At this moment, it is 2300 hours on March 20, 2022 AD.
I am writing to you.
Of course, I know that at this moment you have left your beloved world, your loved ones and your dear colleagues. You will never be able to see the words I wrote to you again. But I still have to write, but I still use some trembling hands, stubbornly knocking on the keyboard.
I was hesitant to write - in the title of the letter, I had unconsciously typed out the word "Xiaohui". But I immediately felt that it is not right, I and you are not relatives, not friends, not friends, with this kind of name, is not there a sudden, presumptuous and even "close" suspicion? Although you are only two weeks older than my daughter, but at this moment, I should only look up to you, can only look up.
Yes, I can only look up!
I read the news of your sudden death this afternoon, unintentionally, from the circle of friends on my cell phone.
From multiple sources, I learned that you returned to the hotel you were staying at to rest after finishing your night shift at 3:00 a.m. on March 19th. Lunch also with colleagues *** with meals, 6:48 pm and colleagues WeChat contact that no reply. 23:00 colleagues found that there has been no reply, and then went to your room to check, knocking on the door no one answered the phone in the house no one answered. Colleagues asked the hotel staff to open the door, found you in the bathroom prone position fell to the ground, no pulse heartbeat. Colleagues quickly dialed 120 emergency telephone for CPR, 120 emergency personnel arrived immediately after the continuation of CPR and a series of treatment, and went to the emergency department of Weihai City, three hospitals for rescue, 20 by the rescue of the sacrifice.
Worked until 3:00 a.m., and since then even dinner did not eat on the sudden death. I read these words and my heart ached.
When I read the above, I thought, "What was I doing when you were supposed to have dinner ten hours ago?
By the way, I was tweeting to my daughter in Shanghai. After learning that her neighborhood was temporarily closed and the cooking aunts couldn't get in, I told her on WeChat how to make a simple but nutritious and delicious dish - fried cabbage with pork. When I think about it, my chest tightens, I have seen that paragraph many times, "the years are quiet" and "carry a heavy load forward" words. Because I have seen it too many times, I think it is a bit pretentious. But at this moment, I realize that I am really wrong, I just realized the real meaning of that paragraph, the real weight!
From the people and media reports, I learned that in this fight against the epidemic, you are how to sacrifice your life, and the virus to fight with life, life and death.
It is you, since the outbreak of the new crown pneumonia epidemic in 2020, led the Shandong Provincial Hospital Clinical Medical Laboratory Department of the new crown virus nucleic acid testing laboratory colleagues, has been fighting in the war on the front line of the epidemic. You and your team are the closest to the virus as you come face-to-face with patients with C.neoformans and fight the disease head-on. Each detection work, it is necessary to continue for several hours, during which do not drink, do not eat, do not go to the toilet, coupled with the protective clothing heavy closed, a round of experiments down, often soaked with sweat clothes, face covered with goggles indentation. Tired body like scattered general, but no complaints ......
It is you, maximizing the use of the precious gap of intense work, constantly learning the latest prevention and control programs and measures introduced by the state, as well as the relevant technical specifications, and many times in the videoconference to the relevant personnel of the medical institutions of the collection of samples, transportation, preservation and biosafety-related knowledge of the pedagogical training. In order to improve the speed and quality of testing, you and your colleagues have continuously summarized the scheme and optimized the process according to the actual situation, and carried out refined job management to form streamlined operation, which has greatly improved the efficiency and testing capacity of nucleic acid testing. Up to now, your new crown of Shandong Provincial Hospital nucleic acid testing laboratory maximum daily detection capacity of 30,000 copies, ranking first in Shandong Province hospitals, for Shandong to win the epidemic prevention and control of resistance to the war contributed to the "provincial medical" power.
It is you, shouldering the hospital leadership and colleagues of the ardent trust, leading your team trip in a hurry, people do not remove armor, non-stop hoof rolling in Beijing, Xinjiang, Henan, Shandong Weihai and other front-line battlefield of the epidemic.
The following timeline, like a beam of bright light, maps out your soul's purity, medical ethics, and passion for struggle!
In June 2020, the outbreak of the epidemic in Beijing, Shandong Provincial Health Commission the first time to send the "Shandong Medical Laboratory Team" to support Beijing. You became the captain and temporary party branch secretary of Shandong Medical Laboratory Team, and provided counterpart support to enhance the new coronavirus nucleic acid testing capacity of the People's Hospital of Peking University. You and your team completed the assembly and preparation of materials in one day, and traveled northward with 5 sets of instruments and supporting reagents urgently raised by Shandong Provincial Health Commission. Upon arrival in Beijing, you immediately rushed to the laboratory and participated in the construction of the new laboratory. As the team leader, you undertook the general coordination and optimization of the process, and quickly put forward the alteration plan of the laboratory. You and the staff of the Laboratory Department of Peking University People's Hospital, together with the division of labor and collaboration, scrambling for time, within 48 hours emergency remodeling completed a relatively reasonable layout, in line with the biosafety requirements, with four functional areas and autoclave sterilization of the new Coronavirus nucleic acid testing laboratory, which is put into use can be tested 10,000 samples per day. Shandong testing team and the North People's Hospital Laboratory staff mixed, stopping people do not stop, 24-hour shift work. At the same time, you led a sound laboratory management system, PCR amplifier performance verification, the establishment of indoor quality control reading rules and re-inspection rules, organized a number of business training, involved in the writing and improvement of SOP documents 30, 31 record forms and so on. After many days of hard work, you led the Shandong inspection team has completed a total of tens of thousands of nucleic acid test, effectively guaranteeing the implementation of the Beijing Municipal "should be examined, willing to examine all" prevention and control requirements, by the National Health Commission, Beijing Municipal Health Commission and Shandong Provincial Health Commission of the highly recognized and praised.
