In the year she turned 43, Zhao Jing decided to have a second child.
In that year, her husband, Wang Xinbo, had just been promoted in his organization and was a real hand. Her daughter, Wang Xichen, is in her senior year at the best high school in the county, with excellent grades, and according to the results of the simulation exams, there is no problem to get a major university. Zhao Jing herself is an elementary school math teacher, because of the attitude of rigorous and responsible, in the years of teaching career has won the praise of students and parents.
The husband's ability, the daughter's understanding, no matter from which point of view, Zhao Jing's family is a model family in the city. But as her daughter's college entrance exams approached, Zhao Jing became anxious. I'm not worried that my daughter won't do well, but I'm worried that their family will be broken up.
The cause was a month ago.
As a result of urbanization, many places have expanded their new towns, and so has the county where their family lives. In order to bring popularity to the new city, the county government moved its office to the new city.
In order to go to work, and in order to be closer to their daughter's school, Mr. and Mrs. Zhao Jing bought a large three-room apartment in the new area and officially moved in a month ago. The move came at a time when Wang Xinbo was in the early stages of his tenure, so Zhao Jing was busy with all the family business. Because of this, Zhao Jing saw Wang Xinbo's diary when he was organizing the clutter.
When he was young, Wang Xinbo was a famous talent in this small town organization, writing reports to the leaders at work, and reading and writing poems at home after work. He was not quite able to drink at that time, and did not like to socialize, his favorite thing is to read the book and write poems of inspiration in the diary, every write a book will be put away, saved a thick pile.
Because of this kind of temperament, at the time of the blind date, Zhao Jing took a glance at him. After the marriage, Wang Xinbo from the diary into a weekly, monthly, and then never saw him write anything.
If it weren't for the move, Zhao Jing would have almost forgotten that her husband was once a literary youth. At that time, she looked at a big box full of books and hesitated whether to throw them away or keep them.
She casually flipped up the top book, trying to find what her husband used to look like. She was a little disappointed when she flipped it open, and it was full of running accounts that looked like her husband's work memos. Just as she was about to close the notebook, she found a very small line on the title page: Rulan, wait until the end of Chenchen's college entrance examination, I will be free.
What does this sentence mean? At first, Zhao Jing didn't understand, but when she read it, she felt a chill on her back, her husband is ready to wait for her daughter to divorce herself after the college entrance examination.
At that moment, she only felt a burst of dizziness, and no longer had the heart to organize any clutter. She lay on the sofa with her eyes closed, and her past life flashed before her eyes like a movie clip.
I relied on having a second child to keep my husband, who wanted a divorce.
In fact, not long after the blind date, the two found each other personality is not suitable.
Wang Xinbo open character, not only love literature, but also love all new things, strong desire to explore. He is a key university in Beijing on the university, during the university business, not only early to realize the economic independence, but also made a big city girlfriend. If it wasn't for the fact that his parents were afraid that his only son would go too far and tricked him into coming back with his life, maybe he would have settled down in Beijing by now.
And Zhao Jing it, from a young age is a good girl, everything is to listen to the family's opinion, in the city to read teacher training is, and Wang Xinbo marriage is also. Such two people would not have come together if their fathers were not extremely close comrades in arms.
In the fathers of the set up, the two together not long after the marriage. After the marriage, they also had a short sweet, then Wang Xinbo is still the unit of the youngest small section, talent has not been recognized by the leadership, do not have to work overtime often, every day there is a large amount of time and Zhao Jing together.
Zhao Jing remembers that the happiest thing is to make dinner with Wang Xinbo. Wang Xinbo was so smart that he could buy a cookbook and make a good meal, but she herself was so clumsy that she could only give him a hand.
After dinner, they will go to the nearby park to walk, when there is no square dancing, the park is very quiet, Wang Xinbo will sometimes tell her about the day job, and sometimes talk about the recent book, she told him that the school of those naughty students to make her have more headaches.
But the sweet days soon passed, can say the words back and forth are almost said, the deeper the topic, Wang Xinbo mentioned, Zhao Jing can not catch. Gradually, in the eyes of Wang Xinbo, Zhao Jing has become a dull and uninteresting woman, he no longer forced himself to fall in love with this kind of people.
Realizing that her husband does not love herself is in the marriage half a year later, Wang Xinbo's ex-girlfriend traveled to the city, in the capacity of old classmates and the couple had a meal. Zhao Jing did not know that the two used to be in a relationship, but saw the clues in their conversation.
They talked so enthusiastically, not only remembering the past, but also talk about each other's current life, many of which Wang Xinbo did not say to Zhao Jing. Looking at her husband's glowing appearance, Zhao Jing was very sad, because the light in his eyes has never shone for himself.
