On November 2, 2019, I received a mysterious letter from the year 2027.
"Ring, ring, ring, ring ......"
Snap, turn off the alarm and stretch.
Date November 2, 2019, Time 5.50am, Temperature 1 to 16C, Weather cloudy to drizzly.
Get up, get dressed, get washed, go out, go for a morning run, this is how I open my life to start a new day, and it's the way I've been doing it for the 57th day. At this moment I am running in the playground, the cold wind whistling past my cheeks, but I do not feel the cold at all. From the first step of the run I have been in the heart of the "As you slowly open your eyes, look around, notice where the light comes into your room...... "
Oh yes, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Wang Dahua, currently studying in a double non-common undergraduate university, is a junior student majoring in tourism management, has 20 years old external age, 37 years old mental age, 110 years old soul age of the Aries girl. People say that I am a reliable friend in life, a narcissistic professional class representative, and also the top student of the drama college, a wild horse in search of grassland, and also a flying bird that never falls to the ground. (Cough cough cough, off-topic, self-introduction brake.)
Twelve years of hard study, no hobbies, no specialties. Because I like to eat, drink and play, and I dream of going all over the world, so when I first applied to the university, I chose to specialize in tourism management in a haphazard way. Freshman year, with the vision of freedom in the university, crazy to participate in student unions and clubs, keen on a variety of activities and socializing, and often choose to skip classes as a result. Without the nagging of my parents and the supervision of my teachers, I was like a bird locked in a cage, suddenly opened the door and desperately wanted to fly in the sky, learning was left behind, and the maxim "as long as you have the guts to do it, every day, summer and winter vacations" came to me at the drop of a hat.
Then my daily state of life is basically to catch up with the drama, shopping Taobao, brush the microblogging, gossip, if you ask me today's teacher lectured to the first few pages of the I may not answer, but if you ask me which star out of the scandal, which Taobao store cosmetics in the activities, it is not an exaggeration, I can give you an hour to talk about it without stopping. Every morning to sleep to the fast class to get up, hastily put on a makeup, breakfast can not wait to eat; sometimes over-sleeping lunch, afternoon classes do not go; every night, and roommates with the drama, the library is almost never set foot. At the end of the semester, turning over the incomparable new textbook, in addition to the first page of the name written on the page, and then no brushstrokes, in the face of those unfamiliar knowledge points, scratching their heads and ears. While reading the book and open QQ and friends spit "which subject which subject is very difficult ah, I can not finish memorizing", QQ space constantly forwarded a variety of god, koi and Yang beyond, kneeling as long as 60 points. Then set up a flag "I must study hard next semester, must listen carefully every day, must ......". The next semester, regardless of the failure or not, still repeat the original life, to the end of the term and then re-establish a flag.
This life until the second semester of sophomore half of the close to the end of the second semester. When my roommate and I are still addicted to the Korean drama "car accident, cancer, can not be cured" clichéd plot can not be extricated, suddenly found in my familiar circle outside of such a group of people, they are early on the examination of a variety of certificates, tour guide license, English four or six levels, computer level 2, the teacher qualification certificate and primary accounting, etc., and they are actively participating in school They actively participate in various competitions, and get all kinds of scholarships. Tourist guide certificate has begun to work part-time as a tour guide, and at first said that like to eat, drink and have fun and chose to major in tourism management of their own, and now still do not know anything about the specialty, and even do not have a handful of skills. Some of them not only have beautiful faces, excellent make-up skills, but also have a slim body, they are keen on sports, always between the playground and the gym, but I still do not change the "eat to lose weight" self-congratulation, like a salted fish through nearly half of their college years. I suddenly felt that this is not the life I want, this is not the college I dreamed of since childhood.
I began to be dissatisfied with my current situation, I hated myself, I was tired of doing nothing. Everything around me to pressure me breathless, I am like a drowning child, began to struggle desperately in the water, want to grab a life-saving straw, surfaced to breathe the long-lost fresh air.
I began to make up my mind to change myself, to change the present state of life. However, people, always have to be punished for the mistakes they have made. Due to the sophomore year of college muddled, completely indifferent to learning, and now pick up and learn again, it is simply painful, from the beginning of the feeling is not good at all . I will go to self-study every day when I have time, but the learning efficiency is not too ideal, two years did not study English properly, and now there are only a few remnants of knowledge in the brain, and even the test of a fourth level is unusually difficult. And advanced math, linear algebra, not to mention, this is most people's troubles, I am no exception. Every time I would vow to open the textbook, in my mind to give myself a pumping today must read the chapter. But I had only read two pages when my eyes began to fight. A bunch of formulas and derivation process then snapped to my face, as if mocking me, don't look at it, look at you won't see even if, look at it, you still won't do the problem. I think, in addition to sleeping pills, this world, if you have to choose a thing to let me fall asleep quickly, I will not hesitate to open the high number of textbooks. Tourism management is a very strange major, not only to learn the professional courses of the major, and everything else. Economics, accounting, finance, financial management, marketing and so on, and the most headache is "tourism planning and development".
The difficulty of learning from scratch, gave me a blow to the head, so that I hang my head, and overwhelmed the last line of defense in my heart to make me collapse is the psychological pressure. Because every day out early and late, no longer with the roommates together with the drama, spit star gossip, Taobao buy buy, they began to ostracize me, back to the dormitory almost do not pay attention to me, I more than once heard them say "Dahua every day so hard to study, what is the use of grades is not that bad" Yes, I am every day so hard to be better than the others! I began to doubt myself, "Is this really helpful?" My roommates went out to dinner and went shopping. The roommates go out to eat, shopping, watching movies, have never called me, I'm alone every day to minimize the return to the dormitory, but this still can not reduce their cynicism towards me, as long as I returned to the dormitory, they began, "yo, our bully back", they seem to deliberately find fault, but I do not know what to say, but I do not know what to say. Even though I wake up every morning already very quietly, they still want to say that I noisy them, and then by the way, "do not get up so early, no use, sleep a little bit more," I just silent smile and apologize to them, I will be a little quieter. And every night after lights out at 11:30 when I was ready to go to bed, they were still huddled together watching all kinds of variety shows, letting out barbells of laughter and squealing "ahhhhhhhhh, it's so cool, I love it so much, I can."
