My partner passed away almost a year but I have not been able to come out, once I think of him tears like rain can not stop!
Your partner died almost a year you still can not come out, it is normal, some couples have a very good relationship, you are married for more than 40 years suddenly did not have of course, will be sad, but I believe that with the passage of time will slowly come out, you can live with the children for a period of time, after all, the more one person at home the more lonely, the more you will go out of the shadows, you can also talk with the children or other friends and relatives You can also talk with your children or other friends and relatives, or go out and dance, help your children with children, distraction, so that you can help you come out.