Zhao Jing is not a person who is good at arguing, and after that dinner, she hid her anger towards her husband in her heart. Wang Xinbo, on the other hand, didn't even notice the change in his wife, and only felt that she had become irrational. If not for the discovery of her pregnancy, Zhao Jing would not have known how the cold war would have ended.
2
Because the Wang family has three generations, everyone in the Wang family is full of expectations for the little life in Zhao Jing's belly, Wang Xinbo is even more so, not only to take over the home of the big and small affairs, but also to Zhao Jing, bowing down to the ear, no matter what, Zhao Jing for the first time to experience the feelings of the husband in the heart of the hand.
The first time I saw this, I was able to find a way to get my hands on a new pair of shoes and a new pair of shoes for the first time.
After the birth of the daughter, although the mother-in-law is not very satisfied, but Wang Xinbo is very happy, voluntarily do the daughter slave. From the child's diaper change, feeding milk powder, to the daughter grew up after the school transport, homework counseling is his hands, sometimes Zhao Jing can not stand, that her husband is too much pampering of the daughter.
But because of this, Zhao Jing is no longer worried about having nothing to say to her husband, and her daughter's growth has created an eternal topic for them.
A few years later, when her daughter was in first grade, Zhao Jing was told that Wang Xinbo and a certain woman were very close to each other, and was reminded to keep a close eye on her husband. During that time, Wang Xinbo did go home late every day, according to him, is the superior to check, the unit to work overtime.
But Zhao Jing does not believe that, at that time she and Wang Xinbo have been sleeping in separate beds, few married life, she does not believe that a normal man can have no need, perhaps just not interested in her.
So on a drizzly night, she followed her husband. She saw Wang Xinbo walk into the unit alone, and after two hours, walked out with a young woman, the two talked and laughed, and walked to an intersection and then separated. They didn't do anything out of line, but Zhao Jing saw that light in Wang Xinbo's eyes again, the same way he looked at his ex-girlfriend.
She then inquired about the identity of the woman, her name is Rulan, is a colleague of Wang Xinbo, just joined the workforce not long ago, the two people spend time together, and fell in love over time.
She took the collected information to question Wang Xinbo, I did not expect him to admit it very quickly. He said their marriage was a mistake, and now he wants to correct it. As long as his daughter belongs to him, he can do without anything.
She did not expect her husband to be so frank, not even a word of apology, and thought of these years for him to give birth to children, take care of the elderly, in the end in his eyes but a mistake. She was very indignant and decided not to be so cheap.
On a weekend, Wang Xinbo took his daughter to the zoo, in the most lively tiger garden, his daughter stood on the tiger watching platform, looking at the king of the beasts below, and suddenly said aloud to Wang Xinbo: "Dad, if you dare to divorce my mom, I will jump from here."
Next to the people are surprised to look at the father and daughter, Wang Xinbo also startled. Especially at his daughter's innocent face, his heart a chill. This is still his own daughter? No, at this moment she is a puppet in Zhao Jing's hands.
Wang Xinbo thought right, this is all Zhao Jing taught his daughter. She knows that her husband's weakness is her daughter, so when he is not around, she told her daughter about her husband's intention to find a stepmother for her daughter.
The daughter, who has been favored and pampered since she was a child, naturally refuses to do so when she knows that her father's love will be taken away from her by someone else, which is why she staged the scene at the zoo under Zhao Jing's guidance.
In case his daughter really did something stupid, Wang Xinbo compromised, and he became a good husband and father in the eyes of others, but this incident has always been like a thorn, y rooted in his heart.
Now, the daughter has half a year on the college entrance examination, the end of the college entrance examination, Wang Xinbo no longer have to worry about the impact of the family changes to the daughter, she did not have the control of her husband's weight, do not just watch her husband abandoned the family, to find the so-called "freedom"?
Zhao Jing is not willing.
Zhao Jing is not willing to do so, but at that moment she did not know how to get back to the family, can only silently put her husband's diary, pretending that he never saw it.
3
"Sister, you quickly come to the hospital, our father just fainted at home!" Early in the morning, Zhao Jing received a call from her younger brother Zhao Lei, so anxious that she hurriedly asked for leave from school to rush towards the hospital.
"What's going on?" To the hospital, Zhao Jing saw his father already lying on the hospital bed, hanging drip on his hand.
"The doctor said that our father has the precursor of a stroke, and has prescribed medication, but must still be hospitalized for a few days of observation." Zhao Lei replied.
A few years ago, after the mother's cerebral hemorrhage are father in care, and now the mother has just improved, the father's body collapsed again. It is only in middle age that Zhao Jing feels this pressure of having an old man at the top and a young man at the bottom.
"Right, where is brother-in-law, didn't come with you?" Zhao Lei asked.
