For the first time in my life, it was teacher Huan Wen who taught me rhythm and awakened my positive consciousness of money. Looking back now, my meeting with Mr. Huan Wen was arranged by God and a gift from God. The first time I heard Mr. Huan Wen share anthroposophy, she said, "We pursue the spiritual world through the material world." "I don't advocate free learning, so energy is unbalanced in giving and receiving." This is the first time I realized the importance of money. Since 20 10, I have been engaged in public welfare undertakings, and all my studies have been funded by my institution or foundation, and I have basically never paid tuition fees.
At that time, I was at the bottom of my life. Subconsciously, I want to escape from this secular world and even have the idea of becoming a monk. But I know that I am not really letting go of the world of mortals, but escaping. When Mr Huan Wen told me that I couldn't leave the material world to pursue the spiritual world, it was a blow to me. Yes, the heart is the same heart. If the material world cannot be free, how can the spiritual world be free?
The second time I longed for money, one of my wishes was "I want to be a teaching assistant for children's introspection". 20 1 1 year study Vipassana meditation. Professor S.N. Goenka's Vipassana meditation has a great influence on me and is the best gift from God. In the trough of life, I can take care of my emotions through real awareness, keep awareness and equality, and will not be trapped in the whirlpool of negative emotions all the time. It was because of this that I had the idea of being a teaching assistant of "Children's Epiphany", so I also participated in the training of teaching assistants of "Children's Epiphany".
And "economic freedom" is a prerequisite for becoming a teaching assistant of children's Vipassana. In order to ensure the purity of professor Vipassana, Mr. S.N. Goenka has a requirement for all teaching assistants, that is, the financial situation must be free. When the assistant teacher of Vipassana teaches Vipassana, there is no economic return.
Therefore, an idea came into my mind. In order to become an assistant teacher of children's Vipassana and share Vipassana methods with more children, I also want economic independence and freedom.
This wish is still there today. It's just that since I had my daughter, I haven't studied in Vipassana Center for five years because I have to take care of the children. I also realize that my current homework is to look inside life, and another homework is to achieve economic freedom through hard work.
For the third time, I had a positive understanding of money and visited Mr. Zhang, an influential elder in education, business and public welfare. At that time, my working partner and I were discussing the operation mode of Yanshan School, whether to continue public welfare operation or to operate in the form of social enterprises (drawing on the advantages of business model while maintaining social values and missions). At that time, Teacher Zhang said something that impressed me deeply. He said, "To some extent, business is the greatest public good, and it is business that connects people all over the world. The operating funds of non-profit organizations come from many donations from entrepreneurs. Not all capital is based on the exploitation of others. " At that moment, I had a new understanding of business and capital. We also chose to run Yanshan School in the form of social enterprises.
The following experience made me rebuild my view of money again and again. Teacher Wang, who taught me moxibustion, once said something to me. She said: making money is not an ability, but an energy. You can't get money if you have the ability and energy without life.
I have been following the teacher Shimizu, from the initial concept and method of promoting affectionate nature education for public welfare to the application of business model (but I still maintain a kind heart for public welfare). During my study with Mr Shimizu, I was moved by his sharing twice. One is about the pricing of emotional nature education workshops. Teacher Shimizu said that I raised the cost of my workshop reasonably, to some extent for your consideration. If my tuition fee is very low, how can my students' tuition fee be high? At that moment, I understood that money keeps care and sympathy for others.
Another time, I wanted to learn from Mr. Hellinger's "family arrangement", but I looked at the tuition and found that it was very expensive, far beyond my ability to pay. I mentioned this to Mr. Shimizu, and I think Mr. Shimizu felt the criticism I didn't say. Teacher Shimizu shared her story with me. She said, "When I first learned home cooking, I also thought the tuition was very high. I was still very picky at that time. I personally called the customer service and asked them why the tuition was so expensive. But now I feel that money in the hands of kind and positive people can better play the value of money and better serve others. "
And the sharing of anthropology teacher Martin. He said, "There are Jesus and Satan living in money. The key is how do you use it? Who can use it? What should I do? " At that moment, I thought I fully understood the meaning of money.
