Tang Hede and his friends recalled that after suffering from depression, Leslie Cheung's body was abnormal, chronic gastrointestinal diseases worsened, stomach pains and acid reflux occurred from time to time, and he often suffered from insomnia, nightmares at night and even hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. He always feels that someone is pushing him around. Gradually, people around him also found Leslie Cheung's abnormality, because he sometimes behaves abnormally, does not respond to other people's questions, sometimes has a bad temper, talks to himself, and even often asks people around him for no reason: "Did you just talk to me?" "All kinds of different shapes are completely different from those that are lively and kind in peacetime.
Leslie Cheung suffers from depression. At the beginning of the disease, he only felt that his chest was stabbed by a sharp weapon, which was very painful and helpless. He screamed in the room in pain. Not knowing that he had depression, he tried every means to help himself, including asking God for advice. Later, at the suggestion of Tang Sheng and a group of friends, he went to see a doctor and took medicine. But in the end. -Cha Xiao Xin (radio host, friend of Leslie Cheung)
When Sister Fei was playing mahjong at her brother's house, she also heard her brother screaming in pain in the upstairs room, only to know that it was him. Mgggie Chan
My friend met my brother in the hotel a week before he left. His face is gray, something is wrong. My brother suffers from depression and mania. His mood will peak for a while, and then fall to the bottom. It's hard and uncontrollable, and he doesn't know when he will get sick. This is the worst depression. I know my brother's mentality very well. It is difficult for people who have not suffered from this disease to understand. That kind of loneliness and helplessness, that kind of pain, is not enough for others Many people think that the cause of this disease may be self-caused, but it may not be. Many cheerful and lively people will also suffer from this disease. -Lin Jianming (radio host, friend of Leslie Cheung)
He chose to get sick. Because when we worked together, my brother's personality was very cheerful. Although he is successful in acting, he still works hard. I always feel that he has set a good example for us. -Gong Li (actor)
His agent and good friend Chen Shufen said ... you can't imagine how much he wants to get better. He has been seeing a doctor. He can't accept the fact that he has this disease because he has everything. Now he has chosen his favorite job. How can such a person have depression? I can't imagine. No one else will believe it. How is that possible? 」
Chen Shufen: "I believe he thinks so himself. He doesn't want to be a … because he really doesn't know when he will be well, and the doctor can't tell him. He is losing control of his situation. Different diseases at different stages made him miserable. He still has a lot of work to do, but he dare not promise others to do it, because what if he can't finish the work because of illness? I am most afraid that if something happens in public, what will he look like when others write about him? He really doesn't want these things to happen to him, so this choice (crying) ... I know, in fact, he is very reluctant. He just wants to get better soon. The doctor said it was okay to drink some red wine, but he didn't drink it at all because he wanted to get better soon. He is sensitive to everything and wants to get better soon. 」
Li Bihua:
That must not be you!
I don't believe it.
You have always been afraid of death, heights, beauty and figure. You often do gym, play ball, play mahjong, travel, taste red wine and enjoy life. I can't imagine how much courage and determination you need to choose to jump from the 24th floor-because everyone knows that the consequences will be fragmented and bloody. ...
On this day, I especially hate a stranger who washed away a pool of blood left by you with a fierce water column under the crashed iron fence outside the Wenhua Hotel, together with the spilled red flowers (your body bent the solid metal abruptly). You go with the water and disappear instantly. I hate his behavior. You are covered in blood, wrapped in a whole piece of white cloth, and the blood oozes out, just like rouge. Put on the last touch of heavy makeup for your pale breath.
Later, you were covered by a long bamboo basket and sent from the morgue to the funeral home. Later, you were put into a special and extremely comfortable precious coffin. Later, you went to put out the fire. It's depressing to see that some websites or articles reported that "Leslie Cheung (deceased)" was written, and the words with simple strokes in brackets.
A person was born, grew up, worked hard, struggled upward, was welcomed by the masses, gained both fame and fortune, and mixed emotions ... After more than 40 years of storms, there is still a long way to go. It only took a week, or even a second, and everything became the past.
