In 2004, a network song called "Lilac Flower" moved China. The author and singer of the song, named Tang Lei, is a network singer in Shenzhen, and the major media have hailed him as "China's second 'bottom-up' red star after Knife Lang". However, do you know that behind this song, there is a more poignant story than the lilac flower -
"What a delicate flower, but can not hide from the wind and rain"
Zeng Mengjie is a girl who suffered a bitter fate. On January 26, 1984, she was born in Taishun Town, Wenzhou City, Zhejiang Province, and her father died shortly after she landed. She had a weak constitution since childhood and soon became very sick. Her mother had no choice but to send her to her uncle's home in Dazhou, Sichuan Province. After a hospital examination, Mengjie had a serious pneumonia complicated by abscesses, although the rescue saved the life of a small, but part of the right lung was necrotic.
From then on, my uncle adopted this bitter little girl. She called her father "Dad" and her mother "Mom". Every member of the family cares for Mengjie. She had to take many kinds of medicine every day, in her own words, "bucket after bucket". In this way, she was fed "bucket after bucket" until she was 12 years old.
In the summer of 1996, my brother went home to see a teacher at my alma mater and was caught in a thunderstorm. The older brother called home to ask for an umbrella. When Mengjie found out, he rushed into the pouring rain with his umbrella. Unexpectedly, the rain pushed Mengjie to the brink of death. That night, she coughed non-stop, spitting up blood when she coughed, and fainted when she coughed. Her family immediately sent her to Chengdu to save her life, and her right lung was lobotomized, making her a disabled person.
By that time, Mengjie was already in junior high school at Dazhou No. 1 Middle School, and knew exactly what was happening to her. She also learned about her own life by chance. At first she despaired and mourned for a while, but as time went on she took life lightly. She knew she would not live long. She was originally a quiet girl who spent most of her time in the sea of books under the careful care of her mother.
Mengjie only went to school for half a day every day, but her grades were surprisingly good, not for anything else, but for her "mom and dad" to live up to the grace of their upbringing. As for the university, she said: "I'm this kind of life and death of the body, the light of the physical examination can not pass, but also talk about what test or not?" This congenital loss makes her often stand on the balcony for long periods of time, her ghostly gaze always wet.
Especially after the results of her routine checkup in Chengdu on August 5, 2002, Mengjie became even more reticent. Her chronic illness had affected her heart, and she knew that "that day" was coming, and she could already hear the ticking of the countdown to life.
Dad and mom planned to send her to Beijing for treatment, but she strongly disagreed. "The company's website is a great source of information about the company's products and services, and the company's website. Why do you refuse to be treated?" "Mom" asked. "You want to force me to cure, I will die!" The family didn't dare to say anything, in fact, everyone understands Xiao Mengjie's good intentions: she doesn't want to trouble the family any more.
The last days of Mengjie's life were as long as the horizon, when she couldn't go to school and had to stay at home.
Brother loved his sister very much, and Mengjie's illness was the biggest pain in his heart. Every time he came home from vacation, he didn't dare to face his sister's grudging eyes. His sister was so talented and loving, but there was no future - she was dying.
He wanted to do something for his sister to make her forget about her illness and death.
On September 4, 2002, his brother bought Mengjie a computer with the money he earned from his summer job. He told his sister, "There's a colorful world in here, go in and take a look."
"What a melancholy flower, what a sentimental person"
Mengjie became an Internet user. Perhaps it was fate that she clicked on the Bikai Yinsha Voice Network for the first time, and came to the famous "Voice of Beautiful Writings" recitation hall. There are a lot of recitation artists and enthusiasts here, and many writers and poets also have columns here. The company's website is a great source of information about the company's products and services, and the company's website is a great source of information about the company's products and services, and the company's services.
Mengjie met Tang Lei by chance. At that time, Tang Lei had already graduated from the Shandong Institute of Building Materials Industry and was assigned to work for the Shenzhen Water Group. He used his spare time to engage in music creation and performance, is a netizen in the very influential network singer. one day in October 2001, inadvertently, he came to the "voice of the United States", casually took a screen name "snow flying flowers" into the. Coincidentally, Mengjie was there, and his screen name immediately caught her attention. Mengjie thought "Falling Snow Flying Flowers" was so beautiful, and immediately exclaimed: "Your name is so poetic! It's so light and elegant, and the meaning is superb!"
Tang Lei was naturally pleased. He probably wanted to test her and deliberately asked, "Why? Where is the poetic expression? Where is the lightness? Where is the moral?"
Mengjie smiled faintly and narrated, "Song people have the words 'snow resembles plum blossom, plum blossom resembles snow, resembling and not resembling are both strange and wonderful'. From the poetic leveling, falling snow flying flowers, oblique leveling, read the voice clear, clear and strong staccato, can shake the heart, good to hear! From the meaning of the word, this name makes people's reverie flutter, good intention!"
