It's late winter in the north with sunshine, but it doesn't delay the cold. Every breath of the wind is cut on people's face, hands and skin like a small knife. Pedestrians are in a hurry, except for their eyes, most of them wrap themselves up to avoid the cold.
Only Lao Wei is an exception. His head is bald, his arms are open, his face is red with cold, and he seems to have lost consciousness, causing many strange eyes.
I don't know whether I am old or should retire. The 54-year-old old Wei suddenly felt bored, too lazy to change clothes and couldn't even shave his beard. Usually Li Li is a whole person, sloppy. People are also aging for several years.
I'm not interested in doing anything, and I don't like eating anything. Just thinking about plums and sons all day, people are starting to lose weight.
Arguably, after twenty years of divorce, I should get used to living without them, but I don't know what happened recently. NianLia hangs around in front of me every day. Even if he closes his eyes, his former wife's bitter eyes and his son Xiaolong's pleading eyes are so clear and visible that he can drive away all sleepiness in an instant, which is enough to scare him until dawn.
Lao Wei began to lose his mind.
Due to listlessness and the cold weather, he didn't wear a down jacket or hat to work, and his nose was spinning with cold, which attracted a lot of curious eyes, but he completely ignored it.
Lao Sun is an old friend of Lao Wei for many years. Seeing Lao Wei like this, Jojo asked him, "Brother, why don't we take a step forward, find a daughter-in-law, cook at home and watch the door, take care of you, and go home in a hurry?". A person is too lonely. "
Lao Wei shook his head like a cannon. "Don't delay a good woman!"
I looked at the old Wei, "how many years, why don't you let go? If you can't let go, fight for it. If you keep it in your heart for 20 years, you will always keep it in your heart, but you have to take care of yourself. No matter how good the plums are, we have been away for 20 years. After 20 years, the children have grown up and it is difficult to go back. Why? Atonement? "
Lao Wei's eyes are a little red. "I really want to make amends, but where there is regret medicine, I should be punished if I lose my marriage!"
"Eldest brother, you also don't think too much, I was too real, let the little waiter cheated!" I'm a little disgusted.
Lao Wei knew he was talking about a second marriage.
"What are you talking about? It's too late to say anything. "
Yeah, it's too late to say anything.
Lao Wei looked at the blue sky outside the window. Clouds were floating, not magnificent, much like his life, his marriage and everything he had twenty years ago.
Why was the loneliness at that time so unbearable?
Twenty years ago, eating, karaoke and ballroom dancing were very popular. Almost every hotel's single room has audio equipment, singing while drinking, socializing a lot and enjoying socializing. He doesn't come home until midnight every day. His son was five or six years old, and every time he came home, Mei Zi quarreled with him. He didn't want to go home at that time, and then the hotel waiter called him long and short, and then called him together.
He clearly remembers that on the day of divorce, his son held his leg and wouldn't let him go. He took the child's hand away and left without looking back. He didn't understand why he was so cruel. That's my own son!
Is it the attraction of the waiter? Looking at a woman ten years younger than himself, he felt young again, but after graduating from junior high school, the waitress seemed to say nothing but go to bed, but she couldn't go to bed every day.
There are so many things in the waiter's hometown. His parents built a house, his brother got married, and his nephew went to school, including relatives to see a doctor. He admitted it. However, because the waitress had had too many abortions before him, she was infertile for life. It turned out that she was a prostitute, which he could not accept anyway.
Lao Wei chose to divorce, ending his four-year marriage.
Looking back on his marriage, Lao Wei thought it was a joke. His good wife abandoned him for a prostitute. He ate a fly and really made himself sick. He had no face to go back to his ex-wife or even see his son. He put all his experiences into his work. Perhaps the only thing that hasn't disappointed him for so many years is his work.
Many classmates and colleagues of the same age have become grandfathers. At this age, most of them talk about their children and grandchildren. Lao Wei has nothing to talk about. His son hasn't been in touch for years. When he needs to take care of him most after marriage, his energy is concentrated on the waiter. Now his son is old and ashamed to see him, but he misses him very much.
Seeing that everyone is talking about the kindness and pride of the next generation, Lao Wei is really envious. He misses his son more and more and often can't sleep at night.
Lao Wei suffers from insomnia every day. As soon as he closed his eyes, his son's little hand holding his thigh was there, and Mei Zi's bitter eyes were there. He dare not close his eyes, and his conscience is uneasy.
Sometimes I think, should my son be 26 this year?
