Spring of 2009, in a moonlit night, the son has entered a sweet dream. Liu Qin sat at his desk, in the soft light, she turned over her diary, when she saw this text above, Liu Qin smiled with relief, her thoughts drifted back to ten years ago, the wonderful youthful years.
01
Time as water is gone, the university four years of study time is coming to an end, Wang Lu, Zhang beautiful and Liu Qin this three years together more than three fellow friends will also be reluctant to say goodbye, each to go their own way.
"At present, the employment situation of our college students is not optimistic, I don't know what you two have planned?" The fast-talking Zhang Mei first asked.
"Regardless of the current situation, I firmly believe that knowledge is always the power of human progress. I don't want to waste this great youthful years, I still want to learn more knowledge, so I am ready to go to graduate school." Consistently study the most diligent Wang Lu chest said.
"You nerd will marry the book later." Zhang Mei joked while stuffing snacks into her mouth.
"That would be best. Ancient and modern sages have said that there is a golden house in the book, and there is a Yan Ruyu ...... in the book," Wang Lu said before finishing her sentence.
"Give me tissues!" Suddenly interrupted the two to speak is precisely Liu Qin, only to see her tears but can not bear to remove their eyes from the book, reaching out for tissues to wipe tears.
"You nymphomaniac, and in vain some tears for the book of the sentimental son of the infatuation of the girl worry. Who worries about your future?" Zhang Mei said as she slipped Liu Qin a stack of tissues.
"You heavy poison is not shallow ah! The whole day immersed in the 'Peach Blossom Fan', 'Dream of the Red Chamber', 'Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai', 'Love is deep and rainy' novels in the world, these years you for the hero and heroine sadness and happiness flow of tears can be converged into a river it!" Wang Lu also laughed and went to grab Liu Qin's book.
"Love is sacred and beautiful. Only when you fall in love with someone, you will appreciate the magic of love." Liu Qin solemnly said back.
At this time, everyone fell into silence, yes, which young girl is not pregnant? Which young girl does not want to talk to her prince charming to have a sensational love, which young girl does not want to be with her lover for a long time?
02
Liu Qin said to accompany Yang Hao back to his hometown to recuperate for a period of time. Yang Hao did the suspension procedures, everyone looked at the old school bully Yang Jie now bone thin as wood, all heart some sadness. The class president gave Yang Hao the 10,000 yuan donated by the teacher and the whole class, at this time, Yang Hao could no longer restrain himself from covering his face and lost his voice and cried bitterly. Liu Qin took the money for him, and bowed y to the classmates to express their gratitude.
After Liu Qin left, the dormitory appeared to be a bit cold, Wang Lu and Zhao Qian expressed deep emotion: "love has such magic, can let Liu Qin willingly give up everything personal to accompany Yang Hao."
"Too stupid is too stupid! Another woman in love will be destroyed by love. Sad and lamentable! One of the four great talents of the Great Tang Dynasty, Liu Xuanji, is such an extraordinary woman, to have looks, to have talent, talent, a lifetime has not been true love. In the scene, she read countless men, recognized the nature of men, she issued easy to find priceless treasures, hard to get a man in love lament! Isn't the teaching of the ancients profound enough? Never believe in the love that lasts forever."
It was Zhang Mei who made the big speech.
Of course, my roommates understand Zhang Mei's state of mind, because they know that Zhang Mei has been hurt by love very, very y. In the first year of college, the beauty of Zhang Mei, as her name suggests, attracted the pursuit of a senior, and the two fell in love at first sight, making many students envious of their love for each other.
The popularity of the college campus is not to seek a long time, only to once have the concept of love also affects the beautiful Zhang, in the boyfriend's "I love you for a lifetime," the sweet words and "to be successful in my studies when I must marry you as a wife. The first time I saw this, I was able to get the ball rolling, and I was able to get the ball rolling, and I was able to get the ball rolling.