Tang Lei immediately froze, half a day back to God. He naturally understood that there were a lot of people on the Internet, but there had never been one who analyzed his pseudonym as Mengjie did. He looked at Mengjie and wanted to say hello, but he couldn't find the right words.
Mengjie spoke again: "I really like this kind of sentiment - it's so poignant. Flying down a snowflake, held in the hand, to be wanted to look at, early into a drop of glittering water droplets. Let a person's heart palpitates, let a person's heart hurt."
Since then, Mengjie and Tang Lei have become friends without words.
On one occasion, Mengjie chatted with Tang Lei about her favorite flowers. She said her favorite flower was lilac, but Tang Lei was not convinced. Mengjie told him that it was a small purple flower, very beautiful, symbolizing love. Spinning around, Tang Lei said, "Why don't you give yourself a screen name and call it Lilac."
The words woke up Mengjie at once. In her life, there would often be a dream in which a beautiful little white pony would appear and keep calling her. The pony ran all the way through the world, hoofing it westward in the sunset, its final destination a cemetery full of lilacs. This makes the name "lilac" has a layer of poignant meaning. She loved the name from the bottom of her heart.
From then on, Mengjie became a lilac with a beautiful sadness in the cyber world.
The lilac became an expectation in Tang Lei's heart. He came to "Voice of Beautiful Writings" almost as soon as he had time, and when he saw Clove, a warmth surged in his heart.
But he didn't realize that Clove was a terminally ill patient, a dying person listening to the countdown of her life. He still joked and joked with Clove, making her laugh out loud with delight. In fact, her smile was forced, when the pain was unbearable, cold sweat dripped from her pale face, but still hung a hard smile. In fact, Clove fainted to in front of the computer many times and coughed up blood on the keyboard many times.
Tang Lei also couldn't figure out Clove, obviously talking, but suddenly coughed and then inexplicably disappeared. Once, Tang Lei is very unhappy, a record company said he signed with him, but suddenly changed his mind, so that he heart "dark day". He gave Clove said a lot of grievances, the end also even asked a dozen "why". Clove has been smiling after listening to his words, did not say anything, just give him a poem called "everything grateful": "grateful to hurt you, because he honed your mind; grateful to trip you, because he strengthened your legs; grateful to deceive you, because he enhanced your wisdom; grateful to scorn you, because he awakened your self-esteem; grateful to abandon you, because he was a man, because he was a man, and he was a man. the one who abandons you, for he teaches you that you should be independent. Be grateful in all things, learn to be grateful, and be grateful to all those who make you grow!"
After reading this poem, as if a ray of sunshine passed through the window pane, Tang Lei's heart became much more enlightened. He suddenly had a desire to meet this wonderful woman like "lilac". He quickly asked her where she was. Clove cackled: "I'm on the Internet." Tang Lei could not help, and asked: "How old are you?" "As old as you think I am." "Then you're an old woman, 80 years old."
The words silenced Clove for a long time. In front of the computer, she was already in tears, she really wanted to live to be 80, even if she lived half of it, but fate wouldn't give her such a long time anymore. Doctors asserted that she could not live past the age of 20.
In the later contact, Tang Lei obviously felt that this girl is not ordinary. Often when talking on the phone, she would suddenly stop talking. Tang Lei waited for a long time, qq sent countless, uc also sent countless, still no reply. And her qq and uc never went offline, still brightly placed there.
Tang Lei vaguely felt that something big had happened. After this, for a long time Clove did not appear online, she was like a gust of wind inexplicably disappeared.
During this period, Tang Lei's singing creation has gradually gained momentum. in October 2003, he represented Shenzhen to participate in the national campus music pioneer original song competition, but also in Shenzhen rain music restaurant held a concert of personal works, there has been a record company frequently and his contact.
"That grave full of flowers, is how you long for the beauty of ah"
January 27, 2004, Clove suddenly sent Tang Lei a greeting on the Internet, embarrassed to ask where he was.
Tang Lei was in Beijing at the time, recording a new song in a studio.
"I want to meet you." Tang Lei thought it was strange, and busily asked her where she was.
"I'm at Beijing University Hospital." Clove was in Beijing? And in the hospital? An ominous feeling surged to Tang Lei's heart, and he hurriedly asked, "Are you sick?"
"You see me, everything is clear." Afterwards, Tang Lei realized that Ding Xiang came to Beijing specifically to find him. Originally, she disagreed with her dad and mom to send her to Beijing for treatment, later, she heard that Tang Lei went to Beijing to record a song, she then obeyed her dad and mom.
Meeting in the ward overflowing with lilacs, there was no embrace, no intimate greetings, and no shyness when they first met, they shook hands like old friends after a long time. Clove's pale face hung a faint smile, her eyes were beautiful, her gaze was clear. Tang Lei looked at her, mixed feelings, his heart has a thousand words, but do not know where to start.
The mom of Clove quietly told Tang Lei that Clove is not working.