--Title Note
June 18, 2012, would have been very ordinary! A morning, Director Zhou in the hospital office while busy while muttering: "I do not know what happened these two days, always feel that something is missing?"
"I also feel wrong ......"
"What is missing?" Several directors and section chiefs echoed while frowning in thought ......
"Secretary Sun." Suddenly someone shouted as if he had some understanding, not bad, it is Secretary Sun, always more punctual than an alarm clock, Secretary Sun has not appeared in the hospital office for two days, an ominous premonition suddenly made everyone a little overwhelmed.
"Advanced liver cancer ......" "Secretary Sun advanced liver cancer ......"
The sudden bad news spread like bacteria in the hospital ...... It covered the summer of 2012 with a layer of cloudy cold that could not be brushed away.
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More than 100 days have passed, a period that remains uneventful for many who pass their time in the blandness of the rolling clouds, but Sun Lao, Sun Yongke senior, has experienced a protracted ordeal of life in the oncology ward of the People's Hospital. Anorexia, pain, coma, people thin into a bone, legs swollen out of shape, a series of days of plasma and blood protein support therapy, indicating that Sun's old life has entered the final countdown ......
Sun old in the hospital room when sitting down, he has been unable to get off the ground to walk around, in the face of a straitjacket between him and his loved ones, between colleagues, between the hospital, between an unattainable, and the people's lives, the people's lives, the people's lives, the people's lives, the people's lives and the people's lives.
Sun was sitting and lying in the hospital room, he could not get down to walk, facing an insurmountable valley of death between him and his loved ones, colleagues, and the hospital, he did not have a trace of cowardice, he declared with the supremacy of a medical worker who is at home in the face of death, "I want to peacefully *** with cancer."
Cancer is a crazy invader, cancer refuses to compromise, cancer tries to complete the review of Sun's life in his eighties in the most intense way.
A
On April 19, 1933, the port river Xinping village of the Sun family cottage came out a weak cry, Sun Lao is the second son of the Sun family, his birth did not bring his parents the expected surprise, the parents of that a faint frown so that the Sun Lao first time in the world of the cries suddenly a lot less wanton ... ...
Sun's family is poor, Sun Lao is drinking the water of Luojia Lake, eating Luojia Lake lotus root grew up. To the age of reading, looking at the children of other families backpacks on the "official school", they can only read private school, then, Sun Lao vaguely feel the fate of life's trick. Later, Sun Lao's a pair of siblings in April 1944, one day after another starvation, looking at the younger siblings sheepishly by his father to carry out the burial, Sun Lao young and ignorant of the awe added a layer of resistance ......
That year, Sun Lao 11 years old.
After sending his younger siblings away, Sun Lao has been entangled in the disease, malaria alone has hit three or four times, the body is so thin that it can float up. On a summer afternoon, Sun went straight to his father and said, "I want to be a doctor."
The father looked at the son, who usually seldom speaks, froze for a long time, did not know what to say, the father pinched his son's thin shoulders, the young man who grew up in poverty, suffering and aggression since childhood, for the first time in front of his father tilted his head up, in the eyes, there is a full of sadness, and under the teeth, it is a hard stubbornness.
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Instead of saying that poverty and suffering is the murderer of self-esteem, it is better to say that poverty and suffering is the school that creates courageous ......
One day in October 1950, a tug-of-war-like argument was going on in the two small consulting rooms of the Bukhoi Dezheng Clinic. At that time, the prelude to the anti-U.S. war against North Korea had already begun, in order to defend against the U.S. may launch a "germ warfare", the government decided to take a number of young medical personnel from various medical institutions to participate in the "anti-bacteria warfare" training.
"I graduated from the National Defense Medical College, I know more about germ warfare than you do." At the moment, Sun's cousin, Sun Dezheng, the director of the clinic, Sun Dezheng's face in the enlightenment of Sun Lao.
Sun Lao wrinkled his brow with a face of displeasure: "You're not just worried about me catching 'bubonic plague' 'cholera'? I am not afraid."
