This life, only lend you a night.
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As with most women who chat online, her reason for chatting online is loneliness and boredom. ?
? A son in second grade and a husband who had been divorced for a year. She was not even 30 years old at the time.?
So, six months after her chat, met me.?
Online called her like a fish in water, exuding the charm and enchantment of a young woman. The first thing you need to do is to get your hands on a new pair of shoes or boots.
Despite the hip-hop, swinging, but she never took the online entanglement seriously. Because, the zone of her mind, no one has touched. Until she met me, when she felt the sky fall...?
I was in her QQ friends, is a always be ignored by her character. Just like chicken ribs, it is a man who does not darken the mood. She never knew that I often turn inside her space, I have long been close to her heart, I watched all her dynamics.
Maybe that day she really has no one to chat with, only to open my window. When she was bored, she only posted pictures. That day, she just happened to intercept a picture in the group chat, tender green background, two fluttering and busy kissing flowery butterflies, next to write: "this life, only lend you a night". She then sent me this image. I sent back a smile and a red heart.?
She asked: you are so bold today! I said:Sorry, I've had a lot to drink today. I sent over a shy emoji. And said: if it really is that day, I absolutely accept!
Listening to the words of this man who would never chat with her in a provocative language, her face must have flushed.?
Do you know who the last names of these two butterflies are? she asked.
I was half speechless. A moment to send over a song, is a violin song "Liang Zhu", and a line of words: a surname Liang, a surname Zhu ......?
At that moment, her long-established Great Wall collapsed ......?
For a long time, she silently to the screen, listening to the music, shedding tears. The long time heart zone was actually by this man who has never met, to the dial.
She instantly opened the video and she saw me in tears and herself in tears.?
I am an older, mature man who only plays games and speculates online and never chats! I am older than her. A question to know surprisingly 12 years older than her. Since she looks smaller than her actual age, she laughed and called me godfather! After that, she forced me to call her goddaughter. I pondered for half a day and didn't call out. She said: Why? I answered: not used to it.
Those days, she was invisible on the line and I chat, until one day her friends covered the sky shouting why she is not on the line, she realized that she only chat with me, but there are more than two months.
Internet dating yay! She warned herself that she would never fall in love online, a promise she made to herself when she first went online.
This is the first time I've ever seen a person with a problem like this, and I'm not sure if it's a problem.
I am a man who likes to listen, and only likes to hear what she has to say. She likes to look at my deep eyes, she smiled, my eyes are the curved moon; she cried, my eyes are the deep spring ......?
And netizens meet, I never dreamed, and she, as if it became essential.?
When we embraced together, I clumsily called: baby ...... she actually called me back: husband ...... We talked about our respective families, talked about the unit and the interesting things in life, and found that each other's views are so the same.?
? I said, it's been a long time since I've talked to someone so much. She said, she also has not been a long time and people like this to tell each other.
It turns out that we both need to be warm and confided in.?
We were looking for each other's warmth ......?
When we had it again, it was the day we met for the second time.?
That day, she seemed to be prepared as if, when we were both already drunk, I unknowingly went to the hotel upstairs to open the room. I found that she actually took out a packet of condoms from her bag, I laughed: you are well prepared ah ......?
I trembled with war and hugged her tightly for a long time and refused to let go. She waited for me, waited to bloom for me, and I did not respond.?
Why? She asked.?
I don't know. For a long time, my wife and I did not have this?
How long?
Three months ......?
She asked: why?
I told him that his wife had an affair, because I was too busy and too tired did not spend more time with her, I said I wanted a divorce, my wife cut her veins and killed herself, the reason for this is to wait for my son to graduate from high school, and so this is the separation for the time being did not leave.?
She kindly advised me to say, forget it! Don't get divorced, she is like this you yourself are also responsible. I said, I am so busy and so tired is also for this family ah! Besides, she if only one or two times the red apricot wall may still be forgiven, but the wife and other men even four years, men if there is still dignity will not be able to accept .... She used her mouth to block my mouth gently said: "Do not say, we are the same".
