Zen Ming, summer comes, rosebuds bloom.
Walking on the flower-filled streets, I wrapped Gu Nan Ye's arm and asked, "Ye, do you love me?"
"Love."
"How much love?"
"A lot of love."
"How much love is a lot of love?"
He gazed away, and for a moment there was sadness.
Reaching out, he touched my head, and silence was golden.
I always tirelessly pestered him with these boring questions, and he, for the last one, silence is always golden.
So, I never knew how much he loved when he said he loved very much.
He is the lead singer of an unknown band in the city.
The first time I saw him, it was in the square of the small town.
He was singing Jay Chou's "Green Porcelain".
The sky is green and other smoke and rain, and I am waiting for you, cooking smoke curls up, haloed the ending .......
Good sound, with good words, I fell into his smoky eyes at once.
This small city, there is such a stunning person!
The South has a beautiful woman, absolute and independent, a smile pouring people city, two smile pouring people country.
But a glance, will fall.
Two
He occasionally sang in the square, more often than not, in the bar.
Wherever he sang, I was the most enthusiastic audience.
The bar is very crowded and noisy, and I've been to it a lot, and I've been told off.
Oh yes, I am a teacher, responsible for preaching and teaching.
I don't know who reported me to the principal, saying that I was a bar hostess, and that I would be a bad influence on my students if I didn't go to the bar every day.
The principal of the school talked to me and told me to clean up my act and cherish my work.
I don't steal, I don't rob, how can I not be clean?
I nodded in the principal's office and said I would pay attention, out of the school gate, or what to do.
The bar where Nan Ye resides is famous in the small town, and often there are students who sneak over to play.
When they meet, they look at each other with wide eyes, and they call out to the teacher with a smart face, which attracts a lot of attention.
One by one, the whole school knows that I am in love with the bar singer Gu Nan Ye.
The principal warned again, "Su Qiang, you do not want to work?"
I burned my eyes and asked, "Who says teachers can't fall in love?"
The principal choked.
"Three hundred and sixty lines, line of work, I fell in love with the singer, what's wrong!"
"There is nothing wrong with falling in love, but, if you are so high-profile and publicized, it is wrong."
"Okay, okay, okay, then I'll just keep a low profile."
The principal is old-fashioned, can not be hard, I decisively lowered my posture.
"With your strength, this year could have been assessed as an outstanding teacher, but, you now have a bad reputation, I see, this thing is hanging." The principal began to bully.
The woman in love, the head is always long grass, not to mention an excellent teacher, even if the principal's seat to me, my choice, but also only Gu Nan Ye.
The first time I saw this, I was in the middle of a long journey, and it was a long time coming.
This is the first time I've ever seen a man who was in love with Gu Nan Ye, and I've never seen a man who was in love with Gu Nan Ye before.
The shallow pond with mandarin ducks playing in the water, the red dress and green cover and lotus bloom, every day, as if it can bloom flowers.
Three
I have always felt that such a small town will not be able to keep Gu Nan Ye.
I didn't think that the hidden worries would come true.
The first step is to get to the top of the list, and then to the top of the list, and then to the top of the list, and then to the top of the list, and then to the top of the list, and so on.
I'm happy for them that they've finally made it this far.
The night before they left, they sang again in a small town square.
With the elderly, children, as the main audience of the square, Gu Nan Ye sang a Xu Mei Jing's "Border 1999"
"After parting, how to face the lonely millennium, every day, carved with heavy thoughts.
Saying goodbye, the last glimpse in this dreamland, sobriety makes me split and split again."
All around a noise, children's screams, the old man's conversation, a wave over a wave, I fixedly looked at the stage singing people, tears unknowingly will paste a face.
"Maybe after the nightmare sleep, maybe miss the joy of tomorrow.
Perhaps the sun abandoned this cold and bitter forest, as if, without you my night."
From then on it was, my night without you.
The next day, I didn't go to see them off.
I was afraid that I would burst into tears, and even more so, I was afraid that I would do everything to go with him.
I was afraid that I would cry, and even more so, I was afraid that I would do everything to go with him.
I was afraid that I would cry.
But I can not.
I am not Gu Nan Ye, carrying a guitar, can go wandering.
I am Su Qiang, have to take care of the old and sick mother, have to earn money to support the family to cure.
I'm not the only one who can use my youth to spend money, but I can't.
I'm not the only one who can use my youth to spend money.
