Wedge
You said that whenever the wind brushes my hair, you are thinking of me in a distant country.
October S city has entered the late fall, cool wind.
In the evening, there are even fewer people skating on the street, but Shen Yi Yi is not thinking, a dark blue knee-length skirt, feet stepping on a pair of white canvas shoes, walking leisurely, as if to isolate from the world.
When the breeze blew by, it curled her long thick black hair, and she froze a little, and soon regained her calmness, and the momentary trance passed away.
Shen Yi Yi said, that is someone is calling her, every time the wind blew through the ears, she can hear someone whispering.
01
The first time I met Su Qiaosheng, Shen Yi Yi is facing the ground full of fallen leaves sentimental, Su Qiaosheng stood behind her watching, petite body and the scenery in front of them complemented each other, her hands holding a piece of yellowed withered leaves, careful, for fear of accidentally touching it, can be in the view of Su Qiaosheng, before the eyes of the everything makes him feel funny.
Yes, he did laugh out loud.
This sudden laughter seems to have disturbed someone's peace and quiet, Shen Yi Yi turned her head back to look at this uninvited guest, and the first thing that came to her mind was the "sinking fish and falling geese", "closed moon and shy flowers".
Obviously is a person, but look so evil, have to say, this person is really good-looking, dark brown eyes like two groups of thick fog, which hides a little tenderness, coupled with the long eyebrows, strong nose, a slight smile revealed a hint of uninhibited, and hands and feet are filled with a gentlemanly demeanor.
Shen Yi Yi can not help but spit in her heart: "God! It's hard not to live to see ghosts in broad daylight."
"Hey, you're not going to fall in love with me so quickly." Su Qiaosheng looked at her instantly changing expression and had a bad feeling.
"I say you are also too narcissistic."
Her voice was not loud, but it still attracted a crowd of young girls, Shen Yi Yi suddenly wanted to dig a hole and burrow into it herself, if she was stared at by a group of people like this even if, this is simply a group of hungry wolves ah, the rhythm of a minute to eat her.
"Hey, the big man asked you words, do you hear?"
"Ah shucks! I'm the one who is your grandpa!" Shen Yi Yi raised her head and bumped into a pair of deep eyes with teasing.
Su Qiaosheng just looked at her, the corner of his mouth lightly hooked.
Shen Yi Yi is not so calm, she can clearly hear her "thumping" heartbeat, blinking at Su Qiaosheng, she smiled awkwardly, secretly slander ......
However, in the face of a pair of eyes that want to put her to death, she is not so calm. lingering eyes, she swallowed uneasily and pleasingly revealed an indebted smiling face.
"Grandpa, today's weather is nice, you also come out to bask in the sun." Shen Yi Yi always feel where not right, look up, the weather forecast said today cloudy, it seems to be true.
"Haha, moncler, you eat and drink well! Then if there's nothing else I'll leave first ah."
She did her best to make herself look less wretched, but no matter how much she tried to hide it, she couldn't change the fact that she had already escaped, and remembering what she had just said before, she felt the urge to strangle herself.
But then again, there is nothing wrong with herself, it is obvious that the man is too lewd, but would this be too disgraceful.
Shen Yi Yi definitely knew that if she went back now, she would be even more disgraced.
He remained silent, looking at her back as she left, a just-right arc was drawn across his face.
02
Shen Yi Yi secretly sighed, originally thought that four years of college life will be spent in peace, but did not think that today encountered this kind of oddball, but to say the least, in addition to a little bit of a small embarrassment, the rest is not bad.
The sky is already dark, Shen Yi Yi feels that she has traveled enough, so she dragged her tired body back to the dormitory.
Just opened the door to the dormitory, Ye Li jumped on her: "Yi Yi, you're on fire you know?"
"What's on fire."
Ye Li suddenly felt that they are not in a channel at all, knowing that it is useless to say more, simply pull her to the computer desk.
When Shen Yi Yi saw the glaringly obvious words, she almost didn't give it a knee.