Just as Zhang Mei's feelings for her boyfriend were the most intense, her boyfriend had to go abroad to study. Double the emotional torment of Zhang beautiful people have lost a circle, adding insult to injury, less than a year abroad, her boyfriend sent her a few words: I have found my true love, I hope you can also find their own happiness.
A love affair, why only leave a bitter memory? This love is difficult to continue, this hate is difficult to eliminate! Is it possible that my feelings and his feelings are not true love?
The lost soul of Zhang Mei since then to talk about love scorned.
Originally love to dress up Zhang beautiful to dress up even more attractive, on the initiative of the boys about her rarely refused to eat shopping, she is always on the male side of the warmth, once the people of her love, she will have no mercy to bye bye Xiao Shashu left. To make men suffer, is a very pleasant thing for her: the girl loves the money, not you stinking men.
03
Liu Qin accompanied Yang Hao after a bumpy ride back three times, finally sitting on a donkey pulling a car across a big mountain finally arrived at Yang Hao's home. She only knows that Yang Hao's parents are honest farmers, every day, sunrise and sunset, living a farming life that relies on the sky to eat.
But what Liu Qin did not expect is that Yang Hao's family is too poor, with the four walls of the house to the shape of the words again appropriate. Dilapidated three earth bad room, two sleeping, a cooking room. Inside the house, only a simple wooden table and two wooden chairs are placed against the wall, and the window is in front of the plate with a dirt kang, a bamboo mat on the kang, and two quilts lying alone in the corner of the kang.
Seeing this scene, Liu Qin more admiration and gratitude to him! In such a family environment, Yang Hao can get into the undergraduate university with excellent results! This proves that he is a man of determination, he did not love the wrong person. Such difficult living conditions, no wonder he got a stomach disease, with the disease is not easy to study! At this time, Liu Qin produced a kind of heartbreaking love and compassion for Yang Hao, she seemed to forget everything around her, and hugged Yang Hao's head and cried bitterly.
Yang Hao, with tears in his eyes, gently pushed Liu Qin away with his hand and reminded her, "Don't let the two old men be frightened."
Liu Qin turned her back and sobbed. Yang Jie's parents stared at their son with wide eyes and wondered what had happened.
Yang Hao forced to hold back tears and smiled in the face of his parents said: "She is my girlfriend, I brought her to our home to play for a period of time."
The father was happy to open his mouth and smile, the mother also pursed her lips and smiled happily.
Liu Qin to help Yang Hao mother cooking, the smoke in the stove hall smoked her tears, almost can not open their eyes, she imitated the mute mother to drum up a breath of air against the stove hall blowing, unexpectedly suddenly on the fire out of the fire burned her bangs, she hurriedly rubbed her hair and eyes. Yang Hao father walked into the stove room hastily said: "Wa, you go to rest, I'll burn the fire."
Liu Qin awkwardly ran to the room to find Yang Hao, is lying on the bed to rest, he saw his girlfriend's woeful appearance, could not help but laugh. "Look in the mirror and see your little weird look."
Liu Qin, under the guidance of her boyfriend, saw a piece of irregularly shaped glass mirror that was nailed to the earth wall, and in the mirror her own face was coated with black coal like a singing flower face, and her hair in front of her forehead was burned and curled up.
She also laughed and bent over, called the stomach ache, Yang Hao looked at his girlfriend's pure joyful smile, could not help but sit up to embrace Liu Qin into his arms, four eyes, two young hearts beating wildly, the two affectionately kissed.
Several hot teardrops fell on Liu Qin's face, tears overflowed the eyes of Yang Hao violently pushed away Liu Qin: "You, go! You move back to school tomorrow."
Liu Qin stubbornly said: "I am determined not to go, I want to accompany you and the fight against the disease."
"Not because of me, delayed your studies, not because of me, ruined your future." Yang Hao bitterly begged.
"I have done a good suspension certificate, next year to go back to school is not too late, I want to wait for you to get well and we go back to school together." Liu Qin attitude is very determined.
