The season further than the sky
In September, when Tao Ke was standing at the entrance of the alley carrying a huge box, the sun was scorching this small southern town, and a man in a white shirt The boy passed by her, and she stopped and looked back to see that flash of white disappearing at the end of the alley. Although she knew that was not that person, and although she could never go back to that time, she still looked at him for a long time, just like when everything started.
At that time, Tao Ke was sixteen years old. In An Xiaojia's words, that was the same age as a flower. When Tao Ke was sixteen, she was as ordinary as your girl next door, with two long braids, reading many "Cinderella"-style romance novels, and even wearing a simple T-shirt and jeans. The only special thing is that Tao Ke has his childhood sweetheart Ye Zhen.
An Xiaojia said, Ye Zhen, that is a character that is more shining than half a pound of lard. Tao may have such a childhood sweetheart, but it is definitely a blind cat who met a dead mouse. Our ancestors have accumulated virtue. An Xiaojia also said that it is super cool to be able to fully understand the growth process of a beautiful boy like Ye Zhen.
Tao Ke said that meeting Ye Zhen was definitely a nightmare.
The beautiful boy Ye Zhen met Tao Ke when he was a cute child. At that time, Tao Ke was a well-behaved kid who was loved by everyone. He had short hair, wore a pink dress, and had a clean handkerchief pinned to his collar. Out of the little Ye Zhen's desire to destroy anything that was too neat, he took advantage of the advantage of sitting close to Tao Ke and used a colorful watercolor pen to draw a picture on Tao Ke's beautiful skirt. turtle.
The good baby Tao Ke cried for such a long time for the first time. The child Ye Zhen who succeeded in the prank was so frightened that he followed her behind and apologized at a loss. So, Mama Tao and Mama Ye were called together by the teacher. As a result, the two mothers discovered that each other was actually their neighbor. What a bad fate, what a bad fate! After a long time, Tao Ke sighed in front of An Xiaojia. Later, the child Ye Zhen did some other outrageous things, such as pulling Tao Ke's skirt, drawing a turtle on Tao Ke's notebook, etc. Of course, little Tao Ke would not swallow his anger, so he retaliates in the same way. Soon after, , Ye Zhen also found a little pig in his notebook... An Xiaojia said, this is how a good girl degenerates.
Then in junior high school, Tao Ke found out that Ye Zhen was in the same class as her. Later, it happened that Ye Zhen framed her to run the 400-meter relay on behalf of the class and framed her to be in charge of the class's autumn outing. As for the logistics team leader, whatever Tao Ke didn't want to do, Ye Zhen was against it and insisted on her doing it.
Tao Ke often said: "It was only by luck that I met you!"
Ye Zhen laughed rustlingly: "Thank you."
Until later Ye Zhen He has grown up to be a boy who likes to wear white shirts, smile politely to unfamiliar people, and smile mischievously to familiar people.
When Tao Ke was sixteen, they were in their first year of high school.
Tao Ke went downstairs on time at 6:30 every morning. Under the sycamore tree downstairs, someone with a bright smile was waiting for her. He reached out and handed the small box in his hand to her. Tao Ke: "Hey, my grandma brought it back. Tell me to give you a share."
Tao Ke took it and opened it. There were all kinds of pastries inside. She said, "Thank you for me." Auntie."
When high school started, they were admitted to the same school. The school was far away. Seeing that Tao Ke had to wait hard for the bus every day, Ye's mother sent her precious son to a special car to pick him up. Of course, these are Ye Zhen's original words. The boy with a playful smile said jokingly, "This is my future girlfriend's special seat!" Tao Ke glared at him fiercely.
The car was parked a few hundred meters away from the school. Tao Ke saw An Xiaojia kicking the pebbles at her feet. The girl was wearing a white short skirt today. After greeting Ye Zhen, Tao Ke jumped out of the car, waved his hand to Ye Zhen, motioning for him to go first, and ran over.
Tao Ke glanced sideways at An Xiaojia's skirt. "You can make bigger moves."
"Is it you again?" An Xiaojia teased her.