"Female students of the Department of Commerce and Industry openly flirting with the school grass."
"Hey, Yi Yi, you know what? I just opened the computer when I came back from studying, the forum in the school was dominated by you, line ah you, no wonder you don't accompany me, together to molest people."
"Molestation, on that obscene man still need me to molest?"
"Pfft!" Ye Li sprayed out a mouthful of water before swallowing. "Obscene? You say this has no consideration for other people's feelings ah, do you know how many people follow Su Qiaosheng every day, just to see him smile back."
When Ye Li said this, our Shen Yi Yi didn't even listen to her, and she really felt that she couldn't be friends with this kind of people with different brain circuits, but she remembered the three words "Su Qiaosheng".
Shen Yi Yi a look of indifference. However, looking at the photos in front of her, is this really herself? I'm used to seeing such boring things, but I never thought it would happen to me one day.
The photos are not molestation. The highest level of spitting is probably not even yourself, but you can not help but marvel at the timing of the capture is really good.
Just then, Lin Xuan's phone call came in.
A minute later, Shen Yi Yi hung up the phone, copied the jacket and left, "Ah Li, I'll go out and come back soon."
Those who don't know must think that she is going to fight in a group.
And Lin Xuan, Shen Yi Yi's best friend since childhood, each other unreasonable, and mutual tolerance, just when the two thought to go their separate ways, but then came to the same city by mistake.
When Shen Yi Yi found Lin Xuan in the bar, she was already drunk.
"Yiyi, you're here."
"Well, thanks for recognizing it's me, my big miss."
Some words, perhaps only drunk can be said without fear, "He does not want me, Yiyi, what should I do!" Lin Xuan pearly said.
These words, in the usual, Lin Xuan even if it is difficult to death will not say, these Shen Yi Yi know, the next time to see that scum must be dumped him two slaps.
The noisy bar, the bustling crowd made her a little depressed. Shen Yi Yi pulled up Lin Xuan and left, but completely did not expect to meet him in this place.
Su Qiaosheng is nestled on the sofa not far from her watching her.
How can I say this? He would come to this kind of place, completely inconsistent with his temperament.
She saw him reclining on the sofa, lazy like a kitten, with a hint of an impenetrable smile hanging from the corner of his mouth. Poppy-like seduction, this was Shen Yi Yi's evaluation of him at that time, and she had to admit that she was indeed attracted.
Despite the hustle and bustle of the occasion, his elegance, is by no means illusory, Shen Yi Yi can not help but be a little jealous, there are people who can move the heart no matter where they are.
Su Qiaosheng did not know when has walked to her side, like a breeze slowly Xu come.
He leaned down to look at her, two faces are very close to each other, she can smell his breath, the faint smell of alcohol on his body, slightly drunken face makes him look more glittering.
"Yell, Shen Yi Yi student, long time no see."
How else to say never be confused by a person's appearance, obviously just met not long ago, Su Qiaosheng can be so cloudy to say it.
But to say cheeky, Shen Yi Yi thinks no one can compare to her, "Have we met before? I seem to have forgotten."
Su Qiaosheng frowned slightly, he was disgusted, not just because of what she said, her tone, her expression, all made him hate.
"Also, you can't be liking me, I didn't tell you my name."
Shen Yi Yi did say it righteously, but the next second she immediately conceded.
She clearly felt a hint of sulking in Su Qiaosheng's eyes, and before she could say anything else, Su Qiaosheng's one word made her run away in dust.
"Get lost!" Well, she definitely didn't hear it wrong, that's what he said, and at that time Shen Yi Yi was close to actually rolling out.
But why? Since you can't think of it, simply don't think about it.
The feeling outside is very different from inside the bar, after Shen Yi Yi dragged Lin Xuan and ran out, she instantly felt refreshed, she couldn't figure out how Lin Xuan could run to such a remote place. And, why, he was there.
......
"Lin Xuan, wake up, what sins did I do in my last life ah." Waiting for the car, Lin Xuan has fallen asleep on her shoulder.
