When Juliet killed her six-year-old son, her heart became gloomy, and fifteen years of court imprisonment gradually solidified layers of hard ice in her heart. For fifteen years, every day passed, her heart was covered with a thin layer of ice until it died completely. 15 years later, Juliet was completely dominated by pain and despair after she got out of prison. However, at this time, her sister Liya came to her side.
My sister's enthusiasm and Juliet's indifference form a very contradictory contrast. She didn't understand the pain and despair that happened to Juliet at all, and even thought that Juliet was just her sister who taught her to play the piano, sent her to school and played with her when she was a child. Only at this time, in her eyes, my sister has been accused of killing a child by secular law, and Juliet has become more and more precipitated and more painful in this label.
When Juliet was in prison, their mother had completely denied Juliet's existence, and even her sister Liya was not allowed to visit her sister in prison, let alone be mentioned by others. Under this extreme self-denial and self-deception, my mother soon became mentally ill and quietly escaped from this painful reality in the nursing home. When Juliet visited her mother again at the instigation of her sister after she was released from prison, her mother had a split personality.
When pain can breathe freely, can hope be far behind?
My sister Liya and her husband Luca have two daughters, but they are only adopted. Based on the lesson of their sister Juliet, the couple are worried that they will do the same thing as Juliet. Louise, the eldest daughter, was very interested in this beautiful and mysterious menstruation and asked Juliet many times. However, after being released from prison, Juliet refused all questions in an impatient tone and closed her heart tightly.
On the night when Juliet came to her sister's house, the dinner was particularly deserted. Luca, her sister's husband, has always been wary of this woman and won't let her take care of her two children. All Juliet's experiences after she got out of prison, the indifference of the people around her, and her dismissal when she applied for a job all reminded her of the identity of the murderer. No one can ask why they killed their children, but even if someone asks her out of understandable sympathy and concern, Juliet won't mention it.
During Juliet's fifteen years of isolation, the whole world has changed too fast. She is really at a loss when she looks at this brand-new world, but it also makes Juliet's appearance look extraordinarily calm. It is this calmness that makes Juliet behave as if nothing had happened in the face of ridicule and banter from others.
In fact, this is just another manifestation of her inner numbness, and at the other end of her inner numbness, there is still a secret corner in her heart quietly flowing with tears and blood. Juliet's silence, which can't be reflected, just proves the sensitivity and fragility hidden under her calm appearance.
The contempt and indifference of the people around her made Juliet's heart more numb. How subtle the light that illuminates her heart is, and how cold the cold water that extinguishes her heart is. In what she said to Luca's father, outside the prison, there is a world without "I". In this world, there are high walls created by Juliet herself and those who look at her coldly. This wall created a cold heart for Juliet and a figure sitting alone in the twilight.
Of course, it is precisely because of this pain and despair that a small window has been quietly opened for Juliet's heart, so that the belated warmth and sunshine can be quietly revealed in her heart with the pain.
She changed from a middle-aged woman with a dull and old dress and a rough and decadent face to a woman with an elegant and calm dress and sometimes a charming smile. It is an expression of one's own heart and a relief from the negative life in the past.
She changed from a lonely woman who couldn't take care of her sister's adopted daughter and sometimes yelled at them, to telling stories to little Louis and teaching her to play the piano. This is a sign of her inner responsibility, and sometimes she kisses and hugs them.
From the defensive and indifferent attitude to the surrounding environment, she often drinks coffee with the police and has a birthday that she forgot. She also discussed Emile Friant's paintings with university professors.
Even, she shared the experience of having sex with a man with her sister on the bench.
In the movie, Juliet and her sister Leah play the piano together. They smiled at each other and hummed the folk song "? La Claire Fontaine ",as before, the two showed their extremely precious feelings. They shook hands with each other in the light and beautiful piano sound, accompanied by the joy of little Louis dancing and the silent gaze of Luca's father.
But Juliet said nothing about why she killed her son.
Will the pain after severe tearing regenerate?
Juliet's career has gradually improved with the changes in her heart. She doesn't want to occupy her sister's room for too long. After being officially hired by the hospital, Juliet rented a house outside and invited her sister to see her new apartment with her. By chance, Juliet packed her things in a hurry and went out to work. The note under the pillow was found by her sister's little daughter.
This is a suicide note written by Juliet's son to his beloved mother. After being picked up by her sister, she rushed to her sister's newly rented apartment to ask for clarification. At this time, Juliet's sunny heart finally ushered in a tear and broken storm.
But the reality is that Juliet's experience has never been mentioned, so how can her heart clear up? When the warmth and touch of others deeply moistened Juliet's heart, her pain of killing her son was isolated from the world. Even if Juliet feels more love and warmth, nothing can make up for her love for her son.
In the face of her sister's desperate questioning, Juliet's pain is getting stronger and stronger. Finally, a tearful Juliet asked, "What can you do? ! "。 At this time, my sister's belated hug and deep apology answered this question. After experiencing pain, despair, helplessness and loneliness, as well as legal trial and misunderstanding of the world, Juliet finally ushered in the final liberation of her heart.
After calming down, Juliet can finally tell the past that she didn't want to mention from beginning to end. Finally, she said: "The death of a loved one is the biggest prison, and you will be imprisoned here forever."
Even if Juliet is free, the cage in her heart will bind her forever.
Deep love and pain finally cleared up in rainy days.
Mr. Lu Xun said: "Going deep into the soul makes people suffer mental torture and get trauma, that is, from this kind of injury and healing, they can get rid of suffering and go to Su Sheng.".
Indeed, pain and happiness are inseparable. "I have always loved you" presents this love and pain to the audience in a very tragic way. Juliet's deep maternal love is heavily branded in every corner of the prison. All she can bear to outsiders is cold neglect, misunderstanding, expulsion and severance, which makes her pain doubly present to our eyes. What we scoff at is her paranoid maternal love, which left an indescribable emotion in our hearts.
What Juliet has done for her children is the deepest pain in her heart. Kill her child, and let me take it for you. In the face of her son's illness, she can only say that instead of making you suffer to death, let me suffer for you. I gave you life, and I can also declare your death. This is an extreme torture for Juliet. However, this torture at least makes her feel that my child is still alive in my heart and I will always love you deeply.
It can be said that Juliet has thought about all kinds of experiences she will experience, but these experiences are really insignificant compared with her love for children, and because of this, her hopes are so slim. Since the idea of killing her children came out, Juliet gradually lost herself in the despicable secular view, but the idea that the children would come back to life in some way and stay with her forever became less important or even insignificant. The seemingly insensitive heart may have been ignited by this deep love.
In the prison she painted for herself, although it was full of scars and pain, this pain opened a window for her. From time to time, people will come to visit, and occasionally the sun will shine in, making her miserable life sweeter and her gloomy life warmer.
The real meaning of pain and despair is not how to bear it, but how to treat it. So happiness is the same as happiness and pain in essence. If Juliet had not endured these pains, her love for her son would not have been so deep. This kind of pain has been struggling in Juliet's heart, making her yearn for a better life and happiness. This is the direction that pain guides Juliet, and it is also the process that Juliet realizes self-redemption. Just like the last drizzle, raindrops are particularly beautiful only on rainy days.
"I'm here, I'm here." Juliet not only told herself, but also told the people she loved and loved her.