"What? You also did the suspension certificate? I don't deserve you!" Yang Hao deplored.
"It's the child that made me make this decision." Liu Qin took Yang Hao's hand and stroked her abdomen.
"A child? It can't be, we only stole a taste of the forbidden fruit once." Yang Hao was full of shock.
Liu Qin was full of happiness, "It's our child, it's the crystallization of love given to us by God."
Yang Hao was so excited that he bent his head over his girlfriend's slightly bulging abdomen and muttered, "I have a child! I'm having a baby! I'm going to be a father!"
Yang Hao gently chided his girlfriend. "Why didn't you tell me earlier? How many months is the baby?"
Liu Qin smiled smugly and said, "If I had to tell you earlier, you would not have made a fuss to let me induce labor, and the child can still stay in my stomach for three months? I am his mother, I have the right and obligation to protect him."
Yang Hao blamed himself, "It's all because I'm sorry for you, I can't afford to give you an expensive fixation, and I didn't give you a lively wedding ......"
Liu Qin held her boyfriend's hand and stroked the fetus in her belly: "This is the best token of love. As long as I'm with you, I'm happy."
Two people who love each other are talking about their hearts, "Hao Hao, you two come out to eat." It was the father shouting.
Yang Hao and Liu Qin came to the yard, their four people sitting around a simple wooden table, only to see the table has been placed in a large pot of steaming corn on the cob, potatoes and pumpkin, as well as mixing a good bitter bitter vegetables, white radish shredded mixed with green pepper. This is a very common countryside home cooking, but Liu Qin eat a lot of good food.
04
After dinner, Liu Qin asked Yang Hao to find some newspapers to paste the wall, the humble hut is bright and warm, Yang Hao and find some red paper cut a large double happiness pasted on the top of the kang.
There is no new room, new furniture, new quilts, no celebratory firecrackers, no new friends' blessings, but Yang Hao and Liu Qin are happy to feel the world.
Liu Qin bird-like snuggled in the arms of Yang Hao: "I want to give you a child and you are exactly the same little Yang Hao, and when the child grows up I want to tell him, your father is a good student good husband good father, educate him to be as hardworking as you are, to become a real man."
"Promise me not to leave me and the child, you have to be strong, we create a better life together!"
"Don't worry, after the recent treatment, I feel much better. Look at me now alive and well, let you taste my power!" With these words Yang Hao hugged his lover Liu Qin tightly and made out.
Immersed in the happiness of the pair of newcomers together lingering, the day is almost dawn when the two people embraced each other sweet sleep.
Yang Hao mom and dad just dawn on the rise, the father ate some buns on the mountain to herd cattle. The mother did not disturb the two, quietly sweep the floor to go to cook.
The two woke up to eat a noon meal, and the two in the nest coexisted for a while before getting dressed, after eating and father nagged for a while. The father told them with a satisfied smile that they will soon be able to live in a new house, the government's dangerous house reconstruction policy has been carried out to their small mountain village of only nine families.
Yang Hao bitterly forced his father to squeeze out a smile, at this time his heart is incomparable pain: he does not want to let his parents sad, deliberately hide his own condition. If one day he really can not hold out, parents will be grieved to what kind of! He did not dare to think about it, he pretended to say that he went out to go to the toilet, he was afraid of his father to see his sad tears.
Yang Hao pulled his girlfriend's hand and traveled together in his hometown, recounting his childhood as a child, like a child in the green grass rolling, and then ran around and picked a colorful large handful of wildflowers for his girlfriend to insert in the head. They climbed the highest mountain peaks, listening to the distant and close to the sound of the stream rushing, looking at the hometown of the green mountains, Yang Hao shouted: "I love you!"
The echo of the valley drifted, "I ...... I ...... love ...... love... . you ...... you ......s ......s!"
Yang Hao, who is already in tears, waved his hands to a mountain and a water, a grass and a tree that once accompanied him through countless unforgettable years!