On August 3, 2020, you once again as the captain, leading the second batch of Shandong to aid Xinjiang medical testing team of 41 test personnel from Jinan, traveled nearly 10,000 miles, to help Xinjiang. At that time you just finished more than 20 days in Beijing "battle", yet in isolation period, learned that because of the epidemic in Xinjiang, you can not wait to write a sincere letter of invitation to take the initiative to go to the front line of the epidemic. After arriving in Kashgar, Xinjiang, you and your teammates cooperated with the staff of the local hospital's laboratory and completed more than 200,000 person-counts of testing. You and your teammates also provided training and experience to the local laboratory trainees in Kashgar. The training was a combination of theoretical lectures and hands-on training. After nine days of non-stop training, all trainees were able to master sample processing, nucleic acid extraction and report review and sending. At the end of the training, all trainees successfully passed the business skills assessment. You and your colleagues played the role of transferring and helping, leaving a team of new crown nucleic acid testing team for the local area that can't be taken away. In the send-off ceremony organized by the National Health Commission, there were 11 teams from 7 provinces supporting Xinjiang. You were the only representative of the Xinjiang support team to speak on stage! What does this mean? Everyone should be self-evident!
At the beginning of 2022, when the epidemic broke out in Henan, you received a notification on the night of January 5, and quickly packed up a dozen boxes of instruments, reagents, and consumables, and led the team to set off overnight to help Zhengzhou, Henan Province, from Jinan. After more than ten days of struggle, the situation in Zhengzhou was stabilized. 15 January, you and your colleagues once again packed overnight and set out to reach the Henan Anyang County, with the cooperation of the local staff, *** with the people of the county to build a solid anti-epidemic defense.
In March 2022, the domestic epidemic broke out at various points, and Shandong Province was not spared. on the evening of March 8, Shandong Provincial Hospital received an order from the Provincial Health Commission to support, and once again, as the leader, you, along with Zhao Shengmei, Wu Xiaoben, Lu Chao, Xu Rui, and Zhang Zhanzhi*** six colleagues with rich experience in nucleic acid testing, formed the Provincial Hospital to support the epidemic disposal test team in Weihai, and four of these players are In the end of the support of Henan nucleic acid detection work soon after, once again with the family separately embarked on the journey against the epidemic.
The epidemic in Weihai, which brought your life to an end, is a concentrated manifestation of your strong sense of responsibility and high efficiency, full workload.
As the leader of the provincial testing team to support the disposal of the epidemic in Weihai, you led the team to Weihai on March 8 at 22:00 to support nucleic acid testing.
After arriving in Weihai at 4 a.m. on March 9, you immediately went to Weigao Norun inspection laboratory conditions, directing the arrival of all the instruments and equipment reagents assembly debugging work, 14:00 hours that is, as the first group into the nucleic acid test work.
In order to curb the development of the new crown epidemic as soon as possible, nucleic acid detection team four shifts a day, day and night non-stop work to improve the speed of specimen detection. 9 to 12 four consecutive night shifts of high-intensity work, as of March 19th **** 11 consecutive days of work, of which 7 days for the night shift.
In order to reduce the number of times to wear and take off the whole protective clothing to avoid wasting time, you and your colleagues work for 6 hours without eating or drinking the whole time without going to the toilet, often the end of a shift to return to the room is already exhausted, and then woke up to put into the next shift of the war again "epidemic".
In this way, due to overwork, you fell! The first thing you need to do is to get a good look at the color of the glass and the color of the glass!
And so you go, behind the white hair people to send the black hair people of the chopped liver!
And so you left behind the heartbreak of your beloved husband who lost his wife in middle age!
You're leaving behind a pair of children who are looking forward to their mother's return!
You're gone, and behind you are your close coworkers and friends!
You have to be able to see the whole world from the perspective of the people you are working with!
A friend of yours and mine told me that you came to this world in April 1980, and that was the end of your life.
A friend of yours and mine told me that you came to this world in April 1980. That's how your life was fixed at nearly 42 years old; that's how your life ended in the best youthful years of your life!
But if you think about it, human life is, after all, threefold, namely, natural life, social life, and spiritual life.
But if you think about it, human life has three attributes: natural life, social life, and spiritual life.
Those who only focus on the pursuit of the length of natural life are ordinary people; those who are outstanding among people pay more attention to the pursuit of the width of social life and the height of spiritual life! For you, although your natural life sadly ends today (March 20, 2022), your social life is fuller and more abundant, and your spiritual life has been sublimated to a height that is beyond the reach of ordinary people!
In your short life in the burst of spiritual energy, how many people will make their hearts pounding, how many people staring deep thought, how many people sigh in their own way, how many people have no room for self-compassion!
Then think carefully, people come to this world, in fact, is really quite difficult.
In such a short life, you chose to bear, chose to know the difficulties, chose to leave the bitter and tired to themselves! Because of this, you have become a lot of people, including me, in the heart of the capital "people"! Became the biggest reason why we did not regret to come to this pain and joy intertwined on earth!
As I have said many times before, I never like to comfort or even anesthetize myself with the idea that there is nothing in heaven.
I have said many times that I never like to comfort or even anesthetize myself with the thought that there is nothing in heaven! The reason for this is that the land where you have lived is the land that you have worked so hard for, and which you have been haunted by!
"Why do I always have tears in my eyes? Because I am y in love with this land".
Is it?
Right!
A contemporary of your father's
Late night, March 20, 2022