Push An Xiaojia's shoulder. "Fuck you, it's just childhood sweethearts."
An Xiaojia winked teasingly.
"That's right, Lang came riding a bamboo horse and went around the bed to make green plums."
"Damn."
After class at noon, Tao Ke and An Xiaojia went to dinner together. An Xiaojia kept shouting "I'm hungry, I'm hungry" all the way. Tao Ke patted her head and said, "Starve to death."
When An Xiaojia met Ye Zhen at the door of the cafeteria, An Xiaojia went crazy the moment she saw him.
She threw herself in front of Ye Zhen, bursting into tears: "Now! There are bandits in Tao Ke's party who are causing trouble, stealing orders, extorting people's property, and their roots are still intact. I beg my lord to look into it!"
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Ye Zhen said: "We can visit him at any time and allow him to surrender and be exempted from guilt."
An Xiaojia cried loudly: "Now! We must kill one to serve as a warning to hundreds!"
Tao Ke bullied him, punched and kicked him.
An Xiaojia made a truce gesture and said, "I'm so hungry, I have to eat two bowls of noodles. What do you eat?"
Tao Ke said, "Put the rice on the rice bowl. ."
An Xiaojia shook his head: "Naughty. Where is Ye Zhen?"
Ye Zhen said: "I will investigate it myself."
After the two of them finished buying the food, they saw Ye Zhen already sitting at the table with an inscrutable look on his face.
"My dear," he called An Xiaojia, "quickly take a photo of this pancake for me."
An Xiaojia dug into his trouser pocket and took out his cell phone.
Ye Zhen said affectionately: "Pay attention to photographing its slender body, the egg layer as thin as a cicada's wing, the young bean sprouts, the thin kelp, and the only, lonely, helpless, and dependent on each other. The pitiful three shredded potatoes lying in the thin sauce."
An Xiaojia admired: "It is indeed the pinnacle of the school cafeteria."
Ye Zhen. Staring at the pancake, he suddenly muttered: "Nobles of Houjin."
Tao Ke's chopsticks fell with a splat. He was laughing so hard that he couldn't stand upright and couldn't stop breathing.
Those days were like this, going to and from school with Ye Zhen, talking and laughing with An Xiaojia. In fact, Tao Ke even hoped that he would stay in that era.
When the phone rang, Tao Ke was planning to visit the video store and bookstore.
There was a slight sound of sobbing on the other end of the phone, and the caller ID showed An Xiaojia's number.
"Xiaojia, what's wrong?" Tao Ke panicked. He was used to seeing An Xiaojia's crooked smile, and suddenly couldn't imagine her crying.
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a long time before he said, "Tao Ke, can you come over?"
"I'll come." Tao Ke didn't hesitate.
An Xiaojia was not at home, but Tao Ke found her on the top floor. She raised her head and looked at the bright starry sky.
"Zhuo Rui is gone."
Tao Ke knows that Zhuo Rui, An Xiaojia's neighbor, they have been together since childhood, through childhood, and then to adolescence, so lawless, An Xiaojia, who is not afraid of heaven and earth, only calls Zhuo Rui brother shyly like a little girl when she talks about Zhuo Rui. Tao Ke knows that An Xiaojia doesn't just want to be Zhuo Rui's sister.
But to Zhuo Rui, An Xiaojia is just a younger sister.
"When we were young, we also liked to look at the stars like this. Brother Zhuorui would teach me how to identify the constellations, the Big Dipper and Cassiopeia. If I didn't understand, I would fall asleep. Brother Zhuorui would hug me. Go home. Sometimes, I want to hold him for the rest of my life."
When Tao Ke heard about Zhuo Rui, he was already An Xiaojia's boyfriend. She had seen that man coming. An Xiaojia was picked up by a gentle and clean man with a mature smile. She thought they would be together forever.
"Zhuorui went to France and may never come again." An Xiaojia turned her head, "He said he always treated me as his sister, but why did he give me hope? Why did he treat me as his sister? My boyfriend? He is so gentle, he can’t even bear to say no.”