S city to eleven o'clock, are dead silent, a glance can not see any vehicle, difficult to not want me to carry her back.
Pei Chusheng appeared at this time, he parked the car on the side of the road, rolled down the window, a simple two words "get on the car".
Shen Yi Yi put Lin Xuan into the back seat, adjusted a comfortable position for her, he ran to the passenger side, the car anywhere noble want to vomit, really, people rely on clothes, horses rely on saddle, sitting here the whole person's temperament is different.
If you can, Pei Chusheng really do not want to see one more second, if not entrusted by others, he will absolutely kick Shen Yi Yi down.
Until Pei Chusheng remembered her seat belt, Shen Yi Yi realized that there is something wrong, just thought it was a cab, but the cab has to drive suv's, she had a kind of feeling on the thief's car, and now should be too late to repent.
At this point, she began to measure up to him, although not as much as Su Qiaosheng dumped four seats, but also enough to please the eye.
Wait, Su Jiao Sheng, seems to have seen him somewhere.
"What is your relationship with him?" Pei Chusheng didn't explain anything more to her, if it wasn't for Su Qiaosheng, I guess he wouldn't even bother to take care of her.
"Who?" Shen Yi Yi was surprised.
"I don't want to talk more nonsense."
Come to think of it, just now Su Qiaosheng seems to have such a person beside him.
Pei Chusheng really can't understand how he cares so much about her, "I'll warn you first, it's best to stay away from him."
"Who?"
"Go down." Pei Chusheng has endured to the extreme.
Shen Yi Yi hadn't reacted one second, and the next had already been kicked out.
Pei Chusheng made a handsome turn and left.
"Sent back?"
He didn't understand, he had been by his side for so many years and had never seen him like this.
"Joson, why?"
Su Qiaosheng looked at him as if he had no idea, and finally only said, "Let's go, I'm going home today."
03
After that, Shen Yi Yi did not meet Su Qiaosheng for a long time.
Just when she thought her life had returned to peace, Su Jiao Sheng appeared again.
This day, Shen Yi Yi just came out of the dormitory, she saw Su Qiaosheng, as if she had waited for a long time.
"Come with me." Su Qiaosheng did not leave her time to consider, causing Shen Yi Yi to go or not.
Finally followed him.
Su Qiaosheng is still angry, but he himself does not know the reason, as for why he came to look for her, and what to do after finding her, he also does not know.
Shen Yi Yi always feel that he is pumping something, from just now to now, not a word more than a word, he is completely ignored, looking at Su Qiaosheng who is more than ten meters away from himself, Shen Yi Yi finally could not help but explode.
"Hey, stop for me." Perhaps with the power of the flood, the voice came out to have a kind of heart-rending feeling.
The breeze was blowing in gusts, ravaging the nearly withered branches, and the yellow leaves all over the ground were also cooperating with the rolls. Shen Yi Yi look around, this place is quiet terrible, how to walk here, she actually did not realize, the heart steeply born a kind of foreboding, and then look at Su Qiaosheng that evil smile, she felt that she was y set.
Shen Yi Yi's face-changing expression betrayed her, which allowed Su Qiaosheng to see at a glance what she was thinking, she looks cute, but in her heart he is so bad person? Can not help but have a trace of displeasure.
"Why, you only realize it now, but it's already too late." Su Qiaosheng stepped closer to her.
"You say, in this place, if I do something, no one will know, right?"
"You ...... what are you going to do?" The beauty of the current must not be compromised, however, as long as it is not too much, after all, it is their own door.
I want you to be my girlfriend, Su Qiaosheng said this sentence, she did not know whether to look forward to or expect.
"Why?"
If you want to ask me why I like you, I don't know, I always feel that every expression of yours is talking.
Shen Yi Yi, if you really forgot everything, let me help you remember.
"Because you are annoying."
