When I was a child, my father said that white tea was an angel that fell to earth. Because Acha brought luck, they had me as a child.
A tea is very good-looking, clear eyebrows, small face, thin lips, face Wen, even speak very softly.
I really suspected that he was an angel sent by God to apprentice on earth, looking up to my kind, sincere and easy-going brother, being loved and protected by him was the luckiest and happiest thing for me.
After the death of my parents for some reason, it was Acha who provided for me from the second grade until I went to college.
However, I didn't know anything about his job.
They are the first to have a good understanding of the world of work, and they are the first to have a good understanding of the world of work, and they are the first to have a good understanding of the world of work.
A tea said, if the mailbox in front of the door don't have a white camellia, I will go to the library to study, or go to other places that can take me temporarily, and then go home at 11:00 pm.
That was our agreement.
I didn't know the reason, or rather, I was at peace with it, enjoying the sound of his voice and his orders that were too gentle to be commands.
As I wished, I got into a prestigious university in God's capital and went to school in that city.
Acha was the happiest one. Of course, there was no one else to celebrate with us as brothers.
The first thing I did after going to college was to find a part-time job to relieve Cha's burden. When I got my first paycheck, I went straight to the bank to withdraw cash, and then put it in my bag, bought a ticket to go home on the weekend, and wanted to give Ah Cha a surprise.
He would be so happy to see me.
When I arrived home at night, I saw a white camellia flower pinned to the mailbox with the green paint peeling off. This meant that tonight I would have to squat outside again like a hobo until eleven o'clock and then come back.
It was an agreement between us, and I had to keep it.
But tonight is unusually rebellious, I do not want to wait, I want to know, in the end, why, from the time he was sixteen years old, to today, almost ten years, are like this. In the past, I was busy studying, what Acha said, I listened to. Now, I grew up.
The old neighborhood is dilapidated and the soundproofing is not very good. Sometimes you can hear footsteps going up and down the stairs. Our house was on the sixth floor, the top floor, and we were the only family.
I carefully climbed up to the sixth floor, the doorway is broken on the ground of the white camellia, a few of the petals can be seen had been roughly stepped on.
Acha is a gentle man, he would even pick the flowers back, as if he had a reserved angel, and put it - into a beautiful vase.
The door was left open, and as my hand touched the knob, I suddenly heard a commotion inside.
The sound of whipping - beating, the sound of men's gasps - came through the crack of the door.
I was about to break in, when I suddenly heard a strange man inside say, "You can you're a natural meat-bian-ware, wait for it, I'll let go of the water and come back to hurt you properly!"
Then I heard the sound of the door opening and the sound of urine hitting the water from the bathroom.
I was stunned, but very calm.
When I was little, Cha would always hold me and coax me when I was frightened. In fact, I am cold in nature, even if I am shocked, I will not show it on my face. If I now show that I am frightened, will Ah Cha rush out to embrace me, patting my back and gently saying, "Don't be afraid, brother is there, brother to protect you."
It was all in my imagination.
The bedroom was next door to the bathroom, and I couldn't convince myself that this man was just a burglar.
I heard what they were saying, and I knew what that meant. I even, Shaw thought, flipped my brother ...... the bird ......
Strong curiosity drove me to open that door. After hiding my school bag with my paycheck in it, I catapulted inside like a thief.
The bedroom door was wide open and what met my eyes was Acha's dong-body, blindfolded by a black cloth, with her hands and feet spread wide and handcuffed to the four corners of the bed.
At this moment I understood everything, or rather, I already knew. He has no job, but has the money to support me. So it is so, so it is so ......
I frowned tightly, but my eyes are fixed on my brother, miserable ravaged but very beautiful body - body.
No, not now!
My remaining rationality forced me back to reality.
Grabbing the baseball bat that stood in the doorway, I went into the bathroom.
It was an endowed man, in his mid-thirties. Naked, pissing away, whistling like a tart peacock on an animal program with a successful courtship, showing off his feats at all hours.
With a grimace, I smothered him with a stick and he fell to the ground with a thud.
"What's wrong?" Cha's gentle voice came from the bedroom, "Did you fall?"
Of course there was no way anyone would answer him.
I tied the bitch up and stuffed my mouth with a ball of socks I grabbed from the side of my messy but expensive leather shoes by the door.
Stepping softly into the bedroom, Cha seemed to sense someone. Legs struggled and chains clanked.
Acha's legs are very long, white skin, like a girl's legs. He himself does not know, in the past when I took a bath with him, I realized that the skin on Acha's body is tender and watery.