The child should be six years old when he divorced, and the six-year-old son cried with his thigh in his arms. What did he think at that time?
A wry smile climbed up the corner of his mouth, and Lao Wei looked back at me: "Is there any news from Mei Zi?"
"Who did you say? Plum? " I looked at Lao Wei in surprise. "Brother, what do you mean?"
"I don't know if Xiaolong is married?" Lao Wei continued to mumble, and his eyes became redder.
I know everything about Lao Wei. At that time, I advised Lao Wei not to divorce, but at that time, Lao Wei was possessed by evil spirits and insisted on marrying the waitress. He has been in turmoil for several years and has been disheartened for several years. What do you mean now?
"Why don't I ask around for you?"
Lao Wei noncommittally.
2
Another sleepless night.
Lao Wei looked at the stars outside the window, as if every star was winking at him, and the lines around his mouth deepened. The shining stars are like the shining eyes of his son, looking forward to him. Lao Wei felt a heart-wrenching pain as if to tear him to pieces.
Then there is the bitter eye of plum, saying that men regret who they marry and women regret who they marry. This is true.
Three months after marriage, Lao Wei had a lot of dissatisfaction with his wife. At that time, he just had colorful clothes and pants wrapped tightly around his ass. All the women are beautifully dressed, but Mei Zi wears overalls every day. She is twenty-four years old and looks like forty-two. Every time she goes out, Lao Wei keeps a distance from her, which is too corny for her. Now I know it's called natural beauty, but I know it too late.
Why don't you know how to help with some housework when you go home? Children don't know how to take care of them when they are young. They just watched Mei busy and went to work without eating. I still think it's right. Now think about how interesting and warm it is for couples to do some housework together, but it's a pity that they all missed it.
The waiter's "Wei Ge" makes his body numb, and his tight waist and bright red lips will make his body react strongly. A man is most afraid of thinking with his lower body, but he really thinks with his lower body, so he does not hesitate to ask for a divorce.
Plum cried dizzy and begged, but she was unmoved. It turns out that she is so cold-blooded. Lao Wei looked up at the vast night sky, his eyes blurred. He wiped it with his hand and tears ran down his face. I don't know what happened recently, but I shed tears unconsciously. Is it really old?
Lao Wei got up and poured himself a glass of white wine. Maybe wine will calm him down for a while.
He took a long drink, and the 50-degree white wine made him a line from his mouth to his stomach, but he didn't feel spicy. Plum sad eyes looking at there, heartache.
Will she still think of him? No, never. It's been 20 years. She has forgotten him, hasn't she? But why is he getting clearer and clearer? Plum Blossom Twenty years ago, the plum blossom in its prime, which he once regarded as dirt, was so clear in front of his eyes that Lao Wei burst into tears. ...
If life could be repeated, he would not divorce, cheat, abandon his wife and children, or even socialize. He just wants to stay at home honestly and accompany his wife and children.
It took me half my life to know that fireworks are the most beautiful scenery in life!
But now it's too late to regret it. What's the use of regretting after 20 years? Perhaps Plum has long forgotten himself, and so has his son.
It's just how are they now?
It is said that Mei Zi hasn't been looking for it, so I don't know what happened.
Guo Wei took another swig of wine and became more and more uncomfortable. He remembered that the ancients said: it is more worrying to drown your sorrows by drinking, and he could not help but be speechless. This kind of sadness can't be eliminated by a glass of wine!
Marriage is really lost before we know its value, but how much can we start over?
Yes, the second time, Lao Wei was shocked by this word. He just regretted it and never thought about it twice.
A glimmer of hope rises in the fundus, as if life had returned to the body. I thought about taking it one day at a time, and I was ashamed to find my ex-wife. But if I can get back together, I will lose face. Old Wei Xing rummaged through the wardrobe at night looking for new clothes and began to take a shower. After tossing innocence, he shaved his beard again and again, and then took out his mobile phone and called me.
Lao Wei asked me to inquire about Mei Zi and his son. Eric will drive here soon, and someone always knows Mei Zi in a roundabout way. Soon, the two brothers ran to the CBD building in the city.
"Brother, you have a psychological preparation first. Mei Zi opened an accounting firm. Xiaolong has just returned from studying abroad and has already worked in Canada. This time he came back and was invited to give a lecture at a university in the city. "
"So plum has had a good life over the years, and her son is also very good. No problem meeting. I'm afraid you are mentally prepared for the rest ... "
I didn't go on. Lao Wei knows what this means. He doesn't deserve it!