"He's on a business trip and won't be back until next week." Mentioning this, Zhao Jing felt aggrieved, Wang Xinbo went out of town on a business trip for a week, and so far not a single phone call has been made to her, but it is her daughter who receives a call from him every night to supervise her studies.
"Then wait for brother-in-law to come back, you let him find an expert in this area for our father, consulting advice, he has such a wide range of contacts, surely know a lot of such people." Zhao Lei said.
"Got it, when he comes back I'll give him a word." Although there is anger in his heart, but Zhao Jing knows that when life needs Wang Xinbo, he never drops the chain, this point is his good.
"I still have something else, I want you to help beg my brother-in-law." Zhao Lei pulled Zhao Jing outside the hospital room and whispered to her.
"What's wrong with you again?" Zhao Jing frowned, this younger brother was never a relief, from school to work to marriage, there was not a single thing that he could handle on his own. If it wasn't for her and Wang Xinbo contributing money and effort, I'm afraid he would have accomplished nothing by now.
"I partnered with a friend to open an advertising company, and I want my brother-in-law to contact some business." Zhao Lei was full of smiles.
"Open a company?" Zhao Jing was taken aback and questioned, "You don't look at your own skills, and learn to open a company, can't you honestly work your shift?"
"On the crap job you found me, only five thousand dollars a month, not enough to eat, not enough to drink, for this, my daughter-in-law is going to divorce me!"
"You still have the face to talk about work, at first to find you a lot of good, you either tired, is too far away from home, for you to change the work of the matter, your brother-in-law and I have been annoyed how much, you are not unaware of, how to do it now and tired of it?" Thinking of her brother's indisputable appearance, Zhao Jing was furious.
"Sister, just help me one more time." Zhao Lei pulled Zhao Jing's arm and begged, "There are so many organizations and units, there must be places that need advertising agencies. As long as my brother-in-law is willing to open his mouth and let me take on a small job of making publicity signs and issuing flyers, this company of ours will be able to do its job."
"Look at our father this way, with the money of the place is still in the future, always let you bear alone, I look also heartache is not. If I make a name for myself this time, and have the money, then you don't have to worry about everything for us."
"You are this mouth is good to hear, one day if I and your brother-in-law divorced, I see you still heart heartache me!" Zhao Jing sneered.
"Look at what you say, brother-in-law is so good to you, and has just been promoted, how could he divorce you." Zhao Lei said.
"What do you know." Zhao Jing expressed helplessness.
Zhao Lei looked at his sister's face and said with a straight face, "Sister, it can't be serious. He Wang Xinbo just promoted and divorced you, this is called ingratitude, I as a brother-in-law the first can not spare him!"
"What are you yelling about!" Zhao Jing hastily heated, "I just casually said, you are serious. See what you can do, you don't rely on him for anything, and you still can't spare him."
But when all is said and done, there is a younger brother's words. She really felt a lot better. To say that the daughter is Wang Xinbo's soft underbelly, this brother is her soft underbelly. In the end, under the brother's soft and hard, she still agreed to his request.
When Wang Xinbo came back, Zhao Jing told him these two things, no surprise, he was very quick to agree. Sometimes Zhao Jing thought, husband and wife for so many years, they are not like lovers, but more like relatives. She, including her family, is dependent on him, and once she leaves him, it will be difficult for her to return to her current life.
4
"Rulan, when Chenchen's college entrance exam is over, I will be free." Wang Xinbo's words always surfaced in her mind from time to time, making her restless, and she was obviously out of shape at work, and gave her students a series of mistakes.
"Ms. Zhao, do you have something going on at home lately?" One day, Zhang Xianliang from the same teaching team asked her.
"No, why do you ask?" Zhao Jing's heart sank.
"I see that you are always dazed these days, like you have something on your mind." Zhang Xianliang said, with a probing look.
"Oh, it's not about Chenchen's grades, this child has been a bit lax in his studies lately." Zhao Jing pulled an impromptu cover.
"In that case, your Chenchen's grades are so good, there's no need for you to worry blindly. Unlike the one in my house, since he went to the first year of high school, he's been thinking about playing games all day long. Saying something like junior high school is too hard, now want to relax and unwind." Zhang Xianliang has a son, two years younger than Zhao Jing's daughter, in the first grade of the city's key high school.
"Boys well, play a little big is normal." Zhao Jing said with a smile.
Suddenly, as if she remembered something, she asked Zhang Xianliang: "I heard before that your daughter-in-law is out of the month, how is she recovering now?"
"Oops, don't mention it. She's recovering well, but it's me who's exhausted every day. I don't know what's going on, she's simply more petulant and strange now than when she was pregnant with her oldest, and last night she said she wanted to eat lychee at ten o'clock or so, causing me to spend most of the night going around the city."