His waist is also very beautiful, without a trace of flab, often running, mermaid line obvious.
He also looks like a girl, or rather, more beautiful than a girl.
The first time I had a dream, it wasn't a girl in my class, it was my brother, Ah Cha.
After that, I realized that I was not normal, but I didn't tell this secret to anyone, including Ah Cha, my dearest brother, my dream lover.
There was also a small red leather - whip on the table, but there were no whipping marks on Ah Cha. It seemed the man was just wielding it for fun - they hadn't done anything yet, or rather, they hadn't gotten around to doing anything yet.
Luckily I got back early - but what about before that!
I sneered silently, my heart feeling like it was hooked on a fishhook.
Why didn't I know that Cha liked to play this kind of game
Looking around, I finally found the key in the corner of the bed. I unlocked the anklet that locked him in place.
The white ankles were strangled with red marks, and holding his thin but very sexually - sensual ankles, for the first time, I had the urge to kill someone.
"What happened, how did it come undone?" Acha withdrew his legs from my hands, curling them up and together, his whole body moving upwards.
I walked out, stripping naked in the living room before reaching him again without a sound.
Kneeling down on Cha's side, I caressed his face.
In these ten years, he is practicing himself like this?
A tea, I would rather not go to school, and with you to bear all the things!
No, Cha, you didn't have to do so much for me.
You're not my brother, why are you practicing so much
I've been pretending to be blind just so I can stay by your side, acting like a dude, enjoying everything you give me without any conscience or awareness.
You know what, Cha? I love you, I love you! I won't allow anyone to belittle you, including yourself!
But why did you betray me?
Why did you let those rotten, rotten men trash your body!
Why did you let those rotten men trample on your body, and why did you do it with another man in the bed that belonged to both of us?
A tea, a tea, a tea!
The resentment in my heart burned up like a flame, out of control.
I kissed Ah Cha's lips, but Ah Cha dodged, even a little angry, "I said, except for kissing, you can do anything, if you do not want to, I will return the money to you, the deal is canceled."
Pinching his chin and ignoring his resistance, I kissed him again.
Since I don't like kissing other people, will I be the first?
I can't believe such a vision exists.
"Hiss!" Acha bit me, my thumb wiped away the blood stains on the corner of my mouth, I looked at his half-clean face under the black cloth, leaned over to read the rules of posting, and found that it hadn't passed the review ...... pulling the lights ......
Looking at his sleeping and still gentle face, I was surprised to have a kind of treacherous scheme I'm so proud of myself.
After years of delusion, now go into the fire - the devil, who is to blame
Brother, blame you, it is your fault.
Who let you so kind, so gentle, all the time is not attracted to me. Like a poison - pin general, full of mystery, jin - taboo feeling, let a person can not restrain want to get close to, addicted to - will not be able to extricate themselves from, since the beginning of the sinking.
I have long been in deep.
There was a sound in the bathroom before I got up, dressed, and printed a kiss on Acha's forehead to see the strange man.
He was awake, face toward the toilet, humming "mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Judging by the profile of his face, he should be okay.
This reason can alleviate the guilt in my heart.
I think I might have just killed him if he was mean looking.
"Don't ever come back here again." I crouched down and took the knife and made three cuts on his back, "Don't look for this man again either, and if I find out you're in contact with him again, I'll kill your whole family! Rape your wife and child, chop you up and throw you into the sea to feed the fish!"
He banged his head against the toilet, I knew he was resisting but I didn't want to pay attention to him and let him bleed from the bump on his forehead, "Don't try the patience of a psychopath."
I warned him.
With those words, I slid a knife gently across his neck, not hurting an artery, just scratching the epidermis.
I went downstairs and threw the scumbag who had insulted my brother next to the trash can.
Brother, if it wasn't almost dawn, and the dawn would drive out the night, and you would see my true colors, I would have embraced you all along.
After cleaning up for my brother, I kissed him on the lips again.
I actually wished that I could have kept mine inside him longer, like a personal marker, the longer it stayed, the longer it meant that he was only mine.
I straightened up my attire, took the white camellias on the mailbox, and walked out into the darkness, in a mood - pleasant.
The next morning, there was a knock on the door, and Tea opened it for me with a smile, as if nothing had happened.
I was half a head taller than him, and from the top down, I could see the red marks in his turtleneck bottoms.
"Brother." I smiled and hugged him, like always.
"It's Sunday, you have to leave tonight if you come back, will you make it?" Acha hugged me back.
So warm, such a favorite hug.