How we are so similar. He and his ex-husband and my wife and I also belong to the kind of not warm and hot, as always calm never had a heartbeat heartbeat feeling, we never know, two people together can also be this kind of feverish, this kind of lingering trembling, said she embraced me, I embraced her into her arms. She gently patted my shoulder and said: don't be anxious, everything will be fine. She told me her story, from childhood, youth until marriage and divorce.
She was precocious and married early, looking at her so much frustration but lovely woman, I so want to give her more love, when she was going to sleep, I put her arms around her at once, and greedily kissed her red lips ...... It was the first of many orgasms in her 7 years of marriage to divorce.?
We looked at each other, wiping each other's sweat, I said: today I realized that women are actually so good! Her tears welled up again, and I took her in my arms: let's comfort each other in the days to come, shall we?
Let us always be like this okay? She also asked.?
2 am, I said, it is time to go home, in addition to the case, I have never spent the night outside, although the home is also a person to sleep, but the heart is solid, she was sour, or obeyed.?
Love, more often than not, is to obey.?
In the days to come, we all walked down from the Internet into the reality of the affair. One phone call a day was our agreement. Often she called me first and hung up immediately. She was very understanding and sympathetic to my job and position. I made sure to return when I could, sometimes when I was out of the office and in a hurry. She is understanding and she never talks to me much at this point. Afterward, the mind is filled with my busy figure and hurried footprints. Often while she was waiting, she would walk around the room with her cell phone, waiting for my voice.?
It's so hard to fall in love with someone!
Women tend to fall in love first than men. In order to stop thinking about me all day long, she went to the community as a volunteer after work to help the elderly in need of care. The old man called her a good girl. At that time, her heart fluttered with shame. In fact, she never wanted to get involved in my family, no promises, no vows.?
For more than a year, we had sex every week in a hotel, she registered with her own ID, she did not want to call me exposed, for her, my future and peace of mind was more important than her life.?
She knew that I also loved her, she once forced me to say "I love you" but I did not say. She cried. I asked: Is it important? She was surprised, look down at the finger I gave her the ring, sweet smile, this is better than I said 10,000 times "I love you", she relied on my arms happy for a long time.
In the days to come, she felt the care and love from me, and at the beginning, when we began to socialize online, she felt it. At that time, we have not yet met, she said her feet by the new leather shoes worn, I immediately opened the video, just asked her to lift her feet to see.
She knew how dangerous it was for me to look at a woman's feet in my office at this time. She refused. I got angry and decidedly turned on the video again and again. She held up her feet, and her heart tumbled with happiness.?
There is a kind of love that does not need to be expressed in words.?
When the fall came again, it was the time when we knew each other for two whole years. We all like the melancholy and maturity of autumn, do two years of invisible lover, we rarely go to the outside together during the day to play over, enjoying the scenery of nature, although also take her to socialize, but are hiding, which is the helplessness of the invisible lover it. She would love to step on the loose fallen leaves with me, embracing each other and telling our hearts ...... We can not do it, our county is too small, and there are acquaintances everywhere. We just fantasize in bed, together to the field, on Tibet, touring Hainan ...... I will definitely take her there! She always said: I can understand you, since you can not divorce now, the days still have to live, after all, there are children, in fact, she is most often unwilling!
That day, I told her, to go to the meeting, is to go to the provincial capital, and now has been on the train, to leave her for two weeks, she put down the phone, the heart as if a moment to be hollowed out, there is a slight pain. Those days, want me to send me a message, I was outside, no wife and children's eyes, she sent a lingering message to her heart's content. I also have no fear to give her a piece of back such a hot message. When it came time for the daily phone call, it was the hardest time for her. She dialed my number over and over again, and without waiting for it to connect, she hung up, and over and over again, she felt like she was going to break down. Because I was in a meeting, I couldn't take her call. When I went back to the hotel at night, I called her, and we talked for an hour, two hours, until she fell asleep over there.?
She said she often think of me in her sleep to wake up, actually cold tears two lines. So she boarded the provincial train to my side to look for another night of ...... her anticipation?