May was an accountant in a small factory at that time. I didn't expect such a well-behaved person to open his own accounting firm. People really can't see the future, because the future is infinite.
They waited in the rest area for about an hour before being taken to the reception room. Lao Wei sat quietly without any complaints.
Mei Zi was always waiting for him when I got married. Once I went to the hospital to see a patient, Mei Zi Company came out in a traffic jam and was ten minutes late. He also complained to Zi Mei about his nose, nose and face. Mei Zi didn't dare to answer a word, or even look him in the eye. At that time, why was he so insignificant? He likes bullying Mei Zi very much. He always thinks that Mei Zi is very rustic and has no feminine taste.
But what is femininity?
I used to think coquettish and charming is feminine, but now mopping the floor, washing clothes and cooking is the biggest feminine, but unfortunately I realized it was too late.
A young and elegant woman came in, her black hair wrapped in a bun behind her head, and her facial features were exquisite. She looks concave and convex in a sapphire suit. She walked leisurely to the reception room and sat down. She looked at Lao Wei and Lao Sun calmly and bent her mouth: "Hello, Brother Sun, hello, Lao Wei! I wonder what you are doing here today? "
Lao Wei found out that this was his ex-wife Mei Zi.
I haven't closed my mouth for a long time.
Plum is younger, capable and energetic than they thought, and they can't help choking.
Lao Wei could hardly believe that it was a plum. Time left no trace on her. Instead, it filled her with a lot of brilliance, such as some kind of temperament connotation. How can I match such plums now?
Thought of here can't help but sad.
However, I still said, "Manager Mei, I have been feeling guilty for so many years. I want to see you and your son, so I came to see you. "
"Yes, I want to come and see you and your son!" Lao Wei quickly echoed.
"Thank you for thinking of us, we are fine, please rest assured!" Plum's voice is neither urgent nor slow.
Lao Wei remembered that Plum cried her eyes out when she divorced, and knelt on the ground and begged. Now she's coming to you. Generally speaking, women are not allowed to swear, how ugly it is. In fact, Lao Wei is ready to be scolded, and may forgive her if she is happy, but I didn't expect Mei Zi to be as if nothing had happened. Wen Ya thanked her, and Lao Wei couldn't help but get a stiff back, and the muscles on his face became stiff.
"Is the son okay?" His voice is getting lower and lower,
"Little dragon is very good. He has just come back from Canada. You can contact him! " Plum still vivid answer, conveniently write down a string of numbers, and handed it over.
Lao Wei picked up the note and held it in his hand.
He looked up at Mei Zi and muttered, "Can I invite you to dinner with Xiaolong?"
Plum gave him a look: "You're welcome, so I won't eat. I have a lot of things to do recently, and I may not be able to leave. Sorry! "
Old Wei understands that Mei Zi seems to forget that they used to be husband and wife, and now they are big bosses, so they simply despise him and can't help laughing.
I wanted to say sorry for the mess in the past, but I didn't want to mention the past at all, so I didn't know where to say sorry.
Seeing that Mei Zi kept looking at her watch, and Lao Sun knew that they were driving away the guests, they stood up and said goodbye.
Before he left, Lao Wei looked at Plum Blossom out of the corner of his eye, smiling all the time. He can't see sadness, joy, likes and dislikes and how tired he is. He just raised his hand, elegant and successful. He thought the second time was unlikely, and Lao Wei couldn't help but slip of the tongue.
Fortunately, I have my son's phone number, which is the biggest gain!
three
Lao Wei decided to see his son.
He connected the phone with trembling hands. When the telephone rang, Lao Wei thought it was a century. He is afraid that his son won't answer, and he is afraid that he won't know what to say if he answers.
When the phone is connected, "Hello, who are you?" At that time, Lao Wei froze. Who is he? He wants to say that I am your father, but will my son accept my father who has been absent for 20 years? Old Wei faltered for a long time, not knowing how to make any noise.
"Hello, who is this?" My son waited patiently on the other end of the phone. Lao Wei finally got up the courage and said, "Son, it's me!" "After all, he dare not say that I am your father.
There was a silence on the other end of the phone, and he quickly asked politely, "What can I do for you?"
Lao Wei noticed that it was you just now, but when he knew it was him, he became "you". He didn't know whether the honorific title was closer or farther away, but he still said clearly, "son, I want to invite you to dinner!" "
"I invite you, you set the place!" Son will be right back.