"Next time you come home, tell me first, so I can buy food and make something delicious for you." Cha made me a cup of tea.
I saw the tea leaves slowly unfolding, like elves floating in the water, full of spirituality, lovingly inseparable, like my brother and me.
"Brother, why don't you come with me to the imperial capital? I'll raise you." I said.
"Why are you suddenly talking about this?" Ah Cha smiled, and the sunlight slid over his face, so soft that it was like warm white jade.
"My brother is omnipotent."
Ah Cha reached out to touch my head and laughed, "My brother hasn't even graduated from high school, what kind of job can he find when he goes to the imperial capital? It's better to wait until you graduate, find a good job, settle down over there, or stabilize, brother will come back to you." Saying that, he denied himself again, "You will still have a girlfriend, get married, and have a child in the future. By then, you'll be a drag to bring a brother with you, so it's better to forget about it. My brother has his own life, and when you're stable, I'll end it all and go live the life I want."
I was silent, the life my brother wanted, what would it be like.
Inside, would it be me?
What does he mean by that, am I not in his plans
No, I have to be in his life, his future has to be all mine!
At two in the morning, Cha drove me to the station.
He kept smiling faintly, but I knew he was bitter in his heart. Maybe he wanted to follow me, but he couldn't say it out loud.
I excused myself to go to the bathroom and secretly wept in the cubicle. If I had grown up a little more and been a little more capable, wouldn't Cha not have had to suffer so much?
"Asheng?" Ah Cha knocked on the door outside, "Although there is still half an hour before the bus departs, but you have come in for ten minutes, I'm a little worried about you, your stomach is not feeling well, why don't you return the ticket, we will go to the hospital first?"
I opened the door and pulled him in, smoothly pressing him against the recently closed door panel.
He froze slightly, then reached out to probe my forehead, and I pressed his head down and kissed him.
Surprisingly, he didn't resist, but responded to me with a strong reaction.
I kissed him until he fainted, and then I let go of him.
Noses touched each other, and I wrapped my arms around his waist - limbs, "Brother, I won't have a girlfriend, I don't like women, of course, I like men even less. The person I like is you, why don't you come with me? I can support you, I have that ability now!"
"No, you have no idea what kind of person I really am." He avoided my eyes.
I cupped his chin and broke his face, not to be denied, "Look at me, I know what kind of person you are and I don't mind. Brother, get out of here, let's start over, start over with a new life, okay?"
"You really know what kind of person I am you really don't mind even if I am dirty and lowly" Ah Cha's soft eyes flooded with tears, "Ah Shing, you think too simple."
I saw my brother cry for the first time, beautiful people, even crying is a showy declining sun, I see pity.
"Brother, I love you." I cried and kissed him, shouting over and over again, "I love you, brother. Brother, brother ......"
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Six years later, the Imperial Capital.
Ah Cha likes to eat light things, so I picked some fresh vegetables and fruits in the supermarket. There are new white camellias on the flower rack, one of them is in full bloom, white and pure.
Bring it back, Ah Cha will love it.
In the parking lot, I suddenly met an acquaintance from a few years ago.
"Ah Shing is it?" The man wrinkled his eyebrows and walked away from a Lamborghini.
It was a mature man full of aristocratic aura, with a clear silhouette, a tall figure, and an extraordinary temperament.
This time I got a good look at him, and although it was only a one-sided meeting, I remembered him.
Almost became a dead soul under my knife.
Closing the car door, I pretended I didn't recognize him.
"Is your brother okay?" The man was relentless in his pursuit, knocking on my windowpane, "Let's talk?"
"I have nothing to talk to you about." I laughed, "If you get in the way, I'll run you over with my car right now! Of course, believe it or not."
The man subconsciously touched his neck and smiled awkwardly, "Don't, I just had scar removal surgery last year. Back to the point," the man immediately became serious, "I don't suppose your brother has explained to you that I'm just an actor he hired?"
The smile was still on his face, but I twisted slightly inside.
I got out of the car and invited him to sit at a nearby cafe.
He said that Acha got into that business when she was sixteen. Because his brother was still young, his parents died, his relatives did not help, and his family was so poor that he could not afford to leave the house. If Ah Cha did not have the means to support me, I might have been sent to the orphanage or directly on the street.
Tea is a child of the orphanage.
One of the most frustrating moments was when I bumped into the man's father. His father, a man with a different orientation, liked the look of Ah Cha and his calm nature, so he made an offer of 20,000 dollars a time.
The first - night, he gave two hundred thousand.
Ah Cha is relying on that money, to support me, for me to go to school.