He really hates it, hates that she left a dream in his heart when she was young, and then left without saying goodbye in the end, and when he meets her again, he realizes that after so many years, she still occupies that position in his heart because, more than hating it, he loves her more.
Shen Yi Yi can not say a little lost, because she was hated, and the other side is him?
"And your answer?" He caught a hint of loss on her face, although it was only for a moment, but he was still very happy.
"And if I don't say yes?"
Su Jiao Sheng frowned: "I don't care."
"Good."
Since you don't care, I don't care.
The prince and princess in the story will be happy together, Su Qiaosheng is the prince, but she is not the princess.
The next day, the news spread throughout the campus, it is said, a lot of girls are going to be chopped up, has always been a clean mind Su Qiaosheng even packaged himself cheap.
Shen Yi Yi did not expect since that day to meet, Pei Chusheng will again find her.
"What is your purpose?"
"Can't it be because I like him?" Shen Yi Yi never felt so serious, even she did not know how she said it.
"Advise you to behave yourself, otherwise, the one who gets hurt in the end is you." He really hated her, he did before, and even more so now.
"Also, you don't deserve him at all."
Pei Chusheng, his cousin, this is also later heard from Su Qiaosheng, since the family changed when he was a child, he has been living in Su Qiaosheng's house, and the two have a good relationship.
Of course, along with the learned, and Su Qiaosheng is a veritable rich second generation, only, his father in his fourteen years old that year sick and died.
When saying this, Su Qiaosheng face did not have any expression, but she can still feel his pain, she vowed to love him well, is love.
04
Shen Yi Yi dare not imagine that they have been together for a year.
In this year, he has treated her so well that Shen Yi Yi has forgotten that his love for her stems from hate.
She said she wanted to go to see the falling leaves, he held her hand to accompany her.
She said she wanted to see the sunrise, but wanted to sleep, he got up early and waited for the sunrise with his camera.
She said he was tired, he carried her.
He spoiled her, loved her, let her be pampered, even if she wanted the stars in the sky, he would pick them for her. But she also cherishes his love, understands him and stays with him.
She likes fireworks, he took her to the most beautiful place in S city to see fireworks.
The moment the fireworks bloomed, he said "I love you" to her.
She didn't hear it, and it was the first and only time he said it.
At the end, he told her a story.
In the story, the little boy's father died, and he hid in secret, and a little girl found him and said to him, "Don't cry, he is watching you from heaven, and he will be unhappy if you cry.
Then the little boy stopped crying, but the little girl disappeared, she said she would stay with him, was it all a lie? He kept looking for her, and finally, he found her, but she didn't remember him.
Perhaps for him, her appearance is like a bright light in the dark night, to show the direction, and he is for her, perhaps just a shadow among the millions of people.
The boy has been waiting for the girl, wait for her to remember, he wants to tell her, he wants her to be his bride.
But she was asleep and did not hear.
It's just that he will give her anything she wants, so what does it matter if she hears it or not.
Looking at her sleeping soundly, he gently kissed her cheeks, and then picked her up and walked in the direction he came from.
05
Since when did it change?
She hadn't seen Su Jiao Sheng for a week.
She went to see him, he was not there, and seemed to deliberately avoid her.
Finally, when she gave up, he appeared in front of her eyes, and standing beside her, not her, is Ye Li.
Shen Yi Yi looked at the scene in front of her especially painful, how much she wanted to escape again, but she could not take a step, she was stunned to look at the two people talking and laughing.
He also saw her, disappointed eyes full of grief, hate her imprisoned him for so long?
Already at this point, do not make a fool of yourself, Shen Yi Yi turned to leave.
"Yi Yi, you wait." Ye Li to go after Shen Yi Yi, but was stopped by Su Qiaosheng.
That night, Shen Yi Yi packed up her things and left the dormitory, and went to Lin Xuan's rented apartment, she was glad that there was still such a person, even if the whole world betrayed her, she would still be there.
