I just finished eating the 2018 Lantern Festival Tangyuan, and Women’s Day is coming one after another, my God! Is it my birthday soon? As soon as this birthday is over, I, who was born in 1969, really go straight to Wu Zhang, and the years are fleeting. Whatever! It is commonly said that at forty, one has no doubts and at fifty, one knows destiny. Looking back on my first half of life, except for my son who has grown up, I have gained some unexplained extra fat. Everything remains the same, and I can only sigh. Since my destiny is like this, I will simply stop and slowly become a free person.
? I like the winter sun, and I like to sit alone on the balcony and comprehend life, drink tea, think about it, meditate, and have random thoughts.
Now that my son has grown up and has his own life, I will come to Suzhou with my husband and live the life of a couple of gods and gods in this strange city. Every Sunday, my husband and I go out to Xintian Tour and shopping malls, but every time I go to the fitting room and look at my increasingly swollen figure, I really feel that time is like a butcher's knife, it goes too fast. I'm not willing to give in: Does this look good on me? Good-looking. Good-looking. You look good in anything you wear. My husband always says this: I’m used to it too. One time I spent an afternoon shopping and tried on various styles. Every time he wore one, he said it looked good. When I came out, I asked him: Why do you always say it looks good but there is nothing special about it? It makes you look like you are rich! He actually said: You have always been like this since I met you. You look good no matter what you wear. No money? Got a card! Final words: In fact, no matter what clothes you wear now, you look better than if you don’t wear any clothes. I wanted to get angry but I endured it because he told the truth. It also reflects the reason why my husband tries his best to package me. I remember when we were noisy and stumbling together in the beginning, now, more than 20 years later, we have become interdependent and tolerant of each other. It turns out that time can also bring people closer together.
? When my son came back, I put my hand on my waist and asked him: Son, tell me, what was I like when you were a child? Fat waist? The son put down the mobile phone in his hand and said seriously: As long as I can remember, you seem to have always been like this. I raised my hand to knock him on the head. The boy moved faster than a rabbit and emphasized: What I said is true. This made his father, who is several decades old, laugh so hard that he burst into tears. I laughed as if I had won something, and I was really angry. It’s been more than twenty years, haven’t I changed? What you said is too false. If you don’t say anything else, just say this waistline. My waistline was only 19 when I got married. Now my waist is over 30 without eating for a day, and my belly is higher than my chest. Was I like this before? It's all nonsense, neither of them is good! Seeing me yelling at his dad, my son came over and said: What my dad and I said is true, you will never change, your attitude is good and you will always be young. One time I saw you still listening to that electronic music ghost dance. You are more fashionable than me. Tell me how young and trendy you are! Are you old?
Yes, I just love to think about things and act like a queen in my own home. But if I don’t mess with them, who can I mess with? In this strange city, at this age. Outside, I have no sense of existence, and no one cares about you. I feel like air, like a grain of dust. Even if I, this grain of dust, accidentally floats into the sea with the wind, it will cause waves. People will say The waves were caused by the wind and had nothing to do with me.
I went out for a walk and strolled to the community square, where I saw disabled people singing for alms. I thought that people with physical disabilities and strong wills can have their wishes. I, a person with sound limbs, But I was doing nothing. Listening to the high-pitched singing and passionate vocals, I also wanted to roar down my throat to vent my anger, so I simply turned around and went home, turned on my computer stereo. I was all alone at home, baring my teeth and claws in an exaggerated way, dancing like a group of demons until I was exhausted. A person must live. Move, only when you move can you look younger!
I am already fifty and know my destiny, and I still have to do something. Every time I go to the interview with full confidence, my age in the personnel department will hurt me completely. I can no longer win the world with young people. They are trying to steal their jobs, and when they feel unwilling to do so, they can only crush themselves into pieces and put them in an inconspicuous place to quietly do work that is free from the world. No big deal!
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