It is also by those sell - body money, mean plus my insignificant small part, we only in the prosperous but strange imperial capital has belonged to our home.
A tea followed his father until I went to college. That ten years, where the mailbox on the don't have white tea flowers in the time, he is doing with another old man -i.
A tea want to get rid of the man's father, he also pity A tea, obviously like it so much, but afraid of his brother to know the truth to dislike him, they cooperate with A tea to play such a drama.
"I just didn't realize that I almost lost my life, if the cleaner hadn't found me, I'm afraid I'd be a wandering ghost now." The man's face showed slight embarrassment as well as afterthought, "But are you really mentally ill? I didn't believe it before when Ah Cha recited every day that he had a very smart and knowledgeable brother who got into a prestigious university and made him proud. After all, education proves nothing nowadays. Raising a child is no defense against old age, let alone a brother who is not related by blood! But now I'm not worried at all. I can see that you guys are living happily."
"That wasn't something you should have been worried about in the first place." I laughed as I took a sip of the cappuccino that Acha also liked.
But how did you see it
Just by seeing me so goddamned once today and guessing
What if I hated Acha for betraying me and killing him?
He is also mine, my ghost.
Before leaving, the man said to me, "Be nice to your brother, he's really not easy. Also, I won't tell my father that Cha is here."
"Thanks." I said.
On the way home, I folded the white tea that was blooming on the tree and held it in my hand to play with it.
Brother, there is still a connection with that man, right, or, there is still a connection with them.
My brother had already planned it, like I did.
Brother ah brother, in fact, I know everything.
It's just that I love you, like, you love me too.
I am the water, and you, the fish that can not escape the cage no matter what.
This man is here to make me feel guilty, right?
If I don't love you, then at least I will have compassion for you because of the guilt,.
It is just that I do not love you because of guilt, much less deepen my love for you because of guilt.
Because the moment you smiled at me, I fell into the abyss.
Ah, I was the one who fell - the devil.
Crushing the white camellia in my hand, I would laugh heartily.
It was an unprecedented fast - gan, although it could not catch up with hugging my brother, but the soul in seems to be suddenly sublimated at a certain moment, everything, is under control!
The blood ran up a burst of exuberance, like a bonfire in the ice, hot and fierce!
Brother, I am so lucky.
My brother's favorite person is me, my brother belongs to me alone!
Dialing my brother's phone, I said quietly, "Brother, I'm back."
On the other side of the phone, came the gentle voice of Ah Cha, "Are you driving? You can't make a phone call while driving. Ah, simply say one more thing, I made your favorite elbow pastry, come home quickly, I'll wait for you."
The setting sun is gentle.
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Small extra:
At home, Bai Cha hung up the phone and turned her head with an icy face, the sofa was sitting on A man who exudes majesty all around.
"I won't do that kind of thing again, please leave." White Tea made a motion of please.
At all times, he was humble and gentle, and between his hands and feet, he exuded a special charm.
The man today is rare not to cross his legs, feet relaxed open, show humble posture, "your brother, that high school student, know that you are a male prostitute? If he knew, he would definitely be ashamed of you and subsequently abandon you. All the money you made from me went into your so-called love-nest of sixty square feet, and with no money and no skills, you ended up going back to your old ways. Older whores are no match for the young and strong. It all ends the same way, so why is this necessary?"
Bai Cha laughed, a rare hint of cunning on his face that didn't belong to him, and he said in a warm voice, "You think he doesn't know? He knows everything. I also know that he has liked me since he was a child. If it wasn't for the death of his father and mother, it would be impossible for us to be together. The ending makes the process nothing."
The man was unexpectedly momentarily speechless, he loved the gentle person, although the nature of the light, but also very determined, even cold and ruthless. The person who has no attachment is the most terrible, no fear of life and death. Because of Bai Sheng, he lives like a person.
This is ten years, the man summed up - his mouth in the lowly male - prostitute, but let him bow down and bow down, hard to find six years of people.
"Also, I let him know on purpose." Bai Tea leisurely made it to the opposite side of the man, crossed his legs like he always did, and stared at the man with a lofty look, a look of contempt, "Your son also willingly cooperated with me. But I was principled enough to know he liked me and not let him have his way. This is what is owed to you, paid off. Please, from now on, the sky is the end of the road, each going their own way."
"You ......" The man clenched his back teeth, his temples veins jumped, I do not know whether to hate him for his ruthlessness, or to hate his own son who does not compete.
After the man left, White Tea leaned on the balcony and smoked a cigarette before going inside to clean up all the traces.