Just to check out of the room I received her phone call to the train station to pick her up to come, a see me, she was a face of petulance, said I want to die, we hugged together, without fear of walking on the streets of the provincial capital. Arrived at the hotel, close the door of the room the moment, we first entangled in the bathroom, and then tumbled to the bed, after that is the ground ......?
She said: you know what? This feeling with you is something I have never had in my life, her lips sniffing my face. In fact, how could I not? It's just that men don't say it easily.?
I said: I am sorry, because there is a lot of helplessness, I ......?
She covered my mouth and said, don't say sorry to your lover, ever.?
This night, she wrapped her arms tightly around my back, her soft body close to my body, for fear that I would instantly pull out.?
5 am, my phone suddenly rang suddenly, is the wife called: Hey! Your unit of people are back, how you have not come back ah? I think a night how to think how to think you are now with a woman, is not it?
No, what do you think which! My voice trembled.
No, immediately give me back, just take the 5.50 train, or you have a problem, hurry up ah!
I was angry and blurted out: even if there is so what? I'm not going to be able to get a good look at this, but I'm not going to be able to. She instantly covered my mouth to prevent me from saying such hurtful words, and she was really too kind.
I put down the phone, moved over her face: I'm sorry, I have to go back immediately, I'm afraid she slit her wrists again, my profession does not allow me to be a sinner, we can not go together, maybe meet what acquaintances ......?
She pretended not to care about anything, forced a smile, down to the ground for me to heat up a bag of milk, said: empty stomach is very difficult. I left and hugged her tightly again, she avoided me: nothing, you go. She turned around, she did not want to call me to see, her tears ......?
The lock of the room closed only gently, but it shook her heart. When I went down I looked up at the window of the room where we slept and saw her drink the rest of the bottle of wine that was most of the bottle together, and I was sky high and wanted to cry but had no tears.?
I heard her cell phone sing, "Online a dream / online your tenderness / I made a mistake / online love affair / also love me / love a dream / who can avoid ......" After that, she yanked off her cell phone card and threw it out the window.?
I didn't think much of it at the time, thinking she was just playing a childish tantrum. With a heavy heart back home, my wife forced me to ask if there is a woman, I am silent on the same as on the recognition, my wife said: good ah, finally admitted, now we are even, if the divorce, my son will not blame me for a person, it is not my fault alone! Let's go! I'm not going to cut my own pulse.
It turned out that his wife had been afraid that his son would not forgive her for not recognizing her before she refused to divorce. On the third day, we went through the procedure of peaceful divorce, and our son lived with her, and I gave him alimony.
Unloaded the responsibility on the shoulders, the heart has an incomparable ease, but also a little bit of indescribable flavor, such a time, the first thing I thought of is her, so dialed her phone, there came countless times: the phone you dialed has been shut down. I a burst of loss, over and over again to play, the next week, half a month, a month ..... are unable to connect, to the end of the blank number.?
The last parting so far a year, I have not forgotten her, her smile, her good, her tears, her tenderness her advantages and disadvantages I one by one do not miss the thought, recalled. The original, the man is not only the older the more valuable, but also the older the more infatuation, yeah!
I keep the computer every night, looking at the QQ on her gray avatar, I am looking forward to her avatar into the online color. However, make the final no.?
Perhaps she had deleted me at that time and would never see me again.
Maybe she's seeing another guy, no. She would never, I can't think like that! She would never, I can't think like that!
? I regret, why did I leave her back that day, she must be so painful, I should have known it was the last side .......?
? I'm waiting, waiting for her to see my article this time, when she was concerned about my home before leaving me, now if she knows I'm alone, will not leave me alone.?
I read in my heart over and over again: baby, my love: if there is a chance to meet again, I will never say sorry to you, I want to say to you: I love you! I want to say to you: this life, I not only lend you a night, I want to lend you a lifetime ......?
Kisses: finished reading? I've been in tears. I have been in tears.?
Maybe a lot of men have such a story, maybe the man that the philandering force is only on the surface, but the bones have the blood men's love, I am continuing to pay attention to the story of this man.?