Fate is really wonderful. When it doesn't arrive, even if the two sides meet, they pass by. But when fate comes, even thousands of miles apart, they will come together like ghosts.
? I was sickly since I was a child, and I had a fever all through middle school. I catch a cold almost once a week and always have a fever when I catch a cold. Looking back now, I always think: how did I live so big, hehe. At that time, facing the college entrance examination, all the time was occupied by endless studies and exams, and there was no time to exercise at all. Besides, the quality of the food in the canteen is really unsatisfactory. People can only maintain the minimum living standard, so their health is getting worse. At least I persisted in completing the college entrance examination and entered the university, so time was plentiful at once. After school, I began to think about my health and decided to declare war on my weak body. At this point, I didn't think about running. At that time, I longed for a strong body. Maybe I have been weak for too long. Under the thought of overcorrection, I can easily go to the other extreme, and running is not enough. The school has a gym, and the cost per semester is only 100 yuan, so I volunteered to join the fitness tide. The effect is remarkable. Over the past few years, I have developed a set of muscles that satisfy me, and I have hardly had any diseases.
? After graduating from college and entering the society, the sudden change of living environment makes it difficult for the body and mind to adapt for a while. Confused and at a loss to cope with the fear of starting work and the complicated social intrigue, I have no intention to keep fit. Besides, the cost of a year's gym in the city is not affordable for a newcomer like me with a monthly salary of less than 2000. In this way, my body slowly began to decline again, but my heart was too tired, so be it. I have experienced too many things since I graduated eight years ago. My career is a mess, and I have never met the job I want to do. I am not fit to run a business, but I have been wasting my life in this field. So far, there is no income, hovering on the edge of survival. How silly. What's more, I found that I can do nothing except this. I can't see a glimmer of hope in the future when I think of supporting my wife and children, paying off my car loan and mortgage, and the hard days of these years. I really want to escape into an empty door and get away from this world. The spirit was fragile, and my mother's cancer completely pushed me to the edge of the cliff. Five years, five years of painful anti-cancer experience failed to save her life. My mother finally left, and my spirit finally completely collapsed. My heart is like an dying ember, so I live day by day. My heart is ravaged by pain, escape and numbness every day, and even the idea of seeking liberation can't rise.
? One day, my wife took her daughter to play outside, watching their slightly lonely backs in the crowd from a distance, and my heart suddenly stung. For a long time, I just licked the wound alone. I have never seriously considered their situation. The child is almost three years old, but I haven't done my duty. Just in your early thirties, have you given up on yourself so early? What do you care about your wife and children? There is a little reluctance and resistance in my heart. When people are poor, they always want to change.
? Inadvertently saw a person's experience of fighting depression through running, which touched me so much that I seemed to catch a lifeline. Running has so much power, why not give it a try? So I added equipment, supplemented my running knowledge from the Internet and started running. I choose fun running. After 9: 30 in the evening, the traffic on the road is quiet and quiet, so I can think while running. I was exhausted after the first two kilometers, and I was often injured because of my inexperience. I had to rest for a week to recover after running. In this way, I stumbled through the primary stage, and the running distance gradually increased, 2KM, 3KM until now 5KM. Of course, I can continue to increase, which is easy for me now, but I am fixed at 5 kilometers and run every other day. I always think that there is no need to spend too much time and energy on this. It is important to insist that the current amount of exercise is enough to solve my psychological problems. Since running, the mentality has been getting better and better, and the whole person's mental outlook has taken on a new look. In the process of running, the sense of accomplishment of breaking through the limit and the feeling of carefree sweating completely digested all kinds of troubles in life. After running, I feel refreshed both physically and mentally, which is extremely refreshing and full. This kind of beauty can't be realized without participation. Although the situation has not changed significantly, I am no longer afraid of any difficulties in my life. Running gives me a strong heart and perseverance.
? Now, running has become an exercise for me, an exercise to temper my heart through physical exercise. What we pursue is not speed and distance, but perseverance in rain or shine. We practice for three years in winter and three days in summer. The road ahead is long and difficult, and my practice has just begun.