Lao Wei thought for a moment and sent the location of his home to his son. He wants to invite his son home and let him know the door. A hundred years later, everything here belongs to his son.
Lao Wei rushed to the supermarket to buy vegetables and meat. When he was a child, his son liked meat best. All he bought was plum blossom meat, tender and fragrant, and his mouth was full of oil.
My son came at night. When the boy1.8m stood in front of Lao Wei, his eyes welled up with tears. In his mind, his son is still a child, but now he is an adult. He regretted his son's lack of growth and didn't have the courage to forgive him. But he thinks it is enough that his son can come. He was satisfied that his son didn't refuse him thousands of miles away.
My son glanced at Lao Wei awkwardly, but the sentence "Dad" didn't come out.
Lao Wei had no choice, so he was glad to let his son in.
My son brought several boxes of nutrition, saying that he had brought them back from abroad. Lao Wei likes to touch them with his hands, not because they are nourishment, but because his son brought them, and then his eyes were moist and a little choked up. When his son saw him pat on the shoulder, he was half a head taller than him.
He poured a little red wine for his son and a little white wine for himself. When he looked at his son, his voice became hoarse. "Thank you for coming!" "As he spoke, he drank the wine in one gulp. The son looked at him and smiled. "I should have called you. I'm not sure if it's convenient for you, so I didn't call! "
Lao Wei gave a wry smile. "I was married when I left you. I was possessed by ghosts at that time and divorced four years later. I have no face to come back to you. I am not a good father, a good husband, or even a good man, so I have been living alone until now. "
My son took a sip of red wine. "Mom said that no matter what happened before, or when, I will be filial, including support, your illness and death!"
Lao Wei's back is chilly. Mei Zi didn't educate his son to hate him, but his son was only filial, but who is to blame? It's good that my son can recognize himself. He has been indifferent for 20 years. Now that his children have a successful career and his father has come out, it is a boon for him to recognize himself.
It is said that sons and fathers are related by blood, but there is always no feeling without parenting. Now, my son came, not because he missed him, but for filial piety, not because of blood, but because of personal qualities.
My son seems to read his mind. "Please give me a little time, I need to forget, because I can still remember the scene when I saw you holding your leg and not letting you go. I will sort out these emotions as soon as possible. Sorry! "
My son stood up politely, didn't drink much wine and didn't eat much food, and began to leave.
Old Wei looked blankly at his son who got up and left, not knowing how to retain him. There are only tears in his eyes. He hurt their mother and son too much, and now he can't forgive them!
At the moment when his son closed the door, he turned to Lao Wei and said, "Don't worry, I will support you and I will be filial!"
Lao Wei knows he doesn't want to support or be filial, but what does he want?
I am afraid that what I want will never be there, and the warmth of human family will never be there.
Thought of here, Lao Wei slowly took a sip of wine. ...
I never thought about what would happen after n years of abandoning my wife and children. What will happen when I am old and my children grow up?
Yesterday, I read entertainment gossip that there was an actor in his seventies who abandoned his wife and children and lived a miserable life in his later years. Even if a celebrity is still like this, will he still be like that?
The cold wave came and frozen out the tears in my eyes.
four
Lao Wei's insomnia is getting worse and worse, and he is forgetful. He often forgets to wash his face at work and doesn't change a suit for days. He couldn't hear the sunset all afternoon. Lao Wei was ill, and the doctor said it was depression.
I know he has a heart disease, but outsiders can't help him, so they have to ask for it.
Mei Zi gave a wry smile when he heard my grandson's purpose. "I'm sorry, I can't seem to help. I'm not familiar with him! " "
"Why? You are husband and wife, "I don't understand.
"Yes, we have been married for seven years and divorced for twenty years. Twenty years of deep memories will be erased by time, let alone beautiful memories! "
At the beginning, the deep feelings between husband and wife may be tossed by divorce, and the beauty no longer exists. Whoever leaves can live a sunny life.
"But Lao Wei is ill now, and he always feels guilty about you. Maybe if you come forward, he will get better, so just do good things. " I don't understand why Mei Zi seems so kind. Why can't I help you?
"Sorry, I can't help you!" Plum is still so elegant, but it was rejected.
"Is Xiaolong okay?" I looked at plums,
"He decides for himself!" Plum likes to talk about other people's affairs.
It feels like there's nothing to choose from. After all, I am divorced. This is Lao Wei's fault. Helping is friendship, not helping is duty.
Just a little disappointed.