Liu Qin y felt his lover's deep love for his hometown, the mood of excitement, she also sang loudly: "Love what I love, no complaints! Yang Hao, I love you!"
The two y loved lovers embraced tightly together, so that heaven and earth to witness this sincere and passionate love it!
05
The next day, physically and mentally tired Yang Hao lying on the kang, eyes looking at the roof, quietly, do not speak!
In the evening, Yang Hao said in a daze, "We should leave!"
"But your illness?"
"Hush! Sleep"
Late at night, the cold and clear moonlight cast into the house, large teardrops rolled down the corners of Yang Hao's eyes, physical strength Yang Hao known that his days are numbered, he could not bear to let his parents live in the white hair to send the black hair of the pain of despair of the ordeal, he would rather let them live in the beautiful panicky words and hopeful dreams!
The next day, Yang Hao told his parents, he and his girlfriend to go back to school: "Mom and Dad, our school is going to send me to study in the United States at the public expense of the flow, where it is very far away, I may not be able to come back for a long, long time."
Mom worriedly said, "Then in the end have to a few years you can go home?"
"Ten years is possible!"
Mom's eyes red, Yang Hao rushed to say: "This is a good thing, showing that your son I have good fortune. Do not worry, in the future, your future daughter-in-law and grandson will take the time to come back to visit and take care of the two old people."
Yang Hao pulled Liu Qin to his mother, Liu Qin shyly lowered his head, his mother joyfully pulled her hand shaking: "That dare to good, good!"
Mom was busy in and out of the two prepared to take away things: pumpkin, bacon, taro rolls, which are Yang Hao love to eat. Dad smiled happily as he helped and smoked. After packing up, Dad called the dumb uncle to drive a donkey cart to send them out of the mountain to the station, the father also want to follow to the station, Yang Hao insisted not to send, the father only to stop.
Yang Hao bit his lower lip, tightly, tightly hugged his father and mother. He knows that this will be the last goodbye, from now on he will be separated from his parents! Only after a while did he let go, wiped away his mom's tears, and without saying a word, got into the donkey cart. Liu Qin gave a few words of comfort to the two old people, she climbed on the donkey cart and sat down and waved her hand to the old people.
Until the donkey car turned the corner and could not see the two old people, Liu Qin stopped waving his hand, she looked to Yang Hao, who never looked back, he still bit his lower lip tightly, red blood, has seeped out.
Yang Hao reached out and patted the mute uncle's shoulder, made a parking gesture, he got out of the car, facing the direction of the home, flopping, kneeling on both knees, heavily knocked several times: "Ungrateful son can't be for the parents old age, mom and dad take care of more, may we meet in the dream! Hopefully, in my next life I will have the opportunity to repay my parents for their nurturing!"
He could no longer repress his grief, like a flash flood! Liu Qin came over and knelt in front of Yang Hao, who was crying his heart out, and took his head in her arms, choking on her sobs!
06
The two did not go back to school in the provincial capital, but just rented a house near the school, settled down, Liu Qin is ready to go back to his home to borrow some money to send Yang Hao hospitalized, Yang Hao stopped her: "My cancer has spread, do not have to spend money, do not bother to drag anyone, so that I quietly away. You and your child's future life all depends on you, your love I'll repay in the next life!"
Liu Qin has sobbed uncontrollably, tightly embraced him, Yang Hao calm as water, instructed the aftermath: "You and the child to live well, visit my parents a few more times, for me to love the lie continues. After I leave to bring my ashes secretly back to my hometown, sprinkled in the green mountains and green water where I once lived."
Yang Hao tenderly dry tears for Liu Qin, holding her beautiful face, smiled and said, "You see how happy I am, this life I have struggled, no wasted time, have a lover to accompany, have a confidant to trust, no regrets in this life!"
Yang Hao is in the arms of Liu Qin quietly away, she was inspired by Yang Hao frankly facing the gesture of life and death, she became stronger and stronger, the lover has a lot of unfinished wishes to be completed by her.