Let me decide that the direct trigger for me and my colleagues to start a company is a trip to Shanxi at the end of this year 10 to visit my former colleague, a young man from 1989. After leaving Yanshan School, I returned to my hometown in Shanxi to start a business and built an education team of more than 20 people in three years. Earnings and prospects are optimistic.
One of my major discoveries is that they dare to face money and say "I want money". My colleague shared a photo with me, and his employees took a photo of "a lot of red-haired grandfathers" with their salaries. We pay our salaries in cash, not by bank transfer. I just want my employees to feel the joy of getting paid at that moment and make them feel that it is an honor to earn money through their own efforts.
While chatting with another young friend who started a very successful business in Shanxi, his lover said to me, "Sister Hai Xia, we always sympathize with the weak and the poor. But now I have another perspective. I think the rich are more difficult and worthy of respect than the poor. Because they are working harder and harder, they have responsibilities and responsibilities to their families and society. And if you only want food and clothing, China will develop to this stage, even if you eat from the garbage dump, you will not be hungry. "
This friend's words hit me on the home. One of the reasons why I don't want to start a business is that I think it will be very hard and stressful and I don't want to bear it. I saw myself who was timid, lazy and wanted to escape.
I then asked them: Don't you think it will be tiring and stressful to start a business? They said: Of course there will be stress and fatigue. But only when there is pressure can there be motivation. Physical fatigue is nothing, and the most feared thing is mental fatigue.
Now I know that I feel tired these years because I am trapped in a relationship. I just care too much about the relationship and the relationship is not harmonious. Why can't I draw a clear line and put myself in a correct position, not affected by the relationship?
After thinking about this, I decided to start a business with my colleagues. Although I still have fear, I choose to move forward, clean up, clean up and clean up again.
I think since I chose to live and practice in the world of mortals, I didn't shrink back and escape into an empty door. Then I will assume the responsibility and responsibility of "being at home". To ourselves, to our lovers, children, parents, to society and the nature on which we live.
Say to yourself: in this life, I will walk on the road of life growth, keep learning and growing. I don't want to be unable to pay tuition when I want to study and grow up. I don't want to always apply for relief, I want to live with more dignity.
I want to live a life of choice. I like living in the mountains, exploring nature education and living a very simple life. But I hope this kind of life has a choice, and the city and nature can shuttle freely, instead of living without such a choice.
I want to love myself and be good to myself. I want to buy a dress I like, and I don't want to be cash-strapped. etc ......
To my lover: I can't put the burden of my family on my lover's shoulders. Since we are husband and wife and love each other, I will share the financial responsibility of the family with him.
For children: Although I am open to my daughter's upbringing, I will be financially responsible for her until she 18 years old becomes independent. /kloc-after 0/8 years old, gradually let her be responsible for herself economically.
To parents: Parents are getting older. I don't want them to enjoy their old age, because they have no money and can't make money when they are old. I can't afford it when they need to see a western doctor or be hospitalized when they are sick. I can't impose my values on my parents and tell them all the good things of Chinese medicine. I can't choose to die naturally and with dignity, and I can't let my parents choose not to have surgery and so on.
What I do is a "proper job", which is beneficial to myself, others/children, society and nature. The better I develop, the greater my help to the outside world.
After understanding this, I bravely placed an order for the universe: 20 19, with an annual salary of * * *.
When I placed an order with the universe, I heard its response to me: Son, you have been serving me, how can I not realize your wish! You never asked me for it. How can I give it to you? Son, I'll give you as much as you want as long as you can take it. I smiled at the universe happily and mischievously, and she smiled at me affectionately.
In order to get more money, I decided to do this:
* Always walk on the road of life growth and self-awareness, and make life full of positive energy.
* With wisdom and compassion, walk on the road of serving life and nature. Let money become the flow of love and exert its greatest value.
* The body is the most sacred temple. Take care of your health. Only with good health can we work and serve others better. So resolutely don't stay up late and exercise moderately.
* Clean up the negative memory of money with zero quota. Clean, clean, clean again.
Writing here, I can feel how happy and spontaneous it is to realize material and spiritual freedom and walk freely between heaven and earth in the future; How beautiful and rich it is to live a life of "harmony between people, people and nature, return to self-nature, and all things live together" in nature. How happy and satisfied it is to share this beautiful and peaceful life with more people.
No regrets in this life!