painting and organizing Xu Zhimo's posthumous works.
Just as she wrote in her elegy to Xu Zhimo,
"A body of sadness and illness, a small soul, the earth should soon, the posthumous compilation of answer to the heart of the gentleman"
Among Xu Zhimo's several women, the one who is most heartbreaking to me is Lu Xiaoman,
Zhang Youyi has a career and a son to rely on, Lin Huiyin has Liang Sicheng and architecture to pour her heart out.
Zhang Youyi had a career and a son to fall back on, Lin Huiyin had Liang Sicheng and architecture to fall back on,
and her, she seemed to have nothing left.
Without favor, she can only be strong on her own.
4
"At least once in my life, I should forget myself for someone,
not asking for results, not asking for a peer, not asking for ever having, not even asking for you to love me,
just asking for you to be met in my most beautiful years."
Xu Zhimo rode his bicycle in Cambridge to chase the sunset, waiting for the rainbow in the heavy rain in the countryside,
The last letter to Lin Huiyin said: I still hold the bright sun on the short wall of your house.
This life that fell at the age of thirty-four, all his life, in search of love.
In Hu Shih's words, his simple outlook on life had only three words, love, freedom and beauty.
He did not care about the world's eyes, love is love,
he followed Lin Huiyin back to China without hesitation, and did not give up even when he knew she was engaged;
even if no one was optimistic about his relationship with Lu Xiaoman,
he wanted to give her the grandest wedding,
and warmed up Lu Xiaoman's life with the last moments of his life.
Xu Zhimo seems to be a born poet,
Handsome, dashing, gentle, sentimental, unrestrained
He is spending his life to write a poem of the wind and flowers
A romantic to the extreme, stunning the world.