Thanks to the help of her friends Wang Lu and Zhang Meili, who sent her money and hired a nurse for her, she was able to stay in labor.
The hard work of October pregnancy has produced a white, chubby son. Looking at this little guy is getting more and more cute, two girlfriends grabbed to give him as a godmother, take turns to buy him food and toys.
The son grew to one year old, Liu Qin weaned him, sent him to the mountains of Yang Hao's hometown, she told her in-laws: "Yang Hao wrote a letter, he is in the United States is very good, so you do not remember him, take care of yourself, and his son."
The old couple was so happy that they scrambled to hold their grandchildren.
Liu Qin held his lover Yang Hao's ashes, sprinkled to the clear stream, sprinkled to the green grass: "My love, you finally returned to the home of the soul, you have to take good care of the parents to take care of the day, you have to take good care of his son to grow up happily!"
The sun and the moon are separated, do not think about it, since the unforgettable! The sobbing Liu Qin sat paralyzed on the ground, gently caressing the urn, murmuring: "said you have to take care of me for a lifetime, how can you bear to go before me!"
She can't forget the stubborn and kind high school desk, and can't forget that they knew each other and fell in love with each other!
07
Born in the mountainous area of Ningnan, Liu Qin grew up in the mountains, she was smart and studious. In 1992, the county junior high school to higher secondary school unified enrollment examination, Liu Qin to the township's first place in the good results by the county key high school in the second merit admission.
The first time out of the mountains, the first time into the city, the first time to sit in a bright school building, Liu Qin so excited! She is like a hard-working bee sucking the nectar of knowledge, every big and small exams are among the top, but also was named the county three good students.
Who knows that the sky has unpredictable winds and clouds, people have the misfortune and happiness. Liu Qin's father was infected with severe dysentery, the countryside lack of medical care, only 46 years old, his father left the world forever. The pillar fell, the family's sky collapsed, only mom alone and lonely to support the family.
In order not to add to the burden of mom, Liu Qin try to ask the family for a little less living expenses, only one meal a day, hungry, she in order to transfer the difficult hunger, all the time spent on learning.
Hunger is like a shadow pestering Liu Qin, when the day tormented Liu Qin, starving her dizziness. However, the home of her desk is the city, the boy every morning self-study will not stop eating, hungry Liu Qin can not resist the sound of his chewing food, she tried her best to swallow the saliva, it is impossible to study by heart. No matter how cold the day, every morning self-study, Liu Qin had to leave the classroom to go outside to study, every evening self-study, she went to the playground to recite the English vocabulary, whenever multiplied by the lack of attention, she picked up a few pieces of the students discarded in the dormitory outside the window sill of the dry buns, she fled to make the corner behind the school building to hide, chewing a big mouthful of these buns are either tainted or mildewed, but as long as the Liu Qin to fill! The first time I saw this, I was able to get a good look at it!
When it was her turn to erase the blackboard on duty, she was so hungry that she was weak, clenched her teeth, and used all her strength to move the blackboard eraser slowly, with a cold sweat on her head, and her legs trembling, she tried her best to hold on! Holding on! The eyes of the gold stars ......
When Liu Qin lifted his heavy eyelids, he found himself lying on the bed in the dormitory, the teacher and a few students are surrounded by her, asked her to go to the hospital, she shook his head, knowing that he is starving, self-esteem is very strong, she did not want to tell everyone!
There are two months to the end of the second year of high school, due to long-term malnutrition, Liu Qin's eyesight declined greatly, she has been unable to see the teacher on the blackboard to draw the geometric drawings and write formulas, memory is also declining greatly, the teacher taught in the morning and forgot in the afternoon, the hearing is also almost disappeared, and sometimes only see the teacher's mouth one by one, but I can not hear what he is saying.