"Our family has already lost several younger siblings, I don't want you to go and die." Cousin exasperated, cousin sharp voice like an awl straight to the bottom of the heart of Sun Lao ...... think of premature death of younger siblings, Sun Lao's eyes red, he lowered his head half a day did not speak ...... In fact, how can he not understand cousin's a lot of hard work, how can he not know the The danger of this choice, once the defense is not proper, "plague" "cholera" "typhoid fever" any one of these bacteria, will kill him. However, once he thought of those American devils with loaded guns, once he thought of those innocent people who might be killed by the "bacteria", he seemed to see his dead brother and sister, his brother and sister looked at him in the sky. ...... Even though Sun had been wearing a white coat for dozens of days at that time, his responsibility and blood, morality and righteousness were not the same as his own. But responsibility and blood, morality and conscience in an instant will cast Sun Lao's medical heart.
"I don't care, I must go, you don't approve, I will go to the army." Sun Lao dropped a hard words, a slamming door out ......
Cousin could not argue with Sun Lao, Sun Lao as scheduled to participate in the "anti-bacterial warfare" training.
This is the first time I've been to the United States, and I've been to the United States for three years.
Three years of technical skills, three years of public opinion, three years of personality training, Sun Lao is like a piece of pressure, wear-resistant iron ore, in the health care of this era of the melting pot constantly heating, melting, forging, and finally hammered into a just and upright, glittering alloy steel.
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Good steel is always to be used on the blade of the knife ......
1979 is by no means an unusual year in China's chronicle, along with China's reform and opening up of the pace of the old man Sun once again walked into the door of the People's Hospital. Standing in that a look forward to thousands of times under the big red cross, Sun's mood is more of a heavy ...... a county hospital with a population of nearly 1 million people only 200 beds, equipment is still a dozen or decades ago, staff housing and two long-dilapidated thatched huts ... ...For this reason, Sun's old fists slowly clenched, he knew as a new hospital director, the frustrations and challenges faced along the way will be unprecedented ......
1984
In 1984, after the county government, the county health bureau, the county people's hospital up and down the run, the province's The first batch of one-third of the construction project of the health of the county was finally Sun Lao got.
Sun Lao and the provincial health department signed a 2.02 million investment plan to build 20,000 square meters of outpatient building and hospitalization building. To this end, the provincial department allocated 400,000 (including 200,000 earmarked for equipment), the county government invested 700,000, the remaining 1.12 million shortfall in funding to rely on Sun to raise a point by point.
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In a year, Sun has lost count of the number of times he has come to the provincial party committee compound. The guards at the provincial party committee compound have become familiar with the emaciated, thin, spine-bending old dean from the small county town, who is in his early 50s.
To Sun Lao, they could not bear to stop.
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The night at 4:00 a.m., quiet, late autumn wind has some harsh, Sun Lao and his companion, Director Han, sitting on the staircase steps in front of the door of the governor Liang Shufen ...... "Liang governor tonight At home, Governor Liang will go directly from home to the countryside tomorrow to visit the countryside." This is the governor's whereabouts reported by the governor's secretary after being pestered hopelessly by Sun Lao.
Deep black night hovering under the canopy, Sun Lao half squinting, not a little sleepy ...... Sun Lao from time to time to look back at the glass above the door of Governor Liang, he was waiting for that light, waiting for that one at any time may be opened to the light. Sun Lao silently recited the lines that had already been repeated countless times in his mind ...... until the door behind him creaked open ......
"How come it's you guys again?"
"When did you guys get here?" Governor Liang's tone had a few more points of concern that was not there in the past, which made Sun Lao, who had been cowering in the darkness of late fall for half the night, suddenly feel a little like crying.
"We came over at 4 o'clock, afraid we wouldn't be able to see you!" Sun Lao answered the governor's question while rubbing his legs that were so numb that they started to cramp.
Governor Liang let Sun Lao into his home.
"I only have five minutes, tell me about your situation."
All of Sun's thoughts were blocked at that moment, 5 minutes, he did not know where to start. In order to run the funds, how many times he with a standing ticket, under the seat of others, from Wuhan to Beijing; in order to run the funds, how many times he accompanied by a smiling face, with all the good words, good words to the exhaustion; in order to run the funds, he was speeding closed the door crushed fingers, in order to run the funds, he was the superiors of the angry "secretary" slapped the table, in order to run the funds, he was the superiors of the "secretary" slapped the table, in order to run the funds, he was the superiors of the "secretary" slapped the table. Table, in order to run the funds, he "stingy" out of the name, in order to run the funds, he was tired of bending over ...... stood in front of Governor Liang, a full half a minute, Sun old man could not speak.