It was the end of March 2002, a brilliant and charming day before you got sick. It's not unheard of for artists to give lectures in universities, but students will never forget your eloquence and laughter. Write it down quietly. There are many young people who admire you except those who grew up in their thirties and forties. I hope they love your singing skills, acting skills and looks, and also learn from your advantages: serious work attitude, punctuality, respect for elders, intelligence and sensibility, bold innovation, friendliness and courtesy, and all pursuit of perfection. -Li Bihua (a famous writer, with rouge buckle and farewell my concubine, etc. )
"My brother is a man who reports good news but not bad news. Unfortunately, in his eyes, I am his sister. He was afraid I couldn't handle it and didn't want me to worry. He didn't tell me when he was ill. All he told me was that his gastric juice was back, and he was not feeling well.
If he hadn't been ill, I believe he wouldn't have gone this way. He is an aesthete and won't destroy himself at all. It was the disease that controlled him. No one knows how painful his last days were. We can't share his worries and pains, but please don't add another foot after his death. What will happen if you get sick? -Anita Mui (Leslie Cheung's friend)
Expert: He treated with me for a while and began to take western medicine. The effect is average, but the side effects are relatively large. Later, he considered switching to the first phase of Chinese medicine. Once we gave him medicine for six days, and his family (Mr. Tang) asked to prescribe it on the third day. I said don't take too much even Chinese medicine, let alone take too much. As a result, he said that my brother didn't eat alone, but I (Mr. Tang) accompanied him. Because the medicine for treating depression must be taken on time and quantitatively, but sometimes my brother refuses to take medicine as soon as he has an attack, saying that the medicine is poisonous. As a result, in order to convince his younger brother that there was no poison in the medicine and coax him to eat it, Mr. Tang had to take a sip by himself and feed it to his younger brother, so that one person could drink the medicine of two people. I advise Mr. Tang to think of other ways, and never continue to take medicine like this, which will have toxic and side effects. Mr. Tang promised me, and I prescribed medicine for another three days. In the following months, Mr. Tang didn't ask me to increase the dosage every time. I thought he had thought of another way, but a few months later, Mr. Tang asked me if I could prescribe something for his headache and heartburn. I didn't know until I asked. He had taken him to take medicine for several months.
My niece Mai Jiaxuan's eulogy: "My uncle is a very hard-working person and will never give up when encountering setbacks. No matter how many prizes he won, he won't stop. My uncle is good at setting the trend. His advantage is that he is a good example for us in any industry, and he is sincere to his family and uncle. I remember when I was nine years old, my mother called my uncle to our home to help us girls with their lessons. He comes to my house by tram and bus every week and tries his best to teach us every time. I remember once he took us to Daimaru Company to see the doll pencil case. I know he didn't have much money at that time, so he used most of his savings to buy us these two gifts. 」
"Last year, my uncle asked me to visit my mother-in-law. I know that he is ill and suffers from depression. I tried my best to stay with him, listen to his worries, watch the pain caused by depression and feel all the pain. My uncle said that when his career was in recession (1983 and his agent's lawsuit), it was you who supported him the most (at this time, my niece's eyes were fixed on Mr. Tang) and lent him a few months to tide over the difficulties. 」
"I saw you. My uncle is ill, how to take care of him, care for him and accompany him? I hope he will recover soon. He is blessed to have such a good partner. I sincerely thank you on behalf of him! No matter how sad we are, I believe we won't be sad with you. If my uncle doesn't give up on us, I believe you are the one who will give up on him the most. Although he left us, I believe that people who love him will understand his choice. A few weeks before he left us, I visited him once. He hugged me and said, "You should live a good life! "! I'm here to say this for him and all his friends who love him: "He wants us to live a good life. 」
The niece said in her thank-you speech that Uncle Ten suddenly held her two sisters in her arms and cried and said, "I am so hard."
She continued, "Uncle Ten left us today. I remember that he had a lot to learn from me. He loves me very much. Thanks to my uncle for teaching me to be a man and love my relatives and friends. 」
She said: A week before my uncle died, she visited him at his house. At that time, the tenth uncle was ill and looked very hard, but he still said to her, "You know, I love you very much, so you should live a good life anyway." 」
Finally, she said that the two sisters had a card for their uncle.
She gently read out the words on the card in English: "Thank you for your kindness, your concern, your smile, your love ..."