The evening self-study, hungry Liu Qin borrowed the light of the street lamp in the garbage next to pick up a crumpled apple, do not care about the dry not clean on the two mouths swallowed into the stomach. She squatted at the corner of the school building, leaning her head against the wall, tears of bitterness could not help but gush out! She missed her father who was separated from her, she was worried about her mom who was working hard at home, and she missed her brother who was studying thousands of miles away! She wanted to eat her mother's cooking, at least at home there is a mouthful of food to eat, today's starvation, can be exchanged for tomorrow's glory?
Hunger tortured her to lose the confidence of the past, she realized the cruelty of reality: living is difficult, to live out a person more difficult! Especially if a poor person like yourself wants to change your destiny, you have to pay a price that is unimaginable. With the people official second generation rich second generation can not compare, she thought of the love of food does not love to learn the table, said to go to the adult college entrance examination, but just walk the process, you can go to what financial university, even after graduation employment units have contacted, because the people's father is the director of the Municipal Development and Reform Commission.
After Liu Qin's desk, the teacher gave her a new desk, that is, Yang Hao. They are the same classmates since the first year of high school, because Yang Hao high sitting at the back, although Liu Qin and he recognized, but did not say a few times.
The new table Yang Hao every morning since the study never eat, very serious reading and learning. But Liu Qin still can't settle down to study, because she will find herself every morning in the table frame put a big white steamed bread. She swallowed her saliva to hold back her hunger, and put the steamed bun back to Yang Hao's table frame secretly, but when she once again found the steamed bun back to her table frame.
Once after math class, Yang Hao said to Liu Qin before leaving the classroom, "You can't see the words on the blackboard, copy my notes." Without waiting for her to reply, Yang Hao had already run out of the classroom.
A sentence written in a larger font in the space of Yang Hao's notebook jumped into her eyes: Let me take care of you for the rest of your life!
Liu Qin blushed, hurriedly put away the notebook, for fear of being seen by other students gossip.
Since then, Liu Qin did not refuse Yang Hao's good intentions, her table frame every morning put a white steamed bread, afternoon put an apple, and a few tickets in the student stove to play food. No longer starving Liu Qin's physical condition gradually improved, the mood is also much better.
Schools far from home to live in the school of rural students generally do not go home, Sundays are often in the classroom to study and write homework, but the recent Sunday Liu Qin did not see the table Yang Jie to the classroom to study. One Sunday morning, Liu Qin and his roommate went out to send a letter to his brother, passing by a section of pavement construction, she accidentally saw Yang Hao is moving bricks: hair wet with sweat pasted on the forehead, cheeks coated with a mud stains. This scene is y imprinted in Liu Qin's mind!
Liu Qin examined the university that year, just as his brother graduated from the police academy to join the work, received the first month's salary, his brother rushed to the school to Liu Qin with glasses, bought nutrients, but also found a Chinese medicine doctor to her conditioning. Liu Qin's body
got restored, she and Yang Hao together with the study questions to prepare for the college entrance examination, the two wish to get into the same university.
08
After placating the elderly child, Liu Qin returned to school to continue to study hard, after graduation, she found a more ideal job, she knows that she shoulders the responsibility of a woman as a mother, she is more than others to work hard for her son to save up for the tuition fees for his mother to save up for the in-laws to save up for the pension money.
The son should be to school age, Liu Qin went to pick up the child, grandparents grandchildren three difficult to part with, she promised to take the child back to his hometown every year winter vacation reunion.
Wang Lu and Zhang Mei specially rushed to pick up her mother and father.
I heard that Wang Lu is still studying for her post-doctoral degree, and her lover is also in the same class, so they share the same interests. The pursuit of Zhang beautiful many men, she opened a company with the strength of men, when the female tycoon.
Two girlfriends exclaimed, "These years have just been bitter!"
"I do not feel bitter, I feel my life is very full, my heart is very happy! Because I have love in my heart."
Liu Qin spoke while gently caressing her son's head, gazing tenderly at his face, "and his father looks like a mold carved out, Yang Hao left me a son to accompany me on his behalf, I have been satisfied. Although the two of us can not be together in this life, but I have truly loved, he will always live in my heart!"