"Talk about your hospital." Governor Liang looked at his watch, the governor's schedule is strictly arranged ......
"We are an endemic disease-prone water township, the county hospital is only a mere 200 beds, and many farmers need to be hospitalized in a long queue for a month or two... ... "As soon as Sun spoke of the hospital's dilemma, the anxiety in his eyes could not be hidden.
"Well, you don't have to say it, it's October, this time of year we don't discuss funding, but I will squeeze some money out of the other budgets with you as soon as possible, here, I thank you for the people of public security ......"
Yes How to get out of Governor Liang's home, Sun Lao does not remember ...... out of the door, Sun Lao subconsciously looked at the sky, he knew that over the years, his younger brothers and sisters have been watching him, only the living more than one share of health protection, Sun Lao's heart will be more than a trace of relief... ...
Four
It has been said that there are two types of people in this world who are non-equivalent ......
Practice the goal by action, leave some stories for others to legend. With the strength to express creativity, out a little work for others to appreciate. This is the difference between the doer and the artist.
Sun is undoubtedly not an artist, but he used his life to achieve a behavioral art, that is, perseverance, perseverance that a hundred percent of the choice, perseverance that an unswerving faith.
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Another cloudy and rainy night, Sun old man lying in a bath in Nanjing on the bed how can not sleep, filariasis untimely offense, legs swollen like elephants, leg pain, headache, burned with charcoal like the body, the pungent smell of soy sauce on the table, vinegar issued by the old man wanted to vomit a burst of Sun! ......7 individual project inspection group, only 1200 yuan inspection funds, Sun Lao at this moment the most afraid of is sick. He did not dare to squeak, even turn over are careful. The designers followed him to eat, live bad, if they let people sleep bad, he was worried that people will be determined to leave.
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Sleepless nights are a struggle, and Sun is calculating how to get out of the dilemma.
The study tour through the north and south of six or seven provinces, traveled thousands of kilometers, visited no fewer than 15 hospitals, the funding is to play the biggest discount calculated. If you can not quickly complete the line, delay the design and construction period, not to mention, not good, even the return trip of the delegation have problems.
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Worrying about what will come what. Things are always unforgiving ......
The next day, Sun old fever and convulsions into the Nanjing Gulou Hospital, hospitalized in two days, Sun old pick the cheapest medicine to eat, pick up the cheapest needles to play, tight save slow save or spent nearly 100 yuan in medical fees, when discharged from the hospital, Sun old vigorously beat his own filariasis plagued with Decades, a critical moment will not be able to compete with the sick legs, hate to be able to shoot out a few clattering yuan to ......
Then, it is bouncing around Hangzhou, Shanghai, Wuxi. Along the way, the delegation ate self-prepared dry food, even cooking noodles with soy sauce, vinegar are Sun Lao from home back out. To Shanghai, we only ate a restaurant, a table actually ate only 38 cents. On the way back from Zhongshan, Guangzhou, if they hadn't met a fellow villager named Yang Huiming, they probably wouldn't have had anywhere to borrow the money to buy a train ticket.
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It doesn't matter whether the designers who traveled along the way would eventually understand Sun Lao, what matters is that Sun Lao never lacked people who appreciated him.
After returning, Sun organized the designers to plan and design day and night, the construction program was unanimously appreciated by the relevant leaders and experts of the Ministry of Health, the design was compiled into the Ministry of Health "China Hospital Construction" of the classic atlas, to participate in the domestic promotion, international exchanges.
No wonder Xie Zuoda, secretary of the county party committee, said with emotion on many occasions, "If there are 10 people like Sun Lao in Public Security County, things will be very good!"
V
In fact, there is a Sun Lao is already enough, because Sun Lao's loneliness no one understands, Sun Lao's lonely life no one to accompany.
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From the moment his younger sibling left, Sun Lao was afraid to face death, and that one lack of love was a death of the heart that Sun Lao could not bear. The reason why the ambition, the reason why the study of medicine, Sun Lao is to save the world's lives in the immortal, is to save thousands of families in the unbroken.