On a later occasion, after a day of reading and doing a bunch of questions and grade 4 papers, I realized I couldn't do anything, I finally broke down and compromised, what was the point of me doing this every day? So I began to return to the original life of doing nothing, my roommate found that I no longer get up early, no longer go to self-study, also threw me an olive branch, we began to endlessly catch up with the drama, shopping, Taobao, microblogging happy life. "I'm not alone anymore, I'm happy now."
This kind of life lasted for about a week, and those books that I had pressed under the table had not been opened for a long time, and a layer of dust had fallen on them. Every day living a very leisurely, do nothing life seems to be very happy, but I always feel very empty, I have insomnia every night, always close to the early hours of the morning to fall asleep, and then a sleep is a whole day, never ate breakfast, and even lunch is exempted, I'm like a soulless puppet, every day repeating such a boring and tasteless life, like retired old people life (the old people also walk, play chess, dance) I'm not even as good as them.) These days are like a nightmare, I know the dream should wake up, this is not the life I want. Hailing myself, I then climbed out of bed, rummaged through the books pressed under the table, and made a dash for the library, that's where you should be spending more time.
"Work as hard as you want, God has a plan."
I am no longer afraid of being isolated by my roommates, and no longer afraid of working hard without results, I no longer envy the excellence of others, life has never been a shortcut, other people for the dream of silent cultivation, just that you do not see it. Stop making excuses for laziness and move forward bravely towards your dreams. The future of your appearance, hidden in the efforts of the present.
Gradually, my wake-up time slowly from 7.30 to 7.00 to 6.30 until now 5.50; I no longer every day only shop Taobao and microblogging, and no longer keen on the gossip news of the stars; running on the playground in the crowd began to appear in the shadow of my figure, the library to study to the closure of the group of people in the library also have me, the English corner has left my trace; I began to try I began to try to the top of the grade to ask for learning experience, sitting in the first row of the class will always have me, the face of the teacher's classroom questions will be I also enthusiastically answer; I actively complete the teacher's account of a variety of assignments, actively participate in a variety of competitions, and began to study hard to prepare for the first two years of college did not take the next certificate; leisure time I will be volunteers in the orphanage, to go to the restaurant, and other places to work part-time, to go to the gym and practicing yoga! I'm not sure if I'll be able to do that, but I'm sure I can.
I was no longer alone, I carried my lamp all the way to the light. I finally realized the meaning of hard work, the thrill of solving a problem, the honor of taking a certificate, the fullness of a busy life, the sense of belonging to a group of people who have the same goal as the **** and struggling together, and at this moment I'm happy, and that's what I want to do with my life. I know more and more, the higher I climb, the more beautiful the scenery in front of me.
"Bang Bang Bang ...... Bang Bang Bang"
Ending the 30-minute jog, listening to the rhythm of his heartbeat, his face blew through the cool autumn wind, and now long gone sleepy, became unusually spiritual. Then the cell phone rang, and on the display it said, "You have a mysterious letter from the future.
Dear Ms. Wang Dahua:
? Hello, I am you in the year 2027. First of all, I am very grateful for your efforts in the beginning to make me what I am now. I don't dare to tell you how I am now. Because of your efforts, I now have infinite kinds of uncertain possibilities; because of your perseverance, I now have the ability to make many kinds of choices, and I am very grateful to you.
? These years in fact you are very hard, although your face is cloudy, but who does not know how tightly you bite your teeth. You walk with the wind, who does not know that you still have the bruises on your knees that had fallen. You laugh without a heart, no one knows you can only cry silent tears when you cry. To make people feel effortless, you can only work extremely hard behind the scenes. But all your heartache I know, because I am the future has unlimited kinds of possibilities for you, so I am very grateful to you, so many years as always.
The best way to love yourself is to make yourself better, life will never treat you well because you are weak. The best way to love yourself is to become better, life will never treat you well because you are weak. You don't have to envy other people's love, you have to believe that you deserve the best in this world, just worthy of your person has not yet appeared. You also do not rush, you first go to read the book you want to read, go to see your favorite movie. One day, there will be a person, and you nest together, read the same book, watch the same movie.
You don't have to envy other people's friendships either. Low-quality grouping is better than high-quality solitude. In the face of other people's questioning and ridicule, you don't open your teeth and claws to fight back. Shut your mouth, you just don't move to grow, in their own not good enough time not to voice also not complain. You'll be able to say goodbye to your old self when you change a little bit by yourself. You can say to yourself: "Whew, great, finally got over", and then the mood cleared, life is clear from now on. There is no future we can't change, only the past we don't want to change. The growth of immobility is the best way to fight back against all the unkindness of our life.
? You have to remember that when you run, the beluga whales in the North Pole are constantly impacting the glaciers; when you memorize the words, the Alaskan cod is leaping out of the water; when you calculate the math, the seagulls on the other side of the Pacific Ocean swept over the city with their wings; when you study at night, the polar charts in the night sky scattered with colorful spots. Today is the 57th day of your persistence, then please make sure that you have been persistent oh, to always be a clean, self-disciplined, sharp language, love of reading, love of sports, the corners of the mouth at all times hanging smile girl.
Wen:Wu Xingwen