But Zhuo Rui doesn’t know that this is actually a kind of indifference.
Tao Ke thought of Ye Zhen, that boy who usually had an ungrateful face, but was also very gentle. Tao Ke sat next to An Xiaojia and raised his head. The moonlight splashed over her face. On nights like this, Ye Zhen also carried her home on his back, when they were still very young.
In this world, some people are as cold as some are as warm as others. An Xiaojia looked at Tao Ke who was silent and suddenly took her hand: "Can you let me hold it for a while?"
"You feel very sad for me, right?"
"Huh?" Tao Ke sat up straight and looked at her.
An Xiaojia smiled: "It's really sad, right? Everyone is right, you are really a soft-hearted person."
"Nonsense! Just listen to them! "They stood up and prepared to go downstairs.
"No?" An Xiaojia's face was filled with relief and a touch of sadness: "Then why have you looked like you were about to cry since you came in?"
"Hey! Can you let go? It's inconvenient to go downstairs."
An Xiaojia let go of her hand, but after a while he leaned into her ear and whispered: "Xiao Ke, if someone holds your hand in the future, Don't let him let go of your hand."
Tao Ke turned around.
An Xiaojia smiled: "Don't let him go."
That night, Tao Ke slept at An Xiaojia's house. When she woke up in the middle of the night, she saw the man next to her. The girl's eyes and cheeks were wet.
Zhuo Rui is to An Xiaojia just like Ye Zhen is to Tao Ke. The two childhood sweethearts once thought they would be together forever, and thought they could always lean on that person's shoulders. Many I once thought...
But I didn’t even have the courage to confess, and I didn’t even dare to tell my best friend. Tao Ke remembered that An Xiaojia said, Tao Ke, just be tough, one day You will regret it.
However, I just wanted to stay with him for a longer time. It turned out that one day, I would not even be able to do this...
The next morning, Tao Ke turned over, kicked off the quilt, and murmured: "...What time is it?"
An Xiaojia threw herself on the bed, hugging her and rolling around: "Little Tao Ke~~~Little Tao Ke~ ~~"
Tao Ke frowned and hummed: "What are you doing..."
An Xiaojia gently rested his chin on her head: "The world is so pure "
Tao Ke said in confusion, "Yeah~~ It's so pure."
An Xiaojian smiled and leaned into her ear: "Hey, Tao Ke."< /p>
"...Hmm?"
"Don't you have any classes today?"
Tao Ke suddenly opened his eyes: "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" ~~~Look!"
An Xiaojia put her wrist in front of her eyes: "Ah!" p>
An Xiaojia lay on the balcony looking at the thin running figure, holding her chin and cursing softly: "Idiot! "
Idiot!
But who is the stupidest, you or me?
When they heard that the Leonid meteor shower was coming, Tao Ke and the others were in the cafeteria. During the meal, An Xiaojia asked her, "Are you going to go and see it?" Tao Ke smiled. But Ye Zhenqiang said: "This opportunity is not to be missed, let's go together, let's go together?" "
So this resulted in a situation where Tao Ke stood in the square waiting for someone on a cold night, rubbing his hands and feet.
"Hey, where is An Xiaojia? "Ye Zhen said while panting.
"She can't come, she just called. "
"Oh. "Ye Zhen sat on the steps of the square.
For a moment, no one spoke. Ye Zhen saw Tao Ke shivering from the cold and stepped forward to hold the girl's hand.
< p> “My hands are so cold, really, why are I wearing so few clothes? ""I didn't know it would be that cold. "Actually, I don't want to dress too bulky around you.
Ye Zhen held Tao Ke's hand and breathed gently. His hand was very warm, and Tao Ke felt a heat coming from the palm of his hand. The veins in her body penetrated into her heart.
Tao Ke didn't dare to raise her head, she blushed so much that she only glanced sideways at the gentle boy.
"Oh, I am. My future girlfriend will be jealous if I know it.
"
Tao Ke couldn't help but rolled his eyes, can't you let me be moved for a while longer.
"Xiao Ke. "
"Huh? "Tao Ke turned his head to look at him.
