Why can't the "walking rice" girl walk out of the shadow of depression?

"Walking rice" girl on the death of so lightly, can not help but make people cold hearted and sour nose. Because of depression, and youth-related days, those flowers, those sunny almost nothing to do with her. Perhaps the day she got depressed, the mind has been in a tangle of self-fighting, in the bleakness of the gradual negativity and weariness, until the moment of entering the time tunnel, the onlookers can not imagine the melancholy like the black sky wandering souls of the dead, which is all, the normal people can not experience. The rainy season reveals a certain pre-mortem sign of the girl who "walks away from her meal", and she finally chooses death in the struggle between the god of death and the god of life. On the eve of life, no one cares about her confession, no one listens to her lingering love, and no one opens her depressed and closed heart like an angel to wave away the shadow of her heart. Like many depressed people, I suffer from insomnia, memory loss, dizziness, palpitations, and general malaise. Depression again serious, I will not use suicide to do a world does not understand the end, plus I really afraid of death, would rather long suffering, despite the burden, I want to live than anything else. I asked the doctor if my illness could be cured. The doctor told me can be cured, three points rely on medicine seven points rely on their own, so I write a blog is the achievement of one of the happy, making money is the basis of happiness, square dancing is the healing of the emotions of the medicine, coupled with a grain of Prozac every day, you say that the idea of suicide will still be there? Depression force majeure in the early symptoms, can not find the direction of treatment, the so-called indiscriminate treatment, wait until you find the right clinic condition has worsened, some patients dragged a few years, a few months earlier. Especially in rural areas, there is a general lack of awareness of depression, followed by parents' lack of understanding. I have depression in the early stage, not interested in all things, do not like to communicate with people, and even hopeless about the future. Because I couldn't find anything wrong with my organism, my parents thought I was deviant, my friends thought I was out of touch, and my barefoot doctor thought I was normal. Later, I read books and looked up information and came to the conclusion that: Oh, I matched the description in the books quite well, and it turned out that what I had was depression. My treatment was not so early, due to my parents' lack of concern, the treatment was intermittent and repeated. I started working when my mood was under proper control, and the money I earned was used to buy medication with fewer side effects. More than ten years ago there is no social security card, to buy drugs all costs, I use two thirds of the salary to buy antidepressant imported drugs, but not my happy intention, the disease can not be fully recovered. Then I changed jobs, got a higher salary, got health insurance, and I remember waking up one morning with a renewed state of mind, like the rising sun glowing with infinite light, and I shouted to the sky: "God! The "curse" was off my head! This feeling is still unforgettable. Then I did it myself, with a lover and a child, with a house and a car, more and more money more and more happy, the haze of depression is naturally far away from me, although not completely cured, but only one step away from the norm, I believe that my depression will disappear without a trace. I think depression it is a chronic disease, need to be around people's attention can be put on the right track, think of "go rice" girl, she may have a similar encounter, economic problems, family indifference, classmates of the gap, a number of factors prompted her to this road of no return. The girl is quite sad.