I know, this is the reason why I am incredibly obsessed with Gu Nan Ye.
I know that's why I'm obsessed with Gu Nan Ye.
What he has, I don't have.
Four
After the parting, how to face the lonely thousand years, every day, carved with heavy thoughts.
Gu Nan Ye a prophecy.
Every day after passing through the square of the small town, I wandered for a long time, not willing to leave.
Missing, is a breathing pain, humming the song you love will hurt, read your letter will hurt, even the silence also hurts.
The pain is so great that I've gotten used to it.
Every day, I try to go to class, substitute class, make up class, and earn money.
In addition to the money that my mother had to spend on food and medical care, the rest of the money was not spent, but was used to take the train.
The airplane is too expensive, can not afford to sit, every week to take more than ten bells of the train, to see Gu Nan Ye.
Gu Nan Ye is very busy.
All kinds of performances, night and day.
Many times, I have to stand under the stage and watch one of his performances, and then I have to take the train back again.
Late at night, I came by train, as if it was to meet and love you and then separated.
You tore down the walls, let me go wandering, but I can only be in the same place, to tie themselves up.
It's very tiring, but I'm happy with it.
Where is tomorrow, I do not want to think, as long as there is your place, is heaven.
Gu Nan Ye more and more unruly, will be on the stage, the moment of public attention, to show me love.
The breeze ripples the long hair, thousands of trees, are that pear blossom open!
As long as he loves me, even if it is thousands of miles away from each other, as long as I love him, even if I have to travel thousands of miles, there is no harm.
Who's youth, not a love of water?
The grass, in its seeds,
The wind, in the shake of its leaves,
I, just like this look at you, has been very beautiful!
Five
I'm not afraid of suffering, I'm not afraid of being tired, but I'm only afraid of my mother getting sick.
Her body is getting worse and worse, every time her head is spinning, bedridden, but the doctor can not find the reason.
I was not able to take care of her, I could not go anywhere.
When my mother was in good spirits, she would always ask, "Chance, are you still dating the singer?
I nodded my head, my face full of sadness.
I nodded my head with a saddened look on my face.
I don't know if I'm still in a relationship when I don't see her once every six months.
Just, really miss ah, deep into the marrow, can not see, can not forget.
"For so long, he did not come back to see you, Xiao Qiang, you in his heart, largely compared to his career, I am very worried, I want to watch you get married and have children, you complete, I can rest assured ah!"
What is true love like? I'm busy, but I'm always available to you.
I understand, just, love to me, not skin to skin, not a vegetable and a dish, but inhibit can not suppress a desire.
I can't make myself stop loving him.
"Mom, you do not think too much, get well, I will take care of myself."
"Xiao Qiang, you are stubborn, even if you hit the south wall, you refuse to turn back, but how can it be good?" Mother's face was sad.
"Sons and daughters have their own destiny, mom you collapse worry." I pulled the quilt for her and went out of the room.
The cold moon, hanging high, outside the window, the night is as cold as ice.
I wrapped my clothes and sat silently all night.
I have been waiting, I have been waiting, even if Gu Nan Ye came back once.
But, he just did not come back once.
The first time I saw this, I was able to see it in the back of my head, and I was able to see it in the back of my head.
The first thing you need to know is how much you want to be in love with the people you love.
The first time I saw this, it was a very good thing that I was able to see it.
The next day, I entrusted a good person to take care of my mother, and I got on the train to B city.
Gu Nan Ye, since you refuse to come to me, then, let me go close to you.
Six
Full of wind and frost, after half a year, finally arrived here again.
I stood at the door of his dormitory and hesitated to knock.
His teammate, Cheng, pushed open the door and saw me.
I smiled brightly at him, "Where's Gu Nan Ye?"
He didn't smile back or answer, torn in pain.
"Where is Gu Nan Ye?" I asked again.
He took a deep breath and finally spoke, "He doesn't live here anymore?"
"Then, where does he live?"
"Xiao Qiang, Ye brother he ......, anyway, you don't come in the future."
Surprisingly, he swallowed his words.
"Why don't I come? Where is he?" I raised my voice.
"Yeh, he's with someone else, that woman has money, she'll help us with our records, she'll promote us, you know, nowadays, if there's no packaging, no promotion, it's useless to sing as well as you can, you understand?"
He roared out in a gulp.
I just feel a gust of cold wind, through the chest and through the dragon, the dragon flies, all my internal organs are chopped up, fell to the ground, blood flow, can not bear to see.