"I might go to Japan. "
It was as if someone had whipped Tao Ke hard on the heart with a barbed whip.
"What? ”
“My uncle is there, and my parents plan to let me go to school.” "Ye Zhen's voice sounded astringent to Tao Ke's ears.
It's not that I didn't expect that one day, nor that I didn't think about how I would feel, but after all, I just thought about it, and that is different from reality. It was different. Tao Ke felt at a loss, and even the boy's warm hands were getting colder.
She thought of An Xiaojia, Xiaojia, do you feel the same way? What? She put her hands on the wet corners of her eyes, and there was unavoidable sadness in her nose.
The moment her tears fell, meteors streaked behind her.
"Did you make a wish? ”
“No, even if you promise, it’s impossible to come true, so there’s no need to promise.” "I just want you not to leave, but you will still leave.
Countless shooting stars disappeared behind her, and Ye Zhen saw Tao Ke turning his face sideways, hazy and sad.
Even if there are so many shooting stars, even if you can make so many wishes, your most desired wish can no longer be realized. So, what is the meaning of these shooting stars?
An Xiaojia knows that Ye Zhen She didn't say anything when she was about to leave. She looked up at Tao Ke, who was pretending to be calm in front of her, and then opened her arms and hugged her tightly.
The girl finally cried, silently choking with tears. The flow continued, soaking An Xiaojia's clothes.
After a long time, Tao Ke stopped.
"Xiaojia. "
"Huh? "
"Sorry, I can't catch it. "
"No, we all caught it. "What we grasp is the years and love.
Tao Ke raised his head and saw the smiling girl in front of him, her face immersed in softness.
Ye Zhen at night Arrogantly, he invited us to a food stall to celebrate his departure from the country and the world.
An Xiaojia screamed: "You can't find a five-star hotel to treat us!" ”
Ye Zhen pretended not to hear, turned around and smiled at An Xiaojia.
Tao Ke looked at him with a smile, he was still the one with the ruffian smile The boy who held her hand when it was cold, the person in her favorite memory, these are all she has. The night wind tonight is slightly cool, as soft as the marshmallows at the temple fair. But he playfully messed up Tao Ke's hair.
When he returned home, Ye Zhen said he wanted to give Tao Ke a gift, but what he brought out was a wrapped box. “Make sure you take care of yourself. "Ye Zhen smiled lightly while stroking Tao Ke's hair.
Tao Ke, who was outside the door, almost lost his mind when he saw Ye Zhen's smiling face.
She never knew Someone's smile was so gentle, bright, and pure, as if his heart could be seen through his bright eyes. When Tao Ke walked down a few stairs and looked back at him, he felt that such a person could actually smile. There was a flash of loneliness, but it turned out that he was hiding it too well. He leaned against the door and smiled at himself, his smile was cold and sad.
Tao Ke gritted his teeth, sighed secretly, and left quickly. .
It turns out that liking someone is like what the Bible says - the door is narrow and the road is long.
Tao Ke did not go the day Ye Zhen left. Send him off.
After the second period, Tao Ke heard the roar of the plane. She raised her head and stared at the sky intently, even absentmindedly.
On the school radio, the song "One more chance One more time" was playing
"Always looking for you
The little girl under the platform opposite In the alley window, even though I know you can’t be there
If my wish comes true, I want to be by your side now
Onemoretime doesn’t want to see the seasons change
Onemoretime once The time of laughing with you
Always looking for pieces of you
Every crossroads, every dream, even though I know you can’t be there
If a miracle will happen, I want you to see it now
The new dawn of myself in the future
And the words 'I like you' that I could not say before
p>Memories of summer were swirling in her mind
Unknowingly, her heartbeat stopped.
Suddenly, a stream of heat slid down her cheek, one drop after another. ...
The tear duct suddenly felt like a broken faucet that could not be turned off no matter how hard it was.
The winter in Jiangnan is very difficult. The coldness penetrates into the bones and is damp everywhere. The two of them stepped on the yellow leaves all over the ground, were soaked in the drizzle, and ran around with their necks curled up in the lonely and desolate streets, looking extremely desolate.