"You are willing ah, I see you do not take this semester class teacher." Zhao Jing said. Since Zhang Xianliang's daughter-in-law gave birth to a second child, Zhang Xianliang has put off his original classroom teacher status.
"It's just too busy." Zhang Xianliang said helplessly, and then he changed his tone: "But busy is busy, every day when I go home and hear my little son babbling and shouting for his father, I feel that how busy is also worth it."
"They say men love their daughters, don't you feel pressured by your two sons now?" Zhao Jing looked at Zhang Xianliang's appearance and said.
"I was worried before I gave birth, I always think it's better to have two sons and two daughters, but when I gave birth, I didn't feel that way, it's like I'm back to being a father for the first time. I don't want anything else now, just want to earn more money in the future, to create a good living conditions for the two children."
Zhang Xianliang's words gave Zhao Jing some kind of revelation, in the country has just opened up the second child, in the mother-in-law's persuasion, Wang Xinbo also mentioned wanting to have a second child, especially the son.
But at that time, Zhao Jing refused because of her age, and Wang Xinbo never mentioned it again. Now she thinks that if she can successfully give birth to a son, not only will she be able to solidify her position in her in-laws' family, but she will also be able to win back Wang Xinbo's heart. On the contrary, this second child if she is not born now, later may be born by other women.
After making up her mind, she first went to the hospital for a physical examination. She called her mother-in-law to go with her, who was very happy to hear that her daughter-in-law was preparing for her second pregnancy, and quickly told Wang Xinbo, who was working, that he should reduce his socializing and come home on time.
Wang Xinbo was surprised to receive the call, and that night after work he did not go out to dinner with friends as usual, but had a long talk with Zhao Jing at home. That night, they spoke the most words since they got married.
Wang Xinbo said he was worried that having a second child at this time would affect his daughter's college entrance exams, while Zhao Jing thought he could let his daughter live in school, which would be conducive to her studies on the one hand, and on the other hand, she wouldn't be able to easily find out that she was pregnant. Wang Xinbo also said that Zhao Jing is old and worried that her body will not be able to cope. The company's main goal is to provide the best possible service to its customers," he said.
Wang Xinbo wanted to say something else, but everything he said seemed to Zhao Jing to be just an excuse to get away from her, and in turn she was more convinced that if she had another child, Wang Xinbo would never leave her.
She secretly went to her mother-in-law's house without Wang Xinbo's knowledge and cried that Wang Xinbo didn't want a son. She said that the Wang family has three generations of single heir, if she did not give him a son, then the Wang family will be extinct, her mother-in-law can no longer hold grandchildren. She knelt down and told her mother-in-law that she was sorry and that she was incapable of persuading her husband.
Her mother-in-law was infected by her, and like when she forced Wang Xinbo to return to the county seat, she tried again to make him give birth to a child. Wang Xinbo is a very important filial piety people, this time he gave in again. He let his daughter to focus on learning in the name of her to do the residential school, but also ended a few years of life in separate beds, the two slept together again.
Because the results of the pre-pregnancy physical examination were not very satisfactory, Zhao Jing paid a lot of attention to preparing for pregnancy this time. The first time I saw this, I was able to see the woman's face, and I was able to see her face, and I was able to see her face, and I was able to see her face, and I was able to see her face, and I was able to see her face. Soon after, Zhao Jing got pregnant. The whole family is very happy, except for Wang Xinbo.
But Zhao Jing, who thought she had control over her husband again, had no time to pay attention to his emotions, and now her main task is to prepare for pregnancy and wait for the birth.
5
It's true that the years have not been kind to her, and she didn't expect her second child to be so hard. She remembers that when she was pregnant with her oldest child, except for the first three months when she had a hard time with the pregnancy, the rest of the time she was like nothing, she ate and drank. The labor went smoothly, and her daughter came out not long after she entered the delivery room.
And this time, it has been more than five months, or often pregnancy vomit, what things into the mouth on the taste. The mother-in-law has been making soup and cooking for her all day long, but she has no appetite at all. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots, and you'll be able to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots.
Compared to her mother-in-law, Wang Xinbo's performance makes Zhao Jing less satisfied. Although he took the initiative to hire a nanny for her, he did not pay attention to her. And not long after she was pregnant, he used the reason that his snoring would affect the rest of the pregnant woman, and she slept in a separate room again.
Then he simply to the office as a home, not only is always very late to go home not to mention, after returning home to Zhao Jing is also ignored, either head down to play the phone, or directly into the bedroom and close the door to sleep. Zhao Jing knows that he has anger in his heart, but she pretends not to care, she thinks that when the child is born, all this will change for the better.