But it is precisely such a deep love of people, but in the fall of life into the occasion, suffered the loss of a daughter of a hammer blow.
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It's that most painful day of the year again, the dusk on the embankment of an old figure walking alone, he walks very, very slowly, and finally stood in the corner of the two embankments, in the direction of the direction in which he did not wade and did not dare to wade, long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long stare.
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Daughter also rely on the old Sun's arms, read to the old Sun teacher approved by the big red A + essay, when the daughter's face bloomed with pink pride ......
Daughter also stood in front of the old Sun, resisting the old Sun's "parental orders". The "parents' order", "I was born his man, died his ghost" At that time the daughter's body overflowing with the steadfastness of love ......
The daughter also leaned on Sun's shoulder, pointing to the ultrasound display to Sun's old man. The daughter also leaned on the shoulder of Sun Lao, pointing to the ultrasound display to Sun Lao said, "Dad, look at that wave of things, that is the pericardial effusion, the heart of the water," at that time the daughter's eyes even flowed out of the matter is not the calmness.
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When I think of it, Sun's old heart hurts!
Why be hard on his daughter? Why did you let your daughter study medicine?
Why did you let your daughter face such a tragic separation on her own in the last days of her life, when she should have been ignorant and delicate?
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The daughter is no longer alive, September 5, 1996, the daughter died of uremia, died when 31 years old.
With her daughter gone, Sun Lao felt a sharp emptiness somewhere in her body. Sun old often dream of his daughter, in the dream, father and daughter are always far away, the daughter is either wearing a very broken, or not enough to eat, the daughter's few is like a thorn in the body of the old Sun, every time to wake up from such a dream Sun old will be in pain.
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The good thing is that Sun Lao is the president of the hospital, he knows how to heal the wounds in his heart ......
The heavenly siblings are still looking at him, and now his daughter is also looking at him, as well as his prematurely deceased grandchildren as well as through his hands to send away a patient ...... every setback, every through the pain, he will be accustomed to look at the sky, look at the sky, he will know that his love is still in the ......
six
If the hospital is compared to a Sacred rivers and lakes, then, Sun Lao is the never submerged memories of this river and lake.
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"Sun old man ah, also do not know from which era to cross over, stormy decades, to see him fall ill again and again and again to get up, we are worried and heartbroken. In the past, he was found to be in bad spirits, advised him to take fluids, he always lost his temper, and he could carry on at that time. But now Sun Lao 80, schistosomiasis liver, hypertension, filariasis, heart problems have been tormenting him, afraid of the day he really can not carry it ...... "This is the Sun Lao side of the work of the old man, Sun Lao has a deep feeling of pity for the former branch secretary Liu Li said.
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"Although Sun Lao has married a beautiful wife in his life, Sun Lao's real home is in the hospital." This is with Sun Lao **** for a lifetime of things, the dying also think Sun Lao incredible Chinese medicine department director Zhao Xiwen said.
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"Sun's old stingy is known far and near, there is a time I accompanied him to Beijing to do business, he was afraid of Beijing fruit is expensive, even from the public security raised 50 apples on Beijing, all the way to the apple is his own lift, hand are strangled out of blood. But this is such a "stingy" to the home of the people, but can do a great thing, you want to not convince can not." This is the retired vice president Zhong Keru said.
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"One time, we are in the port river dock transition, Sun's nephew somehow heard, in order to find a handyman job in the hospital, the nephew of the ox tall and big nephew kneeling in public to Sun old, crying while high, the scene I look at the heart of the soft, but Sun old! But Sun Lao just wouldn't agree." This is in the river personally experienced the kowtow scene of the logistics department director Yao Lianfu said.
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"Learned that Sun old liver cancer, I went to see him, he said, 'know that this day will come sooner or later, just do not know to come so fast' hear this sentence, I can not help but turn my back on the face. At that moment, I really wanted to cry! A person who studies medicine knows that there is a fatal danger lurking in his body but still wants to play with his life in such a way, I can only say that Elder Sun is a strange person." This was said by the director of the office, Chen Daolin, who is similar in age to Sun Lao's son.