Lao Wei's son Xiaolong heard that Lao Wei was ill and came to see him at the first time. Lao Wei's eyes lit up when he saw his son, but Xiaolong put down 10,000 yuan and left. Lao Wei's doctor said he needed company, but Mei Zi refused, and so did his son. It seems that everyone is right or wrong.
Soon, Xiaolong hired an hourly worker to do laundry and cook for Lao Wei, but Lao Wei declined.
Lao Wei often forgets to eat, and he always mumbles sorry. The pain of divorce hurt Mei Zi and his son, but it actually hurt Lao Wei. That kind of injury is a hidden disease in Lao Wei's mind, and it will only recur after 20 years.
Lao Wei couldn't go to work and called in sick.
I often come to see Lao Wei. His parents died long ago, and he has no brothers or sisters. I looked at Lao Wei and shut myself in my room. He thought Lao Wei would die like this.
He asked Lao Wei for advice: "Xiaolong said he would take care of you. Why don't you move to him? "
Lao Wei shook his head like a rattle. "We owe enough. Don't burden your child any more. "
"But if your body goes on like this, it seems that it won't last long?"
Old Wei grinned: "It may be best for me to die!" "
My heart sank. Looking at Lao Wei's grinning corners of the mouth, I can't help feeling disappointed. I only smiled when I saw my son, and the others just grinned at the corners of my mouth. Now I long for death again, and his illness is getting worse.
Fortunately, Xiaolong comes frequently, almost once every two or three days. Every time, he supervised Lao Wei to eat, and sometimes he brought soup made of plums. At this time, Lao Wei is the most obedient, he honestly eat clean. He still clearly remembers the taste of plum food.
Lao Wei's greatest pleasure every day is waiting for his son's arrival. In order to make a good impression on his son, he will wash his face, take a bath, change clothes, and start cleaning the room, just like Mei Zi is waiting for him to come back with his children.
When my son comes and sees him waiting there neatly, he will smile handsomely: "Can you go out and buy something to eat every day and cook until I get off work?"
Lao Wei nodding, he is very welcome.
His son is his medicine.
Half a year has passed in an instant, and my son is going back to Canada.
At this time, Lao Wei has become much more normal. He must go to the airport to see his son off, because he knows Plum will go. Subconsciously, he still misses plums.
When he was leaving, his son's eyes were red. He looked at Lao Wei and said, "Be good. With you in my life, there is still a way to go. After you left, there was only one way home. I haven't called your father yet, wait for me to come back next time! "
"I know, I know, I must be fine!" Lao Wei nodded like a child. He can talk about his son in front of others in the future. His son is very kind to him.
The son turned to look at Mei Zi again: "Mom, you also take care, thank you for training me so well!" "My son blinked naughtily.
Plum knocked on her son's head: "And I said I was excellent and not shy!" " ! Take care of yourself outside! "
Watching his son walk into the security checkpoint, Mei Zi didn't look back and said to Lao Wei, "Do you want me to take you back?"
Lao Wei looked at Plum, so close, it looked really, but his wife was not thinking about him, strange and far away.
As if knowing that she was looking at herself, Mei Zi walked and said, "Don't look, Mei Zi died twenty years ago, and now you are not familiar with me. But you were cruel twenty years ago, be cruel to the end. How can I find my conscience? What do you compare with yourself? Who is it for? "
Lao Wei blushed and could not speak. ...
"Don't stay at home every day, don't you like singing and dancing? Go to the university for the aged. By the way, you are going to retire soon. If not, retire. My son wants you to be healthy, so you must find ways to be healthy. " Plum ordered, she didn't dare to talk to Lao Wei like this when she was still married, but now Lao Wei likes to listen.
"I know," Lao Wei readily promised.
When getting on the bus, Lao Wei looked at Mei Zi: "Mei Zi, thank you for raising your son so well. Thank you for returning good for evil. Thank you for tolerating me!"
Lao Wei finally spoke his mind.
Plum smiled: "I have forgotten the past. The only thing I remember is that you gave me such an excellent son. I am very happy! " "
Lao Wei didn't know that his son often took care of him, which was encouraged by Mei Zi. Mei Zi said that men should be responsible. It's his fault for not raising you, and it's your fault for not being filial!
Old Wei stood there, and Mei Zi thought the same thing. She looked at her ex-wife with the light of broken diamonds, and her ex-wife was taller in an instant! Title: Divorced for 20 years; Author: Yuan Xin Xin Yu