A lot of love, a lot of love, is how much love?
The words of love, just once in a while to honor the lie, in front of the reality, worthless.
I stumbled, walked out, reached out and stopped the car, went straight to the station.
He's so talented, it's only natural that he'd be liked.
It's a shame that he's so talented and good-looking, and he's not popular.
Now, finally, there is a person who is willing to support him, he did not seize, is too stupid.
I don't blame him, not at all.
People like him will never belong to the ordinary, never belong to the small town.
Perhaps, I have long been vaguely aware of this day, which is why I am so obsessed with knowing how much love he said he loved very much.
The reality is finally in front of us, broken and full of scars.
Seven
From then on, he went his way, I went my way, the end of the world, on the poor, not related to each other.
My mother's illness, sometimes good, sometimes bad, I was in the classroom, while taking care of her, while moving from city to city, searching for medicine.
God willing, I finally found the root cause of the disease.
I borrowed money from all over the world to give my mother an operation, and when she finished, she recovered and was discharged from the hospital.
It's been three years since then.
I quit my job at the school and went to B-town.
Not to find Gu Nan Ye, but, in order to earn money.
The first time I saw this, I was in the middle of a long journey, and it was a long time before I was able to pay for it.
The first time I saw this, I was in a big city, and there were more opportunities to earn money.
Before leaving the house, my mother was in tears, "Xiaoqiang, it's my mom who dragged you down."
"Mom, you are healthy, wait for me at home, I will let you enjoy." I smiled and said goodbye to him.
If I am not strong, who can I be weak to.
No matter what, as long as you are there, it is a sunny day.
I work during the day, part-time at night, white clouds, the sea of change.
My days, in addition to earning money, or earning money.
It's not that I don't miss Gu Nan Ye.
Just miss and how?
Life has long been full of holes, and I have long been no longer the original me.
Love is hidden in the bottom of the heart, easily refused to touch.
Did he make it big?
I do not know.
I don't know. I've been in B-town for a long time, but I haven't heard anything from him.
The two of us, in the end, are not destined to be together.
Eight
The work slowly took off, and gradually got the leadership's appreciation, the end of the year, but also was evaluated as an excellent employee, was rewarded with two concert tickets.
I went to the concert with my friends.
Standing on the stage, looking at the stage of their passionate performance, the thoughts are so broken out of the cocoon, surging to, can not resist.
I thought I would forget him, I thought I had almost forgotten him, but, this familiar sound of the piano, full of brains, is his shadow.
How strong you have to be to be able to remember!
I left the crowd, ran to the backstage bathroom, and let the tears pour out.
The tears are not enough, and I don't want to miss them anymore.
I left the restroom with my eyes red and swollen, and then I saw a déjà vu figure.
I took two steps forward and grabbed him, it was Shing.
"You, why are you here?" We were both too surprised to speak in unison.
"I came to see the concert. How about you? There's a show?"
He sighed, "I stopped going on stage a long time ago, I'm behind the scenes now."
Oh ......
"Well, what about Gu Nan Ye?"
Inwardly entangled for a million times, finally gently opened his lips, as if the clouds lightly asked this out.
"Ye brother, he went north, I have not seen him for a long time, since he left, the band has been disbanded, he still wants to go to break through, but, I think it's too far from home, and also, the age of the river and mountain generations of talented people out of ah, engaged in this line of work, it is very easy to be the last wave of the dead on the beach!" A city is very sigh.
I was silent for a long time, actually speechless.
"Gu Nan Ye, later did not with that woman together?"
"That big sister out of the money, to us to pour a record, but, sales are not good, did not red up, and then, that big sister failed to invest, and did not care about us anymore."
Said here, his phone rang.
He glanced at it and apologized, "Xiao Qiang, we will contact then, I have something now, have to go over first."
He said, waved his hand at me, picked up the phone and jogged away.
I was stunned in my original position, and my heart was desolate.
I've always wanted to know how you are doing, and I finally know, but it's like this, and I'm looking for a dream?
The first thing I want to do is to find out what is going on in the world.
On the weekend, I went to all the video stores and bookstores, and finally found the record that Ah Cheng said.
In the corner, the photo of his side face is still so stunning.
In a flash, I was shocked.
I bought it back and locked it in a drawer, along with that period of time.
Cicadas, summer, rosebuds.
The time when I loved you y.
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The first time in life, secretly fragrant, believe in the good, write love.
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