When Lin Xuan saw her, she was like an empty shell with a lost soul, she wanted to scold her, but what qualifications did she have? She just hugged her and comforted her like Shen Yi Yi did to her every time, they don't need too many words between them, each other's company is the best comfort.
The next day, she got up and hugged Lin Xuan, "It's so good, and you."
"Fool."
After a few more days, she found Shen Qiaosheng, and although it just went away, she needed an explanation.
He said he was tired.
And it's almost graduation, he plans to go to England to study, he needs is not a all day to her pampered and unreasonable little girl, but a person who can always support him to accompany him.
It's as simple as that, the deepest love eventually lost to reality, she practiced many times to see Shen Qiaosheng again, but how to practice, how to disguise, she still cried.
Su Qiaosheng wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, still so gentle, but this tenderness is terrible.
He gently kissed Shen Yi Yi's forehead, "Yi Yi, promise me, no matter what happens, you have to live well."
"Are you humiliating me? Telling me that I'm only with me to get close to my best friend?"
"Su Jiao Sheng, how can you ...... do this to me, you can not love me, but why did you come to deceive me, why did you go through all the trouble to make me fall in love with you."
Why? Obviously know can not get her, but still want to try, try to want to have her.
Can't let go ah, Yi Yi, how can I be so selfish, the more I am with you, the more I can't let go of you, the more I crave your flavor.
"Maybe someday you will know, but I hope you will never know."
She didn't know what answer he left her with, but he was gone.
After you say goodbye, never look back. The moment you turn around, please be sure to forget that we once overlapped that time.
After graduation, Pei Chusheng went to France.
Lin Xuan wandered to Tibet, the beautiful name to chase the dream, in fact, they do not know what she is still running away from.
And Su Qiaosheng rightfully went to the United Kingdom to study, I heard that together with Ye Li, of course, this is only Shen Yi Yi thought.
Only Shen Yi Yi has no desire to stay in S city after graduation. In fact, later she also obtained a chance to study in the United States, but she refused, without asking, she knows who did it, but she did not want to accept it, she is not down to the point of being pitied by others.
Suddenly realized that the whole world is only left with her again, fate goes round and round, or back to the original starting point.
06
Someone appears in your life, just passing through, and there is always a person, you want to treat him gently, no matter whether he is still by your side.
It's not that she hasn't thought about Su Qiaosheng, but no matter how much she thinks about it, no matter how much she reads about it, what can't go back is what can't go back.
When Pei Chusheng found Shen Yi Yi two years later, she was spouting a brand of cosmetics, almost spitting on the people in front of her to drown.
You can't imagine the expression on her face when she saw Pei Chusheng, a look of the sky collapsing and lifeless.
Shen Yi Yi thought of only one word "run".
"Shen Yi Yi, you give me stop," Pei Chusheng shouted angrily behind.
Although the heart does not think so, but the foot is indisputable stop, Shen Yi Yi especially want to slap himself, but still a little reluctant to give up.
Perhaps because of the man's innate pride, Pei Chusheng heartfelt anger: "Shen Yi Yi, you avoid me why? You think I will be the same as him?"
"What are you looking for me?"
Neither of them said much, and time seemed to stand still.
"I'm busy, if there's nothing else ......"
"Talk somewhere else."
As overbearing as ever, just like the first time they met, Shen Yi Yi was already sitting in a high-end Rolls Royce before she even looked back.
The car is splendid to the core. Is every person with a prominent family so arrogant ......
"He's gone."
Come to the cafe he said the first sentence is he is gone, yes, he is gone, and has been gone for two years, do not need you to remind me.
Shen Yi Yi some anger: "We have long been broken up, you have to say what, you want me to remember the pain, and then come to see my joke?"
You didn't agree with us being together in the first place, as you wanted, and you saw it.
"Shen Yi Yi, do you think you are the only one who will be in pain, compared to his, compared to mine, your little pain is nothing?"
He was angry, and felt ridiculous, that person with his life to love, pain, protection, to the last moment do not want to hurt the person ah! He really felt bad for him.