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"Speaking of liver cancer, I think Sun old man is in the morgue for a long time to get ...... you remember that labor union chairman Song Xixuan? 88 years, Chairman Song died of liver cancer in the New Year's Eve, that one New Year's Eve, the snow is really big ah ...... Just to the Song chairman in the hospital ward to do the 49th birthday, Sun Lao returned home has not had time to eat a mouthful of New Year's Eve dinner, the family of the Song chairman on the door crying, in order not to alarm other people, Sun Lao pretty much in the morgue accompanied by the family of the deceased to spend the thirtieth of the year '88, The first day of the year ...... "This is what Yao Dengxiu, the head nurse of the internal medicine department who nursed Chairman Song at that time, said.
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"When it comes to Sun Lao as a person, I think he is a mystery. It's just a matter of working hard, but when he retired, he was still that serious. As the secretary of the elderly party branch, he was busy day and night, part-time 'woodpecker' inspector group leader, he yard yard field run. In a few years organized hundreds of clinics, guided tours, medical tours, 24 hours a day hate to become 48 hours to pass, is the iron man will be exhausted ah." This is usually very little to say, talking about Sun Lao but can not help but admire the former head of the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology Du Shangzhen said.
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"One year, I ran for my son's contract labor indicators, things did not work out also fell and hurt his leg. Sun Lao came to see me at home, knew my situation, without saying a word clip up the bag, the same day to help me get things done." This is in the anesthesiology department for decades, mention Sun Lao is grateful to the anesthesiology department director Gao Daxi said.
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"Sun Lao did not make a real sense of looking at the doctor, but he is a leader who does not stick to one pattern, promoting a general practitioner directly into the vice president of the expert cadres in the appointment of the issue, Sun Lao has an extraordinary foresight In the appointment of expert cadres, Mr. Sun had extraordinary foresight. It is because of Sun's knowledge of the old good appointment, the hospital has a short period of upgrading and upgrading, there is a large-scale long-term development ...... "This is and Sun stayed in an office for many years in the logistics director of the generation of the Lan said.
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"Walking on the boulevard of the hospital, if you want to link this magnificent outpatient department, inpatient department and dormitory building with someone, everyone will coincidentally think of Sun Lao, the 1980s is the hospital's most brilliant capital construction The 1980s were the most glorious years for the hospital's capital construction, and the houses built by Sun Lao amounted to 12, adding nearly 500 beds for patients and 170 sets of housing*** for more than 300 employees. That is, after another 100 years, these houses are also Sun Lao left us the warmest thoughts ...... This is the former president of the hospital Chen Fangdu said.
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"Sun Lao is not only a workaholic, but also a learning maniac, every year he has to use up nearly twenty work notebooks, these notes in addition to truthfully documenting the prosperity of the hospital, but also records Sun Lao in various periods of the creation of poems, songs, recitation The notes not only record the prosperity of the hospital, but also poems, songs and recitations created by Sun in various periods. From the 1960s to the present, Sun's notes have exceeded 20 million words, and if he were to declare a Gillespie record, Sun would be the obvious choice to break it." This is with Sun Lao has forgotten years of friendship with the hospital office director Zhou Sanli said ......
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Saying these are Sun Lao's colleagues, is the people's hospital to carry on the past and the future of the prestigious contribution of the leadership, experts. Said these times, their hearts ache, because they are not only Sun Lao's beloved family and friends, they are also materialists, life scientists ...... They know that Sun Lao is facing an unprecedented, grim and lonely war, the war's tragic and cruelty they can foresee they can not be solidarity ...... Each of them has tears in their eyes, each of them has expectations carved in their hearts, they do not want to see that even if it must come do not come too fast to the heartbreaking farewell.
Seven
Life is like a lotus, will be crippled not crippled, the spirit is like a rudder, can walk and walk ......
No matter how jagged the end of the road, Sun Lao from the end of the road, regardless of the terminal of the life of the darkness, Sun Lao calm, as a medical worker, Sun Lao abides by his faith and Mission ...... Living strongly and optimistically is to honor humanity! Live frankly and purely, is the reverence for life ......
At this moment, Sun Lao how much he wanted to be free to take a look at his piece of the sky ah, just like that stood under the blue sky, just like that gently tilted his head up, at this moment Sun Lao, the mind has been feathered, at this moment Sun Lao, the spirit of the spirit will be converted again. Because, because in that piece of quiet on the dome of the sky there is Sun Lao another heart of home!
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