A green teal flew by with its wings spread out. Tao Ke pointed at it with his little finger and said to An Xiaojia:
"Xiaojia, it's a teal!"
< p> "Well, it's almost winter now, so he's going to travel, Xiaoke, have you heard of it? In fact, the movement paths of migratory birds are different, some are relatively close, and some are really far away from home. Because it is too It's too far, so some migratory birds spend their entire lives traveling, meeting companions, finding mates, reproducing offspring, and finally dying on the long journey." An Xiaojia smiled. , "But now that global warming is taking place, it's not that cold in the north anymore. Maybe mutated migratory birds will evolve in the future, and they might start a revolution and stop traveling."Didn't understand An Xiaojia's joke . Tao Ke only knew that An Xiaojia felt so lonely looking at the teal in her eyes.
The loneliness of friends seems to be natural, like the tens of thousands of years of ice in the Arctic, which cannot be easily resolved even by the greenhouse effect. It's just that she always wears a mask of laughter, so Tao Ke doesn't know how to melt it, but she can feel the same sadness.
Only now, when Tao Ke feels the strong longing for Ye Zhen, can he truly understand how painful it can be for one person to think about another person. Tossing and turning in the increasingly cold wind, my whole body was cold, and my heart was filled with the shadow of that boy.
Ye Zhen once sent her a letter, wrapping many cherry blossom petals in letter paper, as if it still contained the gentle warmth of his palms. The petals strangely maintained a light pink color. Tao Ke put it in A faint smile broke out in his mouth. It turned out that the cherry blossoms were just like what was written in the novel, without any taste.
Tao Ke thought of Ye Zhen standing under a tree full of cherry blossoms, opening his arms and letting the petals fall on his body. If the petals fell in his mouth, he would chew them carefully like Tao Ke, and then, He showed a gentle and teasing smile.
He wrote in the letter, I will give all these petals to you.
The handsome boy made a hug gesture. He stood there with countless petals, and faced her with his delicate eyebrows and slightly raised corners of his mouth. He said softly, I will take all of these. For you.
The girl covered her eyes with her hands and felt the moisture under her palms.
On the desk, there is a porcelain statue of a boy kissing a girl. It was a gift that Ye Zhen once gave to Tao Ke.
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Hear a river between you and me
It is longer than that season, further than the sky, and clear. Only time can cross it< /p>
I doubted all night long that your sweetness was still on my lips
After I left, the tide rose at dawn on the 70th day, and I swam towards the riverbed in an unknown direction
On May day, the flying snow and tea flowers also withered
We have no oath, no farewell, no appointment to see each other again
Can the wind miss you, will you appear
When I Start singing lightly whether you will be on the way here
GodletusGodletus is lost and the ending cannot be traced out of the plot
Time is long and memory is far away. Fate is deep and shallow
In what year and what month, the sea has soaked into the mulberry fields on the river bank
...
In the unknown song, Tao Ke fell asleep quietly.
…
In the afternoon, two children under seven years old were sitting under a big tree.
"I asked my mother to make this specially. Is it delicious?"
"Yes." The girl who only cared about eating nodded.
"Then I'll give you my share, too?" The boy said with a flattering look on his face.
"Hey, let me say..." the girl sighed, "What do you want?"
"Huh?" She wanted to stay by his side forever, forever. Stay with her. "I want you to be with me forever."
"Together forever?" The girl looked at the boy beside her and smelled the scent of soap and sunshine on his body. In fact, she also wanted to be with him forever. Together.
"Well, can I marry you?"
"Marry me?" It seems like... the girl doesn't know how to answer.
"Are you not willing? I will only say it once. If you don't want to, forget it."
"I am willing, yes", marry him and you will think about it forever. , just like dad and mom.
"Then let me kiss you."
"Okay." The girl raised her head obediently. Eyes moist.
So, under the sun, the two little heads leaned together, and the little lips overlapped.
…
That is a season further away than the sky.
(6,000 words, on the evening of October 2, 2007)