He hated her, but he couldn't do anything to her, she was the man's favorite. Is there still a need to tell her, but he is really upset, upset that the man arranged everything for her, but she knows nothing.
"He didn't go to England to study in the first place, he went to France."
"Well, what does that have to do with me."
"Shen Yi Yi, don't challenge my limits."
Pei Chusheng stood up and grabbed her arm, she felt pain, a lot of pain, but this could make her feel sober, she clearly saw the anger in his eyes, not a bit of concealment, no reservation to let her know how much he loathed her.
"He's dead, Shen Qiaosheng he's dead, do you understand me when I say this?" Pei Chusheng almost roared out in anger.
Shen Yi Yi looked at him, neither of them spoke again, impossible, how is this possible, she did not believe.
Then what is this, tears? Why are you crying, he is obviously still alive and well, she only remembers that he loved her and spoiled her, but in the end he left, is that why?
"You ......" Shen Yi Yi did not know what to say, she wanted to ask, but did not dare to ask.
Pei Chusheng took out a letter and handed it to her, this is what he found when he was organizing Su Qiaosheng's things before he returned to China, and in these two years, all of his things he didn't dare to touch, he didn't even dare to look at it.
Yes, it hurts every time he touches it.
He remembers how tormented the days before he left, he suppressed his love for her, his thoughts of her, he went to great lengths to stage a betrayal for her, but in the end, it was him who loved the most.
Pei Chusheng tells her that he has Hepatitis B, the same as his father.
Shen Yi Yi hands trembling to open the letter, see the first word is, he can no longer hold back.
Two years later, this is the answer you give me?
Su Qiaosheng, you are cruel enough.
She remembered, fourteen years old, her parents took her on vacation, they met, that time, he hid himself in a corner to fall tears, she asked him, he said that he lost the most important relatives.
She told him, you did not lose him, he will be watching you from heaven, you laugh he followed the smile, you cry he will be sad together.
Then she was leaving, she told herself that she would recognize him on goodbye, but after the reunion, she forgot him.
It turns out that the destiny between them had already begun, only when you look back again, everything has gone by.
She loved him for four years, which also hated him for two years.
In fact, she should have known, how can she doubt his love, why is she so stupid.
A year after graduation, Ye Li sent her an email, only at that time she did not see it, Su Qiaosheng then begged her to help, but why not find someone else? He said that only he could make her leave decisively, in the end, she still did not refuse him, after all, it is for Shen Yi Yi.
07
Shen Yi Yi does not know how she came back.
She only remembers that she was drowsy and her mind was blank.
When she gradually came to her senses, everything around her was silent. She wanted to cry, but Joson had said he didn't want to see her shedding tears.
Yes, the tea is cold and the people have finished.
It is useless to be sentimental, the years have also given her favor, but then it was mercilessly taken back.
What else did Josiah say?
Qiaosheng said:
"Blah, I'm leaving, leaving you, and leaving this world.
"I can't let go of you, but I want to leave the world". I can't let go of you, but I hope you are doing well.
Blah, I know you are afraid of loneliness, I can not imagine ...... instead of leaving you to yourself, you should take your hatred for me to start a new life.
依依, whenever the wind whisks through your long hair, it must be me thinking of you in another world.
......
Su Qiaosheng, what I am afraid of, is not to be separated from you for thousands of miles, back to back, but obviously we love each other so much, but you are not beside me ......
end
You see this year on the tree The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty.
Everyone's life, there will be a person, you think with the passage of time he will be slowly taken away, but did not want to think of his appearance but more and more clear, in the years of smoke, more and more profound.
Later, Shen Yi Yi is still a person.
To say that the world's most tortured love, probably waiting.
Some people, some things, know that there will be no result, or to use all the strength, to wait. Perhaps one day, you wait and wait, he will come back.
This summer is very worrying, and the coming winter is even more panic.
This time, just as I miss your appearance.
Su Jiao Sheng, the wind is coming, can you hear it?
The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty.